Hey all! So, this one's another OS written in the middle of the night (shout out to my angst writing playlist on Spotify) based on the night at the pool before Ishqi was set to leave and before ahaan pulled a "bhaag AVM bhaag". I tried a different format this time, so enjoy and let me know what y'all think! (Extra extra extra love to anyone who can figure out the song used as inspiration!)
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Ahaan
He couldn’t remember the words that they said. The only thing that kept running through his mind was the look in her eyes, and how he knew his looked in response. There were no words he could say, or write that would bring forth the emotion hidden behind their eyes. Wherever he looked, memories spun like a web around him, trapping him in a vortex that he couldn’t get out of even if he wanted to. He’d give anything, anything he had to not watch her walk away from him. How could he tell her that he wanted her to stay? With him? Not for anyone else, but for him? That he chose her. Not Rhea.
Ishqi
She kept putting up walls, tried to distance herself from him and their memories, but the damned things stuck to her mind. She just wanted to move on. So much had happened and she was just...tired. Exhausted. There was no other way to escape everything. For as long as she stayed, their memories would haunt her, keep her trapped. Was there a trick to moving on? To keep those walls that she had built around her heart up when she saw him? They threatened to crumble every time she looked into his eyes and saw the unending sea of emotions they held. Trying to leave it all behind kept her up at night more than she liked to admit, but neither in her dreams or her musings could she escape him.
They were frozen. Neither had expected the other to be wandering out at this time of the night. She had had enough dreams over the last few months to wonder to herself if, even now, the figure she saw stood in front of her actually existed or was it just wishful thinking?
If there was a world where she could be his, where they were allowed to be who they wanted to be, that’s where they’d live. A simpler world. How could you lose someone who was never yours? He was always Rhea’s and she was...not his. What she wouldn’t give to stay with him. All he had to do was give her a reason. To just choose her.
Ahaan
Nothing worked against her. He’d tried to stay away. Tried to forget about her, hate her. But nothing ever worked. Even now, he was struggling to keep those walls up. But one look at her face and he knew it was a losing battle. Someone needed to teach him how to move on, because what he was doing clearly wasn’t working. She could teach him, but that would mean he’d have to break this moment, and he wasn’t sure he wanted to. A calm had settled over this night and he was hesitant to disturb it, because that meant facing that in just a few hours, she would be gone and he would be...someone else’s. If there was a way he could whisk them away from here, and live in a world where she could be his, he’d do it in a heartbeat.
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