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Part 41: Frankly, My Dear -
Kabhi bandhan juda liya kabhi daaman chuda liya
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Episode: May 9th
Pehla Pehla Pyaar Hai, Pehli Pehli Baar Hai!
(First Love, For The Very First Time!)
Part 42: Ghosts of The Past & Failed Basic Instinct
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-O mere sanam do jism magar ek jaan hai hum -
Arnav and Khushi - Khushi and Arnav -
Just when Arnav thought that he could get answers to all his questions, right then and there, Khushi told him that he did not deserve any explanation as he did not respect her...
Today saw the turn of events from heartbreaking to heartwrenching and then from heartbreaking to unbelievable...the events that will have a lasting impact on not just Arnav and Khushi's life but everyone who is attached to them...
Arnav swallows hard as he watches Khushi in action.., "If you can even think about me having any illegal relationship with Shyam then to hell with your cheap thinking! - you will only get my silence in return! " And then Khushi explodes by asking THE RIGHT question, " Why did you not ask me for this explanation earlier? Why did you not ask me that night when you forced me into marriage? And that too for six months..?" Arnav and Khushi both emotionally charged, emotionally hurt... "Why did you not push me hard to find out the truth that night?" Khushi asks as her heart cries inside. Arnav's heart is also in same agony, "Khushi how dare you..." "No, I dared not...I did not dare that night! But now come to think of it, I probably should have dared - so that at least, you would have known what the truth was!" Hurt Arnav says in a heavy voice, "Yes, alright! - truth..." Khushi in a charged voice yells, "Yes, the truth! That truth - that is far away from you..miles apart!"
Both souls deeply hurting, take a moment to breath...Khushi says in a calmer but emotionally heavy voice, "Once... for once...you should have asked me - had you asked me, I would have told you how Shyam betrayed me...not just me, he betrayed whole my family - never told us that he was married!" This comes as a shock to Arnav, as Khushi continues, "He fabricated a lie and stayed with us as a paying guest!" another shock to Arnav..as the truth unravels, his eyes depict realization of multiple layers of lie...about Shyam..about Khushi..about her family..."When Babuji, my father, had the heart attack, Shyam created such a situation that I had to get engaged to him against my wish...But when I found out that he was already married, I broke the engagement! But, unfortunately, he did not stop there. I never had any bad intentions..." Arnav's face soft, his gaze softer, his eyes show undertstanding... Khushi explains further, "I hate that guy! Just the thought of his betrayal of Di makes me feel nauseated! He fooled my family easily.."
Then Khushi's eyes spill anger, she looks Arnav in the eye and tells him, "Hatred..so much hatred..that I never experienced about anyone ever before,..so much hatred...that I rather die than someone utter his and my name in the same breath..." As they seem to look at each other in an understanding manner, Khushi says in a heavy voice, "Once..Just once, you should have asked me what the truth was!" Her eyes urge him...Arnav's face mellow, eyes wet...in a soft voice he asks her, "You think you would have told me the truth had I asked you that night?" Khushi says with full force, "Why Not! Of course, I would've! But that night you were in such a hurry to get married..." Khushi leaves her thought unfinished as the reality sinks in... Arnav -
has a vulnerable feel in his eyes, his eyes look deep into Khushi's - he believes her..his face soft..he taked slow steps towards Khushi but as he comes closer his mind drifts off...the ghosts of the past take over his heart and mind like demons... flash backs of Khushi in Shyam's tight embrace and her hurtful words for his Di...haunt him again...the image so painful,,so deep in his mind that nothing else matters once that thought surfaces... Arnav's jaw muscles tighten..his teeth clench..his eyes turn harder, colder..suppressed anger...disbelief takes over...as Khushi looks at him expectantantly..he says in a firm voice, "What do you think? Do you think that, had you told me that night, I would just have believed you blindly?" Khushi's eys show a surprise, a vulnerability as she sees that his gaze has changed to disbelief and disrepect...The demons on Arnav's mind rule his tongue..." You can't clap with one hand, Khushi Kumari Gupta Singh Raizada! And I believe in myself more than I believe in you. What I saw myself, what I heard - is what I believe in... " in a rough, hurt voice he continues, "I heard myself when you asked Shyam to leave my Di. And..I have seen myself..the two of you.." the hurt lover has a tough time getting his words together...disgust mounting in his eyes, "the two of you.. embracing each other..." He looks away from Khushi. Khushi's eyes accept the shock...Khushi finally knows now what Arnav saw that night..she can also see how that is torturing him... but she only manages to say, "I do not know exactly what you saw..or what you heard. I just know that, whatever I just told you that is the only truth!"
Most beautiful Emotional Moment: That leads to the most appropriate string of questions from Arnav Singh Raizada, "If you are so truthful and indeed Shyam is that bad, then tell me, why did you not try to tell me truth before? Why? Why did you let my Di put him on a pedestal? Why did you not tell everyone about Shyam's reality- clearly and loudly?Why did you not even try sharing it with me? Why did you not tell me, Khushi?"Very valid question asked appropriately, Mr, Raizada! But Khushi ...Khushi has no answer..she does not look him in the eye..that bothers him.."I am talking to you, Khushi!" Khushi still does not meet his eye, neither do her lips move to try to say anything...Arnav cannot take it, "Answer me, Dammit! I am asking you about something.." finally he roughly cups her face, forces her to meet his eye and deperately seeks some answers from his beloved, in a heavy, sinking voice he asks, "Why Khushi, Why?You always talk so much..why are you so quiet all of a sudden?" Arnav gets extremely emotional, puts all his faith in his words to Khushi, though rough his touch almost wants to hold on to the moment in hopes of gaining the right reposne from Khushi..his eyes welling up, his voice emotional, heavy, tries to shake Khushi out of her trance, and from the bottom of his heart asks her, "You..You the one who always has all the answers.." deperately pushes further, "why are you not talking now?"all his hopes pinned on Khushi...his eyes change as Khushi just keeps looking at him helplessly...does not say anything...
I cried every time I replayed this scene...Arnav held Khushi's face in his hands consciously for the first time... while both are in their full senses...my eyes had tears every time ..never ever saw Arnav this desperate before! Never ever saw Arnav put his trust in Khushi and anticipate so much from her! Only to get shattered...A beautiful scene...needed little refinement to have the impact last longer...instead of being forgotten as things move forward..
[YOUTUBE]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EagBXY4TqKI&ob=av3e[/YOUTUBE]
mere apane, apna ye milan
sagam hai ye ganga jamunaa ka
jo sach hai saamane aya hai
jo bit gayaa ek sapanaa tha
ye dharati hai insaano ki
kuchh aur nahi insaan hai ham
ek dil ke do aramaan hai ham
o mere sanam o mere sanam
Oh my beloved,
Our coming together is like blending of two rivers
the truth is in front of us now
let bygones be bygones
ordinary people live on this earth
we are nothing but ordinary
we are two wishes of the same heart and soul
Oh my beloved O my beloved
Khushi pushes away Arnav's hands from her face, does not reciprocate any of his emotions, that makes Arnav's face firmer again..Khushi says in an angry voice, "I did not say a thing..because, my one word would have destroyed your Di's life..that same sister of your..who you love so much! You kept quiet to protect your family. I did not wish to break your sister's faith because of me...her largest and deepest faith..." Arnav does not find it convincing enough..to tell you the truth, I did not find it convincing either...what faith was she talking about? Anjali's faith in Shyam as the best husband? OOOHHH - that one sadly needs to be brought out in open asa soon as possible - trying to protect that blind faith about snakewa is the biggest crime against anyone's morale. Arnav says, "You are lying again! How long did it take you to make up this story? Khushi I know the truth - so you better stop coming up with new stories.."
The heartbreaking Reveal and Realization: Then a vulnerable Arnav, with hollow and upset eyes, lack luster face admits..."That moment...that (disastrous) moment is imprinted on my mind - when I saw You and Shyam..." the heartbroken lover in Arnav falls apart as he cannot shake that thought off..cannot look in to Khushi's yes...moves away, shakes his head...ademits to Khushi and himself, "now it cannot be wiped off!" Arnav's head drops down in dejection...This was a very powerful scene! I loved it! I loved it! I loved It! The director could have done a bit more to impress this on viewers' minds...I mean, Arnav admitted what has destroyed his love so easily to Khushi that the mending begins here today..in this moment..if one does not know what and where the barriers are, nothing can be fixed...Arnav actually gave Khushi information about his biggest and deepest wound - has to do with Khushi - Arnav's Khushi - only! And yes, these ghosts of past are making it difficult to trust Khushi's words as visuals make stronger and longer lasting impressions on one's mind than simple words do..
Khushi responds to Arnav's tender fall out, 'You only saw what you wanted to see! You inferred as you desired! " Arnav cannot take it anymore, his anger builds up, he moves away restlessly.." But it is not necessary that your understanding is closer to what the truth is!!" "Enough!" shouts Arnav! Khushi taken aback by his outburst, as he continues, "Stop this nonsense! You wanted to know why I married you - now you know! Don't even think about destroying my sister's life! Rest assured that I would not allow you and that filthy Shyam- to hurt my Di even a little bit!" He warns Khushi as Khushi stares him in the face, afraid, hurt, with disbelief..Then Arnav loses his wisdom in the fit of anger, that's why he says to Khushi, "I understand well enough how difficult it is to let go off the status, money and luxury of being Mrs. Arnav Singh Raizada! Only a fool will deny it!" he says with a mean glint in his eyes..as Khushi stares at him hurt, in disbelief! Why? Why? Why? My dear ASR, that was low - too low - becuase you said it to Khushi - you went completely blind and oblivious to the rest of the moments you have had with your Khushi...never mind..this will be very hard on you when you realize what damage you have done!
aaine mein jab dekha
hume aap nazar aaye
roandd ke dil jo gaye
toh veerane nazar aaye
When I looked into the miror
I saw you
when you crushed my heart
I saw eerie hollowness
As the hurt lovers stare each other in the eye, they get pulled apart miles and miles..Arnav carelessly goes and sits in the car. Khushi's tears trickle down her face...vulnerable, in anguish..she wipes tears off and gets inside the car. Arnav drives them off to home..
Back to Shantivan: Khushi and Arnav sitting together with rest of the family in the living room. Arnav quiet as usual, more tense than necessary... Chirpy Anjali passes a remark before asking a casual question, "Good, you guys freshened up! So much heat outside., right?" A casual remark but can be applied to Arnav and Khushi's conversation before stepping inside the house.. Mami makes some loose talk about her dieting while feasting on the laddoos - sweets - from Khushi's mother's. Payal smiles at her show off..Nani asks, "Chhotey, have you weighed yourself! Your in-laws seem to have tended well to you, you seem very happy!" In fact, Arnav has no expressions on his face (I think it was his BD - weird direction here) Anjali and Nani smile at each other. Arnav makes no gestures. Khushi looks at him and tries to soothe the situation by saying, "Oh, no, even there he kept too busy with his work.." Arnav gives her 'the look' from corner of his eye. Anjali says that, "These things are better not asked about..are to be seen and shown off! Now look at him, Chhotey's color has changed! Right?" she smiles mischieously . Arnav just looks at Khushi instead of answering..or reacting.. (Weird direction here...did not make any sense to me why Arnav was behaving like a guest in his own house..) Just then Shyam descends down the stairs..
"Oh, bro-in-law..Saalesaab, you are back!" he smiles at them..
Arnav and Khushi's bodies stiffen..eyes harbor the feeling of unknown.. Shyam continues, 'I thought you got too comfortable there at your in-laws! Seemed like you did not want to come back!" Arnav gives him a piercing look, Khushi looks at Arnav uneasily...as Shyam watches the two of them..his shrewd smile wears off.. He then boldly calls out, "Khushiji..how are you? The house had such an empty feel without you!" Shyam pointedly looks at Khushi as Arnav's eyes start gaining anger...Khushi uncomfortable..Payal reacts to Shyam's audacity for the first time...then Shyam shrewdly says with a smile, "I mean, without the two of you.." Anjali and Nani play supportive roles with broad happy smiles on their faces, in agreement with Shyam... Payal Looks at Khushi understandingly. Shyam continues with his audacious behavior, "It feels so good... now that you are back!" He throws a shrewd smile at Arnav..Arnav gets up, gives Khushi a stern look and in a stern voice says, 'I've got work to do.." as he walks away..Shyam and Arnav continue to challenge each other through their stare in their own style - Arnav cold and blank; Shyam - shrewd with a smile.. Anjali suggests that Khushi also should rest for a while. Shyam intently observes her face.
Later..Khushi hands the gifts from their parents to Payal for herself and Aakash..Payal asks Khushi if she had fun at home and inquires about Preeto's wedding..As Khushi tries to be cheerful, she remembers her argument with Arnav regarding the truth behind their marriage..she hides her sadness behind the excuse of missing her parents and Buaji..
Khushi comes back to her room..as she folds the clothes away..Khushi's mind plays back their conversation over and over ...she break down in tears..Khushi says herself, "He will have to trust me! I cannot live like that - particularly knowing that he thinks so lowly of me.."AWW Khushi, I liked it! Now, there is a sign - you should realize how much you love him - his putting trust in you is not optional for you.. Khush thinks about having Garima, Buaji and Shahi talk to Arnav about the Shyam saga..and Payal too,,, but then she decides against it worried that he may blurt out the six month marriage thing to her family in his anger..
Most Stupid Moments: (Forgive me guys, this is unlike me but no options here..) Shaym at the poolside sanctuary..I would like to know how come he can walk in and out of Arnav-Khushi's sanctuary whenever he wants...BAN HIM! As he wonders how to get Arnav to sign the new will..Khushi walks over to him - I mean -- -youuu girrrl - are you out of your mind? Even if the director told you, you should have refused! Out of all the people around you, you find Shyam most approachable to help soothe your relationship with Arnav...why in the world would he do that? Why in the world would you walk over to him? Why would you decide to trust him to tell Arnav the real truth instead of creating more problems for you? WHY? WHY? WHY? STUPID PLAN! Khushi you ruined my newly found faith in you and respect for you - how can the lioness wag her tail between her legs and not use her common sense...what about her skills to read - this is the same girl who typed hundreds of pages in English for Arnav overnight... I mean, I give Khushi a B. Com. - suits her age and talent as well as need...Shyam asks her to get Arnav to sign the papers and in turn he will talk to Arnav...
Okay, I am not discussing this scene anymore - it is not worthy of our time... but let me pass some remarks... Khushi and Shyam can keep talking to each other for 5-7 minutes a heartfelt conversation..Khushi herself goes to Shyam...She trusts him to do as she says... I mean - who thinks that the crazy fans develop amnesia and do not remember a thing...? Ok - Enough - I am not getting worked up...
NOTE: Normally I do not reply to comments individually unless waranted otherwise.. given that this particular scene has caused immense strain to loyal fans' minds😭😡 - we will keep discussion open so that we vent and move forward with an open mind to welcome the next episode - deal?😊
Untold Emotions: Arnav's heart actually believes Khushi - completely...he was most vulnerable and anticipating to hear words from Khushi that would prove his doubt and aligations wrong... he soo hoped for it...his eyes, his face, his voice - he was practically begging to Khushi to make it right...Khushi did not have answer to his most important question - "How come she never tried to share this huge secret with him...?" He is absolutely right - Even though he knows about her engagement etc, the fact that Shyam's dirty secret ruined so may lives together it needed to be told to someone who could handle it better...
Arnav feels hurt and betrayed.. hurt is very valid as Khushi did not deem it necessary to tell him - if she considers him close enough, then she needs to tell him such a secret,,,What his eyes saw..has hurt him tremendously..he cannot deny what he saw...among the conflicting things - facts he has on his mind now - need some time to allow his heart and mind and brain to sort out...it is the tangled web of emotions and love...
He takes out his frustration on Khushi by saying mean things to her - a lesson Arnav still has to learn the hard way...
Khushi did not reciprocate any of Arnav's emotions...how can Arnav be assured that she definitely still feels more strongly about him than she does for Shyam... Their relationship is so strained that they cannot just trust each other... they never built trust yet between them.
Now, if Khushi brings those papers to Arnav, it will be biggest, damaging blow to their relationship now or later - ever...wait and watch --hope that does not happen..
I like that Khushi now is focused on gaining Arnav's trust - but going through Shyam is like committing suicide... Where is Khushi's basic instinct about Shyam's creepy, deceptive nature?
Here come the first time lovers, trading the path of their first love.. mistrust and anger swaying the path other way around - pulling them shores apart...hurting inside..crying tears of anguish... ❤️❤️❤️
Arnav and Khushi - Khushi and Arnav -
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