It all started with 300 rupees Thread 3 Ch. 29 - Page 39

It all started with 300 Rupees 28 Part E

And she covered her face with both her palms and sobbed even harder.

If he had to sit down and pick which news was the most shocking news of the day, he could never do that.

One shock after another.

First – she had a daughter.

Second – the daughter could have been his.

Third – the daughter wasn't his.

Fourth – the daughter wasn't hers either, biologically at least.

Fifth – she did get pregnant after that night.

Just when he thought he had recovered from the first shock, BOOM – there were four more to deal with.

In that same damn day.

What was she talking about? He didn't know. He couldn't process anything with all that sobbing.

He held both her upper arms and said "Khushi, look at me."

She still had her face covered with her palms, still crying hard…..

Her back was still pushed against that door……..

All he heard again was "I am……..sorry……Arnav Ji."

She tried talking again "it wasn't……..my fault……..I……..I…….."

That's all she said.

He felt her body slouching while he still held her…….

By the time he realized what happened, she had already collapsed in his arms……..

Her arms dangled as if they were boneless……..

Her eyes shut……..

She had fainted……

He quickly picked her up and laid her on the couch by end of the wall.

He pressed the HELP button more times than needed.

The nurse and the doctor both barged in in panic and saw him rubbing Khushi's hand…..

He quickly said "doctor, I don't know what happened, she just fainted…….she was crying and then all of sudden……."

The doctor gestured him to move and performed vitals……

He finally spoke "she is probably too shaken by all this, her blood pressure is pretty low, could be weakness, she should be fine, just give her some time……..it happens sometimes with stress and all…..don't worry, she should stabilize soon…….."

"Nurse, make sure you check on her in about fifteen minutes, and keep me updated."

The doctor left, the nurse placed a blanket on her and said "I will be back in little bit to check on her."

The nurse left as well.

There he was standing between the two…….

One fighting for her life…..

One was his life……

Why did she faint? Why was she apologizing? What did she want to say? She was pregnant.

WAS.

That was the keyword. She was pregnant. And then what? Where is their child? What was she saying sorry for? Why did she collapse like that?

Everything was getting out of control. Nothing made sense anymore. NOTHING.

He just looked at her, how she was silently laying on the couch……

Why? He didn't know. He remembered that day when she wanted to tell him something but she couldn't. Was she talking about this? Their child? Her pregnancy?

He heard her voice again, she was muttering something in her sleep…….

He couldn't make out what she was saying…….

Her voice got louder……

More clear……..

"I…….am……..sorry……..it…….wasn't…..my….fault……."

"Sorry……..Arnav……Ji……."

"I……tried………"

"My…….fault……."

"Sor……ry…….."

He held her hand, rubbed it and said "Khushi, relax, stop talking………"

She screamed, a pretty loud one……..

A loud shrill filled that room………

She got up in fear and looked around……..

And saw him right next to him………

For the first time he had seen her look at him like that…….

Her eyes were filled with anger and pain………

She just stared at him with so much anger in them…….

She suddenly pushed him and screamed "it's all your fault…….why did you do this to me?"

And she started weeping again.

He cupped her face and said "Khushi? What happened?"

"Don't touch me" was her screaming reply.

She tried pushing him again when he held her arms and said "Khushi, what's wrong? What are you saying?"

She continued weeping. Hard. Her body started trembling again.

With pain and anger.

Her eyes shot fiercely at him. She looked pale again……

He quickly embraced her before she fainted again……

And held her, tight.

Trying to calm her, trying to understand her, trying to make her to stop crying.

What was hurting her so much? Why did she react like this? What was going on? He didn't know.

He rubbed her back and said "Khushi?"

He felt her hands clenching onto his shirt……..

And then he heard her voice "I am sorry…."

He asked again "sorry for what Khushi?"

She replied "our baby."

Whatever remaining strength he had left was now all gone.

She did get pregnant.

But she……..

Everything made sense now.

Her crying.

Her not being able to tell him everything.

Her getting so angry for that night.

Her hating him.

Her hating herself.

Her not wanting to talk about anything.

Her not willing give him another chance.

Her pain.

Emotional and physical.

All what she had been through.

All alone.

Naina's word echoed in his ears again "you can't feel guilty about everything."

Her guilt.

Her loss.

Her doubt about their relationship.

Her hesitation.

Her tears.

Her past.

Her daughter.

Her everything.

He finally understood everything. Why she reacted like that. Why she cried like that. Why she got so mad at him. Why she had changed so much. Why wasn't she like the 'old' Khushi. Why she wasn't Khushi at all. His every 'why', his every 'what', his every 'how', his every 'when' had been just answered.

So easily and so horribly.

Part F Continues……

It all started with 300 Rupees 28 Part F

Her voice broke his thought "I tried……Arnav Ji……..I tried………but……I…….."

He embraced her skintight and said "Shhh Khushi……stop talking……."

They just stayed like that…….

Until she spoke again in a very calm tone "that's what I have been trying to tell you. Nothing is like before Arnav Ji. My life has changed, a lot. I am not that old Khushi anymore. I have lost so much that I am too afraid to even smile. I lost you. I lost my family. I lost my love. I lost my identity. I lost my entire life. And when that wasn't enough, I lost my baby. I lost our baby."

"I should have taken better care of myself but I failed. I never wanted to hurt our baby……I wanted to have our baby but I didn't even get that much. It was your baby too, I should have been more careful but I don't know…….I am sorry. I lost our child because of me. I hate myself for that. I can never forget the day when I had my miscarriage. I was in shock for weeks. I wanted to kill myself, I wanted to die. I never thought that I would ever do such thing but I just didn't want to live anymore. I had nothing to live for. Everything was gone. That's when we found out about Nidhis' illness."

She stopped talking. He was still holding her listening to everything silently.

"Giving birth is not the only way to become a mother, right? Destiny wanted me to have a baby, just not by birth. That's how she came into my life. She is my daughter. I am her mother. I love her more than anything. I don't know if you want to accept her in our lives but I can't leave her. I won't leave her. She gave me happiness in my miserable life. She gave me a reason to stand up for myself again. She gave me a reason to live. If it wasn't for her, I don't even know if I would have been alive today. I didn't want anything else in my life. I had her and she had me. I could have lived the rest of my life with her. But then you came to my life all of sudden. And I didn't even know what I wanted to do at that point. I know all this is more than you probably wanted to hear but you had to know all this. I had to tell you before everything got out of hands again. I will be fine with whatever you decide. I know I should have told you earlier but I just couldn't."

She moved away from him, wiped her face, looked at him in the eye and said "I am sorry for everything. I didn't want to tell you like this. But now that we are in the midst of all this, I had to tell you. If you want to get mad at me for our baby, I don't mind. If you don't want to accept her, I will be fine with that too. I am sorry to put you in such a situation. But I had told you already, everything has changed. Even though you said that whatever it is, you would be fine with it, and if you are NOT fine with it, I will understand. This is a big deal and I can't expect you to be fine with everything. I had barely learned to live without you but if you do decide to leave me, leave us, I will not hold any grudge this time. I will understand. I will not judge you. Loving me and wanting me is one thing, accepting my daughter is whole another thing. And I certainly don't want you to feel pressurized into accepting her. That's the last thing I would want."

She cupped his face and said "I will never forget these past few weeks with you. These were the happiest days of my life. Thank you for making me feel loved again. For taking all my pain away. For treating me like a wife. For enduring all my tantrums. For just loving me. For just being with me."

That's all she said. And removed her hands from his face, and moved back, and turned her face.

She looked away.

And said her last words, "you can leave if you want."

She was done talking, done explaining, done apologizing, just done.

He heard everything she said.

Everything.

He got up and quietly left the room.

She saw him leave. She told him she would be fine with whatever he decided but she still didn't like him leaving.

She almost stopped him but she didn't. She wanted to tell him that she needed him, she wanted him, she wanted him to stay there for her but she just couldn't……

Not after her big lecture……

She watched him go, just like that.

She was too silent to even cry now. She just stared at that door, hoping that it would open again and he would somehow come back to her. Again.

She stayed in that room, all alone, the only thing that gave her company were those annoying beeps……

She had buried her tired self in her knees when she heard the door…….

She quickly looked up with hope in her eyes……

But disappointed to see the nurse…..

She walked to her and said "how are you feeling now?"

"I am fine, I think I was just….."

"That's fine, we understand, you must be really stressed……" She performed the vitals again while talking…..

"You should eat something and take care of yourself, I will bring some food for you. Just stay put." The nurse left.

She was all alone again. She waited for him to come back but there was no sign of him. Why was she waiting for him when she was the one who asked him to leave?

She heard the door again. She looked up. It was Naina.

"Khushi, how are you?"

"What are you doing here? You didn't go home?"

"I did, but the whole house was so empty that I couldn't take it anymore, I just had to come back here. The nurse just told me about you, what happened, are you okay?"

"I am fine. I finally told him everything. Everything. Somewhere in-between telling him all that, I think I fainted…..but I am fine now……"

"What did he say?" asked Naina.

"I told him whatever he decides, I will be fine with it. I told him that he doesn't have to accept her if he doesn't want to…….and he could leave if he didn't want to accept her with me………and he didn't say anything……"

"What do you mean he didn't say anything?"

"He didn't say anything…….he just left…….and I didn't stop him…….I couldn't stop him……."

"What do you mean he left?"

"He left…….he just left……..Naina……..he just left……..I wanted to stop him but he didn't even say anything…….he just left……."

"But Khushi……"

"There is nothing to discuss anymore Naina, he could have said something at least but he just left, without asking anything, saying anything, he just walked out of that damn door………"

"When did he leave?"

"I don't know…….about half hour ago………why?"

"He hasn't left Khushi, he is outside……he is just sitting there……..when I came back I saw him talk to the doctor…….he is still outside……why is he still outside then?"

"WHAT?" asked Khushi, not in a shocked voice but in a guilty voice……

"Yes, he is outside in the waiting area…….he is just sitting there…….alone……"

She quickly got off that couch and barged outside the door……

And saw him still sitting there……..

Part G Continues…..

It all started with 300 Rupees 28 Part G

She felt suffocated all of sudden……..

She started walking……

Towards him……

Got to him and said "You are still here?"

"Where else would I be?" he answered without even looking at her…..

"I thought you left……."

"I know……"

"But…."

He looked up to see her now, got up, held her both upper arms and said….

"What the hell Khushi? Do you really think I will just leave you like this? In a freaking hospital? When your daughter is fighting for her life? When you just fainted? After everything what you just told me? Is this what you think of me?"

"But…..why did you…..you……didn't say anything…..I thought……"

"You thought what? You really think that I am going to tell you to abandon your daughter? Just so that we can be together? I know I have done many things wrong to you but do you really think this low of me? Do you really think that I will ask you to choose between us? Do you really that I will ask you to leave her? Until now I thought you are right about you having any doubt about me because of our past but now……now I don't even know what you think about me anymore? It's one thing to hate me for putting you through all this shit, but it's whole another thing for you to think that I am just so inhuman. A coldhearted person who will make you choose between her and I?"

And he released her arms and turned away.

Too angry to even look at her.

She said "I am sorry Arnav Ji. I don't know why……….I just thought that her own father doesn't want her…….and you…….you don't even like kids…….and…….I was so afraid of telling you about our child……..I just didn't know……..how you would react to all this……..I am sorry……."

And he felt her hands on his left shoulder…….

He turned around…….

And saw her face apologetic face……..

And saw the pool of tears forming in her eyes……

All over again……..

She saw his face again……

And said "I am sorry Arnav Ji…….I thought that you were going to get really upset for whatever happened to our child……I…….lost our baby……..I just……..our baby Arnav Ji……..I……..I thought…..you will blame me for………our child……..I……."

She stopped talking.

He just looked at her and wondered how could she feel like this? How could she think that……..

After all the crap that she had been through all alone, she was actually worried about what I would think. She was actually worried that I will get mad at her? She was actually worried that I will blame her for anything? She was actually worried for me……..? Because of me?

He stopped thinking……

He just pulled her in and embraced her………

He whispered "I am sorry Khushi. I really am."

He continued…….

"I am sorry for ever letting you leave. I am sorry for not searching for you. I am sorry for letting you go through all this on your own. I am sorry for terrifying you like this…..that you couldn't even tell me anything without being worried that I will leave you again…...If anything…….I should be saying sorry, not you."

They were both quiet now.

Too much had been said.

Too much had been explained.

Too many apologies.

Too many questions.

Too many answers.

They were done talking. About everything.

He was there for her, she was there with him.

Together.

He released his embrace, pulled her away, wiped her tears, kissed her forehead and said "you still haven't told me something……"

She was surprised to hear that. As far as she knew, she had told him everything. And there wasn't anything left out. Anything and everything that she wanted to tell him, she had told him. Then what was missing? Why did he say she didn't tell him something? What was he talking about? She couldn't figure it out.

She finally asked "what do you mean? I told you everything that I needed to tell you. Everything from day one when I left your house till today. I don't think I missed anything. What are you talking about?"

He cupped her face again and asked "what's her name?"

She just looked at him with surprise, totally taken aback with his question, she smiled and that last tear settled somewhere inside her eye when she answered…..

"Aashna"

"My Aashna" Corrected Khushi.

"Our Aashna" Confirmed Arnav.

Please read below for author's clarification/explanation. Thank You!

To Be Continued……..

First thing first - I had about three cliffhangers in this update. After contemplating a LOT ' I decided that I can't be that cruel every single time. So I have spared you guys any/all cliffhanger as of now. Since you guys are such wonderful readers. :)

Okay ' I know many of you wanted the child to be Arnav's. Sorry for disappointing you. Appy had asked me if I had this plot in my mind when I started writing this update ' and I answered her 'YES'

Why?

Because I wanted Khushi to be independent, confident, career oriented, and a woman with Nayi Soch. If you know what I mean! Adoption is nothing to be ashamed about. I personally have high regards for people who are open to it and for people who are involved in this process by providing children with family and unconditional love.

I know many of you wanted this child to be Arnav's but this was my way of showing the progress of their own beliefs/growth and the understanding in their relationship.

Will this child bring positivity in their relationship? We will just wait and find out.

Thanks for reading my personal clarification/opinion.

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P.S. Meaning of Aashna - Beloved. (According to Google)

Isn't that perfect? I think so! :)

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