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(Update 9)
2 days passed by, but Simran kept reacting the same way every time food was brought to her. After a while, Arun stopped going himself and sent Shaam with the food instead. He was playing chess with one of the men when Shaam tapped him on the shoulder. Turning around, he saw the disappointed look on Shaam's face relaying the situation.
Arun (softly): She's not eating...is she?
Shaam: I find the food untouched everytime i go back.
Placing his hand on the back of his neck, Arun took a few minutes to absorb this news then decided check up on her himself. He walked to the door, knocked, and waited patienctly. He wasnt waiting for a reply, since he never got one, but just giving her a warning that he was about to enter. When a few seconds had passed by, he opened the door and walked in. The sight that confronted him was frusterating. The food remained intact and untouched in the corner while Simran sprawled on her side, just gazing at the window. What was with that window? Did she somehow see that as a hope of escaping?
Looking at Simran, he noticed the change in her health instantly. She had definately grown weaker. Her hair had lost its luster, and lay in strands around her face. She didnt even bother looking at him upon his entrance. He closed the door behind him, and cleared his throat. When she still didnt respond, he continued talking anyway.
Arun: Shaam tells me you havent eaten at all?
No response.
Arun: If you think that acting this way will convince me to let you go, ur wrong you know.
Again, no response.
Arun: Cant you hear me!? I'm talking to you!
Simran (still staring at window): No need to shout. I can hear you.
Arun felt anger bubbling up from the pits of latent headache. He had a threshold of remaining calm, but this woman was definately treading on his limits. He took a plate in his hand, stormed towards her, and roughly pulled in a sitting position. Her mouth fell open in surprise at this sudden movement.
Simran: Hey! Let me go!
Arun: No! No i wont let you go! I've had enough of your bullshit, you know that?
Simran (taken aback): Well...I...its my choice...
Arun (angry): What's ur choice? Starving urself?
Simran (tearing up): Yes! Yes thats my choice. You took me against my will, you hold me hostage, I'm helpless to defend myself. But I still have control over eating, and i'll never give you teh satisfaction of taking that control. If i want to starve, I'll starve damn it! And there's nothing you can do about it.
Arun gaped at her, opening and closing his mouth as if saying something, then shuting it. She was right. He had no control over her decisions, and if she chose to starve herself, there was nothing he could do about it. He had never felt this helplesslness before, and he hated it. He grabbed Simran by the shoulders, surprising her yet again, and shook her wildly.
Arun: No! I wont let you get this upper hand! I wont let you starve like this...I wont!
Simran was beyond thought at this point as well. The lack of food had clouded her judgement as well as senses. She didnt fully interpret the possessiveness in his threat, but only sensed his opposition.
Simran (sneering): Oh yeah? Well...what are you going to do about it?
Arun removed his hands from her shoulders and sat back, defeated. The rebellion he saw in her eyes and her defiant tone proved to him just how adament she was, and how helpless he. For a few moments, neither spoke, but continued to engage in a silent battle of wits with their eyes. Finally, the fury evaporated from his face, and the same look of worry was back.
Arun: I dont know...i dont know what i'll do, but i'll do something. I didnt save you then, just to have you die like this anyway. I didnt go through all this, just to have the same result as killing you that first day. You want to starve...go ahead. Starve. Then what was teh point of me saving you that time? I should've just let you die.
Simran: Then why didnt you?
This question caught him offguard, partly becuase he didnt know the reason himself.
Arun: Coz I...I...couldnt.
Simran: Why? Why couldnt you?
Arun: I...dont know.
Simran (growing curious): Knowing you, i wouldnt say that this is the first time you would've seen someone get killed. Then why spare me?
Arun: Its not important why i did it. The point is, i did. ANd in doing so, I took on the responsibility to take care of you while ur here. Ur not a hostage, but until u accept ur situation, we have to keep u like one.You can never go back, so you can think that by sparing ur life, we killed ur existance as u knew it.
Simran let his words sink in, truly sink in. For the first time, she noticed the sensitivity in his eyes, the gentleness in his manner.
Arun: Its my duty to make sure ur safe, but ur not letting me accomplish that duty by starving urself. I'm begging you, plz dont do this.
Hearing no response, Arun decided to try his luck. He reached for teh glass of water, and held it out to her. After a few moments, she reached out and took it, only for her hand to shake and drop it. That was the first time that the extent of her weakness truly struck out to him. Her body drooped to the side against the wall, her breathing shallow. It was almost as if dropping her stuborn shell had exposed her to her real state for the first time. Feeling tense, he poured another glass of water, then gently pulled Simran into himself. He propped her against his chest, one arm wrapped around her shoulders to support her balance. Then he held the glass up to her lips to drink from his hand. Her mouth opened, and she took in grateful gulps of the elixir of life. The more she drunk, the more Arun relaxed. It was going to be ok. She was going to be ok. After finishing the first glass, he poured her another, sensing her overpowering thirst. After drowning the second one, she sat against him, her head resting against his shoulder as she stabalized her breathing. Finally, she looked up, and...smiled. It wasnt a grin, or a flashy smile, but a tugging of the corner of her lips in a genuine expression.
Simran: Arun...right?
Arun (surprised): Yeah
Simran: Simran...my name is Simran.
And having said that, her eyes closed as her head fell against his shoulder, falling in a deep slumber from exhaustion.
Arun continued to hold her against himself for a few more seconds, shocked with teh sudden turn of events. Then he gently lowered her onto her blankets and stood back up.
Arun (murmuring): Simran...
He let the name roll off his tongue, savoring its smoothness, while thrilling in the chill that shot up his spine at its sound.
Arun (repeating): Simran...
Smiling to himself, he looked back one last time, then walked out of the room.