Arshi FF-Falling in Love Again- Ch15-19 upd 16/11 - Page 15

Originally posted by: Teddybear_doll

Awesome update ... .

he destroyed his own son's life ...

Originally posted by: lovetoread08

It's your 6th update and I'm already a fan of your write-ups.

Thank you so much Priyanka

Title of the chapter is brillant.The introduction of new characters is superb. The co-relation of characters with white and black shade is outstanding.

Thank you so much of indpeth analysis.. the symbolism of each and every line which has a inner meaning.


There is an image of Rajat, which is not a grey shade but a multifacet character,hidden under the wraps of positiveness.
He wears prada

The para started with "that particular day when khushi went to get candles.." you nailed it dear the suspense has been created in readers mind

Suspense and dark dungeons secrets


.Very well said in this dailogue'I say even from the dirt and dust we need to find some reason to connect or relate in reality..'
we all have to ..if not survival becomes difficult.. we all are not born with silver spoons.. somewhere all start from rags to riches..

Sailing in the two boats is a tuff job,feel free if you are not able to reply back,its really ok.

Originally posted by: .ArshiHamesha.

Really Nice div👏

Liked the new contrast of these characters especially Rajat who holds many faces of his character👏Suspense is really gripping here too.Way to go, yes we have to go through with all to get to the bottom of any situation.

CHAPTER 7: Stolen Innocence.

The Unborn :

Precious in your little frame, You danced into my heart.
And with the grace with which you came, With grace you did depart.
You held my finger in your hand, And with it held my soul.
I fell in love with those wide eyes, One kiss and I was whole.
You caught me by surprise The way your only need was me.
And I learned I need you too, But I had to set you free.
Your monkey feet have left Such an imprint in my life.
And sometimes I still hear you, Crying for me in the night.
You're in heaven on your birthday And I can see you way up there,
With the cutest party dress on And a bow, tied in your hair.

Courtesy " Family friend poems ..

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Stolen Innocence as the topic says it is about the innocence meaning an unborn or an innocent who is a child being stripped and ripped of his or her early life of child hood days..

FATE OR MASTER PLAN :

There is this story ..Chandra Gupta Maurya and Sophia. Chandra Gupta Maurya was the king of Mauryan Empire. He was a very good king and a good Student for Chanakya.Chanakya was the master for education of the king and Guru for all other crimes too. Chankya and his small strip of hair from the center of his baldy head used to say many stories.

They say if he plays or fiddles with hair it means that something bad is going to happen . Like that only , When King Alexander had come to india for capturing , the Mauryans won against the battle and chased them off from invading India .There are proofs for this.They Say King Alexander brought plague inside India and he died because of AIDS too.

In the battle he was thirsty.The battle ground was the dry desert.His right hand Cellusius came there and offered water .The king denied to drink water and asked him to share with the other solidiers.There was a soft corner in the barbaric king too .

Alexander the Great died. But Cellusis , took an oath saying that he will capture India on the death of King Alexander.He came to India with his daughter Sophia. Sophia was like the smiling moon , very beautiful and innocent.

The troop had settled in the outskirts. The outskirts had a small waterbed.Sophia the beauty was swimming in mid of the night one day. She screamed saying snake , snake.. There came our hero King Maurya and pulled her out of the water and saved her. He was in disguise as an old man , He had to do mouth to mouth water sucking process, the princess woke up from the unconscious state and wondered who was the first ever man who touched her.

After this their love story started. They fell in love .Cellusius joined hands with Maurya and married a foriegner to Indian. They shared some good moments. She was conceived with Indian blood. But some body who was the courtesy or planner for the LOVE STORY and avoid WAR In India , did have other plans too for this newly to be born or still unborn. Maurya was asked by Chanakya to visit the main land for checking ..

In the mean time Sophia was poisoned and killed . They buried her and grew flower plants on her death spot. Nobody can hear .. but only the wind and plants and the sun and sky and the moon could feel her cry and sense the tears she was shedding from down under.

I was killed ..I was killed. They killed my baby too ..my baby too..

I was not destined to die ..it was not my destiny .. but a master plan , planned and played aptly by none other than CHANAKYA.. who has split character.

The reason being the next generation was carried by a FOREIGNER .. Too pathetic.

Here we see Chanakya and the unborn baby ...The baby's life before even it started they planned and killed her. Child killing or was it the innocence of the child was stolen before even it saw the world.

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RAJAT AND HIS DARK SECRET :

Here coming to the main story ..

THAT particular day in the basement , Kushi heard some cry sound. She was with the candle standing behind the opening and listening and try to peek and see what was happening..She was shocked to see that NA can be doing this .. Yes.. NA who had a character like ON THE DAY TIME ONE AND THE NIGHT TIME ANOTHER..

Every body knew that he was man handler. He hurt Neelima and used Neelima for all his cruel intentions. He bet her with belt , burnt her with cigarettes, he pricked her with glass pieces. What else was not there.Every bad thign he did for Neelima.Finally he seperated her from her own kids too.

This was one side of his..he did have deep down under few more things which nobody knew.

Geetha was their house maid. She joined for work when she was 16 years old .Now she was 17 .not a major by age.She was a minor and a kid to my eyes.That day in the basemit he was persuading her to have sex with him.She was molested before too I guess. But she dint tell anybody.Their story grew up on a daily basis. She was not interested , rather made involved compulsorily , by blackmailing her with money and few more video tapes.

That particular day , she dint want too, but Rajat like an animal was pouncing on her , compelling to be intimate with her,kushi was seeing from one corner.She was shocked to see the FATHER FIGURE Rajat .. going too low and his other side dark persona.

She wanted to tell evrybody.But previous instances , made her think that Arnav will not believe her without proof. She was crying. She was feeling very sad for Geetha.How her child hood or say the days of smiling was tarnished by a big face.. or a rich man who was nothing but a coward and shameless and characterless from inside.

Don't women have anything at all in this world.Identity, happiness, love, joy, sharing , caring , trust etc..

Are women meant nothing at all ?? Men they use women as punching bags, they hit them like animals, they mate with them like animals, the feelings of the women ,is there no one to ask about it.. why did God make women , to struggle and suffer like this. Not all men are..but few are who spoil the whole MAN hood.. Was women nothing really in this world??

Only tears were her life. Only the water which spread like the river was her life and something to ponder on for her living ..Really miserable.

Geetha was being used by an elder. At the age of studies and after some time getting married and settled in a nice famlily, due to circumstances , due to poverty she came for work and she was used as slave for NA's manly hunger..

This does happen in reality too.Many bosses of the house , who have flings with helpers or with padosan.. etc..they make it look like that the women were desperate.

The life of Geetha and the life of the unborn baby of princess Sophia was some what to be linked..

Yes.. the life being pulled or stolen from their kinds as candy being taken away from the INNOCENT KIDS when they are young.

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KUSHI AND HER LITTLE ONE :

My Kushi's was stolen or been killed by somebody known , but he may not have known , but for known reasons due to his ignorance or blind belief, unknowingly ended up loosing the unborn.

The act was out of ignorance and blind belief.But trust on her and belief on her was not there..their marriage was it a compromise.No they were in love .But how.. A master planner can do the impossible to possible. NA had done that .. Arnav is suffering..She is suffering for loosing her baby and the broken , failed, untrusted marriage.

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Dear Mommy,

I know I was not even born..I was like this small cell or many small cells waiting to form and join together and giving a heart first. Yes.. I was formed .. the first thing formed was heart.. the tub tub..lub tub sound I could hear..

Slowly the other things were taking its shape and I was to be formed like a small baby alien inside ur womb.. but ..i think I heard so many ill things about you from Dad,and the way he dragged u and came outside the house , due to tension and sudden outburst..I guess I dint feel like staying inside ur womb or this world..

This world is full of bad people. If I come , may be I would be influenced and corrupted by them. I feel , I better don't see this world at all.

I know that I meant a lot for you .. but circumstances .. made me to leave you for better or worse..I know from the way u cry , how much tears you have shed and the wet pillows say , how you are miserably in pain..How do I help you mom.. I don't want you to cry..I want u to be strong and stronger to face this world. They said ill about u..But don't u want to fight..or even if u have ignored him, u have to live life..I think I will be ur inspiration so each and every move , u make , will remember me and the incident and u will keep one step at a time for ur new beginning..

I know..im not taking any promise from you..since I know you and trust you blindly , as im your kido .Every and every step you take, Im there with you mummy..

Love you..

Yours.. loving...

The Unborn..

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Yes many start writing Journals for many reasons. To have it recorded the daily work, the share the happiness and the secrets. To share the mysteries ..To share the darker aspirations.

Some people are there , they maintain it , that they want to hear what the kido wants to say..Since he or she is not in the world, then they start to express on behalf of them , for them, by her..

She gives VOICE TO THE UNHEARD OR THE SPECIAL ONE WHO CANNOT EXPRESS..

The journal again ,is one more prop for putting all ur frustrations which u cannot express to ur loved ones.

Chapter 8 : What is Life ??

What is life first of all.. Life is something existing in the world in form of men and women. Life in the living world and the unexisting world. Life in the earth and life in the alter world as ghost . Life in heaven and life in hell. Life in existence and life in death. When we talk of life as it is as birth or death , in earth and heaven , in heaven and in hell, in living and in dead, in dead too the soul rested in peace or roaming as evil spirit for revenge.. Oh god.. Life..life..life.. Why life has to be so complicated ? Cant it be easy ?Why life can't be simple ?Why it has to give so many options?

I think the birth is ok ..but after the birth , the life as it gives options while growing up , i think there are the problems which arise. How it would have been if we were born and the stage innocence alone remained. We would be in the infant stage and no more growth .. We will be mamas and dadas pet and will be pampered like crazy and eating , sleeping, playing , singing ,no fights ,only happiness that too small angels innocent smile.. Wow..the thought is only so good.. But is it possible in this world .. In earth ..in our country..in our locality .. In our home..in our life.. In our existence .. Among our loved ones.. I guess no..

I always say ..life is like an ice cream. Enjoy before it melts.. I guess all should follow that.. Enjoy each and every moment of life in this birth.. Dono if we would be lucky in the next birth as what we will be born.

Again..why so much on life topic .. My message is .. Life doesn't stop in a full stop, after a fullstop there is always a new beginning.. Which is rise of the second life or second sentence meaning a new beginning.. Second chapter. Life offers us so many things.. One is ..the birth.. After we are born , we grow, we learn, we compete, we fight , we challenge, we fail, we gain courage, we explore, we present the best, we win , our first success..is this enough..i guess an existence of you .. After you .. What have u left for others to think about you.. Or the imprint or memories of you as what have you left for others to follow you or think about you ...i feel there is something as meaning of our existence in this world ... in our life .. As after birth, what i have done for me and others and how they look up to me.. Our identity and we being mentors for others.. We are leaders and they are followers.. The good deeds done by us..they praise and some where , some day they think about us as because of him and her im here today..

The life is itself a game.. It is not single entry ..it has a combination with it tagged all the time. Anything in human life comes with combinations. It always comes with two and more. Birth and death, success and failure, synonyms and antonyms,truth and lies, rich and poor, heads or tails, boy and gal, joy and sorrow, happy and sad, big or small, black and white, bitter and sweet, fertile and barren,winter and summer, rain and drought, demand and supply,surplus and deficit , wants and desires, love and hate, mask and unmask , good and bad and ugly, innocence and ignorance , betrayal and guilt, pain and pleasure, fate and destiny , existence and virtual , love and lust oh.. The list goes on..

Why am i writing all in combinations .. I guess our todays topic and the aArnavs life and the chapter ..we learn about the pros and cons of all the am people and the deeds of theirs.. The truth, the revelation, the guilty, the betrayal, the remorse, the redemption , the haunting, the love.. We read all these here today..

The Haunted :

It was early in the morning . Arnav couldn't sleep at all. He was chagning his postures this side and that side and trying to sleep . But somehow he was not able to sleep. Was this is the only day he hasn't fallen asleep or many a days. I guess ..after Kushi was thrown out of the house he hasn't slept a night in peace.She was every where ..laughing at him.Crying , looking at him. She showing her anger all over to him. When he went to take bath, she was there holding the Bathrobe or towel waiting outside the wash room.He came near the mirror , he could see her reflecting trying to come and hug him from behind. He opened the cupboard ,there she was standing near the door giving his tie and shirt and hankerchief. He was pacing on the bed this side or that side , there she was a comfy teddybear for the big bear as pillow.He closed his eyes, there she was kissing on his eyes for calming his restlessness. He took his wallet ..there she was inside his wallet as a small picture. He stepped inside the room , he could hear her tinkle tinkle sound ..of the bangles and anklets ... The room had her scent everywhere. The cupboard smelled her favourite of lavenders and jasmines.. The bed smelled of her romantic antics of saying NO to him whenever he insisted on something..She was all around.. her existence of memories though she was absent in form of haunted thoughts it was haunting Arnav , day and night , in rain and sun, among the stars in the sky,in the breeze, in the rain drops, in the birds song. She was everywhere..

Arnav couldn't listen to her cries and sobs.. he went closer to her , but she disappeared like a vapor in 1 nano second. I guess he loved her so much that , he was not sleeping properly for so many months . Then why and how he could do such a foolish thing of DOUBTING HER AND HER CHARACTER.. YAA it is foolish and idiotic thing.. But there is something else also to be noted here.. They both loved each other like mad.THE WORD LOVE was the villain here.. Not his love for her..Not her love for him.. But THE SECOND PERSON OR THE FIRST PERSON TILL BEFORE SHE CAME , who couldn't share HIS LOVely SON with another .. was the villain here. He was insecured to share his son.. He was insecured with the fact that SHE KNEW ALL HIS BAD DEEDS.. which was infuriating him day and night.Haunting Rajat Singh day and night of fear and scare that his OTHER SIDE may be revealed in very short by her to him.

The Truth and Lies :

They say all the bad deeds have to come to an end. The Lies cannot stay for longer time in wraps. The truth always wins. Rajat Singhs masked face to got revealed like that only ..Direclty to Arnav.

That particular day all the family members had gone out till Kolhapur. Geetha was in the house. Since Ayeshas internal assessment was happening she couldn't go. Rajat Singh had travelled to London for some days. Arnav came earlier that particular day and was trying to rest for sometime as he had gone very weak due to XYZ .. or say or Kushis haunting memories.

Ayesha was drawing some pictures in her scrapbook. She went and called Geetha for askign her to say some story . Geetha finished her chores and came and sat along with Ayesha and was telling her story. Geetha was Ayeshas nanny from past 3 years. She was the maid and the nanny too.

Geetha was uttering..

" Once upon a time, there was a very little gal.. She grew big. Her parents were very poor. They couldn't afford for her studies and food.They joined her in near by SETU'S house for work. So she will learn some work and bring salary for her poor parents.

The little gal , came to the working place and saw so many people. The Setu's wife was very pretty and very kind. She gave the little gal , some good food, good clothes, some money , and taught her all house work. The little gal grew bigger. She became a BIG gal.. Every body in their home treated like her a family member.. They all lvoed her so much. Even she loved them all.

But one person started doing something dirty with her. She was followed everywhere by that person for giving troubles. She fought with that person all the time. Finally , she dint have much courage to fight with that person, she lost the batttle and settled in for wat FATE offered her. She wanted to ask for help,but the villain said, he would kill the little gals parents , so she kept quite.

The villain , had been troubling her for many days.. dono , how she will manage all these things.. After some days, she found this new baby doll in their home .The small tiny baby, became her very close friend. She was doing all the work for the tiny baby , and telling her stories every night. The tiny baby , blinked her eyes when ever she started to tell a story and gave an eyes that she understood her story.. or was it that the tiny baby understood THE LITTLE GALS MISERY AND PAIN that she nodded listening to the story..

Ayesha asked... Aunty finally what happened. Geetha says.. the evil was all around.the gal was in the attic .. She saw a thin light passing thru the window. She was waiting for the day when the window will be broken and some knight will come and save her.. AS they say , all stories have an happy ending .Like wise .. For Geetha too the day came."

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She was telling the story to Ayesha and tears streamed down her eyes without her knowledge..She was sobbing and fell down unconscious. Ayesha who was listening to the story saw Geetha lying to oneside got scared and went in search of help. None of them where in home,Luckily Arnav was resting.. Ayesha went and called Arnav, " Chaachu , pl come .. Geetha aunty Fainted " she said.. Arnav got up in a hurry out of concern and came running lifting Ayesha downstaris. He saw her lying unconscious and he immediately called their family doctor.

Arnavs eyes went towards the scrap book which was lying next to Geetha. He took the scrap book and saw the pcitures drawn by Ayesha and took her the other side for enquiring about the pictures.

The doctor conveyed about Geetha , that she was pregnant to Arnav. Both were shocked .To knowledge of Arnav, Geetha was a virgin and still not a major, then how can his happen.He was figuring out all the holes in their house. He was interrogating Geetha for the truth. Geetha cried and uttered each and every word of Rajat Singhs sexual abuse on her and manhandling on Neelima and also requested that Neelima shouldn't know about Rajat Singh raping this child for n number of days..

Arnav got his first THAPPAD for being Rajat Singhs Son ..

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Innocence and Ignorance :

Arnav has always been the pet and pampered for Rajat. Soemthing that, Rajat wouldn't allow Arnav to enter the basement ..Arnav started doubting. They say , we just need a spark of fire or a single match stick, to fire the entire forest. He it was just one single incident. He broke the lock of basement and did Mr.Sherlock holmes job. He found out many truth's.More and more he dug, looked in each and every corner of the house, he found so many proofs.

In some corner of the cupboard , he saw a file with Mrs.Kushi Raizada label. His eyes settled on it and he tore open the cover. It was her Pregnancy report , which Rajat had not kept visible for any in RM.Arnav was agitated. Then he connected all the dots and got the details about the THE MASKED SECRETS of NA .Arnav saw the masked face of Rajat Singh . Arnav wanted to unveil the mask.He was waiting for the day .

Yup.. Innocence.. Arnav was the innocent soul who was used in and out and treated like a play toy of NA .Arnav was ignorant on all the happenings in the house till date. But his innocence of being ignorant had costed his life away from him.

Now was the time when Arnav .. Ashamed, disgusted, devestated, agitated, shattered, broken finally.

The Realisation and Repentence :

Arnav realised how he was been used till this day by Rajat. he was shattered completely. Like the broken mirror , the broken tree , the tree without any leaves and branches ,burnt run into ashes. The earth stopped rotating . The world stood still. The breeze stopped blowing.There was no wind from any side. There were no more clouds. The sky was very clear but compeltely black.The stars dint twinkle. The perennial rivers became dry. The rain stopped drizzling. The rabbit and the frog stopped ribbiting .. The leaves stood still. The flowers never bloomed. The owl started sleeping. The lion never roared. The world around him stood still ..

He was trapped in the misery and pain and fell into the abyss. He wanted to climb up and find the sparkle of light or come in search of the light house , he couldn't.. He couldn't stop his cry. He couldn't think of the BETRAYAL AND THE GUILT FOLLOWED BY HIS ACTIONS.. but he had to think..he had to repent . He realised his mistake . He was now ready for redemption.

Betrayal and Guilt :

Arnav was betrayed very badly by his father. Arnav felt that his life could not move on. His identity given by is father was a fake one. Arnav died now thousand times more .. He worshipped his father like God .But the God can he betray his worshippers like this , that Arnav has lost his MEANING OF LIFE AND EXISTENCE, THE PRUPOSE OF HIS LIFE, THE IDENTITY OF HIS.. DID HE HAVE ANY IDENTITY AT ALL.

Arnav felt that he be buried alive in the 6 by 2 feet rectangle box , under the ground. Or be burnt alive . or construct a wall around him on all the four sides that he was killed alive in a four wall building. Or be tied to the chair and the face been covered with a sack or the face been sewed with many ugly threads and been electrocuted then and there. Or been pushed into the ocean with his hands and legs tied along with a big stone such that he cannot swim and come up .. He was cheated.. he was betrayed.. HE LOST HIMSELF.. HE LOST HIM COMPLETELY..WAT WAS HIS PURPOSE IN LIFE ANYMORE. THE PERSON WHO LOVED HIM MORE ..MORE THAN HIS LIFE AND WIFE.. can he cheat him to this extent.. He felt HE WAS IN NO WHERE LAND. HE FELT HE WAS A ORPHAN .. OR BORN DEAD OR DEAD MAN WALKING..

He was betrayed fine..The Guilt part.. of Arnav..yes.. Arnav was guilty of killing his own child because of his fathers rights over him . which was artifical.. Arnav was guilty that ,it was because of him , his ignorance and innoence of believeing his God like father to that extent that , HE DOUBTED HIS INNOCENT WIFE AND TOLD A CHARACTER LESS..

Arnav was shattered completely. He wanted to be dead, then and there.. No more of living he thought. He even tried to.. But some how , he couldn't .. The sin he did , he wanted forgiveness from Kushi.but will she.. I don't think so ..She is not Goddess .. she was a human .. and how can she forgive such a man ,who dint believe her at all.

From his hand the scrap book of AYESHA.. fell down.. the book fell down and rightly stood flat , the last page .. rightly opened and where Ayesha drew Geethas entire life image and she waiting for A SMALL LIGHT TOO PENETRATED THRU THE WINDOW..

Arnav Understood the meaning and he stood up STIFF AND STEADY.. no more he has to suffer.He saw the small spider trying to weave its web ..so many times.. finally the 10^th time it succeeded. He too.. became strong .. he wanted to get justice for Geetha, also he had to correct his mistake of ill-treating his wife. He aint the Arnav Raizada anymore. He just wanted to be Arnav. He stood up and saw his wifes picture in the wallet. Smiling so innocent. It pricked him very badly in the heart.. in his heart , where she used to live and made him a human .. it pricked very badly that he himself poked with a spear on her .. on his love.. He killed her many a times. He wanted to plaster the wound with a bandage and strengthen the bondage between them as before.

Not sure if that is ever possible. But he dint want to ..NOT BEING A MAN WHO DINT TRY AT ALL.. HE WAS THE ONE ..WHO WAS BORN TO WIN ..

HE WILL WIN ..HE HAS TO WIN.. HE HAS TO REWRITE THE HISTORY..NOW WHAT ALL HE WILL DO TO BRING BACK HIS LOVE..

THE ACTUAL CHAPTERS OF MR. ARNAV FALLING IN LOVE WITH HIS LADY LOVE KUSHI .. WILL START FROM NOW ON..

THE SECOND SAGA OF FALLNG IN LOVE .. ONCE AGAIN AND BRINGING HER BACK IN HIS LIFE.. IS STARTING FROM NOW ON...

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RAJAT SINGH RAIZADA - he was sent to jail on molesting a minor and manhandling Neelima.

Shyam and Family - They settled outside.. no more they live in AM.

Neelima Raizada - She couldn't think that Rajat could stoop so low.. she removed her mangalsutra and threw on his face and spat on his face.. that he was not fit to be a human at all.

Ayesha - The little angel, saved Geetha .. The story what Geetha told her everyday as her Night time bed story was of hers itself. So many days of telling, which Ayesha started picturing in mind and finally came out in paper in her scrap book in each and every frame.. The SCRAP BOOK WAS the saviour for Geetha thru little Angel Ayesha.

Nanda Kishore -he met with an accident.he called for confessing and begged for forgiveness as his last words from Arnav for what ever he had done for Arnav and Kushis seperation .

They say " To err is human, to forgive is divine "..

I guess we will step into the second saga ... for forgiveness in next chapter.

Originally posted by: amy447

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