Chapter 5
Oat meal was always on the list of food that I hated the most. And for some strange reasons that was our lunch ever since I've been in this god damn rehab center.
"Wassup"
Rey swooped on the bench across my table with a huge grin on his face. He picked up the plastic spoon and began stirring his meal as I just stared at him.
"You're not supposed to be around me" I whispered angrily
"And why is that?" he spoke as he gulped a spoonful of oat meal.
Tugging my hair behind my ears I began to speak, "Because I don't wanna be around you any more."
He giggled for few minutes and continued eating his meal, I gulped hard and looked around the room making sure no-one was listening and then looked at him again,
"After last nights cuddling scene between us, I've decided its better if we don't spend much time together."
He licked the oatmeal on his lips as he spoke, "scared you'll fall in love with me?"
Taking a deep breath in I smacked the spoon in my bowl and nodded my head angrily. That's not the reason why I want to be away from him. It's just that I want to forget that I kind off cheated on Victor. The only arms I was suppose to sleep was Victor's. Cuddling with Rey was making me feel more like Katherine!! Like a bitch!!
"We just cuddled!! Not like we had s*x or anything...relax" he spoke up as he gulped another spoonful of oatmeal.
Furrowing my eyebrows I looked at him, "That's a big deal for me. I can't just let this happen again"
"Do you have a boyfriend?" he looked at me straight into the eye.
I gulped and stirred my oatmeal ignoring his question.
"Do you have a boyfriend?" he repeated again.
I sighed and looked around the room, "We broke up"
He looked at me surprised and then smiled, "Okay, I promise whenever you get back with your ex-boyfriend, I wont tell him that we cuddled. Its our secret" he winked.
Unable to answer him I just gulped and stared at my bowl. I looked back at him and don't know why but spoke up,
"That's never going to happen. He's engaged to my Step Sister"
He gulped his food and looked at me and was about to sympathize but I interrupted,
"Don't feel sorry for me. My step sister is kind of a b*tch I know!!"
Rey stayed quiet with a confused expression for few seconds and then spoke up, "I was going to say that your ex boyfriend is a douche bag!"
How dare he!
"It's not Victor's fault." I argued, "Katherine played her cards when our relationship was on a rocky edge. She knew we were going through a rough phase and decided to just come in between. She's smarter than I thought she was"
He looked at me all amused, "you should be hating Victor for cheating on you. He was in a relationship with you and dating your sister at the same time but You're blaming Katherine ...just because she's you STEP sister "
"Unbelievable" I answered back "What do you even know about Victor to make such a statement about him? We dated for 8 years and if Katherine had not shown up we would have still been together"
"Well, I don't know much about him but all I know now is that he's a Casanova"
I was breathing furiously as he spoke but I had to prove him wrong, " I was giving Victor a hard time. I was a hot mess and he couldn't deal with me"
"So that reason is good enough to cheat on you?"
"He didn't cheat on me" I whisper yelled at him, "He had warned me about this for almost a year."
He gave a sarcastic laugh and continued, "So you're boyfriend was warning you that he will cheat on you! And you still are defending him?"
"I thought he was saying that so that I would quit drugs. I was a disaster. No one could handle me. I thought he was playing these games with me so that I would take him seriously."
Rey just looked at me , "But he wasn't"
I looked at him for few minutes, "No" I whispered sadly
I remained silent for few minutes, whatever Rey said was true. Deep down in my heart I knew that Victor gave up on me and start seeing Katherine. But I couldn't blame him. I forced him, my actions and addiction forced him to fall for Katherine.
"Its my fault" I whispered
Rey dropped his spoon on the table and looked at me, "Seriously??? First its Katherine, now its your fault?"
I looked at Rey with tears beaming in my eyes as I spoke up angrily,
"A drug addict doesn't deserve to love some one. They always have to choose. Either drugs or the person. I chose Drug over and over again. Victor was tired of giving me chances. I could see it...I could see our break up coming. But I thought Victor loved me so much that he would never break up with me."
I sniffed as I wiped my tear before anyone could see it and continued,
"One day Katherine came up to me to tell me that Victor wants to be with her, she said she wont say yes to him if I have a problem. I thought they are trying to scare me. I laughed a lot on her face and told her go ahead, she can date him, marry him, have kids!! I don't care."
As much as I tried to control, a Tear rolled on my cheek and landed perfectly on my lips. I looked at Rey who was listening to me patiently. This was the first time I ever discussed it to some one. The first time I didn't tell people what a bitch Katherine was, the first time I told them that the real trouble maker was...me!
"Didn't you ever try to give up this addiction? It was causing you your love"
I looked at him and wiped my tear, "I got pissed off even more. Drugs was the only way I could feel that Katherine didn't exist. The only time I felt Victor was with me was when I was high. So I wanted to be high all the time. I dropped out of college, spent money, robbed money, there were times when I would wake up in strange places and I never knew how I got there."
Taking a deep breath in I continued, "when I met more druggies I would be out for weeks. I didn't know them, don't know their names, who they are...nothing. But I was with them for days. One day at a random club, another day some shaddy beach rave party, some days locked up in a room getting high. It was fun"
I heard him sigh, as if he knows what I'm talking about. Ofcourse he knows the feeling. He was an addict too.
I giggled and looked at him, "And then my dad loses his mind and forces me to join this place! He thinks I'll be back to normal, all happy and positive and...you know..something like you"
He gave a soft laugh and looked at me as I continued talking, " He really thinks once I'm out of here I'l be normal! No ways"
I smirked and continued, "The day I'm out of here I'l go and find my druggie friends and get back to my good old days because that is normal life to me. I cannot imagine living without drugs outside this place."
Rey just looked at me silently. I couldn't figure out whether he was feeling bad for me or just judging me. He looked at me as if he was trying to study me. He wouldn't say anything but just stare.
"Stop Staring!!You're freaking me out" I grumbled as I stood up with my meal and walked out of the table.
"So is he coming tomorrow?"
I looked at Rey all amused and confused, "Why would he do that?"
"Because it Sunday and Sunday is Family therapy day"
I stared at Rey as he raised his eyebrows and gulped his meal. Family therapy? Who will make it? My Dad? Martha? Or maybe...maybe Victor!!
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