Part 2
He layed her on the bed...climbing on her...and capturing her lucious lips between his...while moving his hands on her soft bosoms ...pressing them lightly...and making her moan through the kiss...
He left her lips to capture her right melon in his mouth...and felt her fingers in his hairs...encouraging him to go further...and heard her mumbling...''i love you sid''
He raised his head...watching her with passionate eyes and replied back...''love you even more shilpa''
As those confession rang in his head...he woke up with a jolt...he placed his hands..on his chest...trying to get his breath even...''what the eff...was that...??...sid and shilpa can't be this close...even if they are sharing rooms...but why can't they??...dammit..Shilpa is not that kinda of girl''he tried to convince himself that his dream can never be true... he suddenly felt like someone was suffocating him...he hated that dream...or nightmare..he prefered to call it...He heard his clock alarm...and knew it was his duty times...''get a grip on yourself armaan''
He got ready for his duty times...and entered the hospital with a total grumpy mood...he was trying hard to get his mind away from his morning dream...he entered the canteen to order himself a coffee and found riddhima sitting...staring at something
''hey basket whats up'' he took the seat next to her...trying to get over his grumpiness
''nothing armaan...just thinking about something'' she answered him without moving her eyes from her staring space...she felt like she couldn't watch him in his eyes...she was feeling aweful when she saw shilpa in sid's arms...and wondered why...she couldn't sleep all night...each time she closed her eyes..she had that scene infront of her
''share your thoughts'' he said while taking a sip of his coffee
''i can't believe sid and shilpa are engaged...i mean they doesn't look like made for each other kinda'' she said what was troubling her since she saw the couple
''you know what basket...i totally agree with you...sid and shilpa are so different how can they get together'' he agreed to her
''yeah..and you saw Shilpa was soo rude to me yesterday...it's like she's someone else...i don't find any reason of her behaving like that with me'' as a frown appeared on her forehead
''maybe we're the reason of her rude behavior'' he tried to think from shilpa's point of view
''what do you mean armaan?? we're the reason??'' she was facing him now...wondering how can he even such say a thing
''well riddhima...do you remember the last time you behaved properly with her??'' he answered getting back to his grumpy mood
''armaan...i was behaving rudely with her...because she was soo childish'' trying to justify herself
''even Sid was childish...you never behaved that way with him...you were a bit too much with shilpa'' as he thought about all the times she talked rudely to her
She couldn't believe he just said that to her...''you will never understand me armaan'' she knew she had nothing to say and walked out of the canteen
while armaan sat back digesting what just happened...he stood up following riddhima...and found her in the locker room
''what did you mean by i will never understand you riddhima??...all i have been doing this two years is understanding you and your father'' he blasted at her
She turned back to face him...''never armaan..if you tried hard enough...it would have had never been so difficult for you to understand me...and you're telling me even sid was childish...atleast he could understand me'' she din't realize when she started comparing sid with armaan again
''what the hell...you're comparing me with sid...if sid was soo good why you came to me??'' he answered in an angry tone
She closed her eyes...as those words hit her...''i never thought i'm gonna regret that decision''
He was confused with that line of hers'' what do you mean??''
''I dunno armaan...but you know why papa never agreed for our wedding...it's because of this always getting hyper habit of yours'' she stood up...facing him face to face
''what the hell are you talking about riddhima...you started it all and now blaming me...and you told me i never understood you...did you ever try to understand me...it was always your father for you...dating me...getting engage with me...heck even marrying another guy...what about me??...did you ever think about me'' he was sick of it all now...his morning dream drove him half nuts and now riddhima was making him completely nuts
''armaan..it's past...you never tried to clean your image infront of papa...that's your fault'' she tried to ignore his last statement...knowing each and every word was true
''however i try...your father...never thinks i'm good enough for you'' he blasted at her
Their arguement stop as they heard someone's heels sound...they looked back and watched shilpa entering gracefully and moving towards her locker
She din't bother to look at them...while riddhima gave her a glare and armaan looked at her wondering if his morning dream could be true...just the idea of her getting close to sid pained him...he was trying to guess why
Riddhima moved to her locker removing a file...and made her way to shilpa
''Shilpa...this is the medical history of the little girl you're following'' she said catching shilpa's attention riddhima was the girl's ex doctor
She looked at the file in riddhima's hand..and moved her gaze on her face...''well dr riddhima...it's Dr shilpa...i'm no more your junior...so i expect you taking the name...with a little of respect''' she continued as she watched riddhima's eyes widden...''and about this file..well you're way too late..i examined the child again...did all the necessary tests''..''so i will not be needing this file anymore'' she answered her in a clear and bold tone...she din't want to insult her or anything else...but she couldn't wait for riddhima to get over her personal life and give her a file...till then that poor child might be already loosing her life
she took her necessary stuff and left the locker room
Armaan watched her...praying...she would turn and give a last look at him...but she din't...he desperately had to talk to her now...even if that means getting slapped by her...he would bear it all..he actually deserved it he thought
Knowing it will be no use talking again with riddhima...he left the locker room...to attend his patients
She sat in the canteen wondering about what she heard when she was on her way to the locker room
''Shilpa'' he clicked his fingers infront of her eyes bring her back on earth
''what happened to you??...where are you lost baby??'' he asked sitting infront of her
''seems like things aint going good for your ex wife'' she said staring at sid
He looked at her irritatedly...''not only my ex wife...but she's your sister as well''
''can we skip that part'' she said chuckling at his expressions
''yes we can..only if you skip the ex wife part'' he answered smirking at her
''okay fine...but i think you were right...something is wrong with them'' she watched him looking at her..with an i-told-ya look
''i was on my way to the locker room and their fighting voices were coming till the corridors'' she ended her line with a sigh
''you still care for them don't you'' She knew he will read his eyes...so she bowed them...not giving him a view of them
''no i don't...i was just saying'' she lied
He placed his hands on hers..''Shilpu..you know lies between us doesn't last long''
''Sid we both know our feelings well'' mentally she thought'' how much i deny it...i still care for them...one is my love..the other is my sister...but they never valued that care...so why should i still be behind them''
''i think we shouldn't enter'' he forwarded his opinion
''i think you're absolutely right...i don't want anything wrong between them...and they blame us for it''she said standing up and grabbing her lab coat
''i'll see you later'' she bended on his forehead pecking it and left without noticing two pairs of eyes were watching them
''shilpa i wanna talk to you'' he said as she walked along the corridors
''but i don't want to talk to you dr armaan'' she gave a pause to her heels and looked back at him...''one last time..because i don't want a scene everyday''
''can we move to the fire escape??'' he offered her and watched her moving along
He entered the fire escape remembering the times he was broken in there...and she handled him...and the time when riddhima scolded her...he was trying to conform her when she told him she is stronger...she indeed was stronger
''5 minutes...not more than that'' while looking at her watch
''it's enough'' he faced her holding her hand...and found her pulling them back...her skin...he so wanted to feel her softness against him...she was soo comfortable when sid was holding them...he wanted to remove sid's touch from her hands
''Shilpa...i know i have been a real jerk in past...i can't move to the past and erase all what i did...the only thing i can do is apologizing for it all'' he watched the tiles of the fire escape
''look armaan...as i told ya i moved on...moving on means forgetting about the pasts..i'm over you...over that past of mine...i'm really happy in my life with my profession...and my fiancee'' her heart knew how false those words were...but she learnt to overpower it
He looked at her with an unbeliavable look...he wasn't able to believe her words...how can she forget all concerning him...of course she can armaan...all i gave her was pain...he told to himself
she felt him sitting on the stairs as if someone broken...''not this time armaan...i'll not break' she thought...''armaan your time is almost over if you're done...can i leave?? she said fearing she might be loosing herself
''Shilpa...i want your friendship again...i'm tired...i need you to handle me like you did the other time'' he said in hurtful tone
''so that you can use and walk on me again'' his eyes were red...while hers were emotionless
''shilpa...'' he din't know what to say more...knowing he actually did what she just said
''you don't deserve my friendship again armaan...and for now i think your 5 mins is done...i should be leaving'' she tried to reach the door when she felt his grip on her wrist
''don't go please!!...i promise not to be a jerk again to you...i badly need a friend shilpa...the way my life is going...it's soo troubling...i'm lost in something i am not...you used to remind me of what i was...and always acted like a hope to me in darkness...come back shilpa'' he said facing her back
''leave my hand armaan...how many times should i say i don't like your touch'' she blasted at him pulling her hand...''armaan you're still being selfish...you want me as a friend just to support you...well that's not happening...the shilpa which used to be behind you...is no more...and i think you know who killed her??'' she turned back to him smiling sarcastically at him..''so forget about me being friend with you again''...''that's a big No...now may i please leave dr armaan'' without waiting for his reply she left the fire escape...still being emotionless...she cried enough...why should she cry now??
''Sid'' she watched him checking a patient
'' yeah riddhima...you wanna say something??''he gave her a look and moved back to his patient
''actually i wanted to talk..can we meet after duty'' she thought a lot about it...and all the time she got only one answer...shilpa and sid can't be together
''well..i'm soo sorry riddhima...but i promised shilpa to take her out tonight...some romantic candle light dinner...she needs it badly'' he chuckled thinking about her kitchen being full with coffee mugs yesterday
''Al...right...'' she broke the word into two trying to digest the romantic candle light dinner stuff and remembered all the things sid tried to do...to make their wedding work...but she was never satisfied
She walked out of the ward giving sid a last teary look...it was hurting her...her hands made her to her chest trying to find her wedding chain...and remembered it's been two years..since she removed it...something was pinching her
While examining the patient..he remembered'' oh damn..riddhima was here to tell me something..dumbo sid...you din't even ask her what''
He penned down the patient's medicines...and got out of the ward
''hey armaan'' he greeted him politely
''hey sid'' he got back in his grumpy mood looking at sid
''what happened...why are ya in such a mood'' he placed his hand on armaan's shoulder
''Had a bad dream this morning..it spoilt my entire day'' he replied sarcastically
''bad dreams huh'' he chuckled at it and continued...''you know i've heard morning dreams always come true''
He got confused when armaan excused himself angrily
He had sid's words rolling in his mind'' morning dreams always come true''...''this one will never come true..he banged his hand on his locker door...and a bracelet came out...he picked it back...tracing the 'S'...it was shilpa's bracelet...his mind went on the first time they met...he was soo irritated by her...how much he wished he doesn't meet her again...but destiny always placed them together...as if they were meant to be
Shilpa walked in the locker room...holding her head...she was having such a bad headache..might be the change of time and environment...she thought...she felt herself dizzy a bit
He ran to her...grabbing her shoulder...and helping her to sit on the bench..''are you alright shilpa''
She placed her hands on her forehead...mummuring'' yes armaan i'm ...alright'' she tried to straighten herself but fell again on armaan's broad
shoulder
Riddhima and sid entered together in the locker room and found shilpa in dizzy condition...Sid ran to her pushing armaan away a bit
''Shilpa what happened to you??''
She opened her eyes weakly at sid..''i'm alright sid...just having a bad headache and feeling dizzy'' she held his hands for comfort...while armaan felt bad...he was there to giving her his support...but she din't held him the way she was holding sid
''you don't take care of yourself baby...you were puking this morning...and feeling uneasy..still you came at work...now see..what happened'' he scolded her lovingly and placed his hand on her waist lifting her in his arms
''we are done with duty for today..let's go home..you badly need some rest'' he walked out with a shilpa curled in his arms
It can't be...she din't feel insecure when she entered finding shilpa leaning against armaan...but she was feeling it when sid lifted shilpa in his arms
Armaan stood back looking at his hands...feeling shilpa's touch still on them..he looked at riddhima wondering what's in her mind
''armaan...i think i'll go back home early today'' he heard her saying to him
''i'll drop you'' he said trying to control his unknown emotions towards shilpa
''no it's okay i will go on my own'' she insisted
''basket..i'll drop you i said na'' how much he hated when she argued uselessly
He watched her nod silently and they walked till the car
''do you think she's pregnant'' she broke the silence shocking armaan
''what??'' he blasted...''are you alright?'''
''you din't see...shilpa is always clinging to sid...they live in the same house...and now her symptoms'' she was feeling real insecure
''oh c'mon riddhima..you're a doctor..how can you say that??...vomiting, uneasiness and dizziness aint only pregnancy symptoms'' his mind went to his morning dream...while his heart refused to believe she went that close to sid
''and one more thing i think it's sid clinging to shilpa'' he weren't liking riddhima's hatred for shilpa
''it's useless arguing with you armaan...and i think you're right for the pregnancy thing'' she convinced herself too...shilpa and sid din't consumate their relationship
Sick of the silence she moved to switch the radio on
Jaane Tu Mera Kya Hai, Jaane Tu Mera Kya Tha [I Don't know who you are to me, I don't know who you were]
As the song started their mind went to their past...how they were with shilpa and sid
Tu Hi Mera Har Pal, Tu Hi Har Lamha Tha [You were my every moment, you were my every minute]
riddhima remembered her wedding with sid
Jaane Kaisi Kashish Hai, Jaane Kaisi Khalish Hai[I Don't know what kind of attraction this is, don't understand what type of torment it is]
Armaan remembered the attraction he felt with shilpa when they were in rain
Kyun Yeh Saans Thami Hai, Aankhon Mein Kyun Nami Hai[Why can't I breathe? Why are these eyes wet?]
they thought about the pain they felt when they saw shilpa and sid together
Hai Dosthi Humko Yakeen Tha, Dosti Aur Kuch Bhi Nahin Tha[I believe we had a friendship, Nothing more than just a friendship]
he remembered his friendship with shilpa...their little fights...and cute talks
Hai Kaisa Ye Dard Naya Sa Kyun Dil Lagtha Toota Toota Sa[So what kind of new pain is this? so why my heart feel like broken?]
He remembered his talks with shilpa in the fire escape...and realize he lost her friendship forever
Jaana Dil Jaana Kaise Meine Na Jaana[My heart knew, how could I not know?]
Ke Pyar Yahin Hai, Yeh Jaane Tu Ya Jaane Na[That this is love, whether you know it or not]
Jaana Dil Jaana Kaise Tune Na Jaana[Your heart knew, how could You not know?]
Yeh Pyaar Yahin Hai, Jaane Tu Ya Jaane Na[That this right here is love, whether you know it or not]
They were both feeling those lyrics were meant for them
Jaane Tu Mera Kya Hai, Jaane Tu Mera Kya Tha[I Don't know who you
are to me, I don't know who you were]
he thought about the first time he met shilpa...and was tired of her dramaqueen attitude
Tu Hi Mera Har Pal, Tu Hi Har Lamha Tha[You were my every moment, you were my every minute]
She thought about how sid was there for her...every time she broke...when she wanted to be with armaan...he always understood her and held her hands
Ooo Hothi Thi Tujh Se Subha Har Din Ki[ooo, all my mornings began with you]
they both smile thinking about whenever they used to see them in the morning
Teri Dopehar Se Shyam Ki Dhun Thi[The time spent with you from afternoon till evening had a rhythm]
The times he spent his duties with shilpa
Hothi Thi Raathein Teri Baathon Mein Khoye[Nights were spent lost in endless talks with you]
she smiled thinking her night fight with sid
Tere Khayalon Mein Jaage Aur Soye..[I was lost in thoughts about you, while awake and asleep]
he thought about how shilpa used to be in his mind...irritating him and
decreasing the pain that riddhima's memories used to inflict him
Tu Jo Nahin To Kya Raha [Now that you are not here, what more is left...]
They realized...they lost them...lost those moments they were thinking about
Jaane Tu Mera Kya Hai, Jaane Tu Mera Kya Tha[I Don't know who you are to me, I don't know who you were]
Tu Hi Mera Har Pal, Tu Hi Har Lamha Tha[You were my every moment, you were my every minute]
Jaane Kaisi Kashish Hai, Jaane Kaisi Khalish Hai[I Don't know what kind of attraction this is, don't understand what type of torment it is]
Kyun Yeh Saans Thami Hai, Aankhon Mein Kyun Nami Hai[Why can't I breathe? Why are these eyes wet?]
Jaana Dil Jaana Kaise Meine Na Jaana[My heart knew, how could I not know?]
Ke Pyar Yahin Hai, Yeh Jaane Tu Ya Jaane Na..[That this is love, whether you know it or not]
Jaana Dil Jaana Kaise Tune Na Jaana[Your heart knew, how could You not know?]
Yeh Pyaar Yahin Hai, Yeh Jaane Tu Ya Jaane Na[That this right here is love, whether you know it or not]
As those lines hit them they were doubting their decisions of getting together...both thought about the pain they were feeling on seeing shilpa and sid as a couple
armaan dropped riddhima...with a simple bye...and zoomed away with his car...not wanting to face her...least he knew she was in the same emotional turmoils as he was
No one is killing me for this update please đ
Edited by Aashi_Shona - 11 years ago
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