Kalarikkal House [7]: Chapter 82, p. 16 - Page 5

Originally posted by: -Reader-

"Don't be..." she said looking at him finally. "We loved for many years... More than most people experience in several lifetimes. He gave me everything of him before he was taken from me. When you have the sort of love that we did, you always live in fear. Someone somewhere must think it too much. Too much love for any two people to have between themselves. I am grateful that I had him for as long as I did."

"Everyone has losses that others will never understand.

"There is not a moment that goes by when he is not in my thoughts. Then how will you make me remember?

"Oh, Kashi! No one is this world would ever accuse you of stupidity. But you can't understand things like love by appraising it with standard units of measurement, girl. If I only had Ananthan for an hour in my entire life-time, I would have loved him for all 60 of those minutes. But what to do? The good Lord was kind. He gave us 26 years. We didn't have the star-crossed fate to fight and love with the intensity that you have managed to in 3 days.

"There is likely nothing else in the world that gives as much pleasure as this pain.

Pallavi said it so well, everyone has losses that others will never understand and nobody understood her loss, including me. I know not a lot has been written or revealed about Pallavi but you had sprinkled insights into her character and heart in many chapters. Honestly, I was so involved in Kashi and Arnav that I never thought about how hard it must be for Pallavi to live a life without her soulmate. She hasn't known life without Anathan. Sunset, sunrise, pond, trees, veena every mundane thing reminds her of him. She had experienced everything with him in life and to live a life without him is going to feel like a burden. This is really getting scary and this chapter about Pallavi's thoughts, her panic attacks and her internal battles and struggles for sanity and peace, I choked up and it was hard hitting.

We always thought, Pallavi to be the levelheaded sister, mature, understanding, and calm. But, had no inkling of the storms she is caught in. Today, Kashi and Arnav's wedding brought back her nightmares. Memories of her own wedding and her own fears and tragic loss. One can never get over such losses! You deal with them one day at a time. There are good days and there are bad days.

Seeing pool of blood and Arnav lying there brought back that one memory she was pushing away with a vengeance.

Now Kashi has a bleeding husband and a crumbled sister to take care of. I can't even imagine what she must be going through.

I think there is more darkness this family has to deal with before they see the light, but I only hope and pray there are no more losses.

Originally posted by: -Reader-

"Don't be..." she said looking at him finally. "We loved for many years... More than most people experience in several lifetimes. He gave me everything of him before he was taken from me. When you have the sort of love that we did, you always live in fear. Someone somewhere must think it too much. Too much love for any two people to have between themselves. I am grateful that I had him for as long as I did."

"Everyone has losses that others will never understand.

"There is not a moment that goes by when he is not in my thoughts. Then how will you make me remember?

"Oh, Kashi! No one is this world would ever accuse you of stupidity. But you can't understand things like love by appraising it with standard units of measurement, girl. If I only had Ananthan for an hour in my entire life-time, I would have loved him for all 60 of those minutes. But what to do? The good Lord was kind. He gave us 26 years. We didn't have the star-crossed fate to fight and love with the intensity that you have managed to in 3 days.

"There is likely nothing else in the world that gives as much pleasure as this pain.

Pallavi said it so well, everyone has losses that others will never understand and nobody understood her loss, including me. I know not a lot has been written or revealed about Pallavi but you had sprinkled insights into her character and heart in many chapters. Honestly, I was so involved in Kashi and Arnav that I never thought about how hard it must be for Pallavi to live a life without her soulmate. She hasn't known life without Anathan. Sunset, sunrise, pond, trees, veena every mundane thing reminds her of him. She had experienced everything with him in life and to live a life without him is going to feel like a burden. This is really getting scary and this chapter about Pallavi's thoughts, her panic attacks and her internal battles and struggles for sanity and peace, I choked up and it was hard hitting.

We always thought, Pallavi to be the levelheaded sister, mature, understanding, and calm. But, had no inkling of the storms she is caught in. Today, Kashi and Arnav's wedding brought back her nightmares. Memories of her own wedding and her own fears and tragic loss. One can never get over such losses! You deal with them one day at a time. There are good days and there are bad days.

Seeing pool of blood and Arnav lying there brought back that one memory she was pushing away with a vengeance.

Now Kashi has a bleeding husband and a crumbled sister to take care of. I can't even imagine what she must be going through.

I think there is more darkness this family has to deal with before they see the light, but I only hope and pray there are no more losses.