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Originally posted by: Geet24

Part 3 (Last part)

~*~The Diary Part 2~*~

But...again i melt seeing me (how many times i melted?😡) becoz i cant ignore him, hate him...its impossible for me...

I knew somehow he tried to forget me like me as he was manipulative (me too but couldnt be when it comes to him)...He stopped coming to college after completing the 75% attendence...If he cames, then also i dont think someone can realise that...except me, i think...😛😳

I made friends in the college in practical classes and most of them were last benchers...I tried to know about him indorectly from my friends though they were always unaware of my feelings (except my diary)...They thought him to be a spilt brat and i didnt like that (lovestruck me...😳😆) though always nodded to their remarks...

Days, Months, years (2years) rolled by...We changed though heart never changed, i feel so...

One day i caught hm looking at me...he was staring at me with those sad eyes...!!😲 But there was something more that day...He was looking at me with such an expression as if he lost something of his life...I looked away coz i was determined this time...I didnt want to give in and then break down again...Election campaign was going on , so no classes... I felt his eyes glued on me during the campaign which forced me to leave the place soon...I cried that day coming from college...Mom was not there...Was glad about it..."everyone think how happy i am, i say,'come close to me...u will see tears in my eyes'"...

We rarely saw each other from that day...We dont want to know each others feelings anymore and at the same time, wanna know...We are separated physically now...Neither i know bout his hearabouts nor he mine...Sometimes, i doubt about his feelings for me...But my heart still says it loudly that he did felt for me... I dunno, i dont wanna know...I am running away from my own feelings again, but failing everytime miserably...

It was the day i saw him for the last time...Unexpectedly, i saw him on the last and the very first day of Final board exam...I was disturbed again, and in a disturbed state of mind----I messaged my best friend...And i confessed my feelings bout him...She asked me connect him through FB...But egoistic me will never do that...

Her first reaction to my confession was----Kya?! 2jhe usme dil aa gaya...Kya yaar 2 bhi na...Have u ever talked with him?? (hehe...it was a shocking breaking news for her)

Losing him I was feeling empty...My heart beats with the though of him...The feeling of losing him scares me...I feel like, my life's most important part is lost...I m afraid he had conquered my whole heart that there is no place left for someone else to enter...

I sometimes feel like Love is not for me...I fell in love, and m now left breatheless and hopeless...I dunno whether i should believe in loe or not...I dunno whether i will get over him or not...

I know its not his fault...Its my fault that i loved him like this... Its my fault that i always found support and comfort in his imaginary arms in my difficult times...All my fault that i could not resist him...But i cant die beoz i have silent promise to him that i wont let anyone blame my love for my faults, failure...I want my love outshine every hurdles...I want it to be eternal though we can never meet (i think)...

I know we are not meant to be...But the feeling of cherishing the pure love is the best property of mine...

Nothing physical...No words used in expression...only eyes said everything...

I dont think that we will meet again..

We resisted each other, avoided each other...Becoz of our ambitions, life's destinations, priorities...

I will never know about his feelings...He will never know mine...for him i will remain a heartless creature, metal...

We are at opposite poles now...There is no comeback written by the stars too...i think...

We will grow up without each other...We will change...become mature...May be will laugh at this stupid story though will cry for the one we badly wanted in life and couldnt have...

May be we will be someday at the same place but wont see each other... He will be someone else's and i will be someone's...*sigh* If we meet then also may be we wont recognise each other, or if we recognise, then also will pretend to be strangers...

But The feelings? the Love?

Where will it go? It will be there haunting us/me...day n night...!!

I never said Hi to him nor he to me...I just said 'Good Bye' to him mentally though my heart always protests the feeling of biding him 'good bye'...

Heart bleeds...But i've nothing to do with it brcoz i've already lost it...to him...

Now, what i know about love is that...LOVE LOVE LOVE but never expect to have the person in ur life permanantly...

Not everyone is lucky to be loved back...M one of the 'not everyone'...

One more thing to say...

The day for the first time i felt something for him, i had a dream...He with moist eyes was holding a poster in which written that----

'Love Love and Love and then Lose it'...

Now i understand, what it meant...

One of the reasons why people get sentimental. . .

Its because memories are the only things that don't change. . . When everything else does. . .

There are things in life that you can't hold on forever, no matter how much you fight for it. . .

Sometimes destiny isn't always good, it becomes playful. .

When you met someone you learned to love , you thought that it was destiny who made your paths cross, but what if making your paths cross is just a part of the game that the playful destiny create?

'Making you realise in the end that the person you thought that was destined for you wasn't really meant to stay. .but only destined to make you feel love and leave you when you've already fallen. . . .'

It's not easy to state a reason when you decide to leave your love. Some might think it's just an excuse. . . some might not actually believe. . . some will blame you. . . some might even be mad at you. .

So how was it Guys...? Hope i didnt ruin ur Sunday...😳