OS [ARHI] : I Give Up

I GIVE UP

It has been over a year since i last saw him. I still remember the three words he'd said very clearly before pushing me out the door. "I hate you". That phrase has been echoing in my ears since the past year. And now here i was, a play toy of Shyam. Now known as Mrs. Khushi Kumari Gupta Shyam Jha. I glanced at the picture in front of me of my one and only love, my ex husband, Arnav Singh Raizada.

Shyam had put me in such a situation which forced me to get married to him, forced me to keep my mouth shut when Arnav had demanded an explanation then threw me out of the house. As i clutched the medical report laying on the bed, tears blurred my vision and i felt like hurling as i put a hand on my stomach gently. Who was going to listen when i told them my husband had raped me? Not once, not twice but so many times that I had lost count. I was pregnant with Shyam's child and i didn't want to put my child through the misery i was going through. I just couldn't let that happen. But i couldn't live anymore either. It hurt too much to breath, hurt too much to live with just the memories of my love. And most of all, it hurt to live knowing my love hated me. Standing up, i wiped my tears and opened the door and walked out robotically.

As i drove, memories haunted me of my family and the Raizada family. Everything reminded me of a moment in my life. The trees, the benches, the ice cream and golguppe stalls, the people walking, people waiting at bus stops, people laughing and hugging one another. Everything. Tears continued to pour out of my eyes like a waterfall hoping to God Arnav found that letter i had sent to Payal. I had asked her to hide it under his pillow before leaving my sister standing there without telling her about my whereabouts. When i arrived at my destination, i slammed down on the brakes and looked up at the bridge standing strong and tall, exactly the same back when Arnav had brought her there for the first time and proposed to her for their second marriage. This place was extremely special for the both of them. I had come here numerous times in the past year. And I was back again to end my life where it had first started with my love. Silently wiping my tears, i stepped out and slowly walked to the bridge. I stood there for a moment looking at the water below the bridge.

"I love this place. It's so peaceful, so serene. It's perfect, don't you think?" He had said as he leaned over and stared at the water just like i was now. "I always come here whenever i'm upset. It calms me down. Brings me an odd sense of peace and happiness." I smiled closing my eyes remembering his calm, peaceful face. That day, he was smiling which was something he didn't do too often. "I usually come here whenever you drive me insane with your blabbering too you know." I half laughed and half hiccuped as his laugh played in my mind. And before i knew it, i was plagued with the memories of me getting married to Shyam, then Arnav throwing me out. I could see myself curling in a corner crying myself to sleep, and Shyam throwing the phone at me for answering it without his permission. I fell down on my knees grabbing my stomach unable to bear the pain. Standing up with shaky knees, i closed my eyes and let my whole life flash across my eyes, all the way to my childhood to the present. I got up on the bridge and just looked down bravely although my heart threatened to jump out of my chest. I was surprised it was still beating after everything. I slowly leaned forward and felt myself lose my balance. The firm stone of the bridge started to slip under neath my feet and i could see the water much closer than before. Just before my feet left the bridge completely, i heard his voice, loud and clear. "Khushi, don't!" My eyes flew open and i saw him standing there a few feet away, eyes filled with tears with his hands reaching towards me but he was too far away and too late i realized with a gasp. I raised an arm in an attempt to touch him one last time but it was too late. Way too late. The bridge slipped from underneath me and i felt myself fall down alarmingly fast. As gravity grabbed me down to my death, i felt another tear slid down as i heard his voice in my mind again. "Khushi Kumari Gupta, i'll always love you no matter how many times you screw up our dates." He was saying. He was laughing. I laughed for the last time before water engulfed me and i started to suffocate, unable to breath. Fear, desperation, sorrow, and finally panic. I was panicking as i tried to grab something, anything solid. As i started to lose myself, i heard a faint splash in the water a few feet away and the darkest thought flashed in my mind before i gave up to death. Arnav too..?

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So, Stuti. There's your said ARHI OS. I don't even know why i let you make me do this. 🤔 🤣 I had to listen to sad songs...i think at least 7 to write this. 🤣

Yeah so, comments, likes. 😃

-Jot.

I'm.in.tears.