Os Khushi's heart and mind conflit

credit to tumblr for pic, this is my take from Khushi point of view , she is girl of rules for her all this is a sin , and this i wrote how she will feel or react, as for any girl who is religious all this is a sin,i am backwards i a narrow mind in this case you can say here "

Khushi was twisting and turning in bed ,she herself dont know why she was restless , she look at her left side he was peacefully asleep with a smile on his face , she try to getup but felt his arm on her waist , she removed try to removed it . but at that very moment he pull her more close to him . she held her breath and closed her eyes . he in sleep he brush his cheek with her's

Khushi: DM hum bhi na kya kya sochta hain "( DM What's wrong with me, why I'm thinking about this) she pull the quilt on him and closed her eyes hug him .

She felt he moved over her

He kissed her cheek "Arnav what are you doing?"

Arnav dont stop me today " he kissed her jawline she look at him . she saw passion in his eyes "lets make today's night the most memorable of our life " he kissed her neck . she closed her eyes as she was waiting for him to love her

Khushi" Arnav"she open her eyes she was sweating like anything,she had seen Arnav and Sheetal romancing . she felt her throat was dry , she free her self from Arnav embrace and step out of bed , she walk pool side as she felt suffocated, she open the french door and walk and stand with barefoot on the marble floor she feel bit relax , she look at sky " yeh sab kya horaha hain"" What's happening with me?" she sat on floor

Khushi"hum asie soch bhi kaise sakta hain" she felt her head will break ,"DM hum kya soch raha hain""How can I think like this?" she felt her head will break ,"DM why is these thoughts coming to me?"

she closed her eyes ,Arnav and Lavanya came in her mind when she explain her

i what a live in relationship means. No Mangalsutra or pheres, but they do everything that a married couple does.

witness Lavanya trying to kiss him in office"Nahi"she open her eyes ,she was sweating again , she slide near the pool as she was just few inch away from it she splash chilling water on her face but even that could not relax her . she look her reflection in water . she was seeing Arnav and Lavanya Live in relations when Lavanya hug him "Arnav ji "

she feel sick in stomach ,she ran to washroom , she was totally depressed, she donot look at him , she walk out of room and walk to the worship place

Khushi"DM Dil nahi maanta mera "she placed her hand on her heart" DM hum hamsha Dil kai sunta hain , aur hamra dil nahi maanat yeh sab, hum janta hain Arnav ji ka Live in relations tha , per woh sab" tears role down her eyes " hum maahan hain per itna nahi" she sobbed" DM hamara saata kyun, Maa Babuji , phir zabardasti kai shadi,aur ab yeh , abhi shadi ko din kinta huwa hain,koi rishata sirf hamara kyun nahi, agar Aranv ji iss bacaha ka papa hain tou woh sirf hamara tou nahi" she sob ,she wipe her tears " hamara dil nahi maanta bus . jab hum na sirf apna aap ko apna pati ka leya samhal kar rakha tou hamara saath yeh sab nahi hosakta "

"DM I can't believe this, my heart is denying "she placed her hand on her heart" DM I always listen to my heart , and my heart is saying that he has not done it before, I know he did not believe in marriage and had live in relationships , But did he?" tears role down her eyes " DM I can't ignore that" she sobbed" DM Why with me? first mom & dad , Then I got married by force and now all this? , just some days has passed,why can't I have my own personal relations, Why do I have to share my Arnav ji, because if he is the father then he is not mine." she sob ,she wipe her tears "Me and my heart is not ready to believe and accept it . I have always wanted to share something special with my Arnav ji and only he had the right to own the whole of mine so how can Arnav ji been shared with someone else from before? "