Just wanted to write what i think Paki might be thinking during various events
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Relief... Ninad kaka confirmed that Samrat is missing in action. I am free from this marriage and all the pretense with it. I will stay with my parents for 2-3 months and then push my parents and virat to talk about my re-marriage to Virat with Bhavani kaki. Things are finally moving in my favour.
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How did Aswini aunty find out about us. I didn't want anyone in the family to even suspect anything. I wanted it as if its an idea from my parents after few months. Anyways as long as this mast kaku supports me, I am dont care about Virats mom. These saris are so uncomfortable, just wish I can go home and chill in my pj's for few days..
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Damnit, I can't even go to my own home when I want. What kind of jail is this? But I have to stay here, be brave and handle all this till Virat is back. I will figure out everything. I have to be in good books of this family until then. Will show Bhavani kaki how sanskari I am.
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Man I can't take these taunts. Why don't they all mind their own f*cking business, can't take this daily drama. Virat .. when will you be back, I am so lonely. If I see you and talk to you, I will feel better.
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Virat wants sunny and me to come to GC. This will show everyone that I am important to Virat. Maybe he has figured out a way for us. I am so excited, can't wait to see what it can be. I won't let mohit and karishma coming with us to hamper my mood. Why doesn't she stop talking..
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What the hell.. virat and that must be sai. Not even 2 months of his vaada and he is already marrying her. I have not suffered so much in that house to see this. I was stupid enough to believe him that he will remain unmarried and will love only me for the rest of his life.. here I am dreaming and planning about our life together and he just broke all my trust..
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Ok, so he says it's a deal marriage. But how do I trust him? What about the girl though? She might think its real and not let go of virat. He is so handsome and has a great physique, why will she leave him.. but virat promised me, I should trust him.. damn I just can't think straight. What a mess my life has become..
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Why on earth would I want to mentor that girl. But how do I tell him that I want nothing to do with her. He might think I am a bad person. I should just say good night and leave things vague
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Our koi nahi mila mujhe guide karne ke liye?
WTF
Why did Virat assume I would mentor her. Sai is insulting me in front of everyone coz of this and he is not shutting her up.
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F*ck more rituals.. it should have been me and virat. And now I am doing it as his sis in law. When will this end?
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Wow this girl is smarter than I thought. She made bhavani kaki do the ritual against her wishes. Why the hell is Virat smiling about it. Isn't this a deal marriage. Why does he care about all this rituals? He has not looked at me once..
If I do nothing even now, things might go away from my hand..I need to pull myself together.
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So now I have to help her get ready for reception. As if I have nothing better to do. But I can't say no to Virat. Have to keep him talking to me and him feel guilty.
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How the hell did she guess about me and virat. No she can't know about it. She is too frank and can say it out in front of family.
But if she is also saying its a deal, maybe I still have a chance. I just need to wait it out.
However I can't accept it in front of her, what if she complains to someone.. no I should just say she is mistaken and she doesn't understand the pure friendship between her and Virat.
Now that i know they both are in same page about marriage being a deal, i have to be constant reminder. I will never let virat forget about his promise so that every night that he goes in the room, he can't think beyond the vaada, me and guilt.. just 5 more years Virat, I can't share you with anyone...