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ishruhi

@ishruhi

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Posted: 10 years ago

#541

c u all later at nite may be!
class...take care...all these days will pass...we are really thankful to God that we gets someone to share our sorrows...
so cheer up...see tthe light pls...
have a nice day...

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docs

@docs

Navigator

Posted: 10 years ago

#542

Originally posted by: PriteeMisra
Hello All,
Haven't read all comments. Could gather that today we are discussing cancer. Don't know what to Say. I lost my mother to cancer when she was only 46. Hers was detected at last stage. Whom to blame don't know. Cancer can be cured if detected early and gets proper treatment but don't know how many are privilaged. My mother was most giving women I have seen in my life. Never lived a single day for herself. Family, extended family, friends she was there for all. I have seen her cooking halva with ajvain, haldi, ghee etc for street Dog who had delivered babies. Giving them sacks to sleep and over themselves.

I use to get irritated when as histroy Doctor would ask dd she smoke or drink. We were like no we don't even have non veg. Hats off to people who fight cancer and some beat it too. Take a bow.

Life is not fair. Pichle janam ka karam ka funda is beyond me. Unfortunately have seen crooks leaving care free and blessed lifes.

Don't know about phichle janam and all but I guess its our fate .. We see so many cases where they are very young? How can we blame anything or anyone.

It very hard on the immediate family. And Preeti disease does not see cast creed or anything it just comes n topples our world as we know it... I pray God gives u n your family strength to cope each day without the physical presence of your mom ...

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Ashu25

@Ashu25

Rocker

+ 2

Posted: 10 years ago

#543

Nivi... Thats one beautiful piece of work I hve read!!!

It so tells us what we all feel everytime we explode with emotions!!

Beautiful!!

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Srividya

@moonwearer

Rocker

+ 3

Posted: 10 years ago

#544

Originally posted by: PriteeMisra
Hello All,
Haven't read all comments. Could gather that today we are discussing cancer. Don't know what to Say. I lost my mother to cancer when she was only 46. Hers was detected at last stage. Whom to blame don't know. Cancer can be cured if detected early and gets proper treatment but don't know how many are privilaged. My mother was most giving women I have seen in my life. Never lived a single day for herself. Family, extended family, friends she was there for all. I have seen her cooking halva with ajvain, haldi, ghee etc for street Dog who had delivered babies. Giving them sacks to sleep and over themselves.

I use to get irritated when as histroy Doctor would ask dd she smoke or drink. We were like no we don't even have non veg. Hats off to people who fight cancer and some beat it too. Take a bow.

Life is not fair. Pichle janam ka karam ka funda is beyond me. Unfortunately have seen crooks leaving care free and blessed lifes.

A hug to you dear...poignant moments like the discussion brings us down to terra firma...how we take things for granted and give others ego massages...nothing can remove the pain...my Aunt was a cancer survivor( 18 years)...she went around offering succor to all she could till her end...My cousin works abroad my periappa was living alone...he was as fit as a fiddle and played golf and drove and travelled around the world he was 81 thought he was not too well and came down spent 3 weeks in chennai and from tests we knew it was the big C...before he met the oncologist he passed away...a few ago my aged parents and Athais are recovering from the shock...as Vani says we don't know when and what will hit us...we need to face it with courage...and reach out when we can

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shidin0117

@shidin0117

Dazzler

+ 4

Posted: 10 years ago

#545

Hey All,

Some really serious debating and the unpredictability of life is going on. We can just pray to god to give us strength to face whatever life throws at us. So I really pray that God gives strength and courage to everyone who have faced or facing these kind of testing times. Yes I have seen what cancer does...one of my friends mother is recovering from uterine cancer after some 8 rounds of chemo and surgery and many others also. Its particularly difficult when a young person is suffering. That is when we get angry on God and the unfairness of life and sometimes we can see really good people suffering. What else can i say that doesn't read like some platitudes...

Nisha...there is no need to give us update day after day dear...pls rest up. Sometimes the million thoughts in our head tires us out. But if writing helps u in relaxing or provides some distraction then pls do write. We all love u whether u write or not write.

Noufi...Happy Ramzan...I really admire u people dear, how u can fast and that too without drinking water. My friends mom used to make awesome kheer and until college I enjoyed Ramzan since she used to bring us sevai. Now she is in US...so miss her terribly.

And Hello to the new members of SoSy family...garima, Sushma, sorry if i have missed anyone else.

Nams, Ashu, drishti, Anu, putti, SR, swathi, swara, asma, Vani, shruti, Srividya, Shev., Vibhu, choti Harshita...Hi to u all

so have to go, household chores is calling out me...I will stalk alone later and go thru the pages.

Edited by shidin0117 - 10 years ago

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putti77

@putti77

Rocker

Posted: 10 years ago

#546

Behind one's sweet smile
Cheerful jokes isn't always a
Happy story. Dry eyes don't
Always mean dry pillows at night...

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Nivi ;)

@nividances

Inactive

+ 2

Posted: 10 years ago

#547

Originally posted by: Ashu25
Nivi... Thats one beautiful piece of work I hve read!!!
It so tells us what we all feel everytime we explode with emotions!!

Beautiful!!

I looked around quite a bit to find who the author is, but unfortunately I wasn't able to. That's the bad thing about the Internet...it makes it so easy to share, but it also takes away identities.

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Nisha0604

@Nisha0604

Sparkler

Posted: 10 years ago

#548

Fix broken things

She hung up the phone and wandered on the other side of the house...
replaying the actions surrounding reviewing the reports. E-mailed Ashwini,
asking her to send the link for where the daily Customer Reports were posted on the SharePoint
She couldn't access it through her phone, she was soaked and hungry to go up and log on and do office work
She wandered to the backyard and leaned on a pillar like lawn decoration.

"can I help carry?" he muttered
She turned smiling

"kya?"
"the weight of the world" he muttered

"Lasya engey?" she asked somberly

"Manya needs a turn" he smiled

"whats going on?" he asked

"Umm... mmm" she shook her head

"everything OK at work?"

"couldn't be better" she smiled

"Then its something else?" he probed

"Why does it have to be something?" she asked

"Because someone that doesn't give her vocal chords a rest is quiet in a houseful of kids" he said knowingly

"I am just practicing being like you" she smiled

In her soaked tee and old cotton capris... very homely yet fetching

"Agle Friday ko yaad karogey is Friday ko?" she asked

He nodded, his eyes flickering nervously for a second

"Are u looking forward to being by yourself?" she asked drawing patterns on the cobblestone with her big toe...

"Why do u want to know"

"Because it will make me feel better to know that its something u have known and are used to"

"It wont hurt you to know I might enjoy loneliness"

"I know u don't need people" she said finding a huge lump mysteriously appear in her throat

"And u are "people" he asked carving path into her thoughts

"Well umm.. u know... main bhi sab mein ek hoon na" she said shrugging

"U know why I am doing this" he changed the topic (Its not because I want to alone again)

"Kuch bhi ho... who zaroori nahi hai... I am just thinking if how I will be, if u have rubbed off enough on me in 7 months that I enjoy solitude also" she said huskily

"U are just coming up with lame excuses" he said dismissively

"Well... then what do u want to hear... I am going to be sick to my stomach, and hurt like hell so don't go?" she asked looking up at him her eye balls floating in a big moist pool

"NO" he hissed

"Aur kya sun na chahte ho tum... this is the most asinine decision? So in order to get back at u I will find the next cute guy and hook up?" she asked

"Enough II" he ordered

"Kya sun na chahte ho? inability to perform ur job remotely for an indefinite period of time has caused u to do this so I hope the company turns a profit the next quarter. Its the best quarter ever for Argent?" she asked gasping for breath

"I said enough" he said softly in her ear, pulling her

"I hate Argent... I hate Paris... I hate everything about angel investing... I hate everything about that goddamn job of urs" she flared up passionately

"Shhh" he ordered

"I have time and energy now to focus on my job, I will work 80 hours a week and try to unseat Ritu cleverly? I can live in my cube now? Heat up leftovers from two days ago... not come home even to shower... kyon ki ghar par to koi hai nahi" she accused

The tears flowed freely.

"I will do bar hopping, pub hopping, go dancing.. quit my job... buy clothes everyday and waste away... dekh lena tum" she warned

"II" he begged

"do u think people wonder... WHY we got married?" she asked

"Umm.. I am"

"Unko lagta hoga I must have fallen for ur wealth, YOU? they must be baffled why you married me" "Its fitting... I guess u want to leave now"

"OK... I am not sure where this is going" he sounded extremely angry... holding it all back with difficulty

"Its not going anywhere" she said sarcastically

"Really? U want to do this now? Fight when the house is full of kids?" he demanded holding her hand tightly

She pried it free

"Appa"

"PLEASE II" he stopped her, waving a finger

"Ofcourse" II mumbled

"Talk to Bally and quit" he ordered

"That simple huh? Wonder why "I" didnt think of that before" she cried, smacking her forehead with her free hand

"Its simple... if u want to see it"

"Its NOT... u are over simplifying it... by walking away from it all" she yelled

The music was playing in the exterior surround sound... and strangely nobody ventured to the backyard

Mahavir was in the kitchen but like every help in wealthy homes he minded his own business

"WHAT is more important?' he snapped

"Really?" she cried

He didnt say anything

"I am not placing enough importance on the marriage? YOU ARE? TUMHE apni
company ke kaam se jaana hai and its my fault this marriage is breaking up?" she yelled

He pulled her towards him "II listen to me"

"No... u are wrong" she gasped, crying

"I didnt mean u didnt care" "I am so sorry... I didnt mean that"he pleaded

"WOHI IMPLY KIYA TUMNE..." she accused

He grabbed her forcefully holding her close "I am sorry if u thought I did"

He felt her shake and tremble on him for a while

"Can we talk about this sanely?" "I am begging you"

"if the result is going to be your staying back them lets" she sniggered, her nose all clogged up

"II"

"See I knew it!! BAAT WOH NAHI HAI jo tum keh rahe ho.. baat yeh hai ki tumhe jaana hai... BAS!!" she said

He hugged her and rocked...

"Quit fighting with me please?"

"And make it easy on u? So u can go with lil or zero guilt?" she asked

"Why does everything always have to change?" she demanded

"I dont know" he said pained, wondering why Ma had to go, and why he was unable to find lasting peace

"I should have let Amit attend the meeting that day at Excelsior" she declared

"And I shouldnt have bought you coffee?' he asked

She nodded... her face puffy and pink

He bent down and kissed her... gently soothing, moistening her lips.. his tongue familiar. the
river of squigly things that flowed inside her way too familiar.

"If its a comfort kiss, it has to be short" she pointed

He laughed heartily

And kissed her again... "How long is the lets go upstairs and make love kiss?"

"There is no such thing" she said

They gave and received heat from each others' body on that muggy moist evening...

He was facing the kitchen... "Pizza's here" he told her

"Did u order the pizza cookie?" she asked leaning back on him

He nodded...the music was turned off, as the kids trooped in... Manya opened the sliding door that led from dining towards the back patio, she was holding the cranky baby

He walked up to grab her...

The air smelled moist and rainy... more dusty than usual, as if an aandhi was arriving... she loved Delhi rains.
The earth was parched, so was her soul... she would take it... even if it rained for five minutes, she looked at her phone and tuned to FM

The Chandni song was half done..."Lagi aaj saawan ki phir woh jhari hai"

Suresh Wadkar sang
koyi kaash dil pe zara haath rakh de
mere dil ke tukdon ko ik saath rakh de
magar ye hain khwaabon khayaalon ki baaten
kabhi toot kar cheez koyi judi hai
lagi aaj saawan ki phir wo jhadi hai
lagi aaj saawan ki phir wo jhadi hai
wahi aag seene mein phir jal padi hai
lagi aaj saawan ki phir wo jhadi hai

A big fat raindrop fell on her arm, followed by another... the glass covered patio round table had picturesque rain drops on the thin film of dirt... as it began to rain furiously

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Nivi ;)

@nividances

Inactive

+ 2

Posted: 10 years ago

#549

Originally posted by: shidin0117
Hey All,
Some really serious debating and the unpredictability of life is going on. We can just pray to god to give us strength to face whatever life throws at us. So I really pray that God gives strength and courage to everyone who have faced or facing these kind of testing times. Yes I have seen what cancer does...one of my friends mother is recovering from uterine cancer after some 8 rounds of chemo and surgery and many others also. Its particularly difficult when a young person is suffering. That is when we get angry on God and the unfairness of life and sometimes we can see really good people suffering. What else can i say that doesn't read like some platitudes...

Nisha...there is no need to give us update day after day dear...pls rest up. Sometimes the million thoughts in our head tires us out. But if writing helps u in relaxing or provides some distraction then pls do write. We all love u whether u write or not write.

Noufi...Happy Ramzan...I really admire u people dear, how u can fast and that too without drinking water. My friends mom used to make awesome kheer and until college I enjoyed Ramzan since she used to bring us sevai. Now she is in US...so miss her terribly.

And Hello to the new members of SoSy family...garima, Sushma, sorry if i have missed anyone else.

Nams, Ashu, drishti, Anu, putti, SR, swathi, swara, asma, shruti, Srividya, Shev., Vibhu, choti Harshita...Hi to u all

so have to go, household chores is calling out me...I will stalk alone later and go thru the pages.

Shilpa mujhe bhul gayi aap. 😭