Yearning You FF Part COMPLETE - Page 25

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Here is the first part of Yearning You and a little prolouge to show what is to come, enjoy!

Arnav and Khushi have been through everything possible to strengthen their relationship, from past demons to new diagnoses. Now they are starting afresh in Barbados in hopes of moving forward and forgetting the past.

But the road to love isnt ever as easy as it seems.

Khushi is now a famous dancer with a hectic schedule and a manager that pushes her to her limits, can she ever find time for the man she yearns for or is her career taking over her life?

Arnav now stronger than ever hopes to breathe life into children who have suffered similarly, but his heart still yearns for his Khushi, though a million miles apart from her.

Can they defeat distance and jealousy all while coming out as strong as before or will their past demons return in the shape of something (or someone) new?

One-
"Happy Birthday" Khushi whispered, blowing out the candle, she smiled at her laptop, Arnav smiled back.

She swallowed back her tears, she missed him so much, this new job of hers had brought her fame, money and fulfilled all her dreams but she was lonely. Very lonely without Arnav by her side. She had wanted nothing more than to spend the day with him, but her manager had refused.

Arnav picked up a present, smiling as he unwrapped it, Khushi couldnt help but run her fingers across the laptop screen, how she missed him.

"Khushi meri jaan, please dont cry, look we're still spending my birthday together aren't we"

She shrugged "I guess so, I just miss you, I wanted to be with you when you opened your presents, not miles away"

Arnav tapped his heart, "Look Khushi, you're here and that means you're always with me"

Khushi mellowed, "Okay, open more" she sat quietly watching him open his presents, while the realisation that this was their life now dawned upon her. They ate at a laptop, opened presents at a laptop, spoke to eachother on skype and slept next to their laptops.

She had chosen this industry, it was a once in a lifetime opportunity, but she wished Arnav could be with her. He was always so supportive, always so proud. She loved that about him, but this did nothing for their relationship.

Khushi looked up when her door opened slightly
"You need to sleep Khushi we cant have you having bags under your eyes"

"Its my husband's birthday" Khushi replied, standing up, "Ill stay up as late as i like, you wouldnt let me go and see him, that's bad enough, you manage my dance rehearsals and my performances, but you do not manage me"

Shyam scowled down at her, his eyes fell to the laptop "Make it quick" he turned, slamming the door

Arnav looked over at Khushi "What was that about Khushi, is he mistreating you"

Khushi shook her head "No, he's just bossy is all, im fine honestly" she smiled

Arnav tapped his chin "Youre still coming to Nani's birthday party right"

"Of course, I wouldnt miss it for the world"

XXX

Arnav signed off another form, he gazed up at the clock and sighed heavily. He enjoyed his job a lot, inspiring children to speak up, teaching them about sexual violence and that the word no is always acceptable.

But when he just wanted to unwind and go home, he often wished Khushi was there to just hold him. He knew she was dancing tonight so wouldn't be able to call, but it still didnt make him feel any better.

He unlocked his phone, looking at the picture of her on his phone, he kissed it and smiled sadly.



"I wish you would just come home Khushi you were right before, a house is never a home when you're the only one in it" he chuckled sadly "oh how the tables have turned"

XXX

A Few Hours Earlier-

Shyam held out a glass of water with tablets mixed inside.
Khushi stared down at the smoky like water "I told you, I dont do drugs"

"You need to keep the weight off, its the drugs or you know what"

Khushi was to tired of his constant digs, she just wanted to see Arnav all night she had led awake weeping for him and the comfort only his arms could offer.

"No" she replied

He threw the glass to the floor angrily, grabbing her arms in a vice like grip "You dont refuse what I say, I let you off once Khushi" he twirled her around to face the mirror "Look at what I have made of you Khushi skinny, beautiful, famous, thats all something Arnav could never give you"

Khushi turned, shoving him back "Im leaving, this is over, you dont own me, im going back to my husband"

He grabbed her wrist, span her around, his hand swiped across her face
"Who do you think you are" he dropped her to the floor, pushing his foot into her hip with extreme force "You should just listen when you're told Khushi I dont want to hurt you" he spoke sweetly

She looked up angrily "Im Khushi, Khushi Raizada, Arnav's wife, that's who I am" she shouted, standing up quickly

XXX

Khushi crept inside the house, she smiled down at a sleeping Arnav pulled the blanket up and slid in next to him

Arnav opened his eyes "Khushi" he asked, rubbing his eyes "What are you doing here"

Khushi kissed his cheek "I missed you" she curled into his chest, closing her eyes tightly

He rubbed her back, kissing her hair "I missed you to meri jaan" he was happy to have her home of course, but something just didnt feel right, she was meant to be dancing tonight, not that he was complaining. But the way her body shook against his made his heart thump loudly with concern.

XXX

Khushi yawned, passing Arnav his coffee. He raised his brow "You've lost weight"

"Yeah, only a little" she tried to push away the comment, Arnav noticed, he always did.

"A lot Khushi its to much, you were perfect as you were, if this is what dancing is doing to you, I dont like it" he put his cup down, taking her in his arms

"You really think I was beautiful before" she asked timidly

"Of course" he assured "I always think you're beautiful" he picked her up, spinning her around, she threw her head back letting out a laugh

"Its been to long since ive seen you laugh" he sighed "Ive missed it"

Khushi giggled "Shh you, you see me laugh all the time"

He pouted "I dunno, ill have to check again" his hand went to tickle her hip but she hissed loudly

He put her down, raising her t-shirt to see a large purple bruise, he scrunched up her t-shirt in his hand "How the f**k did you get this" he snarled

Enjoy! So many changes, but so many more twists- yay!

"I" she stuttered, tears filling her eyes. She blanched as he knelt down, he must have thought she was disgusting.

He pressed a kiss to her bruise, then around it, blowing cool air onto it.

"I" her voice broke as she let out a sad sob, closing her eyes as tears rolled down her cheeks, she felt Arnav press kisses to her stomach, his cool fingers brushing against her fresh bruises, then he stood up, kissing away her tears

"Im going to kill whoever did this" he promised, all she could do was remain silent as she felt him pull his t-shirt over her head, she could feel his eyes grazing her body

Then he was walking around her, she sucked in a harsh breath as he kissed her other bruises.
"Arnav, please, I feel so"

"So what" he asked, his voice raspy from anger

"Ugly" she mumbled, then his hands were spinning her around, he kissed her forehead softly "Come on, lets get you a bath" he lifted her up in his arms, she buried her face into his neck

It had been months since she had any intimacy, though they still hadnt had sex, it didnt seem to matter anymore, because intimacy was so much more than making love, it was a connection of the souls, nd thats what they had

But it was strange, strange to have Arnav take care of her, look after her like she was something special when she felt like nothing of the sort, she stood by as he ran the bath, checking the temperature, then gestured for her to get in

He sat beside the bath, pouring water onto her hair, he put some shampoo on her hair, massaging her scalp as he rubbed it in.
Khushi closed her eyes, letting out a relaxed moan

Arnav washed the shampoo out of her hair, then began to wash down her body, slowly and carefully to avoid hurting her, she gasped as his fingers ran over her chest and she bit into her bottom lip to suppress a moan

Her eyes opened as he stopped "Just relax for a while, you're safe here"

She smiled, she was so proud of how far he had come. She knew then she could never leave him again, he was more important than anything else, he always would be

It was about another ten minutes before she started to stand up, wrapping a towel around herself, then she was in Arnav's arms again, she couldn't help but recall the last time she was in a towel and wondered if she asked him to kiss her if he would

"Can I kiss you" the spoke in unison, they both laughed, Arnav wrapped a hand round the back of her neck, dipping her low he pressed his lips to hers, her minty breath fanned over his lips as his tounge slid over hers, she felt dizzy as he pulled away, pecking her lips again, they had been together for years now, but permission was still so important, they both knew you should never just make the assumption that it was okay

Arnav sat Khushi on the bed, he perched her feet on his lap and began to massage them
"Your feet are so sore, to much rehearsing, what have I said about over exerting yourself"

She shuddered under his gaze "Well now I have you to look after me, I promise ill take more care of myself"

Arnav looked up "You wanna tell me how you got those bruises now"

She scrunched up her face "Shyam, he, he got mad at me, no matter how hard I worked it wasnt enough, he lashes out when I talk about wanting to see you"

Arnav huffed "You're not going back, you know that right"

"Its okay, I had no plans to" she smiled, holding out her hand for him to come closer
"Can tonight be like before, where we just sit together and watch the t.v"

Arnav nodded "Ill get the ice cream" he kissed her cheek, but his fist was still clenched, he should have seen the signs of abuse, he hadnt. Once again he had failed to protect her, but he wouldnt make the mistake again

XXX

Khushi hid her face into Arnav's arm as the shark jumped up, biting into someone's leg, he chuckled and pulled her closer

"You ask to watch these films, yet never watch them" he noted

"I only ask so I have a reason to be close to you" she blushed

"You dont need a reason, im all yours, you know that" he brushed his stubble against her cheek as he whispered into her ear

She ran her nails down the back of his neck, then kissed his cheek "I love you"

"And I love you" he held out the spoon for her to have some ice cream but she shook her head

"Can you feed me today, its been to long being away from you, I dont know, being close to you just makes me feel better"

Arnav smiled, getting some ice cream on a spoon, he held it out to her and she took it greatfully, her feet rested on his thighs, her arms wound round his left arm as she watched him intently "Ive really missed you Arnav" she had no idea why she kept saying it, maybe she needed to remind herself this was real

"Ive missed you to Khushi, more than you'll ever know" he held out more ice cream on a spoon, his heart much more calmer knowing she was safe with him.

XXX

Khushi startled awake as she felt two hands grip her arms tightly, she looked up to see Arnav glaring down at her, "I wont let you do this again" he shouted

Khushi pushed her hands up, shoving him back to the side of her, she sat up, switching the light on and took deep breaths

Arnav sat up, his eyes gazed over at her watchfully "I hurt you, didnt I"

"No" she spoke, but he knew she was lying

He looked at the red fingermarks on her arms, he pinched the brim of his nose and stood up quickly

"Arnav, Arnav wait, its okay, it was an accident" she ran after him

"Ever since youve been gone, ive had these horrible nightmares, all over again, then I keep lashing out at night, and now ive hurt you, look at me im a"

"Dont even say it Arnav, you have PTSD, you're not a monster, I shouldnt have left you like that"

He shook his head "Dont blame yourself, none of this is your fault, it isnt your damn job to make sure I stay sane"

Khushi cupped his face "I love you, you are sane, do not blame yourself for what you suffer with, you can't help it, you didnt mean to hurt me, today has been one of the best days of my life, I feel safe with you, I am safe with you, we can go see a doctor and get help, but for now, lets just rest"

He nodded slighty, allowing her to take him back to the bedroom

"You know id never hurt you like Shyam did right" he asked

Khushi nodded "Of course I know that, but do you know that Arnav, you dont trust yourself, but I trust you" she put his head on her lap and hummed softly, her eyes fluttering shut

Though the past was firmly in the past, they were still scarred from the events that had sought to ruin everything they had.

Just some fluff because I think we all need it after how heavy this book has been! Much love all, please let me know what you think:)

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