nothingness. || aryan singh rathore. - Page 4

This is heartbreaking to read, it like he is to a extent showing himself on screen.

He as turned to feel nothing but why? He was the one to ask hold my hand if you want to remind me of what I have lost 😞 if she stay then maybe he would ignore her altogether and pretend everything is ok in front of family but between close doors he would no longer want to share the room, so did she do the right thing, don’t know, no love or just hate which would you have?

I have been questioning the last 4 episodes of why is no one understanding why and whom did the accident, both are suffering so maybe not Aryan or Imlie but someone else.

Five years of patience, who as won is the question, nobody. Everyone as 😡

Originally posted by: sue1o1

Hey, thank you for this. I've been seething too, burning really. Reading this gave me a vindictive sort of satisfaction almost, idk? Like the world does not deserve Aryan and I'm glad this Aryan won't give the world any part of himself too, but especially not to Imlie. It hurts, but it's strangely satisfying. Because all he has done is give, and I'm so done with him not receiving even half of what he has given. Fxck.

Aryan is just...too nice for his own good. and you said it right, the world does not deserve him. he is everyone's punching bag, including his family. there is literally no one on his side when he has always been on the side of his loved ones. like..what kind of pitiful existence is that? so I thought...why not, for once, allow him the chance to get revenge from the world that is just too used to taking from him but not giving him in anything in return. so what if I do so in my fantasy? i feel much lighter to have an Aryan that is completely inaccessible to the selfish world and safe from being hurt again in his void of nothingness. let the world come to him again thinking they can continue to take from him like they are used to. let them meet his nothing. and then..then they'll learn just how they ruined something invaluable and rare because they were seeking shards of glass that only shone like diamonds from the distant.

Originally posted by: lovereading14

First of lovely OS, your writing is one of my favourites!

Secondly have missed your posts so so much

Thirdly and most importantly, these words resonate with me so so so much! I feel such conflicting things but I can never not love Aryan Singh Rathore for all that he is! The fd really has done him dirty 💔

thank you so much! yeah just haven't been getting anything worthwhile to post about. there's only agony and hurt :D

how this fd turned on Aryan and completely disregarded his months of painful hardwork is something i'll never forget or forgive either. i am glad there are some people like us who see him and support him and love him for all he is. and not swing between emotions for him impulsively. he already gets treated like trash in the show..acha hai fd mein koiii toh abhi bhi rehta hai to realize him for the treasure he is.

Originally posted by: Dalena.Arylie

Its so beautiful.. heart wrenching but beautiful

thank you! <3

Originally posted by: sur91

Your words are so beautiful as if it's FK is mouthing them as Aryan

But most importantly your note hits close to home. I have been ranting in many threads so won't make your beautiful post another rant post but I think the makers couldn't handle their own creation. Aryan was such a beautiful character which was brutally butchered just to to fit into thier twisted narrative

thank you! i tried my best to not let my personal words/tone seep in. the emotions are mine but i didn't want to put words in Aryan's mouth. so I am really happy to see that you felt the lines were authentic as if they are something Aryan would say in the show.

sigh...Aryan. iska dukh nahin bhoolega mujhe kabhi. it was inevitable that he'd be sacrificed because the CVs cannot get over their base level writing that has to make the FL mahaan by hook or crook. khair..koi nahin. at least there are some of us who still love his character and haven't fallen for the trap set by the CVs wrt to him..

Originally posted by: Shivi_forever

It was beautiful and heartwrenching

Originally posted by: Sharmin02

Yaar its so beautiful

thank you <3

Originally posted by: pratyay

Its beautifully written❤️. It perfectly sums up Aryan. That is what I felt when I saw Aryan...a vacuum. there is no beginning and end, just vacuum. The nothingness makes sense, perfect sense to me. When I see Imlie, I feel anger. When I see FD comparing Aryan with AKT, I feel rage.

Thank you for the wonderful piece.

For a character who always felt passionately be it hate or love..it made perfect sense for me that his breaking point would lead him to stop feeling altogether. idc how the show will continue to paint him as this abhorrent criminal but for me he's always gonna be the biggest victim who is left with nothing. everyone moved on. everyone else found reasons to continue living. it's only him who's left behind and stuck in darkness. why wouldn't all my sympathies be only for him? who else even is as broken as him for no fault of their own?!

Originally posted by: sheen97

This was so beautiful . My heart broke today for Aryan . He is damaged beyond repair. And I hate when people say Aryan has been butchered . And I feel like hitting them when they compare my aru to a bigmaist. He is pure soul who just gave and gave and nothing expected anything in return. And one time he expected something destiny played a cruel game..

How can people don't give him margin to act human ? A human who has only lost ..

Thank you for this.

PS: I loved reading your TT threads. And I'm selfish in sense that I want to keep reading them. Are you never coming back

i guess the only person allowed to have trauma and lash out cuz of their past experiences and the freedom to act "human" is the titular FL. anyone else other than her just doesn't get the same empathy. Aryan was acceptable as the "definition of love" and "dhruvtaara" as long as he was doing his wife's jee huzoori. he was never treated as a human being with his own emotions..just a puppet who was to be controlled as per will. the moment he refused to be handled that way...he became all kinds of impossible to live with.

lol.

with a story giving me a character like this FL who will always remain selfish and self centered and never ever acknowledge or accept her part in all the shit that happens and will always twist the narrative to make herself the victim while the ACTUAL victim gets bashed left, right, and center and is shown to be dying a new death every single day...how do you expect me to come back? I am currently in the process of detaching..seeking my closure. this was an attempt at that. i don't want to give this show any more power to have any negative impact on me. i want to be fully done™ with it.

Originally posted by: aaradhaya1688

Lovely os

The talk bw him and the doctor was do well written

Loved it

thank you! just a clarification: this isn't a conversation between Aryan and a doctor. the one speaking in italics is just an unknown, undefined entity..neither real nor imaginary.

Originally posted by: Siaa_Rickman

It's pure catharsis to read this and I'm so glad I came across it!

Pretty amazing the way you could convey the numbness, the void, the feeling of nothing.

Two things Aryan said that got me really choked and emotional was the subtle reference to her accepting him as a being and then when he says she'll never be able to get back to him since he is no longer anything. The poetic justice this latter thing has, no words to describe it!

It's so heart-breaking to see that Aryan has zoned out of existence so much that not even seeing her with a child, a child that could have potentially been theirs, the laughter and the happiness that could have been theirs and yet all he felt was nothing.

This character deserves so much more but alas, it is what it is.

Reading this really helped me to sort out my sentiments and cool down, so a huge thank you for penning this one.

thank you sooooooooooo much for this beautiful and detailed comment! I am so glad to see you understand and appreciate the nuances I tried to portray here. and i am more glad that this helped you get your own emotions in order as well. after writing this I felt a weight lift off my chest so how could I not be thankful that this helped others feel the same way as well? i sincerely appreciate your comment! it brought a smile on my face <3

Originally posted by: screen22

This is heartbreaking to read, it like he is to a extent showing himself on screen.

He as turned to feel nothing but why? He was the one to ask hold my hand if you want to remind me of what I have lost 😞 if she stay then maybe he would ignore her altogether and pretend everything is ok in front of family but between close doors he would no longer want to share the room, so did she do the right thing, don’t know, no love or just hate which would you have?

I have been questioning the last 4 episodes of why is no one understanding why and whom did the accident, both are suffering so maybe not Aryan or Imlie but someone else.

Five years of patience, who as won is the question, nobody. Everyone as 😡

when two people are grief struck and angry both at once what they both need is time to calm down. both Imlie and Aryan's loss was great. both of them couldn't make sense of their own emotions let alone try to understand what other was going through. it was an argument where horrendous stuff was said in the heat of the moment. till this point one cannot clearly blame either of them as being right and wrong. it's how the argument ENDED where problem lies. he told her to leave and she left. forget taking accountability for her actions...forget giving the trust that he has had unflinchingly in her since day1 the respect it deserved...her walking out at his one accusation, an accusation that was backed up her OWN actions, made it look like as if she was always waiting for him to tell her to leave and she would. potli ready thi usski. and to add insult to injury..after walking out she didn't even spend a single day regretting her decision. ready made bacha mil gaya usse and she very easily replaced her lost child and husband with it. she basically proved Aryan's accusation, which has made him the worst kind of scum possible in the eyes of many, right by that choice. the point isn't who caused the accident..the point is who was the one who ALLOWED an old threat to cause harm and afterwards refused to even acknowledge they did anything wrong. its as simple as that.

in canon we are now seeing Aryan turn to self destructive tendencies because he feels too much and hates himself for feeling that. i, personally, respect his character and his character's journey far too much to see him reduced to being that person. hence I wrote this ficlet. where I could give the intensity of his emotions the justice it deserves. he feels too much and that has caused him only harm and has left him empty handed. so now, he feels nothing. and he's at peace cuz of that. cuz he knows that's his way of seeking revenge as well. Aryan Singh Rathore never loses. and i made him the ultimate winner here.

Wow! This was terrific. I enjoyed ready this! Do write more!!

It's him, isn't it?

Aryan Singh Rathore has always been this person, the one who knows it all, but is he ever been able to put a ring around his emotions?

Nah, for me he feels one thing and says the other, and vice the versa.

He never wanted his wife for himself (it's always been about #imlie's wellbeing- one way or other) until now.

Now he wants her, and the "nothingness" he feels, might be his fear (what can he possibly give her this time what she doesn't already have? NOTHINGNESS & he would never gift her that would he?)

P.S: He's stubborn, he won't listen to anybody.

LOVED EVERY BIT OF THIS OS.

BRING ME MORE.... Pretty please