os~a wait that was not worth it..PLJ READ

i know frnds i havent updated khamoshiyaan for so long.. but i really suck at writing lovey dovey stuff..m trying...will update it soon.. till then enjoy this os..n plj leave me comments..SmileSmileSmile A WAIT THAT WAS NOT WORTH IT... read at your own risk.. it is a sad story...not proff read..mistakes alert..Wink HELLO DAIRY, This is geet khurana...na...scratch it..i will be geet handa in jst a matter of few hours...i just can't possibly think where did i went wrong...in loving him...but i check check myself and find no mistakes..perhaps i was not at fault..not now,not then ...not ever..i have given my 100% to the commitment...n he did it too...na..if it would have been this way..we would have been together not poles apart...but alas..that's life..uncertain!!! ..The ady I walked out of that door to never return back..i have had many questions... I had the right to ask, to scream, to question him ..but I couldn't ...idont.t know why..may be I have loved him so much that the hurt he gave me I did not wanted him to know the extent of damage he has done to... I have loved him insanely immensely..if not in the beginning ...and later..bt I have loved him with my whole heart and soul... I guess he din't deserve me... now after three months of separation I wanted him to realize his mistake not becoj I want him back..,or I love him... but just simply because I don't want anyone else to suffer like me... So that he doesn't commit the same mistakes again... but I cant I know I can not... I cant shout at him..i cant question him.. because I have trusted him..all his lies were the truths for me...always... ... Life was so awsmm...like every teenage girl has..i was in my 11th standard/...no worries, parents love,friends...n all..the same was me... now I dread the day he entered in my life... He was a new bee in the class... He took permission from the teacher to enter the class and sat besides me..i thot that day to be luckiest day of my life but now I doubt... He was a late entry in the semester and eventualyl he had a reason to ask me for notes.. I was the class topper.. I didn't int and lend them to him... This was our first convo and the start of our friendship...which I have cherished for 5 long years... We came close day by day..we were best of friends..helped each other in anything and everything...Our parents became friends too..through us...his parents were so nice and loved me as their daughter.. after the completion of the school we joined the same college...he was doing his btech. In mechanical engineering.. n I took bsc.it. Though our schedules were different, so were our timings and group of friends.. but these things dint mattered... We always had time for each other... And then the day came..the big day of my life...I was in my class... and then received a msg from him...he asked me to come into the backyard garden..our usual place to meet... So after my class I went to meet him.. He was very different...I couldn't guess what...but he was hapyy...I reached near him and he took me into a bone crushing hug...I was surprised... but then I reciprocated... He then cupped my face in his palm and tried forming words... He was nervous.. and I was trying to guess the reason for it... So I boosted him up to tell me what the matter was... And then the unexpected happened.. he suddenly went onto his knees and proposed me... "I love you geet..i cant believe what I have felt for you all these years is not friendship but way beyond that..i love you..will you marry me??..." He was waiting for my answer.. I was shocked..surprised..i have never thot about him this way in my life... And then I took along breadth... {"I know he will never force me..or hurt me for that matter...but I don't want to lie to him..by saying o love you too... but there is nothing wrong if I go forward and say a yes..anyway one day I have to get married to someone..if not of my choice than my parent's...and it is said marry the one who loves you.."} Contemplating with my own thoughts I decided... I told him a yes.. "yes dev I will marry you...I wont lie dev ..you know me well... truth and trust is what I think is needed to make a relationship...I like you..i love you but as a friend.. its just that I haven't thought of you in the other prespective..but I know you will never hurt me... N m sure I will fall for you someday for sure.. afterall I wont keep my limits at all from now.." {"isn't it in arrange marriages you eventually fall in love with the man..who loves you.. takes care of you.. my parents are the perfect example.. they have had an arrange marriage.. n I see them in so much love...I trust dev..."} That day we went back home and told our parents about it.. they had no objection... Our parents met the next snday and decided that we will get married after completion of my studies.. Everything was good... After two years..we had a simple wedding followed by the reception.. dev's family was very nice...they helped me to settle in nicely... And then came the night,,.. The night of union..our first night together..i have had a surprise for dev..i wanted to tell him something...something I knew mattered a lot to him...though I wanted to tell him this before our wedding.. but we were too busy that we couldn't have a word.. I was sitting on the bed waiting for him.. Dev entered the room and closed the doors behind.. he came closer to me.. I was very nervous.. now I can understand what was dev feeling that day.. He then unveiled my face and smiled.. I know I need to speak soon.. so I gathered my guts and gave my life to him "I love you dev...plj don't misunderstand..i don't know how when...I ..i..i love you..i love you with all my life...tum samaj rahe ho na..i just cant put the feelings into words..." He jst replied" hmm...dnt speak a word jaan...I love you too" And then there were no words needed...that night we became one body and soul... After a weel of our marriagewe shifted to Mumbai..the city of dreams..dev have got a good job here with a handsome salary... And I worked from home..since that is what I chose..i was a web designer..so sitting at home and working was no issues for me...Our lifes were smooth...with some fites..spending holidays cuudeled together, teasing and loving each other.. we loved each other and took care of each other...we were happy with our lives... Until the day I read that message on his phone..the message afew words that changed my life.. It was Saturday...dev was having a shower .. his phone bujjed.. I thought of checking if it was something important from office.. "its been three weeks jaan ..i haven't seen you..plj come to me tonight baby..i m missing you..your love" These words just turned my world upside down...

I sat there on the bed like a stone..no dev cannot cheat me..he loves me ...no I should not doubt him...but what about this message...I have to knoe the truth..what if all this would be alie..how can I doubt him.. what will dev think about me... I was not in my senses..tears began flowing from my eyes without my know... I was lost..i dint knew what to do... then I heard dev asking for the towel...Ithat bought me out of my reverie... I rushed and gave him his towel.. I took dev's phone and marked the message as unread.. I have decided to get through the matter.. I was going to spy on him...

Later that evening I received a call from dev that he had a late night work in office and I should not keep waiting...

I took my car out and went to his office..

I could see his car still in the office parking... I left my car their and waited for the end of my life...

After half an hour dev came out of the building and sat in his car and drove off... I quickly took a cab and followed.. after some minutes of driving he turned to a building.. I went behind him sneakingly..

And than what I saw broke my world apart...

Dev ringed the bell of the flat and a girl walked out..putting her arms over dev and pulling him for a ki..ss..and then I heard dev speaking..'baby lets go inside and then you can love me all you want.. I have missed you too so much jaan... love you..and then the doors closed behind them/..i sat there crying for how long I don't even know...I left the place and took my car from the office and went back home..

I dint knew what to da..i was lost...

I thot may be I would have lacked somewhere..i was all my mistake..i wanted to hold onto that thin thread... I know dev would tell me the truth if I ask him..i trusted him still...

I dint wanted to lose him...hence I decided to give that one last chance..

Next day dev came in early morning.. I pretended like there was nothing wrong..

And the days that followed I trie doing everything that he would love...his favourite food, he choice of clothes everything...

He took notice of the things and passed me a smile lways..but nothing more.. I could see it we were going far...but I did not wanted that happening...I coul;d see no future of us together..

His late naight works kept increasing...and I knew now there was no hope... now I was just waiting for the day dev would himself come and tell me..the truth.. I just wanted to hear it from him...

If mot to a wife he could have told to his best friend...

And then the day came...but things were not the way thay should have been..

One morning after four months of me knowing the truth...dev came and sat on the table opposite me

"GEET I need to talk something"

...i jst nodded my head and letting him continue...{I thot he would tell me the trutyh..everything ..but no...and that broke...helped me let go..evrything that tied me to him"}

GEET you can see from a past few months..things aren't going the rite way with us...we have nting to share...I think I wont be able to continue this anymore...plj don't get me wrong...I want a divorce...this will keep us both happy..are you listening GEET "

And I just nodded my head in response

"where are the papers dev"...

In less than a minute he kept the papers on the table...

I stood up and moved to the room... packed my luggage...and came out...

Dev was standing near the window..

I signed the divorce paper..{"there was nothing left not even the truth..and I wanted to go out from the place the very moment..."}

And I walked towards the door..dev came ruuning and holded my hand..

"I am sorry GEET "

"its okay dev..!! after all this and so long.. I too have realized this had no future.."

And that is how I walked out of the door with my questions not voiced out or answered...

Yesterday I have got a call from dev... I am needed in the court for the final proceedings... Hence I am preparing myself for the confrontation..

Siting and writing to you makes me feel my heart light after so many months...life is not a smooth ride for all...

And the ring of the phone brings me back from all the memories...

It was my lawyer asking me too reach soon.. I kept away the diary and went to the court..

We sat on our respective seats...and the proceedings started..i was asked If I wanted alemoney or something else..i declined..in less than an hour.. I was freed from the ties.. I saw dev sitting with that girl...dev was trying to read my face..i know him too well...

After signing I started leaving discussing something with my lawyer...that I heard dev calling me in the corridors..

He came to me running...I was calm.. I had nothing to do with him anymore...

The lawyer left us alone..

"GEET I wanted to tell you something"

"hmm..."

"I love nandimi...the girl you have seen besides me in the court room..."

"hmm..thatS gud.. all the best to you.."

I was going to leave that dev called my name once agagin

"GEET ...I have had an affair with her for a long time.. even before our breakup... I thot I should let you know.. I don't want you to think that you were at fault.. i...i am sorry...nut I love her..love her to the extent that the most important person of my life jst faded existence in front of her..something I feel for her is ...something I have not felt for you...i am sorry..."

"hmm.."{"I kew it all and now it did not matter but him insulting my feelings and my commitment was something I couldn't take...but I kept mum.."}

And I put my step forward to move

"GEET is it jst hmm you have to say...please GEET talk to me ..we have not spoken for months...we are friends and we can talk..."

"we are not friends dev not anymore..and if want answers.. I knew about your affair months earlier...I thot you would come and tell me the truth yourself... but with the lies and the divorce papers you ended everything..

I don't have anything else to saY to you..jst don't break her heart now...hold her for your entire life...and don't repeat the same mistake ever... Remember truth and trust is all you need"...

End with that said I walked away...I couldn't stand there and see that guilt in his eyes...

I know it all had endeD..i did not wanted him to go through the pain but.. that realization and guilt in his eyes have gave me justice...an unsaid justice.. I know he would regret..and he needs to.. I don't want someone else to be standing at the same place as mine ...

{"what if I haven't got all the happiness but living a life without guilt is much more heavenly... living in a world of lies its beter I livealone and live happy"}

Yours

GEET HANDA

it is sad..any plans to extend the story , you can do it dear.. by introducing maan character
and the love stroy between maan and geet

very nice os there. yes this world is filled with such selfish and coward people.but am sure geet will find her soulmate sooner or later. would like to see how u would take her life forward...hope you add few more updates to this wonderful os.

superb.beautifully written
but missing maan here
i was feeling relieved knowing that it was dev not maan

Originally posted by: lenageorge

superb.beautifully written
but missing maan here
i was feeling relieved knowing that it was dev not maan

Originally posted by: scorpiodreams

very nice os there. yes this world is filled with such selfish and coward people.but am sure geet will find her soulmate sooner or later. would like to see how u would take her life forward...hope you add few more updates to this wonderful os.

Originally posted by: rsusmita

it is sad..any plans to extend the story , you can do it dear.. by introducing maan character
and the love stroy between maan and geet

..hmm..i was thinking the same... but not at the moment.. may be later...i will try..

awesome

Great story. U have just laid a good foundation for an interesting ff. Do give it a shot.