hey anon... :) last thread, after ur note, i did mention tht whn u say "imp update" it usually has to do sthg with arnav's insecurities :) :)
n honestly, though i m sad, n obviously upset fr wht khushi has to go thru...
i still feel worse fr arnav...
i m still nt as mad to execute the kill-arnav-plan :) :) .. n the way u put arnav across.. i wonder if i wud ever b :) :)
ok.. before going on abt hte chapter.. i hv to mention this... as per me.. khushi is going to mk matters worse if she confesses.. coz arnav is nt a normal insecure, full of complexes human... he is one who is hurt beyond repair by expression of love, which eventually turned out to b a show.
n tht too, nt once, bt .. fr arnav.. atleast twice.. by both his parents. n most imp.. by the one relationship we all consider in-corruptible, his mother. not step-mom, his very own real mom.
someone who has been cheated by his own mom .. someone who's mom always told him tht he is loved ONLY by her, n then ends up finding out tht even this love was fake... is bound to despise even the mention of the word.
i knw most of us wud b happy tht she is ready to confess.. bt i m nt.. i somehow feel, tht its going to mk him distance himself further.
u knw everytime i think of khushi's POV song.. i dont knw y.. bt i always get a image of khushi in the vast lawns, n terrace of tht huge house, alone, thinking abt arnav who is probably far off.. mayb office, or some trip.. bt definitely nt arnd..
n the upcoming confession seems like mking it come true.
khushi is wht arnav said.. sunshine, n u cant ask sun to b selective... though here again, i wud say, she might hv jsut been able to find a small little window of moving out after him, even if just fr a bit, mayb she cud hv said she needed to use the restroom, or tht she wud go luk fr arnav n find out how long he is tking... reasons almost all wives use to go to their husband's whn needed.
n tht wud hv been enuf... coz those few seconds, wud hv convinced him, tht fr her he is most imp. .. most of hte times, actions do convince ppl more than words...
bt then. she is nt at fault..
1. though mature.. she is still too young.. n then she obviously doesnt knw as much abt his issues as us 😉 i mean readers do hv the adv of knwing both sides of the story, unlike the characters :)
2. she was being civil, n was definitely waiting fr arnav, concerned n obviously giving absolutely no attention to rishabh.
bt then, how wud arnav knw any of it.. he was nt there; n whn he was, he ws too furious to notice anythg positive wrt himself.
i think confessing in the heat of the moment ... might still b ok.. whn the confession just flows out of her, n doesnt luk like a pre-meditated thot... bt a planned confession, is sure going to mk him feel its happening all over again with him.
i mean the confession, khushi wud hv to really think it thru before executing. she really needs to mk him believe tht she loves him, to ensure he doesnt run away.
well thts wht i feel... n i soo soo hope tht i m wrong :) :)
i wish he is in enuf control over his anger to appreciate her feelings, n realise tht he is most imp to her, no matter wht... n this is nt going to change ever.
i felt soo bad fr him.. i wished khushi cud just hold him, cuddle him, n let him knw tht he doesnt hv to fight alone every single time in his life... tht she is there to stand by him, hold him, n ensure tht he wins, whn he feels tired of fighting. ..
i m sure khushi too wud hv prefered doing htt... bt cudnt... n tht mks me feel sad fr her too...
i loved the fact tht khushi didnt give up, tht she reminded him tht they wont sleep in seperate rooms, given his reason fr tht, once he does cool down, n if he thinks it thru... he might see tht she has no intend to leave him... ever.
i knw it feels like khushi deserves better... bt honestly... i dont think anyone can b better fr her.. she is gd fr anyone n everyone.. she is a gem.. bt noone else can ever give her as much importance in his life as arnav.
she is the centre of his very being... unlike any other person. i mean fr anyone else, she wud hv been the love of their life, their better half, best half fr tht matter...
bt noone else wud hv hd ONLY KHUSHI in his priority list.. which arnav does.
n a person as beautiful n pure n selfless as khushi.. deserves this...
thts wht i feel atleast..
loved it tht khushi realises tht arnav, no matter how angry he is... wud never hurt her physically.. nt even a scratch. she does understand him too well.. if only he realised it...
his anger, his words, his silence, likes, dislike... everythg .. she understands n prioritises everythg abt him soo soo well n above everythg else. above her own self.
at times i feel a little bit manipulation is needed in life to ensure all goes well... so dear khushi.. use whtever is needed... bt before u confess mk sure tht he wud believe.
its gd tht she knws n commits to holding the fort till he comes arnd... infact i respect khushi soo soo much fr this strength of hers... bt still , it wud nt b wise to fight a battle, whr u r nt sure of the result.. atleast mk all possible effort to ensure a victory... n then on... its obviously upto time n fate n situation.
i think i had once mentioned tht more than jealous... he is insecure coz he feels rishabh is better match fr khushi than him... gd tht khushi finally knws it...
God i soo soo wish tht he believes her declaration of her love fr him. i wish... :) :)
PS: khushi must hv amazing patience n love fr arnav... otherwise the way he is still accusing her, anyone else wud hv probably left him
Edited by tanu3579 - 11 years ago
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