MUJHE TUMSE KUCH KEHNA HAI. (Decoding SSO)

Mujhe tumse kuch kehna hai...

- Untill yesterday everything was under my control, every minute detail of my life was on my command, every heartbeat of mine was pacing according to my conscious instructions. Everything was at perfection. I had this sort of grasp on my life and it's events. I had this grip on my expression. I ruled myself and the world. And I still rule the world, but, I lost the grasp on myself. I have lost the control over my eyes, my heart, my thoughts, my senses, my emotions, my feeling everything I have lost my authority over me. I am suffocating.

You ask me How do I sense you every time..

I don't know... DAMMIT I DON'T KNOW!

I don't know why my eyes follows you to every corner of the house , I don't know why I feel numb whenever I see you in front of me standing upright just maybe just breathing..

I don't know why I want my heart to get influenced by every advice of your's.. Damn I am the Ruler here.. I AM THE RULER.. just let me breath please.. I make my decisions and I never change them even if god himself appears to do so, but no you changed this too, why?

How dare you dictate my zone of arrogance, how dare you challenge me and how dare you control me..

You just can't dominate me , no you can't

I was existing, I was breathing, I was conquering the world.

You ruined me.

I hate the day you met me. I want to erase the day forever.

That day has caused me this.

I am dancing on the cheapest songs I couldn't even imagine, I am laughing at your silly antics, I smile like a maniac at odd times, I am not breaking phones, I am not taking medicines, I fear, I care, I get lost in thoughts, I enjoy you nonsensical challenges, I participate in the most pathetic games of your's. NO BLOODY HELL. No no no this is not me.

The world fears me. They bow to me. I don't care whether they like me as a person on no. I never bothered to care. My life had just 2 important people that mattered the most to me- My brother's. What they feel about me was the only matter of concern.

But suddenly I am consious. All conscious about what you think about me. What does my decisions make you feel about me. No it is not you who is influencing me. It is this sudden consciousness I have incurred that is influencing me to let you control me. You have unmasked me, ripped of my ruthless nature and pierced my heart , I am unable to breathe , this sudden exposure to this world of your's. You are unaware that you have dragged me along with you to this other side of the world in which you exist, only you. And now I too.

I am unable to hold my self.

Today you are leaving, as if this world of yours is disowning me suddenly as if they never meant to own me. Tomorrow life is changing and it is because of you dammit only because of you I am unable to control my tomorrow. Tomorrow was prefect if you hadn't met me that day. You have changed my tomorrow to be my nightmare. I SHIVAAY SINGH OBEROI who was confident that he owned the world and that nothing in this universe was out of my reach. That nothing in this world ever existed that I need to even ask for.. Its only because of you; I am begging in my heart for a miracle to happen. I hate myself. I was defined as power. And from that day.. you became by source of Power.

But

I AM THE SHIVAAY SINGH OBEROI .. I make and break rules. I dont bow before people and I don't share things not even your things to you. I am born to win. And I will. I won't let you win Atleast this one. And so I won't let you know...

Anika..

MUJHE TUMSE KUCH KEHNA HAI...

"Take care"

🤣

Sorry for the last pair of words .. 😆 Sorry but no sorry because SSO is one hell of a person he is such cutely nonsense and gorgeously gadha. He just pisses me of every time and leaves me drooling over him at the same time 😆😆

- Untill yesterday everything was under my control, every minute detail of my life was on my command, every heartbeat of mine was pacing according to my conscious instructions. Everything was at perfection. I had this sort of grasp on my life and it's events. I had this grip on my expression. I ruled myself and the world. And I still rule the world, but, I lost the grasp on myself. I have lost the control over my eyes, my heart, my thoughts, my senses, my emotions, my feeling everything I have lost my authority over me. I am suffocating.

You ask me How do I sense you every time..

I don't know... DAMMIT I DON'T KNOW!

I don't know why my eyes follows you to every corner of the house , I don't know why I feel numb whenever I see you in front of me standing upright just maybe just breathing..

I don't know why I want my heart to get influenced by every advice of your's.. Damn I am the Ruler here.. I AM THE RULER.. just let me breath please.. I make my decisions and I never change them even if god himself appears to do so, but no you changed this too, why?

How dare you dictate my zone of arrogance, how dare you challenge me and how dare you control me..

You just can't dominate me , no you can't

I was existing, I was breathing, I was conquering the world.

You ruined me.

I hate the day you met me. I want to erase the day forever.

That day has caused me this.

I am dancing on the cheapest songs I couldn't even imagine, I am laughing at your silly antics, I smile like a maniac at odd times, I am not breaking phones, I am not taking medicines, I fear, I care, I get lost in thoughts, I enjoy you nonsensical challenges, I participate in the most pathetic games of your's. NO BLOODY HELL. No no no this is not me.

The world fears me. They bow to me. I don't care whether they like me as a person on no. I never bothered to care. My life had just 2 important people that mattered the most to me- My brother's. What they feel about me was the only matter of concern.

But suddenly I am consious. All conscious about what you think about me. What does my decisions make you feel about me. No it is not you who is influencing me. It is this sudden consciousness I have incurred that is influencing me to let you control me. You have unmasked me, ripped of my ruthless nature and pierced my heart , I am unable to breathe , this sudden exposure to this world of your's. You are unaware that you have dragged me along with you to this other side of the world in which you exist, only you. And now I too.

I am unable to hold my self.

Today you are leaving, as if this world of yours is disowning me suddenly as if they never meant to own me. Tomorrow life is changing and it is because of you dammit only because of you I am unable to control my tomorrow. Tomorrow was prefect if you hadn't met me that day. You have changed my tomorrow to be my nightmare. I SHIVAAY SINGH OBEROI who was confident that he owned the world and that nothing in this universe was out of my reach. That nothing in this world ever existed that I need to even ask for.. Its only because of you; I am begging in my heart for a miracle to happen. I hate myself. I was defined as power. And from that day.. you became by source of Power.

But

I AM THE SHIVAAY SINGH OBEROI .. I make and break rules. I dont bow before people and I don't share things not even your's things to you. I am born to win. And I will. I won't let you win Atleast this one. And so I won't let you know...

Anika..

MUJHE TUMSE KUCH KEHNA HAI...

"Take care"

Spot on, this is exactly what hes feeling<3

He can say

Sorry,

Share his heart out as to why he is getting married,

Appreciate her,

Ask her for her advice one last time,

Ask her about her opinion on his decision for marriage,

Ask her about her self.. (Like janese pehele apna pura naam to batati jao😆),

Share show good compliment about her,

Ask her to be friends,

Offer her a job,

Or

He may just cut the silence by saying NOTHING..

Anything can happen.

But this is my version.. I just assume this happening all over his mind and heart. 😉

Sorry if this disappointed you.

Let's wait for tomorrow to know😃

You always love my posts..

I love you for this 🤗

This is just my pov. I just replied to one the comments above as to what other options are available for SSO to say 2mrw 😆

Am a mess since the few previous episodes, Shivika made me this way 😭

I can't even say anything, thier emotions, confusion everything is just going straight to my heart and cracking it 💔😭

Thank you 😳

I will surely try to write one tomorrow too 😊

Thank so much .😳

I am glad that you liked the way this came out to be..