Gulaal can't be blamed,nor can be kesar.

Everyone,my name is Vidya and I am a silent reader of this forum.Today's epi made me voice my opinions.While watching the rerun of this show yesterday i asked my mum why does she not love kesar,silly of me(As I am very much in love with kesar-gulaal jodi),but desperate.She just said that she can't see anybody else in her husband's place,she hasn't moved on.And I realised that she must be right.

Gulaal was very much in love with Vasant and rightfully so,he deserved it.She had fallen in love with a noble,brave man who had big dreams and strong beliefs.The woman fought with her parents and village for this man.Her loyalty and love was rewarded with her marriage to him that unfortunately did not last long.Just imagine your felling when your whole world just stops spinning and falls off its axis,shattered and desolate.Thats what she felt like.She just remembers him and his dreams.She remembers his dreams for talsagara,his family and his kesuda.she to an extent fulfilled half of his dreams.In regards to kesar,she never saw him as anything but vasant's kesuda.She still sees the world through vasant's vision.After she lost her only reason to live,she closed herself in order to protect vasant's family,she had to be there for them,that is what vasant would have wanted and she would do anything for him.As she said to kesar today,"main vasant ki kasam khake kehti hoon ke tu kahega to main tujhe apni shakal kabhi bhi nahi dikhaungi".And she means it.She can't be blamed for behaving as such.No matter how she shows herself as,the woman is shattered inside.She never got to grieve her loss.Everyone needs time which she wasn't given.

when vasant died the family looked at gulaal to take his place and fill their void.What was vasant's job till now was passed onto gulaal.Every parent has a child that he dreams would fulfill his every dream,that child was vasant,and now was vasant's gulaal.and gulaal took up her role as was expected of her.The journey of becoming kesar's gulaal from vasant's gulaal would be very difficult for her.She is a one man woman.I guess we all have to accept that she never thought of kesar as more than vasant's kesuda.Remember when she tells him what his brother will think of him seeing him inebriated,what she would answer him.that is all kesar is to her right now.agreed that kesar is her number one priority,it is only in the aspect of vasant's dreams.

Kesar is a different character all together.He is the young darling of the house who everyone spoils rotten ad foregoes mistakes of.As a child he looked up to vasant and then gulaal entered his life.She loved him,gave in to his whims,cared for him and stood up for him.All too soon she became his favorite person,with gulaal this and gulaal that.Noting the fact that he never called her bhabhi,didi,maa or all of those platonic relations,he was first to call her his wife,a very intimate and important relation in anybodies life.that was what gulaal had become to him.For him gulaal was his and his only.she would always love him,support him and take his side.Then he heard about his brothers death and suddenly it was all new to him.Why would gulaal not tell on dushyant bha ,why she hid it from him,from motabha,etc.And then she sent him off to boarding school,and he behaving like a child took offence.For ten years his life revolved around gulaal and vasant's death.She is obviously the axis of his world.When he returned,he was angry yet yearning for her love.His actions and words as all of you are aware of speak only of his fixation with Gulaal.He is possessive of her and protective too.They say a child always has one thing or memory of his childhood that is so important and dear to him that he molds his life around it and never lets go of it.For kesar,it is gulaal.It is very obvious that he would be jealous of anybody that would come in gulaals life.What he is doing currently is because of that anger and frustation that results of his jealousy.Why would she not look at him,why would she not love him,does she love somebody else,does she love dushyant,the killer of his vasant bha?,all these questions torment him and he is acting as such.

If you look at it you will find that both of them are similar in certain aspects.Both of their lives revolves around one person.They both assume things will go as they plan and when it all doesnt fall into place they both become frantic.Gulaal cries,asks god where she went wrong,confides in vasant's picture while kesar sulks,gets violent ,mean,dark.Both of them don't have anyone to confide their deepest fears,desires to and boil inside with their suppressed troubles.

As a die-hard romantic i would like them to turn to each other,share a passionate,fiery,childish,unconventionally awesome love together( As I feel their love would be) and live happily ever after.Screw Talli,dushyant ,raman and that eunuch whose name i forgot.

If you havelasted this long you need to be given a nobel prize for patience,cause i sure tested it.Thank you for bearing me.I finish my rant here.Have an awesome life ahead!

Regarding what you said Lennie,I don't think she has resigned herself to fulfilling his dreams,she has just pushed aside all other things that are equally important or more so and let them gather dust.It's like she thinks that if she lets other feelings come in way of her task then it won't be fulfilled and she would disappoint vasant.It's like preparing the most important and lenghty dish first and then moving on to others.She feels that if she just completes all things on vasant's wishlist then she would be happy.But, she won't.She'll realise by the time she does all he wanted loneliness would creep up on her and swallow her whole.I can totally understand her,cause in a juvenile sense i can relate to her.I had created a list of goals that comprised of my and my parents dreams for me,i had made them my goals.I worked hard for it but fell short,cause i wanted all to go perfectly like my dream that i had created.It didn't work and i fell,frantic and disbelieving.I can totally understand the pain she must have felt when her little kesar was not so little anymore and her picture perfect bubble just bursted.She had dreamt up a whole little sequence where birds were chirping,people of talsagra were worshipping motabha,vasant ,the whole family was happy and kesar had become a responsible boy with his beautifully happy(🤢)wife talli was tending to their little tallis and kesuda's(I just threw up here,never am i ever imagining this again🤢) in between fawning over kesar(yuch!), while she watches all this with a smile on her face and a halo over her head,turning towards vasant's picture and saying "Aaj apka sapna pura hogaya vasant!".But sadly our devilishly handsome kesuda just walked up to her and pricked her bubble out of existence😊.

that is just what i feel.And i am of the opinion i feel a lot😉.My posts speak for it.

Regarding their lurvvveee,do you expect any less of our little devil kesuda?

Bye,Enjoy!😃

JZephyr loved what you wrote as well but I do disagree with you on one point... paanba's complaint being half right.. I think her complaint is a hundred percent valid the only time Gulaal would have more rights than anyone on Kesar is if she accepted their husband wife relationship but she hasn't done that; she is still thinking more like his 'bari bhabhi' and I think a mother has more rights over a son than a bhabhi over a devar.

As for Talli... I used to detest Talli but now I really feel bad for her because she is so unaware of all the mayhem that Gulaal Kesar are about to cause which she will be effected by the most... poor thing she's screwed both ways