SwaRon FF-You belong with me :) - Page 33

30 th Nov 2013

The past few days have been quiet eventful, I must say. Never in my life, have I met a guy like Swayam, so caring, so diplomatic. He is the only one who has been so involved in me. He never ever let me feel uncomfortable. Though he felt that way. Anyway, at present, I am extremely happy. And he is such an awesome soul that he simplified all the loops, cleared all my confusion, without making me feel uncomfortable.

I last updated this diary around a month back, and here I am, last year 30 Nov was indeed the best day ..Don't know about life, but it was certainly the best day of my teens. It was the beginning of a new relationship. Mine and Swayam's. Ours. Swayam + Sharon= SwaRon. And now, I am not regretting anything. Well, it started last year, if I clearly remember Nov 21st..Swayam was ignoring me like hell...After I talked to him about behaving in a normal way, he just left the place. He didnt say it then, but I realised that i had hurt him way too much. The previous day's events for too much for him to handle. Ananya said that she had spoken to him and everything was normal. Bad luck Ananya, I guess I know him better than her. He doesnt show his soft side, but when something becomes unbearable, he cant change it. This was too much for him to handle. I am glad he decided to walk away from there, at that point of time. I talked to Ananya and she said that he was feeling even lower after that.

I felt guilty. And I wished I could rectify my mistake. I did. The next few days were meant for that only, I guess. Well, on 22 Nov what happened was, I went to school, in a slightly depressed mood. I saw him. He was still ignoring me. It was the right thing he did. I would have done the same, if I was in his place.

The ignoring saga went on, until I finally decided that it was high time. Something had to be done. And as you know, I am a girl who cant take decisions all by herself, even if I do, the decisions are temporary..They need to be changed sometime or the other. So I talked to my one and only friend, Ananya. Nice girl she is. I am glad that she is my friend. I had a word with Ananya but of course the realization part was done by me itself. I am glad I spoke to her. Well, it so happened, that I was talking to her. I was at her place. Swayam was not at home.

Me: You know Ananya, its been 5 days..and Swayam is behaving as if I dont exist..I dont know what his problem is.

An: And you are feeling bad?

Me: Obviously I am feeling bad, really bad... Was he the same way with Akanksha after he broke up with her?

An: No.

Me: Why no?

An: Because Sharon, he always liked you..Didnt Swayam tell you about the whole Akanksha episode?

Sh: He did...

An: And still you are asking..Even now Akanksha thinks that he will come back to her but he wont go to Akanksha now because he cant even think of dating another girl. He is so in love with you Sharon!!Why dont you understand that whatever he is doing is right. He is in love with you. And it is painful, extremely painful especially after you talked to him on Wednesday.

Me :He told you?

An: No, he wrote it in his diary. I read it.

Me: You read his diary?

An: Yes, why? I am his sister, not mom. I have an access to open it. Anyway, he was hurt Sharon, you cant even imagine how much. Dont you think you should rectify your mistake?

Me: how am I supposed to do that Ananya?? I still feel that whatever I did was not wrong. I cant go up to him now and tell him that I am sorry. My feelings are not fake but I don't feel like I am wrong. I dont know why...

An: Come in terms with your feelings then...

Me : Wow..nice suggestion..do you think I was born yesterday? I dont know how to do that..

An: Sharon, trust me, you'll feel like that once you start knowing him, more and more...

Me: I guess, you are right..Now I got to go home..Bye...

An: Bye. Take care.

I smiled at Ananya and opened the door to go out. Someone else entered before I could go out. Swayam entered the house at the same time and we collided. I looked up to him and he was looking at me. It seemed like drooling though. I was drooling too. I looked at his eyes, those chocolate brown ones. I could sense the intensity, the love he had for me. I think, he must have felt the same. The way I banged into his chest. I don't think he must have felt odd, since he was looking at me with all his love, affectionately. His eyes are extremely captivating and he looks better when he smiles. Ok.., enough of admiring Swayam now.

Both of us were looking at each other and we were so involved that we didn't notice a third person sitting in the house. Ananya coughed to make us realize that.

Before my cheeks could turn pink, I went out of the house making way for Swayam to enter.

At night, I had nothing to do. I just went through Swayam's messages and realized that he had not texted me for a while. That's when he messaged me, actually Ananya did, from his number. She had run out of balance. And Ananya's message was so weird that I decided not to reply.

"Thought about it" she asked

I did not. What reply was she expecting? Well, I dont like things that are forced. And this thing was definitely forced, for me.

The next few days went slowly. Swayam's ignoring saga continued and I was feeling helpless. On one such day, Ananya came to talk to me.

An: Sharon, dont you think that this has become way too much?

Me: What?

An: Just patch up with Swayam na.

Me: Are you crazy? Ananya, I know you are my best friend but I don't feel like doing it. Moreover,

An: Moreover what Sharon? He doesn't show it but he loves you a lot..And every day he comes to school with a hope that you'll talk to him and patch up with him. Do you like hurting people so much? Cant you see him happy for once? I want to be diplomatic Sharon, but tell me would you feel happy if you find out that the person you love is not comfortable by your presence. Would you feel happy if the person you love reciprocates your feelings but says that both of you are not meant to be together. Will you still be happy? No right? This is what Swayam feels at present. Sharon, if you love someone, you should think from his point of view as well...

And she left..I don't know why she said this but I felt like agreeing to this. Maybe because I was slowly coming in terms with her words. Her words left a huge impact on me.

At night, I was not able to sleep. I could think only about Swayam. Was I hurting him way too much? I genuinely felt bad. And this time I was not lying. Not to myself and I decided to bring him out of his oblivion.

I thought about it a lot and finally I realized that we are meant to be together. I loved him even then, and it was growing intense with each passing day, and with each passing second. I did not want to keep him in darkness anymore. I decided to tell him the next day itself, during our skit practice.

I slept at 2 am, dreaming about him. I was going to tell him, in my own style.

I decided to go early for the practice, the next day.

It was 4.15 pm finally. I decided to go this early, though the practice was scheduled for 5 pm. He opened the door and was dumbstruck on seeing me.

Sw: Sharon, what are you doing here? The practice was supposed to be at 5 pm.

Me: I cant come earlier?

Sw :No, you cant...at least, you cant come here to meet me..

Oh yeah, he was "avoiding" me. Or at least he was trying to.

Me: I wanted to talk to you.

Sw: What? You want to say something that will hurt me, once again?

I was trying to control my temper. I could, thankfully.

Me: No, can I come in?

Swayam hesitantly let me in.

"Swayam" I began.

Well, I was not tensed at all...Only because of him. My tension disappeared in a puff of dust.

He was still trying to avoid me. He was standing, in his own house, god knows why. I had my plan, it was inspired from him.

I got down on my knees and looked up to him. He had that incredulous, yet adorable expression on his face.

Sw: What are you doing Sharon?

Me: Rectifying my mistake by proposing you.

And that shocked expression became even more shocked.

Sw: What?

Me: Listen Swayam, You know that I love you. I truly do. And that day, whatever I did was not right. I realized it late, but I didn't realize it tooo late na...

Sw: What do you mean by too late?

Me: Too late means, before anyone else could take you away from me. So Swayam, do you accept this proposal? Are you ready to forgive me?

Sw: Forgive?

Me: Swayam, my knees are hurting.

I guess I am the only girl who has ever proposed her boyfriend, that too , in this way.

He made me get up and smiled warmly. I am totally fida over his million dollar smile.

He enveloped his hands around me but broke apart soon. Thinking that it was a joke. Lol.

I clarified that it was not a joke.

He hugged me once again and I felt like I was in the best place of the world. The warmth was unbelievable and I felt awesome. I wanted to be in his arms forever until a tear trickled from my eye.

It practically wet his shoulder and we broke apart.

Sw: Sharon, are you crying? What's wrong?

My eyes were moist by then.

Me: Swayam, I am sorry..I am sorry for everything..I have hurt you a lot..And please..I hope you can forgive me..I really love you Swayam..I am really..

Before I could say anything else, he cut me.

Sw: Shh..Sharon..Don't say sorry..please..dont say..at least not to me..I love you too Sharon and I am glad you took this step..

He placed a peck on my forehead and wiped my tears.

Sw: Am I making you feel uncomfortable Sharon?

I hit him playfully.

Me: don't you dare ask that question again.

He smiled again and asked me to wash my face. It was five already.

Rey and Kriya entered the place, hand in hand. Me and Swayam were surprised when we saw them.

Sw: What's up with you guys?

Swayam was teasing Rey.

R: We patched up..Me and Kriya are a couple..

My happiness was extended when I heard this. We began our practice. In between, Swayam passed glances to me. I smirked looking at him. We were communicating through eyes.

Sw: Do you want to tell them?

Me: yes...

My answer was expected. Because I was sure of my decision.

And this way Swayam told Rey also. Rey was happy for me. And he and Kriya congratulated me and Swayam.

"Thanks guys" we spoke in unison.

Sharon.

That day was 30 Nov 2012.

Here we are, celebrating one beautiful year of togetherness.

In this one year, I have seen many phases of relationship. The sad one with misunderstandings, being the most prominent one. But somehow, our bond is so strong that we withstood all of them. All we need is each other's company. Swayam is a possessive boyfriend and I am a possessive girlfriend too. But I like it, the way he gets jealous, when I talk to other guys. His witty ideas, to spend some time with me. They are kind of cute.

I checked my mobile. Swayam messaged me asking if I had forgotten today's date. How could I? I am going to meet him for a date at night.

If you are wondering about my memory, let me tell you, no matter how far we travel, the memories will follow in the baggage car.

There are some memories, that are not to be forgotten, some memories which can never be forgotten, the most beautiful memory till date, of my teens, of my first relationship, my first love,

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Thanks all for your love and awesome comments, thanks to those who tolerated it..😊

-Mihika 😊