Tumhe Khone Se Darta Hun
We enter in a class and saw a teacher dilevering his lecture to the class and in one cornor there was sitting a very quite girl and to the other end of the class was sitting a very quite boy...
They both never talked never had bothered eachother never made too much freindz...
Boy always wander alone with one or other book in his hand reading it and girl was having one freind who know her very well but with limit.. Girl mever let the others come near her...
They both boy and girl always kept their head bow down and were drown into the books... They were just monosylubic to the people who questions them... They never talked too much..
They were the brightest students of the school... Everyone in school know them for their intellegent brains and want to be there friend but who can change the nature of them...
In parents meeting always boy was the one who came up with a very old lady and girl she come witth an old man...
When they were asked about parents they both eemain silent both of them were aloof in this evil world...
Boys parents died in plain crash and girls mom died due to cancer and her dad was so drown into bussiness that he never paid any attention to her she alway felt that she is no all alone in this world...
This is how it all starts like that... Owing to the situation made them what they are today all aloof from the crowd of folks...
Coming back after the break to the class pupli again settle down as they were settled befor same senerio again meet our eyes... Coners occupied...
But This tym when there was the lecture going on the teacher asking the theoritical question from class and checking the copies to students.. But the copy of the girl was left incomplete teacher started betting and accusing her for anything and everything and girls head was hanged down and crying listening to the words teacher was using so harshly...
After saying what ever he has to teacher moves on... And atlast coming to the end again the boy was made to stand... Only two person in class were standing from the two cornors of the class... Teacher again starred accussing him... He was also been beaten by the teacher but no voice escape from his mouth and seeing this teacher got more frustated and start beating more furiously...
When the bell rang he went out in anger...
After the classes when the girl was walking in school primises to go to school she over heard a group of boys and girls saying...
Boys- pata hain vo armaan ne aapna home work kiya tha phir bhi nahi dikhaya.
Girl - pata nahi vo ye sab kyun karta hain...
Girl- vo toh aisa tab karta hain jab ridhima ko daant padhti hain...
Boy - pyaar jo karta hain usse.
Girl- kabhi bolta kyun nahi hain ...
boys - bole toh tab jab book se tym mile... dono hi bok mein dube rahte hain...
and listenning this ridhima moved on...
ridhima wonder that may be it was attraction but how some one can be attracted to the girl who never speaks up to anyone who never talked to him who never look above her books always her head was in book .. then how can someone love her...
and he.. he too never looked up to from his books then how he noticed her when she sitts in the extrem last cornor of the class and he in other cornor...
ridhima was wondering adn left for her home...
They both were in their final of their secondary high school... soo the exams were approching and all were bussy in studies.. and filling up the comepitition forms for their further studies... and all have planned their futur.. every student have made their mind to become one or the other thing...
But these two armaan and ridhima both were unaware of what the other have took as the carree...
After month when exams are over... All the students are injoying their holidays... And they were tensed too thinking about the result... All what to score gud marks so they can have the college of their dream...
But to people were not tensed about the marks or percentage they will score they are fighting from their lonliness both ever dealing with their emotions from starting till now but never gave up on their feeling...
They both have the habbit to write dairy entry daily sharing their feeling and thought in dairy...
Its their way they both think that sharing their tought in dairy is that they are sharing it with their mom's...
After 3 weeks the result was announced...
And some of them are happy they are getting their dream college... Some are disappointed that they lost the apportiunity...
But here armaan n ridhima both of them to the examination and got their dream college but still they are not happy... How can one be happy if there is no one be there to share their happiness with them...
After getting their destine college... They joined their college... Starting days were very hactic for everyone as the no of formalities are to be done...
Every one was running here n there for completeing their admission facilities...
One day as they were roaming for the work armaan bump into a girl... And the books and dairiees and all the things tarmaan n girl holding in hand falls down...
Armaan looked up to see who is there infront of him...
When he raise his eyes up he was shocked... That ridhima was standing in front of him... Ridhima was also shocked to see him...
They both were unaware that they both are in same college anfd they both have chosen medical as there carree...
Then armaan bend down to pick up the fallen thongs of him n hers and then ridhima to bend down theyn they both picked the the fallen articles of the other and give to eachother after collecting...
Armaan and ridhima didn't changed even the pleasentries just looked at each other and went away...
Reaching home at night time ridhima was siting at the window platform and was having dairy in her lapps when she opened the dairy to share her todays thought she was buffled to see that this was not her dairy... Ahe trumed aroung her dairy to see the cover of it .. But she saw the cover was same but the page filled inside was not filled by her... Ahe was first puzzeled with the dairy but then she remember that today she had collided with armaan and at that tym the dairied must have changed...
Ridhima first thought not to read the dairy but after not ablee to resiste the temptation to read she opened the dairy again to read but there were only 2 entrie in it as it was the start of the yr(session of college)...
Ridhima start reading...
Entry one...
Aaj mein pata nahi kyun itna akele mahsus kar raha hun... Mera aapna toh bhapan se hi koi nahi hain par aaj aisa lag raha hain jaise jo tha vo bhi dhur ho gaya hain... Pata nahi kahan hogi vo aab...
Pata nahi kya tha uski aankon mein jo mein khud ko unmein dubne se khud ko rokh nahi pata tha... Kabhi mein ne usse dosti nahi ki pata nahi kahin vo unconfortable na ho jati...
Pata nahi kya tha vo uski hasi mein jo kabhi khul kar toh nahi hasti thi vo par ek aajeeb sa sukoon dil ko milta tha usse thooda sa hi sahi par uski hasi sukoon deti thi...
Bhagwan kare usse saari khishiyan mile... Koi dukh na chuye usse... Meri ummar bhi usse lage aur vo jo chahey usse mil jaye...
Reading sooo ridhima got confussed and restless as well ... She was fitting from her heart that why she is reaxting like this... Its his life if he like aome one or rather say if he love aome one then its a very gud thing.. Then why she is not able to stat happy knowing that there is someone in his life... Whome he love soo deeply...
Unknown to herself... Her eyes were
Flowing ganga jammuna...
When she felt her hand getting wet she putt her hand on her cheek
Ridhima clear her cheeks and then in reatless ness put the dairy on the side table near window an then sit flowing her tears...
She was soo restless to know who the girl was but she don't have annu courage to read some other name... She want to reead her name in it...
And then she was trying to avoid looking at dairy that she have clossed a while ago and putted on table... Buf ger heart and brain both wantted her to read it so rishima was stealing glance of the dairy but when she was not able to restist more she again pick up his dairy and then with shaking hands open up the second page...
Entry 2
Aaj meri life ka ek naya phase start ho chuka hain... Mein aaj uss college mein khada hun jis mein mein padh a chahata tha hamesha se... Aur meri life aab aage bhad rahi hain ek nai disha se par aaj phir ek kamj lag rahi hai... Uski... Uski hasi ki... Uski aankhon ki... Uski baatein karti khamoshi ki... Bahut pyaar karta hun usse se...i miss u soo much ... Tum meri na hokar bhi hamesha mujhe aapni hi lagti ho ... Aur aaj bhi mein tumhe aapne dil mein mehsus kar sakta hun ... I luv u so much ridhima...
RIDHIMA GUPTA meri life baan hai ho tum ... Meri khushi ka reason bhi tum hi ho... I miss u i love u ridhima...
And that was it as soon as ridhima leart that it was reall for her .. Her happiness knew no bounds her heart was dancing madly kn happinesss... She felt the belongingness in her heart... That finally there is some one whome she belong and who belongs to her...
Then felling soo much up and down within herself and in her emotions ridhima was sure of one thing now for which she was not only avoiding but fighting with her mind too for not listening to mr.heart... That she have a strong feeling for armaan too...
And on other side armaan to opeened his dairy but found out its not his... Dairy... Then recalling his collision with ridhima he found out that their dairies have been exchanged by mistake...
Armaan first try to resist the curity taking over him to read the dairy but but atlast he decieded to read it...
Entry 1
Aaj meri jindagi ka ek naya padaw shuru hone wala hain... Jab aaj mera result aaya tab mujhe pata chala ki mein ne medical entrance mein top kiya par kushi kahin gum ho gai hain meri... Jab maa mujhe chod kar gai thi tab Se bahut akeli pad hai thi mein kyunki papa bhi aapne bussiness mein itne busy ho gaye hain... Par pata nahi kyun ek aajeeb si sukun taab bhi pehsus hota tha aapne school mein ja kar... Koi tha jisse mein Dekh kar hi dil hi dil sukun paati thi... Nahi maangi thi ki vo pyaar hain... Kabhi lagta tha ki mein pagal hun jo ulta seedha sochti hun par aaj tak aapni feelings sort out nahi kar pai hun mein... Pata nahi kab mujhe aapni feeling samjh aayengi uske liya... Mein bus ye dua karungi bhagwan se ki chahe kuch bhi ho bhagwan ji aap usee hamesha khush rakhna... Usne mera liya bahut kuch kiya hain mujhe bina pata lage par mujhe hamesha pata chal jata tha ... Aap plz hamesha usse khus rakhna sab khushi dena usse duniya ki...
Armaan not able to take in into him felt tears of his failed love story... Which disn't even started and befor that only it have been ended...
Armaan thaught to learn the name of the boy for whom his... Sry not his now she love simeone then it only ridhima... He want to learn the name of the boy ridhima have feeling for but haven't understand it yet... Armaan was also scared on one side that what if ridhima read his dairy... Then it will not be gud for both of them... He prayed slilently that she haven't open and read his dairy... And himself he was ready to read the second entry...
Entry 2
Pata nahi kyun par bahut yaad aa rahi hain aaj aapne school ki... Mein ne kabhi koi frnd nahi banaya par phir bhi anjaane mein ek itna acha dost baana par vo bhi aapni dosti mera piche se nibhata raha par kabhi mera samne nahi aaya. Na hi kabhi usme mujhe se frndship karne ki koshih ki...
Pata hain frnd hamesha hamara dard baatne aur khushiya bhadane ke liya hote hain... Aur vo bhi bilkul waise hi tha... Hamesha har chote baade dukh mein mera saath deta tha... Schooling mein dukh hote hi kitne hain ek kabhi teacher se daat khana ya maar khana par vo bin kisi ko jataye mera dukh bat ta tha...
Jab bhi mein aapna kam na kar pane ke karan saja bhukat ti thi tab vo bhi ye hi bolta tha ki usne nahi kiya par sach toh tha ki vo aapna kam karke aata tha par mera dukh na baat pane ke chakar mein khud bhi vo hi punishment leta ki mera dhur samjh toh jayega isse...
Hamesha kuch na kuch karta kabhi mera liya note chod jata toh kabhi mera saath daat khata ... Bahut miss kar rahi hun aaj mein aapne silent support ko... I m really missing u ARMAAN MALIK...
And armaan was shocked to learn that ridhima don't only know the truth that he always gett punishment with her willingly but what rejoyeed him more was the fact that ridhima misses him in her life...
Armaan was sure not that his yesss HIS ridhima too loved him but she haven't realised it... And he will give her all tym to feel being loved and wanted...
And with all these thoughts They both were so happy at this new confrontation that they happily and content till heart fall asleep to have beautifull dreams...
Unaware of the fact that what the new morning is bring to their life... What the game fate is planing to play with them... They both were excited to mert eachother next day...
Next day ...
Ridhima woke up from her sleep with a big smile on her face for a chAnge... And she was filled with new happiness and with all the happiness and excitment ridhima got ready for the college and speed up towards college not caring of any one in the ways from her room to the main gate of house and left with nikki who was waitin for her to go to college together...
Nikki is a common link between ridhima and armaan... Nikki is armaan cousin armaan always avoid her as he believe he is bad for others but nikki knows his secreats and she happens to be frnd with ridhima as one day when they all were filling their admission forms for their medical college ridhima lost her important document that was needed for the form filling and she was about to cry when nikki came with ridhima's lost document and they became frndz... Nikki was talketive girl and ridhima was reserve one but nikki felt a connection with ridhima and she make ridhima her frnd...
Ridhima was soo rxcieted to meet armaan but to her disappoitment armaan didn't came up to the college... Ridhima have a wiered feeling for his absence... But she can't do any thing...
Ridhima got happy thinking that she will meet tomorrow with him what if not today but tomorrow she will surly meet him... Like this many days went off... And now ridhima was restless... She know him from scholling days and he was not a kind of person who misses his studies for anything... Then what happen to him now...
One day ridhima was all sad and not in any mood to attend the classes as she wa soo restless to meet armaan but there is no one who can tell her ya from whome she can ask for armaan's whereabout... In all her gloomy state she was passing through the canteen.. When one single word gain all her attention...
She was walking all lost till now but then that one single word that have ability to gain her all attention even if she was unconsiouse...
And that was the world for her now...ARMAAN
When ridhima was passing canteen she heard nikki talking on a call...
Nikki - ji doctor...
Dr.-------
Nikki - what ...!!!! doctor mein aabhi aa rahi hun...
Dr . -------
Nikki - nahi aap armaan ka operation kiriye mein 5 min mein saari formalities kar dungi...
Cutting call nikki rush to the sanjeevni as armaan was admitted there and need to be operated ...
Ridhima 's world revovled baddly and she rush to nikki to know about him but as she was little distance away and was under shock to react for sometime... When she tried to reach nikki ... But missed her...
Her nikki rush to sanjeevni to do all the formalities and as ridhima haven't properly heard nikki earlier so ridhima don't know which hospital armaan is in and when she tried to call nikki her cell was saying its off...
Ridhima with no option goes to her home... With tears of all helpness and lost feeling...
In evening ridhima was sitting at all lost and tears in her eyes on bed and was starin in space praying for armaan comtinuously... When nikki came to her home...
Ridhima was unaware of the presence of someone in her room but she soon look up when she felt the hand on her shoulder... Seeing nikki in her room ridhima instantly got up and
Ridhima - nikki tum yahan..!!!
Nikki armaan ko kya hua hain ..!!!
Aur tum yahan kya kar rahi ho...!!!
Tumhe toh armaan ke pass hona chaiye tha..!!!
Vo waham akele hoga...!!!
Aab kaisa hain armaan nikki..!!!
Vo theek toh hain na..!!!
Aur operation..!!!
Nikki kuch bol bhi armaan kaisa hain nikki bol na..!!!
Aur kounse hospital mein hain voo...!!!
Nikki - ridhima mein tumhe bus ye dene aai thi aab mein aur nahi chup rah sakti thi... Ye lo ridhima tumhari amanat...!!!!
Ridhima was staring at the bundle of papers in nikki's hand to which she is reffering them as ridhima's amanat ...
Giving the papers to ridhima nikki goes of from there... And ridhima was lost busy staring papers in her hand and thinking what papers ar these in her hand... Slowly slowly ridhima open the paper that as folded all together and when she opened the paper ... All the paper bundle fell from her hand except 4-5 papers that are left in ridhima's grip and ridhima was soo numb to react as she was not able to be liev on her eyes...
She shuffle the papers in her hand and all thise paper have a shocking words in then the quickly ridhima settle on the floor where all the paper have been scattared after falling from her hand and tshe like mads collected or rather snatching paper sfrom ground shuffe the papers and then all have the same shocking word for her and then her etes fall on the date writen on every letter... These papers have the Date when she was in class 12 and then some have 11th class then more from 10th class... And all those were not just a paper but the letters from armaan adressing all to ridhima...
Ridhima picked some random letters in her hands and read them...
1st from 10th class
Date - 20august 2007
Aaj mein ne na jaane kyun aapni copy chupa di thi jab mein ne bakshi sir ko ridhima ko daat te hua dekha... Tumme to kuch nahi bola sir se ridhima...tumne aapna gum shabdo(words) mein nahi jataya par tumahari aankhe jo nam ho gai thi sir ki baat sun kar unhine mein tumhara dard tumhara gum bata diya tha... Na jaane kyun par mujhe bahut dard hua tha tumhari num aankhe dekh kar... Kash tumhe mein kuch bol pata...
armaan
2nd from 10th class
Date - 14th feb 2008
Pata nahi kyun ridhima aisa hota hain mera saath ki har kaam karne se pehle tumhara khayal aa jata hain... Jab bhi koi cheej mujhe dukhi karti hain mein tumhara chera yaad karta hun aur sab dukh gayab se ho jate hain... Kya mein tumse pyaar karne laga hun... Meri har baat tum se shuru hone lagi hain kya sach mein ye hi pyaar hota hain ... Kab aur kaise milega mera jayab...
Armaan
3rd from 11th class
Date - 12 sept. 2008
Tum hasti hui bahut aachi lagti ho chahe tumhari har hasi jhuti hoti hain jo kabhi bhi tum dil se nahi hasti tum par tab bhi hasti bahut achi lagti ho...
Kash kabhi mein tumhari hasi ka reason ban paun ... Kash kabhi tumhare labo par jo hassi hain vo mera karan ho toh mera dil ko ek sukoon milega...
Tumse bahut puaar karta hun ridhima bahut pyaar...
Armaan
4th from 12th class
Date - 2 april 2009
Pata nahi kyun mein tumhe har dafa ek letter likhta hun jab ki mein koi letter tumhe de nahi pata... Tum se aaj tab baat tak nahi kar paya kabhi ... Nahi jaanta tum kya sochti ho mera baare mein ... Pata nahi kabhi hum frndz bhi banege yaa nahi par ek baat mein jaanta hun ridhima... Ki chaheye hum kabhi dost bane na baane chahe kabhi hun bat kar na kare par tum se ek rishta sa meshsus hota hain mujhe... Aur ek baat toh aab mera saath jindihi baar chalegi ki aab mein armaan tumhare jindagi baay pyaar karta rahunga...
Pata nahi mera aur tumahara koi future hai ki nahi ek dusre ke saath par pyaar hamesha rahega...
Jis par hum mar mite usse pata bhi nahi..
Armaan
5th after scholling
Date - 25 june 2010...
hhmari schoolling to khatam ho gai ... par aaj bhi uski har ek aada yaad hian mujhe... kaise vo sehm jaati thi techer ki jara si uchi awaz se hi ... kisse aapne baalon ke ssth khelti thi... kaise last seaat par beth kar aapni hi books mein dubi rahti thi voo... bahut miss karta hun tumhe mein ... kash humein ek hi college mein hote.. par mujhe ye bhi nahi pata ki tum kya baanna chati ho kya stream li hain tumne... bus ye dil hain ki college mien bhi saath hon hum...
armaan
6th in college
Date - 10 march 2011
Day their dairy got exchanged by the collision...
Aj mein bahut khush hun ridhima... Aaj tak itne saal mein ye baat aapne dil mein chupa ke betha tha par aaj mein khul kar bol askta hun ki mein tumse behad pyaar karta hun... Par shayad aabhi bhi kuch samay hain mera tumse aapne pyaar izhaar karne mein... Jaanta hun tum bhi mera liya kuch feel karne lagi ho.. Ye baat tumhari dairy ne mujhe bata di... Par shayad tum aapni feelings ko theek se samjh nahi paai ho isliya mein aapni feeling bata kar tumhe aabhi pareshan nahi karunga... Par ye wada hain tumse ridhima ki jis din tumhe aapni feelings ke baare mein pata chalega mein bhi tum se aur iss jahan ke saamne chilla kar aillan kar dunga ki mein tumse beintehaan mohobaat karta hun... Aur tumhare liya aapni jindagi kya aapni jaan tak de sakta hun... Bahut precious ho tum mera liya... Par aabhi tum aapni feelings samjh lo phir tumhara armaan aapni jindagi tumhare hawale kar dega...
Beintehaan mohobaat ke saath..
Armaan
Ridhima then saw a paper from nikki saying armaan has meet with accident a week befor and was operated today... Dur to complication that tym and now when he has been operated ... He has goen into coma and doctor saying he is not responding to any medicien so this force nikki to give all these letters and some belongings addressing to ridhima as thise were the gift armaan have stored with him for her every bday and on some special occassions every year so far from 10th.. Nikki gave them all to ridhima so that she can help in something and may be armaan can respond in her presence...
In last nikki wrote
Ridhima plz meri kuch help kar do armaan ko wapas la do.. Armaan sanjeevni hospital mein admitted hain in ICU...
Till when ridhima recovered from all the numbness and all the shock reading the letters from armaan and last one from nikki the clock was showing 3am...
Without caring of the time ridhima run for armaan or rather say her life... Ridhima wasn't having any dhupatta around her neck nor she was having any footwear in her foots she was soo numb to feel anything and was tuning like manics towards sanjeevni...
Sohu althought this was ishka's demanded gift and half done... still i m posting this on ur demand... i was thinking to post it when its done but now i m posting it...
Edited by Aayu-loveKaJen- - 10 years ago
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