here is a very very short story two people being in love yet they are in pain for their love...
CONFESSIONS OF MY HEART
Everything seems to be blurred , nothing seems to be clear' life has gifted him with such a beautiful gift that he certainly didn't know how to cherish. everything seems be in a great confusion first it was his feelings .. then his commitment and know it is her.. he knew that he is not perfect for a pure and divine soul like her but still life doesn't accompany everything that we feel that we want but it always changes itself with the time' but this time his slight delay can cause him a lifelong loss' loss of her..the failure for his entire life it was just not for him but it will for them.. it will be for her it will be for the little life that had bounded them in a relation that cannot change the fact that when two bodies became one soul they didn't need any conformation because their hearts knew all'
He looked at the broken mirror that was shattered into pieces by him but it didn't left him in any remorse but his eyes glittered with the shine and attachment to someone that he wanted now' she was his and was always but he never understood those unspoken words '.. she was always with him but he never ever thought that life can sometimes be near very near to him and didn't even realize until he found that he was on the verge of loosing what he had in his life'.
Maan quickly grabbed his car keys he didn't want to be late today her mere words that he absolutely took wrong were just for him that he didn't understood in his restlessness and his own self introspection.. she always knew that she was his.. but never ever he gathered courage to look what his mind and heart were indicating at' it was not any kind of attraction or infatuation but it was his love that they shared that day.. it was her trust that made her to loose to him.. it was always him'.
A smile adorned his M shaped lips .. he was quick to get into his car' it was dark almost midnight that maan reached to her place' he wanted to just took her in his arms but ..his all excitement went away seeing the lock'.
Maan sighed in frustration.. he couldn't believe she didn't understood his feelings'. She mistook his words.. he closed his eyes.. he wanted to scream her name' he wanted her in his life.. geet that was his life..but she had left him on some point that he didn't even know'.
agar Tum Mil Jao
Zamana Chod Denge Hum...
maan looked around everything was dark even the sky was getting dark with the heavy rainy clouds gathering.. he closed his eyes for a second..her smile that was a painful experience for him to see her in that pain that he unknowingly had given her was something that torn him apart'..
agar Tum Mil Jao
Zamana Chod Denge Hum...
he just wanted her..her eyes ..her blush ..her warmth everything was his and he couldn't let her to go away that easily though he know that he was wrong but now he needed her more than what he thought.. she was his soul and whatever they shared that night was not any MISTAKE '. He knew that it will take every ounce of his patience that he have to give but strangely he was ready for what she needed'
agar Tum Mil Jao
Zamana Chod Denge Hum...
maan quickly looked at his watch .. he knew she was somewhere in the city .. she cannot go away from him he knew till his heartbeats are there she is there for him .. he just needs to made her his ..just for him'..
maan quickly checked the bus stop' but to his dismay she was not there.. it was deserted' no one was there' he looked at a figure sitting on a bench far ..somewhere he knew that he will find her .. he took quick steps ' but when was about to go.. no one was there.. it was his illusion.. he knew that he did a mistake by letting her go but now he knew that she couldn't leave him when he needed most'.
A tear drop fell from his eyes.. it was for the tears that she had shed thinking that he consider her and their love that night.. those moments of surrender a mistake..a blunder that he did'.
He wanted her to sooth his pain..but unknowingly he was the one who had given her all the pain for this lifetime'..
Tumhe Paakar Zamane Bhar Se
Rishta Tod Denge Hum
Maan had checked all the places where he could find her but she was gone' he lost her' his life suddenly seems to be dull with no meaning.. he just wanted her.. he wanted to make her know that he is there for her ..he wanted to make her feel the moments of love'.
There someone..clenched her dupatta.she was crying from the evening she knew that she was not worthy for him..she was now here in comparison to him but suddenly feeling him so close to her and then letting her love going away from her was something that she couldn't get through'. He was her heart and now he has imprinted himself in her..she was all his and this truth cannot be changed'. The fast speed of train cannot make her dying heartbeat to revive.. their last converstion was running in her mind'.
Agar Tum Mil Jao
Zamana Chod Denge Hum...
agar Tum Mil Jao
Zamana Chod Denge Hum...
that day in KC ' MD's CABIN
maan was restless and anxious in his cabin.. he was so lost in his thought that he didn't see that he was getting continous calls from his clients but he didn't attended any it was not that he didn't want to get disturb but certain thoughts of her in his life was actually making him to loose whatever sanity he is having'
maan looked at the blinds those were closed today.. today he didn't saw her face.. was she upset.. or angry..he didn't know how to handle the situation ' he was confused .. already her thoughts were making him mad day by day and yesterday what he did was completely not acceptable'. He lost it completely' wasn't he should be in deep remorse or something that could justify his behavior of the previous day but no.. he was just having a deep sense of anger ..
maan clenched his fist.. he didn't know how can he loose himself' he was already feeling vulnerable without her presence and now his all the feelings those conflicting thoughts' her one glimpse.. that unknown blush that he felt last night.. the feeling of her silky smooth skin' and most importantly HER .. yes it was SHE..GEET that was making him go insane'.
Maan suddenly without thinking for a second called her to his cabin..
Here she was also in her thoughts that were for him.. with what relation she slept with him.. her conscience questioned him..wasn't she ashamed of herself' how will she justify her action following that reaction of her heart to him.. WHAT WILL YOU SAY TO MAAN SIR GEET' her mind screamed ..deep painful sob wanted to came out' she lost herself to her love..yes she was secretly in love with her boss.. maan sir but why she was.. she was having no right to love him.. she was having no right to dream of something that could make her life a mess'.
Geet was about to go when he called'. She composed herself'. Geet picked up call and then she knew she will have to face him now'
Here maan could not get the courage of seeing her but to face her was much bigger'..
Geet gathered her courage to come.. she was already feeling withered and torn and now to face him was much bigger challenge for her'.
Maan looked at her.. her face was all pale '
Then what they heart was something none of them wanted'.
GEET/ MAAN: I AM SORRY
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Two parts small os.. will post rest of it..may be tomorrow' do leave your comments'.
Mangal Lakshmi
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