Hi Guys, this is one short. Not going to continue. Also, Beyhad is removed. I felt it is not moving in the direction which I planned originally. Please forgive me. Very soon, I will come up with something. Please, allow me some time.
Pain (laughs). It is not new to me. I'm born in pain. I don't know who my parents are. I always told that they left me in the orphanage. Why? I don't have an answer to it. However, I always told myself, maybe, they left me to save my life from enemies? Maybe they left me because I'm unwanted to anyone. I don't know. I always wanted LOVE. But, looks like, in this world, we can get everything, but conquering real love is not easy.
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Kabir - the man of my dreams. I was never been in love before. When he came to my life, everything is colourful. My nights turned into special moments while the morning into much more special. My life revolved around him. I felt attached to him. Like, how you get attached to anything in your life. You are obsessed with it.
The moment you lose, you feel like you want it. But, within a few days, some new thing can replace it. Yes, the replacement is not something I know at that time. I told yes when he asked me to marry Vansh Rai Singhania because he asked me. I don't want my favourite toy. Toy (laughs bitterly), I wish I could have known at that moment.
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Vansh - The man whom it is not easy to understand. Unpredictable. To save his family he can do anything. I repeat his family. He always saw me as a spy. I always wanted to ask him that, do you marry every woman whom you doubts upon? But, I never did that. Wish I would have asked him. I don't know when but, I fell in love with him.
This love is different. It has filled my heart with all the emotions which never felt before. His absence disturbed my peace. His presence raised my adrenaline. His stare at me feels uncomfortable yet so good. I need him.
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The difference between Kabir and Vansh's love is, Kabir I want him. Vansh I need him. House, Car, Phone, Watch, Good dress we all want them, therefore we can fulfil our needs for daily life. Love, affection, trust, loyalty we need them to fulfil our desires. I wanted Kabir to make myself feel not an orphan. However, I want Vansh because he became my family.
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Today Vihaan is Vansh. I know the moment I met him. However, unable to get any proof of it. But since the day he is back to VR Mansion, I know he is Vansh. However, I went with the flow. I want to see what he would do this time. I don't want to spoil his plan like last time. If he is not revealing the truth to me that says I have lost his trust and he is right in his place. Therefore, I would let him do whatever he wants.
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Today he is planning to kill me. Yes, I heard his talk with Angre. I'm happy. Because I'm prepared for this. In Vansh world, if someone betrays him, then they should die. I tried to protect him somehow it turned into betrayal. Only Sia can say the truth or Bappa.
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Today, I'm ready to accept death because I'm tired. Yes, I'm tired. I might be strong but, even the strongest need someone on whom they can lean on. The only one whom I can lean on is Bappa. He knows what I'm and why I did everything. He is my family and friend. I don't want anyone other than him because he would never betray me. He would never hurt me. So I'm here to go near him. I'm accepting the death with the wholeheartedly to reach my family - My Bappa.
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