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PART 2
AARYAN'S P.O.V
Falling in love with Roli was easy but taking it along isn't that easy. Roli. She's beautiful, sensible, well cultured; everything that can make a guy go ga ga over her. But she's pregnant- with Siddhant's child. Just because I'm Siddhant's look alike, I can't be what he used to be for her. I sometimes feel envy to this guy Siddhant. How lucky he was to have someone like Roli in his life? But Roli is an unlucky girl; she has lost her love when she needed him the most. I doesn't know much about love and all; but I know this much for sure; it hurts when someone so loved leave us. Really, the girl goes through a hard time which strangely creates a pain in my heart. May be out that pity I helped her out each night when she spent puking in the washroom. And among one such day she hugged me. It really made me go weak; that touch didn't seemed new. That heart, which fluttered against mine, seemed to be so close to mine. Those hands which circled around my waist seemed the ones to which I was so familiar of. Strangely, I couldn't stop myself from hugging her back. Yet another day. I was in room with her. I don't know why, but I'm sure that this girl had some ancestral connection with monkeys. She climbed up the stool to take something like books from the top of the wardrobe. She should have at least asked me. But no...Honestly she never troubles me for anything or doesn't show any intimacy to make me uncomfortable apart from that hug which was quite an accidental one. And coming back, she is not that tall, so she was literally standing on her tippy toes to reach the book. I could definitely sense a danger, why I didn't know. So I moved to the wardrobe in the pretense of searching something. And as expected, her leg slipped off the stool. "Siddhantji... she cried in tension and fear, but I was there to hold her, much like I was her very own Siddhantji. It seemed that the moment paused right then. Her eyes were tightly closed in fear and I couldn't help but stare at that beautiful face. It was the first time I felt that a woman can actually be a wonder. Something in the whole incident felt so familiar to me. It seemed that this happened somewhere in the past. That moment a doubt took birth in me. Am I really Siddhant? Are Roli's assumptions true??? As I thought all these and gazed at her face, she slowly opened her one eye first and then the other one. Her eyes stuck to mine. She was looking me with damn so much love...So much innocence in her tender eyes that could flood away all my sanity. Slowly, she gestured me something which I couldn't understand. She looked at the floor as a sign to keep her on the floor and I quickly did it. I was feeling so embarrassed. Where did I know that I had so many emotions inside me until I met her? But just then a familiar emotion took control of me- Anger. "Roli...why are you like this yaar...Don't you know that you can't do this climbing and jumping this time...Though not about you, at least think of our child... I shouted. But next moment I realized; our child. What did I exactly mean by that? But as I thought all these, I could see Roli's eyes getting moist. Was she crying because I scolded her, I wondered. "Roli...I'm sorry... I said involuntarily. How does this woman make to melt me so much??? I could see her smiling. Seriously, there is something wrong with this girl, I thought. Her face is actually a mystery. In a moment, Anger, tears, smile..But I love to see that smile of hers. It's so beautiful to make someone state at it whole day. "Siddhantji...it's true that time changed...Situations changed...but you didn't change...You may not remember...few months back, I got a sprain in my leg while running...you applied medicine to the sprain, but it was less of medicine and more of scolding; for not taking care of myself. And when I told you I went to bring your favorite watermelons, you had tears in your eyes...And see, now this much happened...We're this far despite being so close...yet, when I was about to get hurt, you were to hold me like you always did..And see, those tears...still in your eyes... she said and that was when I realized I was crying. How can someone affect me so much? I'm Aaryan- the killing machine; nothing else. I was really confused. A war started inside me; between Aaryan and Siddhant. I couldn't really find my identity. One side is Roli, who showers me with love and care that I start to like and admit my identity as Siddhant whereas on the other side is Rajveer, who reminds me of my identity as Aaryan. But though I start to like Roli, another set of instructions came from Rajveer which left me in a state of utter confusion. Arjvver instructed me to kill prem. I was really really confused. If at all, I'm Siddhant, it will be a serious crime from my side to kill my own brother, but if I'm not, it will be wrong to deny the instructions of my master. I didn't know what to do. But gathering my courage, I decided to go with Rajveer as it was the first identity I ever knew.
Advocate Anjali Awasthi
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