She had never thought that she would meet him ever again in life!! Least she imagined meeting him in her own cousin's wedding.
The shock she felt would have been well mirroring on her face, for she saw that familiar smirk on his face as if he was expecting the same reaction from her.
She was blank for a second, not knowing what to feel, to react. Then a small part of her felt excited, alive again, seeing him after so long, the part she had tried to bury deeper somewhere. Her heart picked up speed, as she stare at his handsome face, doing a quick re- memorising of his features.
But it lasted only until her brain started working again. She came back to her senses and with that came back all the unpleasant past memories too.
She tried to shun them away, she had moved on from them, from her past. No point in holding on to it.
Instead she tried to behave normal with him.
The next 20 minutes which she had to spent talking to him were the hardest for her. Each & every moment, she had tried so hard to erase from her mind & heart, of their past, of them together, he brought them alive by reminiscing the old days. In his words, " They were the best days, truly unforgettable"!
She had to agree with him on that, those days are truly unforgettable indeed. She had been trying to forget them, forget him for last 8 years now. She had even started to believe that she was achieving that. But this one chanced meeting with him have cleared her illusion!!!
She forced a smile with great difficulty, it was not a pleasant realisation, not at all. What was more painful, was that he only had good memories to recall, of happy times, of fun & mischief.
While she could only remember the pain she had gone through. The heart break, that constant heart ache, those silent cries....Which he had, may be unknowingly caused her.
she had never told him that in past.
And she still was unable to tell him the truth, that how he, in his immaturity, had spoiled her for love!!
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Usse toh ahsaas hi na tha mere jazbaton ka,
wo unki gehrai kya samjhata!
Ke Jisne kiya na ho sacha ishq kabhi,
wo mohabbat me meri ruswaii kya samjhata!!
- Shona (original work) 💞.
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