OSR Samyukta Part 40 – Veer abandons the palace
Aryanagar; the palace - Aryavardhan's formal chamber
"Fine ... I shall take ma along... and leave this palace... anyway this place has started suffocating my sentiments... why live under the roof of a household that condones murder of innocent Shramiks and imprisons anyone who assists them... in fact why wait...I shall leave this very night...I am aware of how to support and protect ma by myself!"
Incapable of ending the physical aggression or the heated retaliations between the two brothers despite the use of all their might; the parents are left with little choice but to take a drastic step to arrest the calamity. Aware that her son was mainly culpable for the distasteful episode that evening; the emotional Nivritti realizes that the only means of stopping the disaster once and for all was to punish Veer for it. Though perceptive of the fact that the prince had acted so unruly largely due to his limitless sufferings and hardships; the staggering mother painfully buries her tormented sentiments and proceeds to take control of the situation. Infuriated with her son for having disobeyed her wishes all through and thus brought adversity upon himself, upon her and upon the rest of the family; the breathless queen metes the unsuspecting Veer two forceful slaps. Her unexpected outburst effectively bringing the fisticuffs between the two siblings to a standstill; the rattled Veer turns to question the actions of his mother with pitiable expressions, freshly shattered by her uncompassionate attack on him.
Silently struggling to overcome the inundating despair of her son's hopeless fate; the forlorn queen tries to subdue the tremble in her fingers, as she makes a vehement effort to justify her deed by reminding Veer of his humiliating offences against the family "Don't look at me like that... I had to... to stop the fight...what was so wrong in what Dharam said...you possess such audacity...you raise your voice against the very king who supports you ... you raise your hand on the very brother who always has your best interests at heart... and that too in front of his parents who have raised you..."
Engulfed by both anger and defeat; the intensely sensitive mother yields to the agony of being unable to save her son from his misfortunes and slowly drifts into a state of incoherence. With heartfelt tears subconsciously beginning to pour down her cheeks; the insecure Nivritti continues to take her fury out on the only one who was truly her own, confoundedly muttering random thoughts "What Dharam said is indeed true… what credentials do I have... a lone queen... who lost her husband...her children...and her kingdom to the vicious politics... I was a fugitive...if it were not for my brother's kindness... neither would I be alive today, nor you... we owe them our lives...and you are raising your voice so disrespectfully against such a person..."
Aghast at the unsympathetic outpour from his overwhelmed mother; Veer becomes heartbroken by the unsupportive response of the one person he hoped would understand and stand by him. Oblivious to the buried insecurities eternally lurking in her mind; the harassed young royal starkly disapproves Nivritti's defeatist surrender to her fate "But... how could you show such respect for a king who allowed genocides against his own subjects...he permitted annihilation of the Shramiks!"
Harrowed by how Veer's stubborn attitude could soon cause him to abandon her company, either for the prisons of Aryanagar, or for the bastis of Shramiks; the eccentric queen fails to rationalize the hidden sense in her son's desperate, yet judicious beliefs. Turning increasingly hysterical on ascertaining that her son's relentless empathy with the Shramiks was the cause for his downfall and for all afflictions; the neurotic mother becomes unaware of what she was saying or doing.
Suddenly darting forth to grab her son by his shoulder; the disoriented Nivritti erratically blurts out her hidden vexations, shaking him in frantic manner as she does so "Shramiks... shramiks ...shramiks ... I hate them...Shramiks are all you can think of... for the sake of a few strangers...you are ready to abandon the family that brought you up...I warned you to stay away from them, but you would not listen...and now...all this has happened as a result of your association with them...especially that...Pari... and her daughter...blinded by their influence, you wouldn't make sense of what I have been trying to tell you... you would not agree to my wishes... and you would not sympathize with my state..." she pauses with rage "If you cannot appreciate my feelings, why should I appreciate yours... I shall not come with you...so...go... go and live with the Shramiks in their bastis...by yourself...go live with that old woman...why wait... go ...go now"
Compelled to wrestle with his already stressed state in order to deal with his mother's unreasonable agitation; the exasperated Veer tries to reason with her in a despairing tone, ignorant of the hidden causes for Nivritti's unsound reaction to the critical situation "Ma...are... y... you even aware of what you're saying or doing! Why are you driving me away instead of siding with me... you want me to go away too... is it not enough that I have been abandoned by everyone else...how could I go anywhere without you...and why are you blaming Maaji and Sakshi didi for all of this... I was only supporting the cause of the orphanage..."
Possessed by jealousy on noting how her son pursued with his obstinate sympathy towards the Shramik family in spite of all the tribulations; the rejected mother succumbs to a bout of intense fury. Curtly proceeding to interrupt her son's innocent rationale, Nivritti unwittingly vents out the frustrations that had been buried within her conscience for so long "Veer! You are not worried that you might be facing official punishment for your dealings with the orphanage...you are not concerned that you might be separated from me and your family... but you still continue to care for the future of 'that' family...in spite of everything, how could you still favour them? Fine! Follow your wishes...you are free to live with the Shramiks in their bastis all by yourself...I am not coming with you...so go..." beginning to push him afar; the delirious queen shoves Veer away over and over again till he was cornered to a wall, as she screams her frenzied laments tearfully "What are you waiting for...go on...go...and start life afresh in the bastis... after all that is where you came from...so it is no surprise that palace life suffocates you... this was bound to happen one day... go live with that family ...that's what you want, don't you?"
Extremely bewildered and deeply hurt by his mother's subconscious actions and sentiments; the fazed Veer proceeds to stop Nivritti's rash attempts to shove him away by making a gentle yet firm restraining clasp around her hands. Unable to understand the cause behind her offensive ramblings and reluctant to even delve on the meaning of her frightening accusations; the prince queries Nivritti pitifully, his spirit harshly jolted by the reckless fit "Ma... what are you doing? Why are you making such allegations? Your tone and words are beginning to scare me... what do you mean that this was bound to happen one day...how did you know that we would be leaving the palace...what is all this!"
Following many moments of unnerving stillness, where he receives no acknowledgement from the numb queen; the increasingly worried Veer yells aloud to haul her out of her trance "Ma! What has happened to you..."
While the remaining members in the room continue to watch the episode in dread; the shaken mother hazily comes out of her deluded state, simultaneously striving to comprehend what she had unwittingly uttered in bitterness. Suddenly faced with the helpless fact that she could have divulged more than she ever intended to; the terrified Nivritti ceases her silence with a stuttering reply "N...no...no... I don't think I... I... said... I did not mean... nothing...I don't know..."
Resentfully noticing his mother's attempts to cover up the horrifying accusations and how she seemed inept at explaining the reasons for her recent outburst; the disappointed Veer questions her in escalating panic "Ma! Are you hiding something... please comfort me by letting me know that at least 'you' have not been lying to me...that at least 'you' have not been misguiding me for so long... I have been lied to by so many already... I shall not be able to withstand such grief anymore..."
Remaining gripped in fear of how the impending consequences of her blunder could destroy the young prince irreversibly; the terrorized mother mentally races through ways and means to rectify her error, but to no avail. Incapable of stopping the tears commencing to flow down her cheeks; the cornered Nivritti stammers with a feeble response "No...no... Veer... I was not in my senses...I do not know what I was stating...or what I was exclaiming...you 'have' to believe me..."
Perceiving the appalling guilt in her expressions and the unconvincing tone in her replies; many shades of pallor begin coating his distressed face, as the astute royal instantly realizes that his mother refused to confess the facts. Unable to accept the reality that the person he held dearest to him was now refusing to confide in him too; Veer proceeds to reveal his dismay, tightening the clench around her quivering palms while he does so "Ma! What is it that you are trying to withhold from me...why do you continue to keep information from me too...I...I... know that you have a secret...I heard you the other day, while you were lamenting in your prayer chamber... you said that my affiliation with the Shramiks had something to do with my birth... you have always been fazed by this subject...I have noticed it many times over, but remained silent out of respect for your feelings... what have you been hiding from me, ma..."
Crumbling under the steadily looming misery of losing her son to the dismal reality of his Shramik origins; the devoted mother erupts into profuse bouts of sobs, desperately fighting the need to disclose the truth "No I am not hiding... or lying... I harbour no secret...you have to believe me... you 'have' to... 'have' to... 'have' to... you 'have' to..."
Having been a profoundly worried audience of the intensifying turmoil between the loving pair so long; the rest of the family find themselves unable to stay out of the sensitive issue between parent and child anymore. Darting each other tense glimpses; Dharam, Arayvardhan and Swathi swiftly forgo their restrained stance and hurry forth to curtail the situation from worsening any further.
Approaching the collapsed figures of mother and son; the ruling monarchs speak up with escalating apprehension, frantically offering advice as they do so
"Veer, my son... she meant nothing..."
"Nivritti has been deeply worried about your problems all these days and her disgruntlements have given way to such an outpour, that's all...you would never know how a mother feels..."
"Enough Veer... enough of all this childishness...you are angry with me...stop harassing bua to let out your frustrations!"
"Nivritti... let us forget about all of this for now... this is getting us nowhere..."
"We are all tired...troubled...and vexed...we can persevere with the talks next morning, if needed..."
Continuing to disregard the supportive stance of the concerned family surrounding him; the choked Veer pursues with his barrage at his mother; his tone now amplified to that of feverish vehemence "Ma...I am exhausted of being fibbed to by everyone...I cannot let go of this subject now...what is it... what information were you about to disclose... how did you know that one day we would go and live with the Shramiks...why ma...do we not belong to this palace...or do we not belong to this family ... or are you not a queen from the kingdom of Dhanav... or are you not a queen...are you not an aristocrat at all...what is it...ma... tell me..."
Observing the relentless silence and ongoing trauma on the queen's emotional face; the miserable prince is forced to harbour fears of the worst scenarios and the most terrifying possibilities regarding his reality. Eventually incapable of withstanding his torment any further; the tearful prince takes a severe measure to extract a confession from the wailing mother. Grabbing her hand to place it on his head, Veer proclaims a terrible pledge "Ma...I swear... I swear to God at this very moment... destiny shall take my life away, if you continue to deceive me..."
Petrified of the fateful repercussions of his drastic curse; the distraught Nivritti bawls aloud in disapproval "No... Veer... don't say that...please...please..."
Just as her inconsolable son overlooks her pleas and lets go of her hands; the overwrought queen becomes fearful of the dire step that he might take and grabs on to his sleeve to deter his departure "I...I...I...don't want you to leave me...please...Veer..."
Imminently realizing that the prince was stubbornly adhering to his will and proceeding to leave her vicinity; the desolate mother slowly falls on her knees and weeps uncontrollably, as she feels coerced to accept defeat. Compelled to resign to fate after sixteen torturous years of having guarded the intrigue; the ravaged Nivritti ultimately unleashes the momentous secret buried within her conscience, amidst spells of heavy sobs "What...what do you want me to say...I am Nivritti... sister of Maharaj Aryavardhan of Aryanagar... I was married into the kingdom of Dhanav and then exiled...I lost my husband and all my children... I am all of what you stated...but 'you' are not... you are not a 'Rajkumar'...is that what you willed to know..." pausing to note how the revolting truth finally forced the grievous Veer to stop in his tracks; the crushed queen concludes painfully "No... you are not my son...not born to me...I adopted you Veer..."
Instantly rendered immobile by his disastrous encounter with a reality that he had not foreseen; the prince begins to feel engulfed by a sunken emotion of desolation, as he commences to weigh the horrid significance of his mother's words. Oppressed by new depths of intolerable suffering that he never knew existed, the hapless Veer painfully discovers any feeling of warmth that he derived from life, gradually extinguishing itself. Suddenly possessed by a crippling fear of uncertainty; the forsaken prince mentally curses the Lord for annihilating him over and over again, the appalling secrets of the person that he trusted the most, having effectively obliterated his essence.
Gradually losing his battle to disbelieve the truth, tears begin gushing down his fatigued eyes; leaving the demoralized Veer deaf to his kin's staggering reactions and insensitive to the queen's vain attempts at explaining the past. With the serene surroundings of his home commencing to appear uncomfortable and the only people he ever knew starting to seem like strangers; the prince remains absolutely unaware of his family's ongoing exploits to reconcile the unbelievable situation.
Utterly shaken by the scandalous events that had unfolded so far; the remaining members continue with distraught efforts to urgently resolve the ghastly episode, unable to accept the outrageous words blurted by the forlorn Nivritti. While the ruling monarchs fail to come to terms with everything that was transpiring; the shattered Dharam remains in utter disbelief of the confessions, his initial shock now transformed to a profound disgust of the statements made by his aunt.
"Nivritti stop uttering nonsense... take back everything that you just said..."
"Bua...I pray please stop...forgive me for saying so, but you are not thinking coherently...please do not say such things ever again... Veer... is yours...Veer is ours..."
"Nivritti you are too traumatized, you do not know what you are talking about... such inauspicious words do not suit this household...stop it now..."
"Bua... tell Veer... tell Veer that you are lying...tell Veer that you only said so because you were angry with him... that you did not mean all that you just said..."
However; remaining wholly oblivious to the raucous around him; the enfeebled prince stands in deathly silence, incapacitated by a petrifying truth stated by his mother that he would never be able to reconcile with. Following a considerable while of apathy; the paralyzed Veer subconsciously suspends his prolonged stupor and proceeds to walk up to Nivritti coldly.
Sinking on the floor beside her; the lifeless royal eventually ceases his restraint and begins to question the queen meekly "Ma... are you trying to say that this home is not mine?"
Incapable of putting her son out of his woes; the inconsolable Nivritti closes her face and cries to herself in silence; while the prince hastily turns to point towards the exit of the quarters, as he continues on a faint note "Ma...are you trying to imply that these corridors that I used to run along, do not belong to me... these gardens...the palace ... none are mine..."
His listless sight incidentally falling upon the royal armlet adorning his wrist; the ashen Veer indicates towards the ornament, as he enquires aridly "Ma... do you mean that I have no right over this...this ... royal bracelet..." not waiting for a reaction from the heartbroken Nivritti; the demeaned royal progresses to feverishly tug at the ornament in order to remove it from his wrist, muttering to himself agitatedly "Oh! This has been around my arm for so long now it refuses to come out..."
Subsequently managing to extract the bracelet from his wrist; the fazed prince throws the jewellery away and then swings around to observe the horrified faces of the ruling family, the metallic sounds of his discarded armlet still clanging in the background.
Signalling towards his weeping aunt; the pale royal queries the queen numbly "Ma... is she not my mami...is this family not mine..."
Commencing to languish in dejection; the devastated Veer asks her exasperatedly, bearing no nerve to resign to the unacceptable facts of his existence "Why...ma... do I not belong even to 'you'...even 'you' are not mine...no... no...that can't be true... I am your child... I want to be yours alone...I cannot believe otherwise...why didn't you continue lying to me...why couldn't you have kept this secret from me forever... I cannot accept another family to be mine...I don't want to be anyone else's son..."
Extremely concerned by her son's deplorable state; the pitiful mother moves forward to hold his fatigued visage tenderly and refutes her son's conclusion in a vain attempt to pacify him "Don't say that Veer... I am yours and yours only... you are mine...and me yours...nothing shall change that!"
His mother's earnest assurances barely having any effect on the grave wounds that he was sporting; the prince collapses in exhaustion and completely breaks down, crying aloud in anguish, as he ultimately shifts his gaze towards the tearful face of his brother.
Possessed by misery; the frenzied prince staggers up and strides towards his grief-stricken sibling with a fake air of elegance before addressing him, swinging in between heartfelt tears and hysterical fits of laughter while doing so "Dharam... Dharam... do you remember... in anger... earlier today... I had mentioned that you were not my brother... can you believe that it turned out to be true..."
Increasingly pained to watch the deteriorating condition of his younger brother; the crown prince hastily retorts with concern "Do not be silly Veer... you are my sibling and shall always remain so..." strongly resenting the unending tragedy; the frenzied Dharam wipes his tears and rushes towards the slumped persona of Nivritti, beginning to accost her in the futile hope that she would revoke her stories and amend facts "Bua... please put an end to all of this...now...please, I implore you...enough damage has been done...please speak up... please tell him that all this is a lie...after all, he is your only son... my only brother...why are you making up such tales...what do you gain out of all this..."
Already inundated by her son's agony; the destitute Nivritti becomes tired of the blame and afflictions that she was being subjected to by one and all. Looking up to stare at her nephew with stark indifference; the pale queen proceeds to correct him, any morale she had possessed having deserted her being long ago "Why Dharam... why would you think that I would make all of this up...do you think that there has been a single day go by, where I did not ardently wish to alter the past...but I cannot Dharam...I cannot...he is Pari's son...and... and that is a fact!"
Niphaud; the palace – the dining chamber
The warm sunlight having brought about a lustrous aura with it; the aristocratic gathering seated within the splendid enclosures of the regal dining hall, enjoy the uplifting temperament of the beautiful daytime. In accordance with the refreshing morning appearance of the banqueting chamber; the preparations for the early feast are immaculately laid out, reflected by the aroma of delicious food wafting through and the lively bustling of joyous ladies.
Attending to every need and want of the exalted audience; a handful of personal maids carrying colossal platters of delicacies, sway in and out of the curvaceous arched entrances, dutifully serving their monarchs at the time of the morning meals. Adding to the radiant ambience that the day had to offer; soft music of stringed instruments being played by notable musicians resonates through the luxurious expanses, obliging the royal family with entertainment in the course of the feast. However, unmindful of the lovely melodies or the rustling of the maids around them; the ruling family of Niphaud continue to relish the presence of one another during the seemingly short while that they had together at their private morning meals. Partaking of the sumptuous delicacies arranged on their golden plates; the close knit trio of the king, queen and their daughter simultaneously indulge in laughter and chatter, all through.
Savouring the large portion of sweetmeat that he had been munching for a while now; the content king eventually decides to interrupt the princess' ongoing dedicated remarks in support of her own kingdom, Niphaud. Clearing his throat loudly; the affable Janardhan proceeds to correct his daughter, his words muffled by the large morsel still stuffed within his mouth "No... no...S...Siya... Aryanag is a far b...bigger kingdom than Niph... they have f...far greater m...military might..."
Oblivious to how his amused daughter and the humoured maids; were beginning to forcibly curtail their giggles at the hilarious yet lovable mumbling of his words; the innocent father continues affectionately "The problems that the monarchs of Aryanag face might be m...manifold of what we ever face here... r.. revolts... the... threat from surroundi k...kingdoms...p...politics... t...tax..." he pauses to finally gulp down the appetizing sweet before concluding "Siya...you should learn to be aware of all these issues...after all, you shall soon become queen..."
Increasingly embarrassed by her husband's antics and the girls' reactions to his funny conduct; the august queen intercedes in a refined manner to subtly control the situation, joining in with sensible counsel "True Siya...you are to be married to a prince, who would eventually become the ruling monarch of a large kingdom... for a king, commitment towards his kingdom comes first... as the wife of a leader, you must learn to respect that... and many other truths too..."
Able to discern a hint of pride in her daughter's abashed smile; the perceptive Gauri lets out a soft grin and then pauses for a brief while, before continuing her advice on a more serious note "This is just an example Siya...but look at my instance...as a queen, I had to accept the truth that my family's preferences could change the fate of two kingdoms... I have never received any replies from Vaidehi for any of my messages or apologies, ever since we broke off relationship with her son, the prince of Chatarpur ...did you see how a single decision has changed the fate of both Niphaud and Chatarpur, making them hostile territories forever... hence, one must show wisdom in making choices and judgements Siya..."
Taking an instant to brush off the momentary grief of having lost the friendship of a childhood companion; the pragmatic queen swiftly pursues with her insightful remarks "Siya, you must realize not only to be supportive, but be brave too... as a monarch, Yuvraj Dharam's tasks would require him to set out on many dangerous paths in future... but never use emotions to influence him against following his duties..."
Heeding from her mother's progressing guidance, the significant words about the perils involved in a king's life; the demure Siya is reminded of how she was compelled to witness the distressing attack on her prince during their return from the Shramik wedding in Aryanagar. Shuddering in dismay on being unpleasantly fronted with recollections of the ghastly scenes; the princess subsequently suppresses her fears by reminding herself of how she had promised Dharam to remain boldly supportive of him in all ventures. The thoughts on the episode inadvertently hurling her into a myriad of silent concerns on the wellbeing of her absent prince; the worried girl mulls to herself apprehensively "Yes, you are right ma...I have to learn to accept the perils involved in the yuvraj's life... and not perils alone...but his obligations and responsibilities too...in fact, following his ascent to the post of crown prince, it seems like the yuvraj has become wholly engrossed with official matters...so much so that ever since our betrothal two weeks ago...I have neither heard of any news from him... nor received any messages from him...even though he had promised to write to me...I wonder why..."
Suddenly drawn from her speculation on noticing her parents' concerned expressions at her prolonged silence; the thoughtful princess proceeds to assure them of her interest in their statements by flashing them a coy smile. No sooner than the protective monarchs receive the welcome acknowledgement from their daughter; they return her smiles with affectionate grins and resume their discussions on the subject of her marriage with renewed fervour.
However, barely managing to remain attentive to their long drawn instructions for a short spell; the preoccupied Siya becomes gradually reabsorbed by the musings that had been increasingly perturbing her off late "I hope everything is all right at Aryanagar...I miss you Yuvraj... and I feel worried too... these nightmares... these thoughts... why do they keep coming to haunt me...will everything be fine... oh Lord...these troubling contemplations of mine never seem to end...anyway, I shall be coming to Aryanagar for the Lakshmi Pooja...I shall find out for myself in two days time..."
The momemtous night of the revelation…
Hear ye... the far reaching aftermath of the shattering secrets revealed by a mother so desperate-
that separated a young sibling from brethren so destroyed...
that separated a son from a family so pillaged...
but, most of all that separated an offspring from a queen so isolated!
Hear ye... the far reaching aftermath of the disgrace brewing through gossip so scandalous-
that stole the dignity from a young man so demeaned...
that stole the prince from a palace so plundered...
but, most of all that stole the spark and soul of a youth so wasted!
Aryanagar; the capital – The streets
Dear mother
Forgive me for taking this drastic decision, but I was left with little choice. With all palace inhabitants soon learning of my reality, staying in the palace as prince would not have been possible. Yet, bidding a formal farewell to you, mami or Dharam would have been too painful for me. Hence, I had to take the unhappy measure of leaving the palace with none aware, hoping that you would respect my need to be alone at this point of time in my life. I take nothing along, apart from the memories that this cherished household has given me.
As I seem to be in contempt of everyone I know, I am not aware of how far I would be successful in defending the institutions from destruction or proving my innocence at the court. In the event that I fail to do so, mother; I would want you to remain bold for my sake, just as I know you to have always been.
You may let the Maharaj know that at any time that I shall be required for interrogation and word spread across the streets of the capital through royal messengers; he shall find me present at the court, obeying his orders. After all, where can this castaway go...none further than the boundaries of the only home he ever knew, Aryanagar.
Yours truly,
Veervardhan
The wordings from his parting scroll still freshly etched on his conscience; the defeated warrior perseveres with his vagrant stroll into the rustic alley, the chilling scenes from the night that just passed by stubbornly refusing to leave his scarred memory. Fatigued by the long journey that had begun at midnight; the dazed youth remains barely conscious of his aimlessly evolving travel through paltry lanes; the intense rays of the mid morning sun gradually sapping any little reserve of energy that he bore. Limping across rural pathways that were rarely frequented by the commoners of Aryanagar; the dazed young man endeavours to stay away from prying gazes, unenthusiastic about meeting anyone and unaware of where he was headed to.
The unpleasant surroundings of inferior landscapes and poverty-stricken scenes having no effect on him; the youth stays oblivious to how recent misfortune had transformed his aristocratic grace into dishevelled ruggedness overnight. Considering himself discarded by his family, feeling cheated by his loved ones and bearing no hope for his bleak future; the homeless Shramik remains strongly unwilling to delve on the aftermath that his uninformed departure during the night might have caused within the palace walls.
"Dharam, why is Veer so startled... I shared all of my fears with you, a few days ago... you knew that the orphanage would be exposed...I warned you that Veer could be implicated in the monetary scandal... instead of protecting Veer, you just kept everything to yourself...you did not tell him about the tragedy 17 years ago... you even knew of my relationship with Shera...you both blame others of dividing you... but, you both are in disharmony yourselves!" "If not for my brother's kindness... neither would I be alive today, nor you... we owe them our lives... If you cannot appreciate my feelings, why should I appreciate yours... I shall not come with you... go and live with the Shramiks in their bastis by yourself ...go live with that old woman...that is where you came from...it is no surprise palace life suffocates you... this was bound to happen one day...you are not a 'Rajkumar'...you are not my son..."
Taking yet another unknown turn and wandering pointlessly through yet another sparsely populated street; as the young man continues to endlessly wallow in the suffocating grief, his languishing thoughts are abruptly shaken by a curt shove of his left shoulder. Subsequently turning his disinterested glance to gauge the cause of the jostle; the young Shramik discovers the brusque faces of three huge men staring down upon him with angry glares.
Barely drawn out of his trance; the preoccupied youth is reluctantly compelled to front the wrath of a gruff commoner who begins yelling aloud while simultaneously pointing towards the rear of a small shack "Hey you...can you not watch where you're going... as you walked past, you knocked off a pitcher of water sitting on the step...at the backyard of my shop..." subjected to a sudden disrespectful jab by the stranger, the youth is then meted orders impolitely "Why are you standing and staring at me... you are a young man... have you no manners... apologize now...have your parents taught your nothing..."
Pausing for a short while to stare at the observer; the young Shramik proceeds to offer a listless apology, too overwrought by grief to pay heed to such trivial issues "I am sorry... I did not mean to..."
Shortly interrupting the admission with loud sighs; the three ruffians mock at the lone youth with abusive sneers, before the blunt villager speaks up with an offensive retort "What? I could barely hear you..."
Hoping to end the needless parley as soon as possible; the young man repeats his apology in a louder tone, finding himself in no state to endure or refute the immature discourtesy of the ungracious commoners "I said I am sorry..."
Heeding their victim's reinstated admission; the hostile threesome cast each other ugly glances, silently resolving to make use of the situation in their favour and thus avail the opportunity for some freely available assistance. Not content at having exacted petty revenge; they pursue with their harassment of the lone Shramik, as another uncouth man from the mob follows his friend's nasty conduct by dictating an additional instruction tersely "Now go... and replace the broken pot...fetch a fresh pot of water...you can then compensate for our loss by offering us your services in our shop for the whole of today...we might think of letting you go, after that..."
Following their demanding taunts; the unruly crowd restlessly await a reaction from their victim for a few moments, but only discern a strangely persistent stillness haunting the midst of their awkward gathering. Watching how the peculiar youth continued to remain unresponsive to their commands and absorbed in his thoughts; the impatient men move forth to nudge him into providing an answer.
No sooner than the boisterous group are about to raise their hand on him once again, the provoked youth finally retaliates by raising his palm to stop them in their tracks, his assertiveness and flair still evident in spite of the adversities he was undergoing. Unused to such disrespect; the offended young man proceeds to convey his assailants a stern caution "Stop! Who do you think you are addressing!"
Simultaneously reaching for the side of his crumpled cotton tunic; the youth tries to grab the handle of his sword out of vigilant habit, only to dismally apprehend that he now carried neither the hilt nor the weapon generally tucked within it. Just as the numb youth apprehends the troubling reality; he is curtly forced to abandon his subconscious actions with the sudden exclamations uttered by one onlooker. Slowly looking up to glimpse at the reason behind the startled shriek; the disinterested young Shramik stares at the face of the jittery villager, remaining unmoved by the expressions of mounting panic on his ashen face.
Continuing to fixedly staring at the youth that they had been troubling so far; the tense commoner takes a few hesitant steps behind, stuttering in disbelief as he does so "R...r...rajkumar Veer... w...we did not r...recognize you...we are sorry..."
As the two remaining ruffians swiftly grow to realize that the observation of their friend was indeed true; the terrified trio gradually begin retracting their pace, daunted by the repercussions of their mindless actions. Though shocked by how an imposing prince that used to guard Aryanagar atop a majestic horse and powerful retinue not so long ago, was now roaming their lanes like a vagrant; the men bear no nerve to persist any exchanges with a warrior whose reputation for might, preceded him. Fearing for their lives; the nervous brutes decide to return the forlorn Veer his solitude as soon and possible and stagger and stumble in their strife to seek a hasty exit from the scene, thus leaving the depressed youth to his self-imposed confinement once again.
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Having been consistently entranced by depression and desolation for an infinite spell of time; the pale Veer feels slowly forced to snap out of his pessimistic notions only when he senses the overpowering feeling of thirst now scorching his throat. Looking up at the skies to notice that it was nearing dusk; the lost young man apprehends that he had been preoccupied by the shattering illusions for nearly an entire day. The pounding noon rays having parched his voice and the absence of food for two days having incapacitated him; the ravaged young Shramik finally resolves to address his physical concerns. Unsuccessfully scanning the unfamiliar surroundings in search of a water source for a few moments; Veer decides to desert the narrow lane he had been traversing on and takes the turn at a corner to resume his journey on a wider pathway.
Hoping that the large street might have a water-well; the weary youth falters past shoddy shacks for a considerable while; before he eventually manages to catch sight of a water-well, a moderate distance away. Relieved at the thought of being able to quench his thirst; Veer wipes his sweat-laden brows and begins to accelerate his steps towards the lone reservoir, smirking at the fate that had reduced him to such a state. However; when barely a few yards away from the reservoir, the reclusive Shramik suddenly notes the unwanted company of another crowd concurrently approaching the well and brings his pace to a gradual halt, debating on whether to advance or not.
Simultaneously having marked the arrival of the apparently attractive young man standing a short distance from them; the group of beautiful Shramik girls dart each other coy glances, wondering about the unfamiliar youth about to use their well. As they continue moving towards the well; the chirpy girls swiftly understand from his aloofness that the young Shramik was unwilling to approach the reservoir in their midst and break out into abashed smiles, amused by Veer's endearing silence. Chattering to each other all along; the vivacious party arrive at the platform and begin to draw the water from the well, deftly passing the pitchers around at the same time. Commencing to relish the refreshing water by drinking it and splashing it on their faces; the bevy of girls indulge in bouts of gossip and giggles, while continuing to remain quietly intrigued by the withdrawn presence of the ruggedly handsome youth all through.
Unhappily aware that he was the subject of their conversations; the listless Veer resolutely stares at the ground below in staunch defiance of the obvious gazes being darted in his direction. Eventually apprehending that the group of girls did not seem ready to evacuate the reservoir anytime soon; the displeased youth makes the unfavourable choice of leaving the area with his thirst still unquenched.
Lifelessly beginning to retrace his steps; the fatigued Veer swings around and starts his progress in the other direction, the entire scenario at the water well having brought many undesirable buried memories about the enthralling petite back to his mind
"Hmmm the water from this well actually tastes sweet...
So, why are you gazing at me like that Ananya? Are you trying to impress me?
Forgive my insolence Rajkumar Veer, but why would I 'try' to impress you? I don't think I even have to 'try', do I?"
"Shera, my companion...she discovered the forbidden realities of the orphanages...she acted so helpless that you became blinded by her charm, despite being aware that she caused you trouble in the past... she tried to entice you, when she knew she was someone else's.... why are you possessive of her...she is 'my' slave... what was your relationship with her?"
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The drive to stay alive for the sake of the defenceless orphans being the only force fighting the losing battle against hunger, sleep and exhaustion; the enfeebled youth pursues with his speculations on where he should spend the night without raising much alarm. Hugging his arms close by to ward off the cold; the vulnerable young man casts blank glimpses around him to survey the unacquainted turnings and lanes, wondering if it was weakness that was making him feel so chilly since the evening. His visions now starting to progressively blur; the few concerns that he held for his health finally manage to overcome the trauma having clouded the mind of the youth so long, as he races through ideas in his fazed mind on the ideal spot to settle for the night.
Scrambling on with his aimless stroll; the drained Veer tiresomely marches for a while longer, till each step begins to become far more laborious than the previous one. Nevertheless; just as the misfortunate youth feels as though he was nearing the verge of collapse, fate favours him, when he unexpectedly discerns distant sounds of what seemed like the resonance of melody.
Pausing for a moment to concentrate on the rhythms; the pale Veer quickly fathoms the beauteous music be a devotional song in the local dialect being recited at a holy place, thus receiving the much needed ray of hope that would uplift his oppressed self "Such beautiful Bhajan! Finally...a Shramik temple...yes that would be ideal...they wouldn't ask me too many questions... they would definitely give me some water... maybe some food too...and possibly allow me to spend the night there..."
Aryanagar; the capital – Inside a humble dwelling
With the refreshing beams of the morning sun falling upon his ghostly visage, the worn out youth crinkles his eyes in defence of the strong rays compulsively rousing him from his slumber. Yielding to the urge of fighting the need to wake up; Veer groggily attempts to toss away from the disturbing sunlight, when creaking noises from the rickety cot that he was laying on successfully manage to drag him out of his trance.
Proceeding to open his eyes in haste; the unaware youth takes a few moments to study his hazy surroundings; trying to focus on vague outlines of what appeared like muddy walls and a thatched roof. Eventually deducing his vaguely familiar vicinity to be the humble abode of a Shramik; the alarmed Veer swiftly toils to understand how and why he was resting in the unexpected locale of a commoner's dwelling. Seeking to resolve his temporary state of oblivion; the perplexed youth strives to come to his senses; when he finds his attention subsequently grabbed by the familiar voice of a lady, hovering from not very far "How are you feeling r...rajkumar Veer...I hope you rested well..."
Just as the bewildered Veer turns around to view the source of the voice; he notices the known silhouette of the gracious Shramik mother approaching him with a dented plate of food in her hand and a pleasant smile on her lips.
Waging a formidable battle within her conscience; the distressed mother restrains herself from displaying any emotions on the now widely-known secret to prevent causing her already harassed son any further discomfort. Halting beside the confounded young man; the affable Pari gently helps him comfortably sit up on the cot, while she progresses to sit on the floor beside him. Observing his lifeless stares; the mother feels perturbed by the ongoing apathy of the young Shramik and not knowing how else to broach conversation, begins by casually updating him with events from the previous night "Rajkumar Veer...I had stayed back at the temple last evening in order to recite a few bhajans... when I stepped out, I found you lying in a corner...you had probably passed out...I then requested a few men at the temple to help me bring you home ... it was only after coming here that I recognized the person to be you...due to your attire...I... I had not identified you initially..."
Pausing for a brief while in anticipation of a reaction to her statements; the lady feels concerned on observing nothing apart from a persistently dispirited silence in the generally vivacious youth. Hoping to put the speechless Veer at some ease; the anxious Pari enquires affectionately "Rajkumar Veer...have you not eaten for long...here...I have brought some food for you..."
Having been unresponsive to the mother's caring gestures so long; the emotional Veer continues to remain unable to come to terms with how destiny had dragged him back to the very place and people associated with the unacceptable realities of his birth. Still finding himself mentally averse to the truth; the young man stays defiantly silent in response to any of the posed questions "No... I am Nivritti's son and her son alone...I cannot believe otherwise...I... I am her child... I cannot accept another family to be mine...I don't want any other family to be mine..."
Unnerved by the prolonged awkwardness persevering between them; the worried Pari aspires to evoke some expression from him, as she decides to inform the reticent youth of the commotions triggered in the capital ever since the discovery of his absence "Yuvraj Dharam... ranima... maharaj... all of them have been frantically searching for you since daybreak yesterday...soldiers, attendants and messengers have been touring the capital in the look out for you...they came here numerous times enquiring about your whereabouts too...in fact, Yuvraj Dharam is spending a great amount of time and effort seeking you... they are all extremely worried...obviously, since I only discovered your presence very late last night, I have not been able to inform anyone yet."
Wrestling with her feelings to put on an aura of optimism; the selfless mother concludes her statements with sensible advice on the delicate state of affairs, gallant enough to bury her own pain while desiring the best for her son "Don't worry Rajkumar...at first, please have some food to gain your strength ... I shall then send the message to ranima... the soldiers shall come to pick you up... you must return to your home soon..."
Just as the lady dotingly indicates towards the plate she had been holding on to for so long; the inconsolable Veer eventually ceases his silence to utter a sullen retort "I have no home..."
Feeling increasingly angst by the state of aloofness that her son was going through; the saddened Pari tries to pacify him softly "Please don't say that...Rajkumar Veer"
Pursuing with his distant manner towards her; the demoralized Shramik disapproves the mother's display of regard and respect for him "Please don't address me by that title... it does not suit me anymore!"
Comprehending the extent to which the once powerful prince had been devastated by the exposure of the reality; the downcast Pari feels helpless at being unable to draw him from the pangs of depression. Filled with regret at being ignorant of how to alleviate his woes; the apologetic mother attempts to convince the morose son once again, her voice choked with emotion as she does so "All of this is my fault...I probably should not have come and complained to you in that fashion... I am sorry...I apologize for everything...but, please don't give up hope... nothing will change... you should return to the palace...you have a noble family that dotes over you so selflessly..."
Instantly brushing off the optimism in her beliefs; the anguished Veer grimly opposes the advice being given to him, the string of deceptions having made him recklessly bitter "No...this world is a selfish place... 'you' did not want me... 'ma' only needed me to have the comforting presence of a child after losing her family and so she adopted me...why did you even have to let go of me in the first place..." bringing his unpleasant grudges to an abrupt pause; the detached youth finally amasses the will to meet eyes with the heavyhearted Pari for a few moments. Unhappily gazing at the sign of heartrending tears beginning to whelm her eyes; his resentful manner marginally tones down, as the spiritless Veer pursues on a rueful note, unwittingly starting to feel disturbed about his inappropriate demeanour towards her "Maaji, all those instances that you helped me ... took care of me... invited me for the wedding... showered me with love and concern... was it only because you knew what my relation to you was...would you have cared for me otherwise..." he looks away pitiably "I feel as though I belong to none..."
Immensely hurt by her son's judgements; the agonized Pari tearfully progresses to correct his opinions of her by reminding him of facts "Rajkumar Veer! If you must know, there has not been a single day that I have not pined for you... I let go of you, because that was the only means I knew to keep you alive..." pausing her defensive stance; the magnanimous mother swiftly reminds herself of the intense gloom that the youth was already facing and alters her tone to a more sympathetic one, not wanting to cause him anymore woe "You say such words because you are very angry... your anger is justified... but please do not think such of your own mothers... neither ranima...nor me... only we both would know the pain and suffering that we have been undergoing everyday of our lives for the past sixteen years!"
Attending to the lady's forlorn clarifications; the young Shramik is gradually humbled into feeling guilty about the pointless hurt he was causing her. Quietly growing to accept his immature handling of the sensitive circumstances; the culpable youth resolves to apologize for his behaviour and wipes the tears clouding his eyes. Subduing his reserve; the young man proceeds to begs her pardon, the meek frown on his face being a marginal consolation when compared to the phases of grave depression that he seemed to be shrouded in "Forgive me for my ungratified conduct...it is impudent of me to be taking out my frustrations on you... you have suffered enough...it is only that after losing what was dearest to me for sixteen years... accepting the new reality seems very difficult."
Encouraged by the change in his approach towards the hapless issue; the uplifted Pari is about to respond to the earnest admittances, when the sombre youth interrupts her with an unexpected stint of actions, a simple effort to make up for his follies. Progressing to descend from the cot and resume a seat on the muddy floor beside the lone woman; the young Shramik indicates towards the plate in her hand, as he faintly requests her consent to partake of its contents.
Extremely pleased by a gesture that she had not foreseen; the gladdened woman readily indulges him by advancing the platter towards him. No sooner than he receives the plate from the loving Pari; the starved Shramik zealously begins feasting on large morsels of the humble food with evident fervour, driven by both; the urge to oblige the wronged mother and the need to feed his ravaged body. As the warmhearted Pari eventually decides to remain quiet and watch her son with motherly gratification, Veer scours through the tasty items of food; intermittently gulping down water from a small pitcher sitting beside him.
Discovering his plate emptied in a comparatively short spell of time; the young Shramik grows to realize how delicious the meal seemed to his ravenous appetite and how hungry he still felt. Contemplating for a few moments; the famished Veer ultimately overcomes his inhibitions and dabs the few drops of tears still fogging his sight, before looking up to feebly implore the lady of the house "Maaji... may I have some more rotis...or any food, for that matter... that is, if you have some to spare...I have not eaten in two days..."
Finding herself instantly elated by the sudden yet welcome change in the youth's attitude; the appreciative Pari dries her tears with the corner of her veil and chooses to act upon his wishes straightaway. Arising from her seat; the enthusiastic woman rushes towards the modest kitchen at one corner of the dwelling and hastily forages through the meagre set of utensils to salvage anymore edibles that she could find. Excited by the prospect of feeding her hungry son homemade food; Pari quickly arranges the collected items of food onto a fresh plate and then dashes back to join Veer, before handing him the new plate tenderly.
Profoundly moved by the mother's benevolent love that contradicted his harsh mutterings not so long ago; the transformed Veer briefly smiles at her with gratitude and then receives the fresh plate in order to commence his next round of meal.
Silently indulging in the modest portions of food while pondering on a spectrum of confounding thoughts for a long while; the affected youth eventually manages to muster some courage to reveal his heartfelt feelings on the subject to his quiet observer "N...n...now I understand why I... I... I felt so different... so e...elevated... whenever I...I met you... and Sakshi didi...it was destiny indeed!" looking up at her with hesitance, the sentimental Veer continues sadly "B...But... maaji... whenever I utter the word 'ma' her face is the first thing that comes to mind... I have always looked upon Dharam as my 'brother'...how am I to forgo all of that overnight..."
Just as the understanding woman is about to furnish her suggestions on the matter; the cheerless Veer resumes his speech with a set of dispirited clarifications, unaware that he was not giving the mother a chance to talk "I understand that you want me to go back to the palace, since you think it is best for me... but, tell me maaji...how could I accept the service of my maids when everyone knows, I am one of them... the ministers... Jai mama... Agni...all of them would make my life living hell... how could I survive amidst the constant taunts and glares..." he pauses wistfully, as he simultaneously wraps up his meal "I argued for rights of the entire population of downtrodden Shramiks...then, would it not be hypocritical for me alone to enjoy the luxuries of palace life..." ending his inferences with a steadfast pledge; the strong-willed youth nods his head in a mark of determination "No...even if ma, Dharam or mami request me to, I shall never be able to go back and live in the palace... ever..."
Having completed the simple yet satiating edibles through the course of his musings; the young Shramik lets out a deep breath and demonstrates the end of his surmises by rising up from his seat. After seeking due permission and directions from the assistive mother; Veer advances to rinse his face and hands at a small backyard behind the hut, before returning to rejoin her in no time.
Though continuing to be alarmed by her son's drastic oath on the critical affair; the supportive woman empathizes with his decisions and decides not to dispute his verdict for the time being, while the downcast Veer progresses to make a few more joyless confessions "Well...it is not that I shall not miss anything... I don't mean the aristocracy...or the title of Rajkumar...or the lush rooms...or the enviable foods...but, I shall pine for the life I lost... my conduct ... my habits... my style of living... I am warrior and that is all I have been throughout... I have been stripped of this right too...I feel as though everything has been taken away... my cherished horse...my prized sword...all memories... my mami's emotional blackmails... my frolicsome times with Dharam...Bhalla's silly antics...the inviting fragrance of rose from my mother's chamber... the sight of the beautiful sunset from my bedroom..."
"A sunset is always beautiful, be it from the view of a palace terrace, or from a hut's humble window, Rajkumar Veer!"
His nostalgia interrupted by echoes of the intelligent remark; the engrossed duo curiously glance at the entrance of the hut in order to observe the arrival of the new entrant. While the amiable Pari welcomes the expected arrival of the pleasant lady with a smile; the perplexed Veer remains awkwardly still, unaware of how to greet the familiar personage.
Glimpsing at the prolonged silence of her younger brother, the graceful Sakshi giggles aloud in amusement as she enters her home with an agile pace, deftly balancing numerous cloth bags hanging from her shoulders. Hurriedly proceeding to a corner of the hut to unload the sacks; the charming sister lets out a tired sigh and then turn around to glance at the quietened youth, before resuming her advice on a tender note "All that one needs to stay alive is clothes, shelter, food and dignity...you possess all four...so you should not feel so forlorn...horses and swords can always be sought later on..." walking up to her stunned brother; the thoughtful lady enlightens him softly "Rajkumar Veer, you cannot and should not give up memories... remember, you have not lost the love of your people... and you never will... you have only gained a new family..."
Her insightful words finally managing to instigate a feeble smile of acknowledgement from the impressed Veer; Sakshi brings her wise words to a closure by disclosing the truth in a hushed tone "These words are not mine...well... my husband was also an Aryavart once... remember?"
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