these are the last remains of Maan Singh Khurana's bitter feelings.... and i think it was much needed that he went through this for one last time...
i dont know why i dont want to give up on this thought... though the episode gave me immense pain... the fact that he went into that attic room was a sign enough.. to show.. he was all set to add geet to his past... and not let her override him the way other things had tried in the past...
this one's not going to be an easy nut to crack... there for sure are good times ahead...
we were all worried all this while about Geet's past.. and about why she was so worried about not admitting her feelings for maan.. but what we ignored to a large extent was Maan's past and the reason why he is the way he is...
for weeks now he had started to behave like a love sick puppy and we forgot what Maan Singh Khurana was actually made of..
that one smiling picture actually jolted me back to reality...and the fact that... he has a room.. where he puts all these memories locked up .. actually has the answers to all his problems.. and i saw that happening already today...
when he talks about that cycle and falling off it as a kid... Geet answers him back... saying, there is no use threading a path you already know of... life is unpredictable.. you never know what you have in store...
did Maan ever think he would feel that way about another woman? did he ever think... that a girl he loves so much and has been by his side all the time, could turn around and ask him to go away from her? it hasnt been easy on him... infact he has been easy on himself for a while now.. and thats perhaps why he is cursing himself at the moment...
Maan himself knows Geet isnt one of those things in that room.. even when he walks out of it, he knows she will be everywhere... he has made arrangements to send her off, because he knows he may not be able to handle himself with her being around... but will she go? will he actually let her go.. can he see her going?
these are actions of a heart and a man in denial... he is a ghayal sher... !! hence the stubborn childish act...
i have always believed, when a person says... i wanna be alone, he screams from his insides... " Please please please dont go..."
even at this point in time... he is hurting and hurting geet in the process!!
when dadi asks him why he wants to revisit his past he says.. he wants to re-live his past ... why would he want to do that? obviously the pain of losing geet is way more than all those things that have already happened with him already...! he just needs one assurance from her side.. one assurance or a hint for that matter ... that she didnt mean what she actually said...
two wounded hearts ... that only each other can heal.. want to push themselves to that one last bit... to see where it takes them...
i say go ahead...!! cos after this.. when you realise, its not going to help ... both of you would come running back to one another...!!
and yes guys.. watch out.. the confession is very near... i can sense it.. i can already see the silver lining behind that cloud...!! just strain ur eyes a little more... you will see it too..!!
thats my quota for the day...!!
love,
niha