Now they are ripping apart at the seams.
The dense layers of camouflage are being torn apart
to unmask all those piercing wounds.
How am I going to survive?
Again the poking has started to deepen the pores of those wounds.
The turbulence has yet again begun
in the cosmic strain
I am breaking apart
Falling apart
I have to stop myself
I have to save myself
I can't let someone,
Walk in and shake the foundations on which I have built my survival
Oh lord, save me from myself
Save me from my inner demolition
Stop me from the internal combustion
No one can see what I am saving myself from
I can't go through all the pathos again
She is driving me insane
Her presence is tearing my soul apart
No! I will not let it happen
My determination is shook to the core
But I will stop the avalanche
I will stop it with all that I have in my power and arsenal
I will stop myself from being destroyed again
As this time I don't have the strength to come out
Of yet another explosion
As letting someone close to you
And opening your heart
Is nothing
NOTHING
but a self betrayal
Oh my self,
You have walked on shards of broken glass
You have been burnt by coals of raging fires
You have been bitten by venomous snakes
You have been tortured by vermin and bugs
BUT
You have emerged
Emerged out of the mire
The quagmire
The shallow pits
You have locked yourself safe
Protected your inner core
And divined a way
to face opposition and uproot it
You will survive this too
You will not fall prey
You will stay
Nothing can shake you
Please keep alive this illusion
Puzzle it over not
Protect me, preserve me, please let me be
- Maan Sing Khurana
The Departed
People come
People go
You are left behind
Hollow
The Punishment
How can I live with myself
After driving her away
To escape myself
I destroyed her
How can I stand up
When I have crippled her?
To protect myself
I have injured her
The Falling
I have tried to separate
the today from
the yesterday
I have tried
to resist the pull
of past memories
Have I succeeded?
I am like a deranged man
trying to make sense
of this new world
where everything
revolves around you
That is why I am
more than angry
what is this hold you have on me?
- Maan
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