Leaving Everything Behind.
I walked in a daze on the roadside thinking about everything that had happened that day.What had i thought and what had actually happened? I had wanted to have a new start,a new beginning,A new life with Maan where my past would be forgotten.I had forgiven Dev but did Maan even try to find out why? No,he just started jumping to conclusions.Did he once think how hard it must have been for me to forgive dev? The man because of whom my entire life was ruined? The man because of whom my family tried to kill me? The man because of whom i had to leave my family and start a new life in an unknown city?It was the hardest decision i ever took.And didn't Maan once think that if i had forgiven Dev there must have been a really big reason behind it? I did it for him,i did it so that we could start a new life.With dev staying with us,I didn't want maan to have to remember what dev did to me everytime he saw him,I didn't want Maan to have to feel he had to live with the burden of hating him,That he had to keep him away from me all the time because it would remind me of bitter memories.I wanted Maan to know that the past was forgotten and it had no place in my present.But Maan is Maan.His anger overrides everything.I could have stayed there even when Maan was doubting me,that hurt but it was bearable.I would have stayed if it weren't for the words that followed,the words that cut through me,the words that burned me,the words that tore every part of my body into pieces and still kept resounding through me.Everything else i could understand but not them words.Afterall,He was a man,not God,even he could have misunderstandings but how could anyone say that to his wife? The person they loved?It was just impossible!! How could he say i had no self respect? If i didn't have self respect,i would have stayed in HP even after my family tried to kill me and still be living a life full of bondages?If i had no self respect i would still be looking for Dev right now. If i had no self respect, When i met Dev on the day of our engagement i wouldn't have slapped him but i would have fallen at his feet and begged him to accept me and our unborn child.But did i?No,so how do i not have self respect,Maan? What do you call self respect?And even Dev had the Khurana blood running through his veins but did that stop him from taking advantage of me?Just because i forgave him,I let him put colour on him doesn't mean i accept him again.Somewhere In my heart,What he did to me will always be there.Forgiving someone doesn't make you smaller and i've just made him repent more.He'll know he ruined a really nice persons life forever.Maan,Im sorry.I've left you.I've broken the promise i gave to you but what could i do?Stay there admist a cloud of misunderstandings and awkwardness? This will be best for us.Maybe this separation will sort out everything itself.But i'll return Maan.Some day,I surely will.My love for you hasn't gone and never will,its eternal.But for now,I have to stay away.
And with that,Geet walked inside the building and faced her fate.Wherever life takes her,She'll follow.Everything depended on god and maybe that was the best way for it.But someday,She'll return to Maan.When his angers gone,their lovestory will continue.And will be talked about for generations.Because of A certain Baby Singh Khurana that was sure to followđłđ
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