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I Love You Now
It was a lazy morning when Dr.Armaan Mallik was basking in the glory of the sunshine in his posh apartment's verandah facing the beautiful sea. Sipping his aromatic brazilian coffee and relishing Danish pastries while resting on his leather arm chair. For someone like Armaan who worked hard day and night saving lives of people, Sunday was always peaceful where he lazed around in his home firstly getting up extremely late, secondly rejuvianting his taste buds and himself all day long. No phone calls and no work..well mostly if no emergency calls erupt! But thats a doctor's life and Armaan Malllik loved it with each and every pro and con of it .
Nevertheless even being a hardworking guy Armaan Mallik thoroughly enjoyed his life too. He was a complete party animal who loves spending his Saturday nights in the pub partying out all night. He being the most good looking guy in his friend circle is also the most popular one. Wherever he went it was sure girls' turned to have a look at him. Handsome, a charming persona, sleek sense of style and his dimpled smile that made girls swoon over him. but luckily unluckily Armaan Mallik never dated anyone. He could never understand the whole love thing or the dating thing. All his friends have had girlfriends. Some changed them like their clothes. Some were in a steady relationship but Armaan kept himself away from it. To sum it up Armaan Mallik didnt even believe in love so that probably explains why he never even fell in love.
So while the doctor was enjoying his peaceful morning he heard the door bell ring. Making a face showing complete agitation of someone disturbing him he pulled himself up and went to the door to see who was the intruder in his Sunday.
"Good morning sir, your courier, please sign here." Greeted the delivery boy. "Good morning to you too..thanks for this." Armaan replied while signing the register. Closing the door behind him he led his way to his verandah again and making a mental note of checking the post later got back to his lavish breakfast.
After finally having a stomachful he finally picked up the post. Tearing off the seal carefully he took out the paper neatly folded and found that it was a letter. Armaan was surely baffled seeing itas he was not habitual to recieving letters in the era of emails, obviously. It seemed like a familiar handwriting but unfortunately there was no name written. Ignoring all of this he finally started reading the letter .
"Dearest Armaan,
I hope you remember me, and even if you dont never mind, doesnt matter anymore. I wanna congratulate you on recieving the awards you recently did for your achievements in your profession. Im so glad to know you fulfilled the dream of your mother of becoming a successful doctor. Neeta aunty must be realy proud of you right?
Writing this letter i feel so nostalgic and each and every moment i spent with you is flashing in front of my eyes like a film. Well why wouldnt they..i kept your memories alive with me all these years. You..your words..everything about you was what kept me going all these years.
And well if you still havent recognised who i am..dont bother . probably what you are going to read next will remind you who i am. Some three years back while we both were sitting on the steps of your house sipping our favourite hot chocolate and talking about our crushes in school. While i had many to talk about you had very few. Reason, you never believed in love. You made so much fun of me for behaving like an absolute love struck teen when i was gushing about my old crushes n gave all soughts of explanations how lame love is and blah blah and how you will never understand it and will never believe in it. I knew you never believed in it and i tried all tricks to make you believe in it. Now do you understand why i gushed so much about my old crushes that day? Coz i wanted to make you jealous! You moron! But alas i never had such good luck with you.
And then the day came when you got your first job offer to work in Sanjeevani and we separated. I still cant explain you how much it hurt to see you go! I couldnt eat, sleep, live for months and probably you forgot me too and that hurt even more. My hope for life was finished..it had shattered and i guess thats why God even decided to free me from this burden but even he made sure i suffered before i could rest in peace forever. I was diagnosed with lung cancer of 2nd stage Armaan! And it was rapidly increasing. My family got me treated from the best doctors of the city but i knew i would not survive. I didnt want to. My life had got over the day i had lost you. I soon turned into an ugly looking monster as the treatment proceeded but guess what even that didnt matter coz i didnt have you to appreciate my beauty like before.
I told my family many times that they should give up and not try so hard for my survivl but they never listened. How could i tell them that their daughter had died long back and only her body was breathing its last breaths. If something that kept me going through the hell of days ..it was you..your memories.
And if those memories were beautiful..they were painful too..much more painful that my disease. So damn painful that even the physical pain felt nothing in front of them. But i embraced them with all the smile and those tears coz when i needed you...and you werent there..they were your only substitutes.
But now the pain is going to end. Finally. Im on my death bed in some hospital living my last moments writing this letter to you and being at my selfish best. But i cannot help it Armaan..im sorry...i know im going to hurt you by doing this i had to. I had beared everything by myself for too long. I never had the guts to tell you how much i loved you coz i was afraid of rejection. And if i dont do this..trust me i wont be able to die peacefully...dont bother looking around for me after you read this coz you wont find me...i will be gone long ago and forever. Finally i will get rid of all the pain...
I missed you every living moment since you went away...and lying here..counting my last moments here i still miss you...i wish i could die in your arms...but unlucky me...
So yeah...im really being a bitch here by saying this but have a great life ahead...marry a nice beautiful girl ..earn lots of money and get whatever you have ever wanted. Coz now tht i will be up there with god..i shall make sure each and every desire of yours comes true. Stay happy ..may you become even more handsome as you grow old..
So yeah i cant write more...so its a goodbye Armaan... a goodbye forever...
p.s. I Love You...
P.p.s. please fall in love with me in your next birth...
p.p.p.s i hope you recognise me now..."
" I believe in love now ...I Love You Now Riddhima" was only what he could whisper.
Dear Readers..this is just a random piece of fiction i wrote when i wa getting bored. hope u all liked it. please leave in your reviews ..they seriously make the writer's day
p.s. afia...im trying to write the FF part as well...hopefully will complete it soon Partner š
and Sorry for making your day worst with this š
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