Blast from the Past Thread #12 Extn... Saansey - Page 35

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Episode 129:

"sapno ki duniya mein rehna hi acchha hai Lavanyaji, kyu ki asli duniya mein sirf dil tut te hai"

"Its better to stay in a dream world Lavanyaji, because in the real world only hearts break"

my heart broke when i heard Khushi say those words the first time, and every time after the effect of this profound statement remains the same. He had shattered her world of dreams in just a few minutes, to push her away, ironically today he breaks her heart because she is too far away, out of reach with that ring. In this war that resumes, he ruthlessly attacks and attacks and goes for the kill completely forgetting he dies with her with each blow.

As she weeped and said those words to La, i felt her cut was deeper and not just limited to him. The girl who dreamt with her jiji under the stars about their future husbands or the girl that ran out with all her excitement to wish upon a shooting star, truly genuinely put her trust in these things as "Baat vishwaas ki hai" right? Could it be that for her this "vishwaas" offered her protection or a shield from the "bedard" real world as Arnav views it. After surviving her first massive heart break in the "asli duniya" at the age of only 8, perhaps dreaming helped her heal with the help of two bright stars in the sky. Maybe i'm thinking too much into this, but as a dreamer myself, this like is much to real and surely relatable to many who watched the show.

It was La who once again acted as cupid and forced Khushi into a bridal outfit. an outfit with red in it and if that wasn't enough "let your hair out" she insisted, havn't a clue of the havok Khushi's open hair causes on her to-be-fiance, then she practically pushes her in front of him..poor La, she was only going for the full length mirror not the full length laad governer!

He is just getting off the phone with his Di when that wind, that wonderful gust of wind forces him to look in her direction. Through the shiney beaded strands, there she stood and her reflections in the mirror. Before long, the mehsoos reached her and she felt his eyes on her. She's seen this look in his eyes before...twice.

The look as if he's high on her beauty, the nasha shows in his slow blinks. She looks away and fiddles with her pallu, he makes her so nervous with his constant gaze, but she allows his eyes on her... she could've ran back to the changing room to put her regular clothes on but she chose to stay. So he looks on, the much familiar admiration of her beauty from bottom to top, she filled his eyes with sensuality again.

She grips her dupatta, and glides her finger down to up, eventually fearlessly looking back at him...these aroused feelings all too new for her but so evident how badly she want to reciprocate. She marks his slow steps towards her, she expands her pallu to cover the rest of her torso .

he parts the beaded partition to have a closer look like he always has to with a slight pleased smile on his face (what girl wouldn't want to be looked at like this dammit?).

Then he gently lifts his hand up, to touch her velvety face i assume, but she moves back snapping him out of his trans. The quick thinking ASR drops his hand down to the price tag, he knew he would find something there to continue his attack on her in this war of pyaar and nafrat.

34999 rs. said the price tag. He starts his second "vaar"(attack) of the day.

"utna bhi boora nahi hai, par tum aur tumhara fiance afford nahi kar paoge, "

"Its not so bad, but you and your fianc won't be able to afford it"

oh the need to keep taking jabs at a man he's never met... jealousy, what a passionate emotion it is. He continues the blow, "what a pity...par aaj mein bahut acche mood mein hoon so what the hell? mein tumhe kharid ke dedeta hoon, apne fiance se ki Arnav Singh Raizada ne engagement present diya hai"

So many layers to this one line, he wants to buy the lehnga for Khushi because he loves her in it, but he insults her fianc again AND he feels the need to let her fiance know of him doesn't he? by buying this for Khushi would also send message to the man that "stole" her away.

Still in his quest for faraq his ruthless vaar pushes limits on the quiet, sad eyed, hurt, girl

"After all tumne mere aur Lavanya ke liye itna kuchh kiya hai, gift nahi, to tip samajh ke le lo" in an instant, with a deadly smirk, he reduced her to a servant. Indirectly, reminding her once again of her hesiyat, her aukaad. Clueless himself as to how far he had gone, after all he had insulted her middle class status over and over since day 1, but this time he went too far and it broke her inside.

She wouldn't dare show him the broken pieces of her heart though, it took all she had but she answered back. She takes back the price tag from his hand

"Nahin chahiye, lekin puchh ne ke liye shukriya, aur aapne teek kaha tha, utna bhi boora nahi hai, lekin utna khaas bhi nahi hai, hamme yeh pasand nahi hai"

The smirk disapeared because the lehenga was khaas to him, but her rejection of this choice and refusal to accept it was an hidden insult to him...also the way she talks to him with such formality must get to him. Since they met, they both have fought like they are only each others to fight with, never letting others like La get in the way, but now while he continues to hurt her with full rights still as she his his to fight with, her formal addressing makes her feel distant from him. His nostrils flare up, also hurt sine he can only stare at her with no comeback. Soon his phone rings and leaves, not a second went by as rest of her tears came pouring out. La comes out breifly, engulfed in trying out her next dress, she doesn't notice Khushi's sad face.

Khushi slowly finds a place to sit, his sharp words run through her mind and cut through her heart. He, on the phone, but comes to a halt after seeing his Khushi just sitting there tearing up, looking at the price tag. It may have just hit him how far he went

"Chamkili, I feel like i'm living in dream world" and excited La completely oblivious to all that's happened shares with her friend. The price tag still in her hold, Khushi lets out her anguish "sapno ki duniya mein rehna hi acchha hai Lavanyaji, kyu ki asli duniya mein sirf dil tut te hai"

One of the most profound dialogues in the show, delivered with perfect pitch of heart break and emotion by Sanaya.

Her tears drop on the price tag, hurting him 1000X more. Remorse sets in looking at her incredible sadness that he caused, wanted to just take it away. He wants her to have faraq, what ever the cost but the only problem is, a bad side effect of tons of pain and faraq to himself... too much pain and faraq. If this was the worst he had hurt her, it was the worst he felt, it would also be the closest he would come to wiping her tears with his own hands.

As he watched her sob, he couldn't help but once again part the beaded partition, and step towards her, lifting his hand to wipe those tears away, to hold her in his arms and just wanting to take away all the pain that he inflicted...all the while, fighting the tears in his own eyes... soon the hand that reached out to her turns into a fist indicating his agonizing attempt at gaining some composure. Enduring and gulping down her pain, he cries with her, as much crying a man like Arnav Singh Raizada is capable of.

Just a sad scene all around. Only after closing his eyes, some composure returns, just enough to loosen the fist and walk away...fast. She hadn't noticed his presence, maybe because the depth of her pain, but she did feel him in the dangling beaded partition he left behind. She knew he was there just like the night of Janmastami when he came to check up on her at the GH.

Soon after he would call La's phone, which has been put on speaker as per her request, "Lavanya, mein jaa raha hoon" (I'm leaving). The abruptness of it all surprises Khushi

"haan mein...mein ruk nahi...matlab mujse ruka nahi jaayega, i..i cant stay...i have to go"

he says erratic hand tapping on the steering wheel. Since when does Arnav Singh Raizada get flustered completing a simple sentences? Khushi can't see her rattled up laad governor, but i hope she senses how shaken up he is? and that it has to do with her broken heart...the unbarablity of it all! How could he stay and look her in the eyes he bought such tears to ?

He hangs up and tosses the bluetooth aside, and flashes back to her words dipped in heartbreak "sapno ki duniya mein rehna hi acchha hai Lavanyaji, kyu ki asli duniya mein sirf dil tut te hai" they bug him to no end and by the time he makes it home he thinks back to all the other times he has hurt her badly "

"Yeh mat sochna ki ek amir aadmi tumhari payal ko apni seene se laga kar baitha tha" ("Don't think that a rich man held you payal close to his heart" )

"kahin aisa na ho ki jisse tumne raiz samajh ke fasaya, ha, iss bracelet ki tarah sasta ho" (Make sure the man you entrapped thinking he's rich turns out be cheap like the bracelet)

He thinks back to the way he made her apologize for that ring and finally the words that did both of them in today "Gift nahin to tip samajh ke le lo" (if not as a gift, accept it as a tip )

He hits the driving wheel

"kyu karta hoon mein aisa? hamesh uski aakhon mein aansoo? kyu uski har baat se itni takleef hoti hai mujhe?"

"Why do i do this? always bringing tears to her eyes, why does every little thing cause me pain?

"ab aisa nahin hoga" (this wont happen anymore) One of many "koshish" he confessed to Khushi later during kidnapping, to not fall in love with her...he won't allow her every tear, every baat to cause him taqleef "kyu ki mein aisa hone nahi doonga" (because i won't let it happen)...so determined he is...can't help but feel sorry for the guy. He genuinely doesn't want her to make such a difference, but she does and it's this faraq that will ultimately beat him at his own war.

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Originally posted by: ..Anita..

Episode 125!!!!

Episode strts with Arnav grabbing khushi saying "farak padtha hai damn it, kyun ki..." she did not finish his sentence and khushi is looking confused, then miss kabob mein haadi aka Anjali comes calling Khushi and said that nani is waiting and she goes away from Arnav's room.

La is very happy and she hugs Khushi. Nani is also very happy and Anjali says that no one will complain to Khushi and today they will have sweet only because of this happiness and everyone asks her about her fiance's name and she tells them that his name is Shyam and everyone looks at Anjali and wondering, Girl do you know what your hubby is doing or where he be at (I had a ghetto moment, I live in lousiana, it is bound to come out. Florida here, we're so close yet so far! on a serious note I think la, mami, and nani find it odd that he is always out but will not say anything to Anjali) and she says that on this earth there is not only one Shyam (she does have a point there but it is mere coincidence, DM totally planed this out...maybe shyam was the way to make khushi and arnav to be together) and Anajli says so she got engaged to PG with that same name. Mami says that if in dahej she left her PG rent and everyone glares mami (okay this was really funny, what it was rude, felt bad for khushi). Khushi's phone rings and it is Shyam, La takes the phone and does not give it to khushi and she runs around the living room and Khushi run behinds her to take the phone and ASR comes there and La says see she is getting impatient to talk to her fiance and she is about to drop the phone but ASR catches it and Anjali comes there and takes the phone and starts talking and Shyam says nothing because one word would give away his cover, make that one sound (I am surprised Anjali does not know his breathing pattern or the sound of his breath over the phone) and Anjali handovers the phone to Khushi. Shyam asks Khushi if she is free tomorrow evening out and La listens to it and starts teasing her and tells that even Anjali is also going out with her husband, and Anjali gets shy...la points out that Anjali and khushi have sharam but only la is the besharam one (no la is just modern, but it was so funny). Khushi says that now she has to leave. Anjali stops her asks her that if she is fine and asks if something happened and she says no and she leaves.

Payal goes out to take clothes from outside and she finds Akash there and then she leaves from there and Akash calls her bit that goes in vain.

ASR is cutting his plants and having all the flashbacks about khushi saying she is engaged and many more and Khushi comes there and notices him butchering the plants and asks him what he is doing and he says that knows that he is cutting all flowers and he says that whatever he do how she is bothered (oh the farak padta hai track starts now, this is the second time he said it) and he gets the cut on his hand because he was cutting the plants so fast and in anger and Khushi is about to take his hand but he takes away abruptly (he says tumse farak padta hai with his eyes) and La comes there and she sees his wound and orders hp to bring the first aid box.

At the gupta house, the window is left open and Akash tries to contact Payal and he asks her to keep the other opinions aside and only tell him the answer he asks her to think about him only and he asks if she likes him or not and Payal has tears in her eyes and she leaves from there. Akash thinks that she didn't said yes and she didn't even said no (that's the spirit, whatever can help him fight for his love).

Anjali tells Shyam that Khushi got engaged, what a lame way, she is like look in the mirror then you will get your answer, shyam is like what are you saying (which is quite clever way to reveal the truth, if you knew the truth) and she tells him that his name is also Shyam and she tells him that she has thought that she will invite both of them to dinner. Shyam is like hell no, but he averts her attention by saying I bet you already planned the food you will serve. Then she tells him that tomorrow is something special and he says that how can he forgot their first meeting and she says that he has to come without any excuses at grand hotel at 8 pm otherwise she will not talk to him and she cuts the phone and Shyam is angry and he decides to cancel his date with Khushi to keep RS happy (well duh you have to keep the atm machine happy, how else will you get money to have your affair and survive) .

La is giving first aid to ASR and Khushi is standing there and he looks at Khushi, who shows visible worriedness on her face Khushi is about to leave and La calls her to help because both her band are busy holding arnav's sexy hands and she tells Khushi to pass band-aid. La tells Khushi to hold ASR hand so that she can band aid him properly and he says no to her but La tells him to keep quiet and Khushi holds his hand (we all know arnav wants khushi to hold his hand, but she makes him feel things so he does not want to feel things, he can't become weak). La says that he shows have no emotion except anger and asks if he happy about their marriage to which he says that no one can tell what's there in the eyes and he says that he is happy (LIES!!!!!!!!!, his eyes show the love and admiration he has for khushi but people have ignore it because it is not in their benefits, or they are too selfish to care about what arnav really wants, I think I said the same thing in different ways). La kisses him ,how dare she, 🤣I will only allow khushi to kiss arnav, even though I do not like it) and asks if she will help her in preparation but Khushi says that now she has to leave early and La tells ASR that Khushi has date tomorrow (la knows she has to leave but she forgets, typical).

ASR says that when his engagement was announced she forgot to wish him and now she is engaged, he wish her and says that congratulations KHUSHI KUMARI GUPTA (singh raizada, I always think he will say that next). Khushi phone rings and he looks at her. It's shyam and she picks the phone and says jee Shyam ji, I am just coming home. ASR says what happened all are happy for her marriage and she is not looking happy and he says that it seems like you found out just now that the boy is not rich, khushi made a shocked face and Khushi leaves from there leaving arnav behind, making a face saying that he should have said that. What will happen between arshi???

Originally posted by: DurgaS

@All Please visit Katelyn's Wonderland . She's done an amazing job of re-organising all the links to her posts. It is truly a wonderland now, and music flows on every page... 😳

Originally posted by: Horizon

Indi, here is a big hug to you across continents for this brilliant, beautiful, comprehensive analysis of this love of this not much focused up on, much crucified at later stages character. This is exactly how I feel about Khushi's love. Neither her love for him nor her understanding of it was shown as layered as his. Yet, she was the FIRST to arrive at that word "love" and even refrain from it deliberately.

Can't agree more about that in red. I always felt, she was more of a true orphan than ASR where we didn't even know what was her original last name!!! And, HE was the ONLY one she felt that belongingness/ haq ever in her life, that she connected him and ONLY him to be her Rajkumar come what may,much thanks to ASR's progressive views and respecting people exactly for who they are!

Nothing much to add, but for a big muaah!! thanks my frnd!

Originally posted by: DurgaS

Cynthia, congratulations on the success of your first SS. Sorry, I couldn't stay long, Durga left the building long back. 😆 All the best with your next one. 😳 Meanwhile, enjoy your weekend. 😉

Arshi, Supriya - loved those picture edits. Kate, perfect song. 😊

Originally posted by: Katelyn

Durga, I did a little digging!

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So you like this color? 😉

Originally posted by: Katelyn

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Originally posted by: cinthiann1758

Where do you find out about these colors and the names?