Chapter 4 : RealizationThey sat across each other in complete silence, sipping their hot drinks. None dared to start the conversation even though they wanted to talk to each other. After months they are together, they wanted to share about their hidden pain, hidden feelings to each other, but didn't had the courage to speak. There was awkwardness in the air which needed to be clear, they knew that but didn't knew how?
He was sure of his feelings by now, but didn't want to admit. He didn't want to admit that his heart beats for her, even after 2 years of separation, he couldn't forget her. Her every memory was freshed in his mind & heart like it all happened yesterday. Her name was imprint on his soul, on his heart in such way that even if he want, he can't get over her.
She was the girl who possess the power to make him forget everything around him, still do. Since the time he had seen her entering the restro with her brother, swayum, she is the only thing on his mind. He lifted his gaze and saw her, she seems lost in her own world, but the look on her face, told him she was thinking the same as him.
There was an stranger understanding between them since start, they could read each other inside out, could understand each others unsaid, hidden emotions. And even now, after separation, nothing much has changed between them. The understanding was still there, so was love but it was hidden under the layers of fears & insecurities.
He stare at her, with same adoration like he used to. He adored her angelic face while she was completely unaware about his gaze, lost in her own world.
For once, he wanted to forget everything and ran to her, embrace her in his arms. Have the happily every after they both had dreamed off, when they were together. But his mind stopped him, what if he again ended up hurting her and him in process, like last time?
But doesn't he deserve happiness? Once fate & his mistakes and had pushed her away from him, whats the guaranty it won't to do the same again? But how can you be so sure about this? What if destiny want you two to be together forever? She is your love after all-" His subconscious mind questioned him, questioning his negative thoughts about his love life.
"I wish i could make you mine.." He thought to himself and at the same time, her eyes snapped open and met his. His heart skipped a beat and he finds almost impossible to look away from her. At that moment, he wanted her, wanted to be with, but does she feel the same about him?
But the look of longing he saw in her eyes, answered his question. He knew she want the same, but was in dilemma like he was. But his heart overpowered his mind, his love & longing for her, overpower every fear & insecurity.
With realization that he can't stay away from her, he was determined to give himself another chance, but this time, it will be person with the he truly want.
"This distance between us, has to go.. I won't let you go this time." Rey thought to himself, but this time, he won't rush into things like last time. He won't commit same mistakes he did last time. This time, it will be perfect. He will be the perfect partner for her. He will be the prince charming she wanted.
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