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The Most Awaited part of the story & a very long one. Hope u guys like it 😊
PRESENT IN BLUE
PAST IN GREEN
PART-12
After their confession, Armaan and Riddhima became more closer. At first riddhima started to behave a little distant from him because of shyness and this new development in their relationship. Armaan understood her and gave her space to settle in their relationship. They felt like they are born again. They came to know of each other more. They discovered new things about each other. Armaan was surprised with her childishness. He understood she was hiding that kid in her all her life, trying to be mature and handle hers and her bhaiya's life. One of the main things he came to know about her was, how much she loved her parents and they mean more than her life to her. Riddhima came to know of his angry side when she was careless about herself. It scared her at first. Eventually, she understood how to deal with her angry armaan. Their life was blissful. Every sunrise gave them new moments to cherish for their lives. They were themselves with each other. They love the other for who they are. They both were very possessive about each other. More than their mouths, their eyes spoke to the other. Words weren't needed when their eyes spoke. Armaan will drop her in her home after their music class. They made it sure that they had their dinner together every night.
When they talked about their family, armaan mentioned his sister's name as anji, mom as anu and his dad as buddy/billy, as he calls them by these names, their pet names. (Riddhima knows her bhabhi's parents name as full names only when she was married to atul. That is Balvinder, Ananya and Anjali. She never knew that, Anu is Ananya, Buddy/billy is Balvinder and Anjali is anji before she came to India now. And thus she never realized they are armaan's family.) Armaan never knew her brother's name as she always mention him as bhaiya and he mentioned him as her bhaiya or brother when they talk about him.
Their love for each other grew intense and deeper with each passing second and day. Being a guy of 21 years and girl of 19 years, they handled everything more mature than most of their age will do. They were careful to not let their relationship affect their studies. A plus point of their relationship was, they both were mature enough to sit and talk and solve their problems and little fights. If one was angry, the other will stay calm and let his/her anger subside and they will speak out. And they will apologise and forgive. They both understood each other well. They never backed out from accepting their mistakes. They both cared for the other before their own self. Armaan was the one who was more verbal in expressing his love and riddhima was the little silent one. They were happy and content in their own world, where only armaanriddhima, their love and music existed. They composed their own tunes, sometimes wrote their own lyrics to it and sung it together. They were complete with each other. Love indeed made their life beautiful.
Six months passed as the most beautiful phase of their life. They were together for four months before their confession and six months after their confession. Which were the ten golden months of their life. Each and every moment of it was a blessing to them and they lived it with their whole heart. What they weren't aware of was that someone is waiting for the right time to play the card and separate them.
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Riddhima came out of their memories world when she heard phone ringing. Armaan's phone was ringing continuously. The ringing stopped and she thought he answered the call. But it rang again. "Why he is not answering the call? Who is it calling him again and again? Is it bhabhi? She will be worried again if he didn't answer the call" she thought and walked to his room hesitantly. She saw his phone in the bed in the dim lit room. Hesitantly she took it and saw "Roshan caling" flashing on the screen. Roshan was armaan's P.A. Before she could answer the call armaan came out of the bathroom and looked at her. "hmm..woh..your phone was ringing continuously. Roshan is calling you" she said giving the phone to him. "I will call you later Roshan. I am busy now" he said and cut the call before roshan could talk anything.
Armaan caught riddhima's wrist who was going out of his room. "Leave me armaan" "Please listen to me once basket. Please" "I will listen to you when you tell me why you left me. We don't have anything to talk other than that" "Basket.." "Don't call me basket. You lost the right to call me basket when you threw me out of your life. You know what armaan? You never loved me. You wouldn't have left me if you have ever loved me" she shouted on him in anger. Armaan left her wrist hearing her. "Basket..what are you saying? How can you say that?" he whispered not able to believe she said those words. Tears filled his eyes. "How can you say that basket? I love you basket. I love you from the moment I saw you. I loved you then and i love you now. I will always love you. I don't know how to live without loving you riddhima" he shouted. She didn't know if she should cry or smile on his confession. She craved to hear those words from him for five years. Now that she heard them and saw the love in his eyes, she didn't know if she should be happy or sad at this moment. "Then why did you say you hate me? Why did you threw me out of your life? Why did you leave me armaan? Why?" she whispered holding his collar, tears rolling down her cheeks. "Because I love you basket" he whispered above her lips looking into her eyes. They looked at each other, their eyes and heart yelling they love each other. Armaan placed his lips on hers kissing her. Riddhima stood still feeling his lips on hers suddenly. She didn't respond to him and just stood frozen in the spot. She kissed him back after a few seconds. His one hand went to her nape and he held her waist with the other hand pulling her closer. She encircled her hands around his neck. They poured their unspoken words in that kiss. They kissed each other with equal love and passion. All the pain, torture they went through without each other, how much they missed each other, how much they love each other, whatever they couldn't tell in words, they said it all to each other in their kiss.
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Armaan pulled riddhima closer if it was possible. They kissed as tears rolled out of their eyes. This is what they earned for all these years, this love and affection, each other's presence. Shivers ran down their spines as they explored each other, her one hand around his neck fisting his hair and other hand around his back hugging him, his one hand on her waist and his other palm on her cheek. They felt their lifeless bodies coming to life in each other's arms. All they knew at the moment was they are with each other. After five long years of separation, pain, torture, suffering they are here. They longed for this moment from five years. It was not at all easy for them to live without the other. Every second was worst then hell for them. Only they know what they went through all these years. They couldn't believe this was happening. They kissed assuring each other this is true and not a dream.
Riddhima is angry on him. But the anger is not that powerful to make her forget their love. Their love is way more powerful than any other thing in this world. Anger or anything else can't stand in front of their love. It was their love which gave them the strength to survive the worst phase of their life. She couldn't help but surrender herself to him when he confessed he loves her and his blue eyes showing the ocean of love for her, mirroring his heart to her. His words echoed in her heart. They smiled with happy tears as they kissed. She was melting in his arms. He was more than a lover for her, he is her everything. He means the world to her. He is her life. Their soul belongs to each other. He is the reason for her existence and she is the reason for his. Even though they weren't with each other physically, they lived in each other's heart. Their music and ever lasting memories were with them. Every minute and every second of their lives, they loved each other and will always do.
They didn't want to, but had to end the kiss for now because of lack of oxygen. Slowly, they stopped panting for breath. They leaned their foreheads on each other's and inhaled long breaths with closed eyes. They hugged making themselves believe finally they are with each other and it's not a dream. Armaan sensed her knees weakening not able to stand. He opened his eyes and looked around searching for something. He picked up her in his arms and walked towards the single couch there. She hugged him by his neck. He sat in the couch with her in his lap. They could hear their rapid breathing. He caressed her back relaxing her. The world around them didn't exist for them. All they knew was each other's presence and that is all what mattered to them. They didn't care about anything else.
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Armaan looked at his phone when it rang. Riddhima stood up of his lap and let him get up to answer the call. After the kiss, they didn't want let go the moment and both stayed in each other's arms with riddhima in his lap, sinking in their souls that this is real and not a dream. She couldn't hide her flushed cheeks which was caused because of their first loving passionate kiss and she lowered her eyes. Armaan smiled looking at his basket and answered the call. "Sorry to disturb you armaan. But its an emergency. That is why I called you again" he heard roshan apologising on the other side. "Its ok Roshan. What happened?" "You watched news?" "No" "A storm warning is issued by the weather forecast department. It's nearing our city and is predicted to cross the shore by tomorrow morning" "Storm?" "Haan armaan. A big one" "Do one thing. Inform all our colleagues not to come for work tomorrow and till this storm is over" "That's what I was going to ask you. I will pass the message to everyone" "Yeah. Do that immediately. And also tell them not to go out anywhere and take care of themselves and their family and friends. You take care too. Don't go out anywhere" armaan said in caring tone. Roshan smiled on the other side at his caring and loving boss. "Yeah. I will do that. You take care of yourself and riddhima. Bye. Good night" "Bye roshan" armaan said and cut the call.
All the while he was speaking on the phone riddhima was looking at him lovingly with a smile. He had said everyone in their office to call him by his name when they are not in work and treats every one as his colleagues, not as his employees. Armaan knew she was looking at him. Ending the call he walked back to her and kneeled in front of her. "Weather department issued a storm warning. We can't go to office tomorrow. I told roshan to inform our colleagues to not to come to office tomorrow" he said looking at her. She nodded with lowered eyes. Both were silent for a few minutes. He looked at her cheeks which was still pink because of the first kiss they shared. He held her hand in his, "I am sorry basket" he whispered looking into her eyes. "I am sorry I kissed you without your permission. Do you reg..regret it basket?" he whispered afraid if she will say yes. He can't bear it if she said yes. She stood up and went to the balcony and stood there holding the railing staring at the rain. Armaan stood beside her waiting for her answer. She turned and looked into his blue eyes which were filled with immense love for her and a fear. "I never regretted any moment we shared armaan. I always cherished every moment with you" she said kissing his eyes making him close them. He opened his eyes and kissed her forehead. They looked into each other' eyes as they remembered the black day of their life.
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Riddhima entered the basketball court smiling happily and with a new edition of armaan's favourite comics. Armaan sensed her presence and stopped playing. He turned and looked at her for a few seconds and turned his back to her again. She saw the anger in his eyes and shuddered. She never saw him like this. She couldn't understand why he was angry. She went towards him and called him softly in a scared voice "Armaan" keeping a hand on his shoulder. He closed his eyes trying hard to maintain his angry state. He pushed her hand away from his shoulder and walked to the other side. She was shocked at his behaviour. "Armaan kya hua? Why are you so angry?" she asked him trying to keep her voice strong. Armaan still had his back facing her. Taking a deep breath he said in an angry harsh tone. "We are over riddhima. There is nothing between us anymore. I am breaking up with you". Riddhima stood frozen in the spot. She felt the ground was snatched away from under her feet hearing his words. Her world came crashing down. To say she was shocked will be an understatement.
"Armaan" she mumbled, tears rolling down her cheeks, neck and disappeared in her t-shirt. "U will forget me Riddhima, my memories will be buried somewhere deep down in your heart as the time passes and u will forget me" he said with his back to her. He didn't have the strength to face her. He didn't have it in him to see her crying, that too because of him. She stood silent as words failed to come out of her mouth. She felt like she has become mute all of a sudden. She walked to the other side to look at his eyes and know what was in his heart. He quickly turned sensing her coming to his front. His heart ached. Closing his eyes, he thought of the person he hates the most at the moment. Taking a deep breath and opening his eyes he turned to face her. Shivers ran down her spine in fear as she saw the anger and hatred in his blue eyes. "I hate you Riddhima. I hate you. Just go out of my life and don't ever come back. Good bye" he shouted harshly looking into her eyes. He saw the pain, confusion, questions and Love in her green eyes. He looked at her retreating back with tears rolling down as saw her running out of there the next second. She ran from there taking his soul with her. He fell on the ground on his knees and saw the comic which she had bought for him. He took it in his hands and opened it. Wiping the tears which were blurring his vision, he read what she had written on it.
"This is for My Kiddish Armaan
I Love You Armaan
-Your Basket"
Tears rolled his cheeks and he cried hard mumbling, "I am sorry Basket. I am sorry. I did this for your happiness. I hope you will forget me and live happily. Your memories will be the only thing which will keep me alive. There isn't any life for me anymore. Your armaan is dead. I am nothing but just a body without you. I love you basket. I love you"
In Faslon Ka Ye Faisla Kyu,
Dil Ne Mere Kar Liya,
Khud Hi Naa Jane,
Kaise Jiyega Ho Ke Tumse Juda,
Main Vari Jaava
Main Vari Jaava
Sathon Ki Hoya Re Kasoor,
Naada Is Dil Ki,
Har Khwahish T0oti,
Sapne Huve Hai Sare Choor...
Piya O Re Piya Piya Re Piya Re Piya
Piya O Re Piya Piya Re Piya Re Piya
Dil Ne Mere Kar Liya,
Khud Hi Naa Jane,
Kaise Jiyega Ho Ke Tumse Juda,
Main Vari Jaava
Main Vari Jaava
Sathon Ki Hoya Re Kasoor,
Naada Is Dil Ki,
Har Khwahish T0oti,
Sapne Huve Hai Sare Choor...
Piya O Re Piya Piya Re Piya Re Piya
Piya O Re Piya Piya Re Piya Re Piya
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Armaan placed his hand above hers which was on his cheek and taking her other hand placed it near his heart and stood close to her. "You won't be able to bear it if I say who is it basket" he whispered. "I can armaan. Believe me. Tell me what happened" she said determined to know the truth. Armaan sighed. He knew he can't hide it anymore. Its time she knows everything. He closed his eyes and took a deep breath and whispered "Your bhaiya's mother" in a painful voice. Riddhima felt a pang in her heart hearing him. She stood shocked. Her face went pale and her eyes blank. She was numb. She stood like a statue hearing him. "W..wh..what? Sh..she did this? No, how ca..can she? She can't do this" tears wet her cheeks as she mumbled in shock. Armaan hugged her seeing her crying. This is what he feared for. If this was her reaction for this half-truth, then how will she react when he tells the full truth? He was worried for her. He was hesitant to tell what she did to separate them. But he had no choice, he will have to tell her. He caressed her back soothing her. "Why did she do this? What she did to separate us armaan? Please tell me, please" she pleaded. "She used your parents to separate us riddhima" he said in a blank voice. Riddhima's eyes widened more in shock. "Maa aur Paa? What they have to do with our break up? They are not alive. How can she use them?" she asked him confused. "They are not alive riddhima. And that's what she took advantage of" "I don't understand armaan" "Remember the day we planned to celebrate our birthday together and tell about us to our family?" he asked. She nodded. "That day after I dropped you home.."
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That was it, very simple. Padma came and said this lie which he believed and trusted her words, not knowing it was a lie. Because his mind was clouded with the thoughts of riddhima's parents last wish and what will be riddhima's reaction when she comes to know this.
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Riddhima stood frozen to her spot hearing him. She was not crying. She was not doing anything. She stood there like a statue. Armaan stood there tears rolling down his cheeks. This is what he feared for. Her not reacting at all worried him to the core. She looked at him with blank eyes. The next moment, tears welled up her eyes and she started to cry. Armaan went closer to her to hug her. "No, ju..jus..just st..stay away from me. I wa..want to be a..alo..alone" she whispered choking. Riddhima went inside the room and sat on the floor hugging her knees and buried her face in it crying silently. Armaan looked at her helpless. He understood all this is too much for her to handle. But her pushing him away from her worried him. He didn't want her to go in a shell and lock herself. He wanted her to talk to him and pour out everything. At the same time, he understood she needs her space and thought not to disturb her for sometime and stood away from her.
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Three hours had passed. Riddhima didn't move an inch from the place she was sitting. She had stopped crying and was staring at the empty space. Armaan didn't want to irritate her and sat there giving her space and trying hard to be patient.
After some moments, riddhima turned her face to his side and looked at him who sat little away from her. His face was blank and eyes closed. Armaan opened his eyes feeling her gaze on him. He stared at her with guilt, worry and Love. Tears rolled out of his eyes as she opened her arms gesturing him to come to her. He immediately stood up and ran to her surrendering in her arms. He pulled her in his lap sitting on the floor as they cried in each other's arms.
After an hour, their sobs subsided and she got out of his lap and stood up. Her body was numb because of sitting for continuous hours. He stood up with her. She looked at him and stared in his eyes. She saw the ocean of love in his eyes. She found guilt, fear and worry along with it. She was disappointed how he thought she will marry someone else, but was not angry. Looking into his eyes, she understood why he used those harsh words on her and why he broke up with her.
Armaan spoke looking at her. "Two years ago, I came to know that Sameer Kashyap was married. I thought you are marr..married to h..hi..him. I didn't look at the wedding pictures and I didn't wanted to know anything more about it. I didn't have the strength in me look at you as someone else's bride riddhima. It was my entire fault. My hasty decision changed everything. May be if once I had looked at sameer's wedding pictures I would have got to know you are not married. I was thinking you were married for the last two years, that you are someone el..else's w..wi..wife" he said crying bitterly. Riddhima went numb hearing him. She felt like thousands of knives had been stabbed in her heart. She understood what he would have gone through. After all, she felt the pain too. But the difference was she thought he might have married someone else. That thought itself shattered her. And here, armaan thought she really was married to someone else. She hugged him tight letting him cry and soothing his back and crying, not for her, but for him, understanding what he would have gone through. For the past two years he was living a life worst then hell thinking she is married to someone else. She knew how difficult it would have been for him knowing how possessive he is about her. Her heart twitched in pain thinking what he would have gone through all these years.
After sometime, armaan spoke guiltily, his voice and eyes depicting pain. "I am sorry riddhima. I am really very sorry for the foolish thing I did. I know my sorry is not going to give us all the years back. My sorry is not going to erase your pain. My sorry is not the answer for all the tears you shed from the moment I said those hurtful words to you, all the torture you went through all these years. My sorry is not going to bring back those precious moments which we lost. I was a fool to fall in her trap. Even though she blinded my senses with her lie and her lie made me take the decision to break our relationship, I should have been careful. I should have spoken to you once before taking such a huge step. We always talked out everything and took decisions together. I didn't do it once and it led to this. If had spoken to you only once, all this wouldn't have happened. When I realized what I did was wrong, it was too late. You went from here and I couldn't do anything. I love you basket. I love you with all my heart and soul. But I don't deserve you. I don't deserve you after I made you cry and go through all pain and torture all these years. I always hate tears in your eyes, but i have become the reason for your tears. I hurt you. I made you cry. I don't deserve your love. I.." "STOP IT ARMAAN" Riddhima shouted interrupting him in a dangerous voice listening to him and coming out of the hug.
Armaan was startled. He didn't expect this.
"You are speaking as if only I was bearing all the pain and torture these five years. You were going through it too armaan. Today i understood you had gone through a lot more pain and torture than me in these five years. You went through the torture of knowing you took a wrong decision by breaking our relationship and ruined everything. You broke up with me not caring how much it will hurt you. From the last two years you were thinking that I was married to someone else. You were thinking your basket is not yours anymore. But still praying and hoping for my happiness, for my well-being. You lived through all of it for me. Just because you love me. Just because you respect my parents. Because you knew i always wanted to know maa and paa's last wish and fulfil it. But I never came to know of it. When you came to know of it and believing what Padma said was true, you decided to break up with me. Now I understand why you broke up with me so harshly. You wanted me forget you and marry the guy my parents chose for me. You can't see me stuck between you and my parent's choice. So thinking that you are making it easy for me and not wanting to put me in a situation where i will be pulled from both the sides, you broke up with me. Thinking, one day i will be able to forget you and marry the guy of my parent's choice and will live happily. Hai na?" she asked him in a broken voice and he nodded. Armaan stood stunned as she talked. He smiled with tears. This is his basket. Who understood his unspoken words, who read his eyes and tell what is in his heart, who thinks of him before her, who loves him, only him. His heart swelled with more love for her. He fell in love with her all over again.
"By breaking our relationship you tortured yourself more than you did to me. Yes you made me cry. You did the biggest mistake of your life by listening to her. But you did it because you love me, because you didn't wanted to make me choose between you and my parent's choice. In a way, you were right in thinking how will i choose between you and my parent's choice. I might have gone mad thinking whom to choose. But I love you armaan. You should have talked to me before taking this hasty decision" she said crying. Armaan hugged her tightly not wanting to let her go ever mumbling "Sorry basket" again and again.
Armaan didn't know what to say. His feelings and unspoken words came out of his eyes in the form of tears as he cried his heart out in her arms. She hugged him back letting him cry soothing his back. She wanted him to let out all the pain in his heart which he went through all these years. She let him cry holding him as close as she can. Armaan cried more feeling her love. She cried with him silently and smiled when she felt his big palms caressing her petite back, calming her. This is what their love is. They always looked after the other before their own self. They thought about what the other feel before thinking about their own feelings, needs and wants. Their sobs subsided after almost an hour. She parted him a little from the hug and sucked his tears which rolled on his cheeks. She kissed his eyes not letting the tears fall off his eyes and kissed his forehead making him smile.
Wiping his wet cheeks, she said, "Enough, no more crying. hmm? We can't travel back in time and change what happened in the past. We can't bring back all the years which we lost. But we can live rest of our lives with each other. Slowly we can try to forget everything that happened. Whatever you did, you did it thinking it will make me happy. But it didn't. I will be happy only with you armaan. I love you armaan. I love you and only you. Somehow, I survived all these years without you. But I can't anymore. I want you. I need you. Without you, I will d.." armaan kept his palm on her lips before she could say the word "Die". "Don't say that word basket. Please don't. I seriously don't know what to say. I feel like I am you now. It was you always saying you are at loss of words. But today I am at loss of words. You made me speech less. How do you understand my unspoken words riddhima? How did you know what is in my heart without me telling anything to you? I just said the reason why I broke up with you and you understood why I did so without me telling anything. You showed my heart in front of my eyes when you said what is in my heart exactly and why i broke our relationship. How do you understand me so well Riddhima?" he asked her astonished how she understood him so well. "Because I love you armaan" she said with all the love she has for him. Smiling, he kissed her forehead and said "Aaj bhi tum mujhse itna pyar karti ho aur main..i don't deserve your love basket. If I hadn't took that hasty decision, maybe all this wouldn't have happened. I am a fool.." "Don't you dare say my armaan is a fool. He is not. Understand?" she glared at him and held his hand.
"I am sorry armaan. I am really very sorry. I was wrong too armaan. If you don't deserve me, then i don't deserve you too. All these years I was angry on you. I always tried to search for the answer why you threw me out of your life saying those harsh words. I should have tried to speak to you that day. I should have stayed there and waited for your anger to cool down. For the first time i failed to understand you that day. I failed to see through your words. I believed your words and ran away from there. After that I stopped listening to my heart. May be if I had listened to my heart and tried to find out you, we would have been together again long ago. I always thought you rea..reall..reaally h..ha..hate me and stopped myself from searching for you. I thought you will not like it if i enter your life again. Even when you came here, thinking the same I tried to stay away from you. I thought I will see hatred in your eyes when you will see me. But I didn't find it in your eyes. Along with the shock of seeing me, i found something else in your eyes, but I couldn't understand what it was. After that I felt you were trying to talk to me. But I ignored it thinking it's my imagination. I ignored my heart which said you still love me, because I was scared of another heart break. I was angry on you holding onto the words you said and was not able to understand why you did it. I did wrong by not trusting my heart. If I listened to you that night in terrace when you were trying to talk to me, we might have solved our misunderstandings that night itself. I hurted you that night by shouting on you. I was at fault too. If one of us stayed patient all this wouldn't have happened" she spoke out her heart to him.
Armaan made her look into his eyes and spoke. "We both were at fault basket. I was scared of your reaction when you will come to know the reason. I was scared if you could take the shock that the she used your parents name to separate us. We might have solved our misunderstandings if had told you what happened when I came here. We wasted one month. I am sorry basket. I am really very sorry for everything. When I first saw you in the airport, i couldn't believe if you were there or i was hallucinating. It took time for me to accept you really were there. I couldn't understand what was in your heart at the start when i came here. Your eyes which shows me your heart was blank when i looked into them. I understood you are hiding your emotions not wanting me to know what is in your heart and mind. When we talked in the terrace that night for the first time after we met again, your words stabbed me. My mind screamed maybe you really had moved on. But I couldn't believe it, i didn't want to believe it. That night our little moment in the balcony when i came home late night, assured me you still care for me and love me. From then, i knew my basket is hiding in this riddhima who is pretending she forgot me and moved on" he said smiling with tears.
"Let's start afresh again. Like you said, together we will try to forget those black days of our life. It will not be easy. But we will try. When are with each other we can handle anything. Hai na?" "We will armaan. Every relationship goes through its own ups and downs. But five years ago, we had only ups in our relationship. No downs. We were so happy and content in our own world with each other. May be god wanted to test us and our love. We passed god's test and we are together again. And god will not separate us again. I believe it. Even if god or anyone else tries to, we will stand strong together and face it" she said her eyes shining with love, determination and a new hope. He smiled showing his dimples making her heart skip beats and kissed her forehead pulling her more closer to him.
"What did I do armaan? Why she hate me? She stooped so low so to hurt me? What does she gets hurting me? This time she not only hurt me, she hurt you. I hate her armaan. I hate her for doing this. I hate her for hurting you and using my parents name to separate us. I will never forgive her for this. I always saw them as my parents armaan. But she..why armaan? Why she want to ruin my life? I had this doubt she might have something to do with our break up. But I always convinced myself saying it won't be. But she..I will never forgive her for this armaan" she whispered hugging him, her pain and hurt visible in her eyes and voice. The same eyes showing how much she hates Padma that moment. He didn't have the answer to her questions. "I don't know the answers to your questions basket. But I will find it out soon" he said and caressed her back calming her. He sat in the couch with her in his lap. She leaned onto him hugging him.
"Ek baat poochun basket?" "hmm" "Where did my basket learn to talk so much? You definitely had grown up as an individual riddhima. I never expected this from you" he said dumbfounded at how his basket talked so much today. "A Heart break teaches you certain things armaan. May be if we have talked like this that day the Padma wouldn't have succeeded in separating us. After you, I never talked my heart out to anyone. Muskaan was there with me. But I never talked anything about you to her. All she knows was i was in a relationship and broke up before going to London and I still didn't forget my love. She tried a lot to make me speak. But I didn't. Because when I myself didn't know why we break up, what will I say to her? Plus I didn't want anyone to think of you as a bad person" she said hugging him more tightly and he happily hugged her back.
"Aaj bhi tum mujhse itna pyar karti ho. Why do you love me so much basket? Am I that special?" he asked her amazed at how she still loved him so much even after what he did to her and what he did to deserve this angel. "Who am I armaan? Just another normal girl. I am not special in any way. But you love me so much" he interruupted her and said smiling with immense love, "You are special riddhima. You my basket. Very Very Special". She smiled at him and continued. "You love me so much ki you left me knowing it will hurt you. It will hurt you till death. But you did. Just because you love me. You deserve all the love in this world armaan. You are special armaan. You are special in every way for me. I doubt if someone like you exist in this world. You are my true love armaan. I love you as much as you love me. From the moment I came to know and understand what love is, I am loving you armaan. You taught me what love is. Main tumse mohabbat karti hoon armaan. For me, Armaan is another name for love. Mere liye, Armaan mohabbat ka doosra naam hai" she whispered looking into his oceanic blue eyes and wiped the tears which rolled on his cheek. Armaan didn't know how to say in words what he felt at the moment with her confession. His heart swelled with love for her. He fell in love with her all over again. They gazed in to each other's eyes which were filled with love for the other.
Speechless at her heartfelt words, Armaan hugged her burying his face in her hair. Riddhima hugged him back tightly not wanting to let him go. He slightly parted away feeling her tears on his neck. He wiped her tears with his thumb. He gently tucked her tresses behind her ear and kissed her temple, eyes, cheeks, chin, ear he kissed every inch of her face. She gasped as she felt his lips on hers again. He kissed her softly. He sucked and licked her lips making her shudder in his hold. She responded to him by nibbling and sucking his lips. He bit her lip and pushed his tongue in her mouth exploring her. Shivers ran down their spines as they deepened the kiss. He held her waist with his one hand holding her in place and with the other hand held her neck. They fight for dominance as they kissed each other with equal love and passion. Riddhima fisted his hair and he crushed her body with his. They both shuddered feeling their passion rising with each second. They poured all their pent up love, passion and all their emotions in their kiss. They kissed for a long time savouring each other's love and touch. Getting out of breath, they slowly ended their kiss. Riddhima buried her face on his neck hugging him blushing crimson. He hugged her caressing her back. They breathed smiling wide content to be in each other's arms.
This is what they needed. Finally they are together after five long years. They had learned their lesson and will not let anyone or anything separate them again.
"Armaan" "hmm" "Sing for me. I want to listen to you singing. I am yearning to listen to you singing all these years armaan. Will you sing for me?" He kissed her forehead and said "I sing only for you basket". He hugged her tight and started singing.
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They both cried remembering that day. Armaan couldn't look into her eyes and lowered his eyes which were full of guilt and pain. Riddhima's eyes were full of pain and questions. "Armaan, I understand something or someone had made you take this sudden decision. Aisa kya hua armaan? What happened? You said you trusted someone who you shouldn't have trusted. Who made you take this hasty decision?" she asked him softly, holding his cheeks making her look into his eyes.
Armaan placed his hand above hers which was on his cheek and taking her other hand placed it near his heart and stood close to her. "You won't be able to bear it if I say who is it basket" he whispered. "I can armaan. Believe me. Tell me what happened" she said determined to know the truth. Armaan sighed. He knew he can't hide it anymore. Its time she knows everything. He closed his eyes and took a deep breath and whispered "Your bhaiya's mother" in a painful voice. Riddhima felt a pang in her heart hearing him. She stood shocked. Her face went pale and her eyes blank. She was numb. She stood like a statue hearing him. "W..wh..what? Sh..she did this? No, how ca..can she? She can't do this" tears wet her cheeks as she mumbled in shock. Armaan hugged her seeing her crying. This is what he feared for. If this was her reaction for this half-truth, then how will she react when he tells the full truth? He was worried for her. He was hesitant to tell what she did to separate them. But he had no choice, he will have to tell her. He caressed her back soothing her. "Why did she do this? What she did to separate us armaan? Please tell me, please" she pleaded. "She used your parents to separate us riddhima" he said in a blank voice. Riddhima's eyes widened more in shock. "Maa aur Paa? What they have to do with our break up? They are not alive. How can she use them?" she asked him confused. "They are not alive riddhima. And that's what she took advantage of" "I don't understand armaan" "Remember the day we planned to celebrate our birthday together and tell about us to our family?" he asked. She nodded. "That day after I dropped you home.."
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Armaan sat in the table in a restaurant waiting for his friend. A lady in her early forties came and sat opposite him. Armaan's face hardened, jaws tightened and he clenched his fist boiling in anger looking at her. It was Padma. He glared at her with rage in his eyes, which didn't affect her at all. He stood up from the chair to leave. "You and riddhima can't live a life together" she said in a casual voice. Armaan stopped in his tracks. "WHAT THE HELL? ARE YOU OUT OF YOUR MIND?" he shouted on her making others present there look at him. "Calm down armaan. Sit. Let's talk" she said unaffected. Armaan wanted to know what she was going to say and sat in the chair glaring at her.
"Listen to me armaan. Just listen to me. I need talk to you about riddhima" she said and armaan sat there fuming in anger. "You know the about the millionaire Kashyap family?" she asked him. "What do they have to do with riddhima and me?" he barked at her. "Vijay Kashyap and Riddhima's parents studied in the same college and they were friends. Riddhima's parents and vijay made a decision that they will get their children, that is vijay's son Sameer and riddhima, married to each other when they grow up" she said. Armaan looked at her unaffected. "It was riddhima's parents last wish armaan and riddhima doesn't know about this" she said smirking. Armaan's face was pale hearing her. He sat quiet for a minute and spoke up. "Why should I believe you?" "Because its true. I guess she would have told you about her vijay uncle who is her parent's friend settled in Germany". Padma was right. Riddhima had told him about vijay uncle and he is her parent's best friend and she had talk to him and his wife few times in phone. "Riddhima doesn't t know anything about this. When she comes to know of this, she will be shocked at first and happy to know her parent's last wish. She will get a chance to fulfil her parent's wish by marrying Sameer. But she won't be able to do it because of you. She will be trapped between you and her parent's choice. She will be devastated. You know how much she loves them and what they mean to her" she said and smiled seeing armaan's expressions turning confused and worried. "Think of it" she said and went from there smiling in victory with the satisfaction of ruining riddhima's life, looking at a confused armaan behind.
That was it, very simple. Padma came and said this lie which he believed and trusted her words, not knowing it was a lie. Because his mind was clouded with the thoughts of riddhima's parents last wish and what will be riddhima's reaction when she comes to know this.
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Riddhima stood frozen to her spot hearing him. She was not crying. She was not doing anything. She stood there like a statue. Armaan stood there tears rolling down his cheeks. This is what he feared for. Her not reacting at all worried him to the core. She looked at him with blank eyes. The next moment, tears welled up her eyes and she started to cry. Armaan went closer to her to hug her. "No, ju..jus..just st..stay away from me. I wa..want to be a..alo..alone" she whispered choking. Riddhima went inside the room and sat on the floor hugging her knees and buried her face in it crying silently. Armaan looked at her helpless. He understood all this is too much for her to handle. But her pushing him away from her worried him. He didn't want her to go in a shell and lock herself. He wanted her to talk to him and pour out everything. At the same time, he understood she needs her space and thought not to disturb her for sometime and stood away from her.
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Three hours had passed. Riddhima didn't move an inch from the place she was sitting. She had stopped crying and was staring at the empty space. Armaan didn't want to irritate her and sat there giving her space and trying hard to be patient.
After some moments, riddhima turned her face to his side and looked at him who sat little away from her. His face was blank and eyes closed. Armaan opened his eyes feeling her gaze on him. He stared at her with guilt, worry and Love. Tears rolled out of his eyes as she opened her arms gesturing him to come to her. He immediately stood up and ran to her surrendering in her arms. He pulled her in his lap sitting on the floor as they cried in each other's arms.
After an hour, their sobs subsided and she got out of his lap and stood up. Her body was numb because of sitting for continuous hours. He stood up with her. She looked at him and stared in his eyes. She saw the ocean of love in his eyes. She found guilt, fear and worry along with it. She was disappointed how he thought she will marry someone else, but was not angry. Looking into his eyes, she understood why he used those harsh words on her and why he broke up with her.
Armaan spoke looking at her. "Two years ago, I came to know that Sameer Kashyap was married. I thought you are marr..married to h..hi..him. I didn't look at the wedding pictures and I didn't wanted to know anything more about it. I didn't have the strength in me look at you as someone else's bride riddhima. It was my entire fault. My hasty decision changed everything. May be if once I had looked at sameer's wedding pictures I would have got to know you are not married. I was thinking you were married for the last two years, that you are someone el..else's w..wi..wife" he said crying bitterly. Riddhima went numb hearing him. She felt like thousands of knives had been stabbed in her heart. She understood what he would have gone through. After all, she felt the pain too. But the difference was she thought he might have married someone else. That thought itself shattered her. And here, armaan thought she really was married to someone else. She hugged him tight letting him cry and soothing his back and crying, not for her, but for him, understanding what he would have gone through. For the past two years he was living a life worst then hell thinking she is married to someone else. She knew how difficult it would have been for him knowing how possessive he is about her. Her heart twitched in pain thinking what he would have gone through all these years.
After sometime, armaan spoke guiltily, his voice and eyes depicting pain. "I am sorry riddhima. I am really very sorry for the foolish thing I did. I know my sorry is not going to give us all the years back. My sorry is not going to erase your pain. My sorry is not the answer for all the tears you shed from the moment I said those hurtful words to you, all the torture you went through all these years. My sorry is not going to bring back those precious moments which we lost. I was a fool to fall in her trap. Even though she blinded my senses with her lie and her lie made me take the decision to break our relationship, I should have been careful. I should have spoken to you once before taking such a huge step. We always talked out everything and took decisions together. I didn't do it once and it led to this. If had spoken to you only once, all this wouldn't have happened. When I realized what I did was wrong, it was too late. You went from here and I couldn't do anything. I love you basket. I love you with all my heart and soul. But I don't deserve you. I don't deserve you after I made you cry and go through all pain and torture all these years. I always hate tears in your eyes, but i have become the reason for your tears. I hurt you. I made you cry. I don't deserve your love. I.." "STOP IT ARMAAN" Riddhima shouted interrupting him in a dangerous voice listening to him and coming out of the hug.
Armaan was startled. He didn't expect this.
"You are speaking as if only I was bearing all the pain and torture these five years. You were going through it too armaan. Today i understood you had gone through a lot more pain and torture than me in these five years. You went through the torture of knowing you took a wrong decision by breaking our relationship and ruined everything. You broke up with me not caring how much it will hurt you. From the last two years you were thinking that I was married to someone else. You were thinking your basket is not yours anymore. But still praying and hoping for my happiness, for my well-being. You lived through all of it for me. Just because you love me. Just because you respect my parents. Because you knew i always wanted to know maa and paa's last wish and fulfil it. But I never came to know of it. When you came to know of it and believing what Padma said was true, you decided to break up with me. Now I understand why you broke up with me so harshly. You wanted me forget you and marry the guy my parents chose for me. You can't see me stuck between you and my parent's choice. So thinking that you are making it easy for me and not wanting to put me in a situation where i will be pulled from both the sides, you broke up with me. Thinking, one day i will be able to forget you and marry the guy of my parent's choice and will live happily. Hai na?" she asked him in a broken voice and he nodded. Armaan stood stunned as she talked. He smiled with tears. This is his basket. Who understood his unspoken words, who read his eyes and tell what is in his heart, who thinks of him before her, who loves him, only him. His heart swelled with more love for her. He fell in love with her all over again.
"By breaking our relationship you tortured yourself more than you did to me. Yes you made me cry. You did the biggest mistake of your life by listening to her. But you did it because you love me, because you didn't wanted to make me choose between you and my parent's choice. In a way, you were right in thinking how will i choose between you and my parent's choice. I might have gone mad thinking whom to choose. But I love you armaan. You should have talked to me before taking this hasty decision" she said crying. Armaan hugged her tightly not wanting to let her go ever mumbling "Sorry basket" again and again.
Armaan didn't know what to say. His feelings and unspoken words came out of his eyes in the form of tears as he cried his heart out in her arms. She hugged him back letting him cry soothing his back. She wanted him to let out all the pain in his heart which he went through all these years. She let him cry holding him as close as she can. Armaan cried more feeling her love. She cried with him silently and smiled when she felt his big palms caressing her petite back, calming her. This is what their love is. They always looked after the other before their own self. They thought about what the other feel before thinking about their own feelings, needs and wants. Their sobs subsided after almost an hour. She parted him a little from the hug and sucked his tears which rolled on his cheeks. She kissed his eyes not letting the tears fall off his eyes and kissed his forehead making him smile.
Wiping his wet cheeks, she said, "Enough, no more crying. hmm? We can't travel back in time and change what happened in the past. We can't bring back all the years which we lost. But we can live rest of our lives with each other. Slowly we can try to forget everything that happened. Whatever you did, you did it thinking it will make me happy. But it didn't. I will be happy only with you armaan. I love you armaan. I love you and only you. Somehow, I survived all these years without you. But I can't anymore. I want you. I need you. Without you, I will d.." armaan kept his palm on her lips before she could say the word "Die". "Don't say that word basket. Please don't. I seriously don't know what to say. I feel like I am you now. It was you always saying you are at loss of words. But today I am at loss of words. You made me speech less. How do you understand my unspoken words riddhima? How did you know what is in my heart without me telling anything to you? I just said the reason why I broke up with you and you understood why I did so without me telling anything. You showed my heart in front of my eyes when you said what is in my heart exactly and why i broke our relationship. How do you understand me so well Riddhima?" he asked her astonished how she understood him so well. "Because I love you armaan" she said with all the love she has for him. Smiling, he kissed her forehead and said "Aaj bhi tum mujhse itna pyar karti ho aur main..i don't deserve your love basket. If I hadn't took that hasty decision, maybe all this wouldn't have happened. I am a fool.." "Don't you dare say my armaan is a fool. He is not. Understand?" she glared at him and held his hand.
"I am sorry armaan. I am really very sorry. I was wrong too armaan. If you don't deserve me, then i don't deserve you too. All these years I was angry on you. I always tried to search for the answer why you threw me out of your life saying those harsh words. I should have tried to speak to you that day. I should have stayed there and waited for your anger to cool down. For the first time i failed to understand you that day. I failed to see through your words. I believed your words and ran away from there. After that I stopped listening to my heart. May be if I had listened to my heart and tried to find out you, we would have been together again long ago. I always thought you rea..reall..reaally h..ha..hate me and stopped myself from searching for you. I thought you will not like it if i enter your life again. Even when you came here, thinking the same I tried to stay away from you. I thought I will see hatred in your eyes when you will see me. But I didn't find it in your eyes. Along with the shock of seeing me, i found something else in your eyes, but I couldn't understand what it was. After that I felt you were trying to talk to me. But I ignored it thinking it's my imagination. I ignored my heart which said you still love me, because I was scared of another heart break. I was angry on you holding onto the words you said and was not able to understand why you did it. I did wrong by not trusting my heart. If I listened to you that night in terrace when you were trying to talk to me, we might have solved our misunderstandings that night itself. I hurted you that night by shouting on you. I was at fault too. If one of us stayed patient all this wouldn't have happened" she spoke out her heart to him.
Armaan made her look into his eyes and spoke. "We both were at fault basket. I was scared of your reaction when you will come to know the reason. I was scared if you could take the shock that the she used your parents name to separate us. We might have solved our misunderstandings if had told you what happened when I came here. We wasted one month. I am sorry basket. I am really very sorry for everything. When I first saw you in the airport, i couldn't believe if you were there or i was hallucinating. It took time for me to accept you really were there. I couldn't understand what was in your heart at the start when i came here. Your eyes which shows me your heart was blank when i looked into them. I understood you are hiding your emotions not wanting me to know what is in your heart and mind. When we talked in the terrace that night for the first time after we met again, your words stabbed me. My mind screamed maybe you really had moved on. But I couldn't believe it, i didn't want to believe it. That night our little moment in the balcony when i came home late night, assured me you still care for me and love me. From then, i knew my basket is hiding in this riddhima who is pretending she forgot me and moved on" he said smiling with tears.
"Let's start afresh again. Like you said, together we will try to forget those black days of our life. It will not be easy. But we will try. When are with each other we can handle anything. Hai na?" "We will armaan. Every relationship goes through its own ups and downs. But five years ago, we had only ups in our relationship. No downs. We were so happy and content in our own world with each other. May be god wanted to test us and our love. We passed god's test and we are together again. And god will not separate us again. I believe it. Even if god or anyone else tries to, we will stand strong together and face it" she said her eyes shining with love, determination and a new hope. He smiled showing his dimples making her heart skip beats and kissed her forehead pulling her more closer to him.
"What did I do armaan? Why she hate me? She stooped so low so to hurt me? What does she gets hurting me? This time she not only hurt me, she hurt you. I hate her armaan. I hate her for doing this. I hate her for hurting you and using my parents name to separate us. I will never forgive her for this. I always saw them as my parents armaan. But she..why armaan? Why she want to ruin my life? I had this doubt she might have something to do with our break up. But I always convinced myself saying it won't be. But she..I will never forgive her for this armaan" she whispered hugging him, her pain and hurt visible in her eyes and voice. The same eyes showing how much she hates Padma that moment. He didn't have the answer to her questions. "I don't know the answers to your questions basket. But I will find it out soon" he said and caressed her back calming her. He sat in the couch with her in his lap. She leaned onto him hugging him.
"Ek baat poochun basket?" "hmm" "Where did my basket learn to talk so much? You definitely had grown up as an individual riddhima. I never expected this from you" he said dumbfounded at how his basket talked so much today. "A Heart break teaches you certain things armaan. May be if we have talked like this that day the Padma wouldn't have succeeded in separating us. After you, I never talked my heart out to anyone. Muskaan was there with me. But I never talked anything about you to her. All she knows was i was in a relationship and broke up before going to London and I still didn't forget my love. She tried a lot to make me speak. But I didn't. Because when I myself didn't know why we break up, what will I say to her? Plus I didn't want anyone to think of you as a bad person" she said hugging him more tightly and he happily hugged her back.
"Aaj bhi tum mujhse itna pyar karti ho. Why do you love me so much basket? Am I that special?" he asked her amazed at how she still loved him so much even after what he did to her and what he did to deserve this angel. "Who am I armaan? Just another normal girl. I am not special in any way. But you love me so much" he interruupted her and said smiling with immense love, "You are special riddhima. You my basket. Very Very Special". She smiled at him and continued. "You love me so much ki you left me knowing it will hurt you. It will hurt you till death. But you did. Just because you love me. You deserve all the love in this world armaan. You are special armaan. You are special in every way for me. I doubt if someone like you exist in this world. You are my true love armaan. I love you as much as you love me. From the moment I came to know and understand what love is, I am loving you armaan. You taught me what love is. Main tumse mohabbat karti hoon armaan. For me, Armaan is another name for love. Mere liye, Armaan mohabbat ka doosra naam hai" she whispered looking into his oceanic blue eyes and wiped the tears which rolled on his cheek. Armaan didn't know how to say in words what he felt at the moment with her confession. His heart swelled with love for her. He fell in love with her all over again. They gazed in to each other's eyes which were filled with love for the other.
Speechless at her heartfelt words, Armaan hugged her burying his face in her hair. Riddhima hugged him back tightly not wanting to let him go. He slightly parted away feeling her tears on his neck. He wiped her tears with his thumb. He gently tucked her tresses behind her ear and kissed her temple, eyes, cheeks, chin, ear he kissed every inch of her face. She gasped as she felt his lips on hers again. He kissed her softly. He sucked and licked her lips making her shudder in his hold. She responded to him by nibbling and sucking his lips. He bit her lip and pushed his tongue in her mouth exploring her. Shivers ran down their spines as they deepened the kiss. He held her waist with his one hand holding her in place and with the other hand held her neck. They fight for dominance as they kissed each other with equal love and passion. Riddhima fisted his hair and he crushed her body with his. They both shuddered feeling their passion rising with each second. They poured all their pent up love, passion and all their emotions in their kiss. They kissed for a long time savouring each other's love and touch. Getting out of breath, they slowly ended their kiss. Riddhima buried her face on his neck hugging him blushing crimson. He hugged her caressing her back. They breathed smiling wide content to be in each other's arms.
This is what they needed. Finally they are together after five long years. They had learned their lesson and will not let anyone or anything separate them again.
"Armaan" "hmm" "Sing for me. I want to listen to you singing. I am yearning to listen to you singing all these years armaan. Will you sing for me?" He kissed her forehead and said "I sing only for you basket". He hugged her tight and started singing.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YD3G4OD7vRI
Oooh ho...
Tum ho
Tum ho paas mere
Saath mere ho
Tum yun
Jitna mehsoos karoon
Utna hi paa bhi loon
Tum ho mere liye
Mere liye ho tum yun
Khud ko main haar gaya
Tum ko, tukmko main jeeta hoon
Oooh ho...
Tum ho
hmmm...
Aaah haa aa...
Kahin se kahin ko bhi
Aao bewajah chale
Poochhe bina kisi se
Hum mile
Bandishe naa rahi koi baaqi
Tum ho
Tum ho paas mere, saath mere ho
Tum yun
Jitna mehsoos karooon tumko, utna hi paa bhi loon
Oooh hoo hoo...
Kis tarah chheenega aa mujh se ye jahaan tumhe
Tum bhi ho main
Kya fiqar ab humein
Tum ho mere liye
Mere liye ho tum yun
Khud ko main haar gaya
Tum ko, Tumko main jeeta hoon
Oooh hoo ho...
Tum ho
Hoo aa...
Oooh ho...
Tum ho
Tum ho paas mere
Saath mere ho
Tum yun
Jitna mehsoos karoon
Utna hi paa bhi loon
Tum ho mere liye
Mere liye ho tum yun
Khud ko main haar gaya
Tum ko, tukmko main jeeta hoon
Oooh ho...
Tum ho
hmmm...
Aaah haa aa...
Kahin se kahin ko bhi
Aao bewajah chale
Poochhe bina kisi se
Hum mile
Bandishe naa rahi koi baaqi
Tum ho
Tum ho paas mere, saath mere ho
Tum yun
Jitna mehsoos karooon tumko, utna hi paa bhi loon
Oooh hoo hoo...
Kis tarah chheenega aa mujh se ye jahaan tumhe
Tum bhi ho main
Kya fiqar ab humein
Tum ho mere liye
Mere liye ho tum yun
Khud ko main haar gaya
Tum ko, Tumko main jeeta hoon
Oooh hoo ho...
Tum ho
Hoo aa...
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Pheww..finally finished the part. I am VERY NERVOUS about this part. It is the Most Important part of the FF. I worked hard on this part then all other parts till now. I want long comments. Please tell me if you liked it, loved it or hate it. Constructive criticism is welcome. Silent readers whom haven't commented on the story, i hope to see your comments on this part. I really want to know if my readers liked this part or not. Hope u guys read the note in Pg60.
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