Loving An Addict- TaaRey - Page 16

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Chapter 7

Sitting on the lunch table set in our backyard among my teenage third or fourth cousins, who were busy talking and giggling about their high school life made me want to shoot myself. I took a deep breath in as I glanced at Rey who was sitting opposite me next to my uncle who was clearly judging him for being an addict. I could see it and Rey was clearly aware of it too but chose to ignore and talk to him anyways.

Everyone was congratulating Katherine! I thought I would do it too but couldn't. Ever since I'm in this house today I didn't meet Katherine, or Martha or my Dad. Not even Victor. I ignored them each time they looked at me or made an attempt to walk towards me. I wasn't prepared for them. They put me in a Rehab Center, so how can they expect me to be all ok about it!

Anyways, I glanced on our table and noticed the place was so well arranged and classy. Mom would have loved it. She loved such fancy stuff. Home cooked food, fresh flowers, sunny afternoon, live music band playing jazz, so many happy faces around!

I felt it hard to breathe as I began realizing that my mom isn't here anymore. Flashback of my mom's last days was making it difficult for me to swallow my food. Her eyes, her smile, the way she complained about how I left my hair open. Every little thing that didn't matter to me at that time were crawling towards me, making it so painful right in my heart. There were people surrounding me but I felt I was the loneliest human present.

As the pain got unbearable all I could think was the kitchen, the drawer and the hip flask that I left in it. If not drugs then at the moment atleast I could manage to get through this with alcohol. Something is better than nothing right!

Leaving the huge crowd of happy strangers I walked inside my kitchen. Without wasting any second I rushed through the drawer and grabbed the flask. My eyes were beaming with tears as I walked towards the window swallowing a huge sip of alcohol and noticed how My dad held Katherine in his arms as he spoke to his friends. Probably telling them how she deserved all of this. Martha was there too, speaking to my aunts of how proud she is of her daughter. I took another sip when I saw Victor taking pictures of Katherine. Tear rolled down my eyes as I held my breath.

"Taani?"

I startled and hide the flask behind my back and turned as Rey walked in all tensed and confused.

"What the hell are you doing?" he asked all upset and surprised

I Sniffed and tugged few strands behind my ears, "Nothing...ummm..just"

"Give me that flask" he said all dominating and bossy.

"Rey calm down, Its nothing!!"

"The Rehab Center trusted us Taani!" he said sounding all upset, "If they find out about this they will never trust us ever again. You'll be in their hit list of worse programs ever. You have to be in their good books if you want them to be lenient towards you. You need to win their trust. This is your chance to prove it that you can resist temptation"

That's it!! So the only purpose left in my life is to please people now...please my family and act all decent in here! Please the rehab center so that they are nice to me. What is wrong with people!! Why can't I just be myself and live my life as I want to live it.

"Listen Rey!!" I said as I walked towards him, "This is my freaking house. And I will act and behave according to my convenience, you're approval is not needed neither is the rehab centers. I didn't ask them or you to let me attend this party. It was you who convinced the rehab center. So now don't blame me."

"Yes I did convince them because I felt you needed a break for few hours, Maybe if you see how different people act when you're off drugs, it will motivate you to get through this addiction quicker."

"well your wrong" I said in a firm tone, "Nobody is acting any different. Dad still doesn't care about me. Katherine still manages to get all the attention and Victor didn't even bother to say hi to me"

Rey shut his eyes and rubbed his forehead as if he is trying to control his temper, "Just few more hours and we'll be out of here, back to the rehab. Bringing you here was the biggest mistake of my life. The Doctors were so right about you."

Furrowing my eyebrows I folded my hands across my chest, "So that's it? You've given up on me too?"

He looked at me as he took a deep breath in, "Let's have lunch and leave as soon as possible."

As we both opened the door and began to walk we heard a loud noise of people cheering and clapping.

"What just happened?" I asked a young girl who probably was my neighbor or cousin.

I wish I hadn't asked. I wish I had just walked towards the table, sat and had my lunch. Or I wish I had so much alcohol that I wouldn't really remember what this girl answered me. But she did and I heard it loud and clear.

"owh!! " she smiled, "Victor just proposed to Katherine for their wedding and she said Yes"

For some reasons the first person I looked at was Rey. He was staring at me, all guilty and full of sympathy. I bet he was about to say sorry to me, which he definitely should. But I didn't want to hear it. I just took a deep breath in and with a painful smile turned back and began to walk towards my room.

"Taani wait" rey grabbed my arms.

I turned back and was about to answer him when Martha walked to us.

"Taani, I know this will be difficult for you,This is a huge day for Katherine and everyone is so happy." She gulped as she continued, "We didn't know Victor was suppose to propose or else I wouldn't have invited you, I promise!!"

She gulped again as she kept rubbing her palms with an expression of feeling sorry or guilty.

"Taani please, I request you, Just..." she pressed her lips as she tried to speak up but probably didn't know how to say it without sounding offensive.

Taking a deep breath in I glanced at Martha and then at Victor who was holding Katherine in his arms as people congratulated them,

"No worries Martha!! I won't create a scene." I smiled and looked at rey " I'll just be in my room till the Rehab center comes to pick me up."

Saying that I turned back and walked straight into my room. As soon as I shut the door I broke down. I wasn't the type who would run towards my bed and hold my pillow and cry till I feel better. I was the type who would lie under my bed, cover my mouth with both my hands and cry so hard so that no-one would see or hear me. Silent mourning! That was so me.

I quietly cried a lot. So much that I would feel chocked at times. I heard Rey knock on my door, after every 5 minutes, But I didn't want to see him or anyone. Talking to anyone at this moment would be a mistake. Wiping my tears I rolled out of under my bed and stood up.

Before I would even realize it, my sadness turned into anger. Now I couldn't bear it. I couldn't!! I could still hear Rey knock my door, asking me to open the door and speak to him. But I walked towards my study table, and stared at a small box. I heard Rey say that this is not the end , life has much more to offer me and I should be strong. He seriously thinks I need advise?

I sat on my bed and opened the little black box. It wasn't happiness but kind off relief when I spotted a little packet of white powder. Tear rolled down my eyes as I glanced at the door. There was Rey standing outside, Rey who had hope on me, Rey who convinced the Rehab to let me visit home. Rey who was the only person who was being nice to me

But he's also the same Rey who gave up on me few minutes ago.

Taking a deep breath in I opened the pack and took a little powder in my nail and sniffed it. Tears kept gushing as I began to breath, I gulped and wiped my nose as I shut my eyes. I stared at the door again, Rey was still there, I pressed my lips as I felt I was letting him down. But the pain was too real for me to deal with.

Assuming that Rey would understand why I did this I took some more powder and sniffed it. I think I began to feel all dicey and blurry. I kept the remaining powder inside the box and threw it under my bed this time.

For some reasons I was smiling. I wiped my tears and with my mascara began fixing my eyes. I knew I had a purple lipstick in here, I applied that too. Still I looked quite pale with my kajal spread all over my face. I stared at my long hair and the next moment I knew I was standing with a scissor in my hand.

Rey was still knocking on my door as strand by strand I chopped off my hair. He was apologizing to me when all of a sudden I could hear the church bell ring! like it rang during my mom's funeral. I stared at the window, the sound was coming in from there. I stepped back as I closed my ears. But the ringing wouldn't stop. Swaying left and right I made my way near the window and closed it. Much to my relief the noise stopped. I smiled as I laid on my bed, and stared at the ceiling.

I heard Rey knock on my door again, warning me that if I don't open it will break open the door. I giggled and stared at the ceiling again. Within another few minutes I could hear the bells ring again. This time as if someone was getting married. I quickly looked at the window

"Stop it" I yelled.

Tears began flowing as I realized probably Victor and Katherine's getting married down there. I stood up and began pacing in my room as I shut my ears really tight! But the sound would only get louder and louder each second. Finally without wasting another second I lifted the chair and slammed it on the window.

Glasses crashed in and out of my room. I sat down on the floor and began weeping. The bells stopped ringing but I couldn't stop crying. Next moment Rey actually crashed into my room.

"Taani" he ran towards me and grabbed my arms, "Are you okay? Did you get hurt? Why did you break the window? People down there must have got hurt. And what have you done to yourself? What...Are you on drugs?"

He stopped and looked at me as I just stared at him with tears flowing down my cheeks taking the kajal along with them. He gulped sadly and touched my cheek.

"I'm so sorry" is all he could say as he pulled me for a hug. I grabbed his arms and began mourning. I cried out loud. As loud as I could. I didn't have control over my emotions right now, every feeling was exaggerated. I felt double happiness and double pain.

As I cried I noticed Martha, my dad , Katherine, Victor and many of my relatives standing outside my room. Katherine just stood there as My dad walked thru and fro. Martha was with her mouth covered with her palm. Looking at me all disappointed. While victor was trying to convince those relatives that everything is ok.

I rubbed my cheek on Rey's arms as I realized how I blew things up again. He just rubbed my back and hair as I began weeping silently.

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Ummm I really didn't expect it to end like this I didn't like it sorrry but I said what I felt

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