|| AR & ArSh OS: Me and My Life ||complete os

When I reached hospital ,I can feel something gona happen.I went straight to General ward sister stella told me that patient is OT as he was critical and need surgery I went inside the OT.I went near patient bed and my breath stop.My image become blur .I kept on looking towards patient when I heard dr.kirti Dr.Riddhima hurry up ,he is bleeing internally we need to give operate him as soon as possible or else he would die .I close my eyes at her this sentence and with determination I caught his lifeless hand No!Arman I will not let you die'

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"Mom!where were you last night,i found you al around the house,you know i was so scared last night,I had a nightmare mom!",Ryan look at me with pout'I kept staring at ryan .I am feeling terribly wounded and tired.Last night was very difficult for me,what should I answer to him baby I was operating your father.But I cant.So I mutter courage and hide my emotion with a smile.Tell you guys I had done phd in hiding me feelings from every one from the time I met arman.Arman!
I quickly pick him up in my arms say:"Aww my baby had a night mare sorry baby mom had a surgery">
"How was your surgery mom"Sia asked me.
I look at her with worn out eyes and give her tired smile and say:"Sia surgery went good and ar''I mean patient is fine now"Sia:Okay mom! Mom now can we have our breakfast I am starving" I smile at her and went to make breakfast for them

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I wacth him sleeping peacefully on the bed with a mouth slightly open.I smiled at him.Its his habbit to sleep like this.I went near and carase his thick jet black hairs,how I craved to move my hand into them.Then I look at his face,his face is pale ,he had lost much weight,his six pack aibs are not more.I wonder what had happen to him.I just want him to open his yes so that I could stare into his eyes...I kept my head on his hand and close my eyes..I know he left me but why I don't know but I still love him,in these years not a single day I don't miss him,I cant hate him and can never,I know I may be sound mad but...I slept with my head on his hand with strange satisfaction..

I open my eyes when I felt a hand moving in my hairs.I close my eyes again gosh!i didn't sleep so peacefully in these days..i want to sleep here forover.But then I heard someont taking my name I open my eyes whole heartedly and then again heard someone taking my name,Riddhima.I close my eyes and tears flow down my eyes when I heard him arman!taking my name.I get up and blink my eyes and stare at arman.He stare back at me .I whisper arman!.He jerk me closer to him and hug me tight knocking my breath out.But I didn't move.I was unsure should I hug him back or not.But my heart didn't wait for any answer I found myself hugging him back.We cried in each other arman.After sometime I broke hug and look into arman eyes and whisper:"Why arman?".He look at me with guilt and pain in his eyes but he didn't reply.This me angry a bit I again ask why arman??.But again he didn't reply.I get up from there and was about to leave when I felt arman holding my wrist and saying:"don't leave me riddhima I had craved enough for your love,plz don't go".I look back at him and say what did you just say ,you had craved enough for my love,what about me arman,what about your mom arman and most importantly what about Ryan and Sia arman,have you any thought how much we all crave for u.I didn't left you arman you left me and your family crying.Now I don't want you back".I down inront of him and for the first time in these 7 years I cried mt heart out,I felt him sitting beside me on the floor and holding my hand.He say riddhima I didn't left you because I don't want you.".I look at him and say then why arman?why you left me,you found some other girl better tha'.. I couldn't complete my sentence as arman put his finger on my lips and hold my face in his palms and say riddhima I swear on you ,from the time I fell in love with you I never saw anyother girl neither when I was you with nor I was not with you,baby trust me..I look into his eyes,he was saying truth .I speak again so why arman why you left us,I asked him eagerly.He turns his head away.I put my hands on his shoulder and say arman plz tell me why you left us plz..i almost beg him.He turn to me and say:riddhima I left you bcz that time I was dieng".I look at him confused.He continues:Riddhima after meeting you I left drugs,I promise you to never touch them but it was late riddhima.When ryan born I came to know that I had lung cancer,riddhima my world stops ..i didn't want to die bcz I want to spend my life with you and our kids..we were so happy I didn't know what to do or not to do..i asked doctor can I be cured,he replied may be may be I can but the chances are very less.Riddhima I don't want to give you pain by seeing me dieing infront of you and my kids so I thought I should went from your life..thats why I left .i know riddhima I done bad with you but I was afraid afraid that you might not get over me and live your in unbearable pain and destroy your life,so I left without telling you anything as I want you to hate me,"

I look into his and say:'But I cant even hate you arman,you could have told me,we could have get over this problem together but you didn't belive in me right??

Arman:"no riddhima its not like that,for you I fight against my fate,in these six years I die every day every day to hug you,to be with you and my kids..i know how I miss you.i point came when doctor told me I cant be cured I had only few mouths left.I was soo dispointed and thought of leaving the hope but then your and our kids face came inront of my eyes and I fight.and now I am cured riddhima.I was gona return back last week but I was not sure whether you accept me or not.Last day I make my mind to try my luck but when I was coming home I caught with accident and landed here..riddhima will you accept me back..baby trust me I love you,I really do".Arman look at me with hope in his eyes how can I stay away for him..we both have gone through many problems..i have to accep him.I look into his eyes and say:Arman I have to accept you,I know how I handle every thing in these 7 years..i always wonder that bcz of me you left your mom and kid.I use to cry but not any more arma I too want you back,infact we want yu back me ,sia,ryan and hit..i mean your mother want you back".I look down and bit my tounge and heard arman chuckling.He made me look into his eyes and say:I love you riddhima'.Before I could say I love you too my mouth has been shut with arman lips'I smile and kiss him back'

*And this is me and my life*

*I hate this ,this os didn't turn up like I had thought..I am not gona re read it ..i just complete it for the sake of completing.Heck when I thought of writing it I thought of a writing it I was sure it would turn out to be good but '''..

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