They say emotions ruin you, in fact I happen to be one of the people who "they" constitutes.
Mind games are an interesting phenomenon, and above all something I've dabbled in myself. I want to share this story with you and anybody reading this comment, it is closely related to the games I think that are being referred in this chapter, between Tara and Khushi. and I only do this on the bonus of nobody really knowing who I am or rather, what I am.
So when I was around 5 or maybe 6, my cousins (Who were twins and were as old as I was) proposed a little game (My aunt had to leave in an urgent meeting and after extracting promises of us being good girls, she left us). Now according to the game, I was to sit still with my eyes closed and let them have their own sweet way with me, followed by which they would return the favor.
So I closed my eyes and felt myself being led somewhere. I heard the door being open and wanted to open my eyes, but I was afraid of being called a wuss, something I had been aiming not to, because my cousins never really liked me. I always thought that maybe I had done something wrong but as I grew older I realized it had nothing to do with me but more with their insecurities about who all the family loved more. But I am getting ahead of myself, let us get on with the story.
So I felt myself being led out, and then I felt the cold night air sting my cheeks. I was dressed in noting but shorts and a thin t shirt, and it being January in Delhi, I was freezing. My cousins kept talking to me, telling me that the challenge was nearly over and suddenly, the talking stopped. I opened my eyes, to realize that I was all alone in the middle of the road (their house being in a colony, and they lived on the ground floor), at midnight.
All alone.
In the dark.
Not one soul in sight.
Dressed in shorts and a thin shirt.
In January.
I can't even tell you how angry I was then. I was beyond angry, I was livid. I went bad to the door and banged and demanded that I be allowed to enter the house.
Do you know what they said?
They said "The final part of the challenge is to stay out of the house the whole night"
And now begins the game. I was angry, I was beyond livid. They say love changes you in ways impossible. They lie. Love may or may not change you. Anger always does. And in my rage, sitting on the cold steps leading to the house, I planned revenge.
You can laugh, thinking what can a 6 year old girl dream up sitting outside in the cold, but trust me ... I wasn't even feeling cold because of all the blood that rushed to my cheeks. I sat outside on the cold steps, planning my revenge.
And thus, the mind games began.
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