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Chapter 14

~And live it is~

Darkness...Light..Light..darkness..It was the same ...going on and on. I wanted it to STOP. But I couldn't. I felt like my body was tied. There was no invisible rope but I had no energy, the darkness around was suffocating me but after a long time I wanted to fight it. I wasn't interested in welcoming the Darkness. It was kind of funny to think that earlier I wanted it and just one truth changed the whole meaning. I wasn't going to go down without giving a fight. It was also the reason why I was ALIVE and breathing till now.

I was drugged. And the person drugging me wasn't his father it was the Butler. After his father left, telling me the horrendous truth about Tanya, my mind went numb. I couldn't comprehend. He was lying. I knew it. It just wasn't making any bloody sense. I had a sister? I never knew about my father but I had a sister. And he thought I was going to believe it...Bullshit.

I may have been wrong in judging people, making them the cause of my pain but this. He went too low. I was an orphan and I accepted it. I didn't know about my real family and I knew it. I had accepted my fate because even if I had tried there was no way to change it. Weren't they satisfied with the pain they were giving me that they got down to this level?

For a second I thought maybe he wasn't as ruthless as blue eyes. But I forgot..Like Father, Like son. Blue eyes was his son. So their actions were supposed to be similar. He kept on going about my life that I was unaware off, the life I never knew about and like a mute doll I continued listening.

"I wasn't thinking of doing it but my son has left me with no other option. You have to leave RIGHT NOW."

The same voice, the same authority, the same anger and the same desperation, everything was Same. For a moment my mind believed the person in front of me to be the older version of Blue eyes. They were too similar to be different.

And his next sentence stamped my assumption.

"And because you wanted to die I am going to fulfil this dream of your soon ...Not today but soon. I need you for some time and as soon as my work is done I'll fulfil your wish. I am not that heartless as I may sound or look. "I heard the chuckle escaping his mouth. "I do fulfil other's wishes like I fulfilled your sister Tanya's wish. But this time you know who is going to fulfil it for you..."

Smirk. He smirked and it showed me the difference. His smirk was more dangerous. It was like looking at the DEATH in front of me. And it scared the shit out of me.

"My son...Armaan"

He whispered. The menace was too visible to be ignored. He wasn't lying and I knew it. Blue eyes, He was going to kill me. Tears pooled into my eyes. And it was because I didn't want to die. I wanted answers. I knew he was lying. My heart believed it and somewhere down the line..My mind almost believed. And I wanted a conformation. There was just person who could have given me answers and it was...Blue eyes, Armaan.

"Bring her down, the car's waiting outside"

My mind was filled with question that I didn't even remembered him leaving and Butler standing in front of me. The last thing I remembered before the darkness consumed me was the pain in my right arm.

When I opened my eyes I wasn't in the mansion anymore. I knew it. There was darkness around me. The only light was coming through the window that was beyond my reach. This place was looking like the place I was kept hostage by HIM. After father gave me to HIM, before Blue eyes bought me.

But this place was creepier. There wasn't a sound. Not even the prick of a sound. It was like I was alone. And it scared me. Because Alone was one emotion I was running away from. Alone meant, mind going to the same place I wasn't interested in going...Not Now at least. When I wanted answers and Alone was pulling me from away from getting those answers.

Blue eyes was going to kill me. Wasn't this his words? But I wanted answers and the only person who could have given me was the one going to kill me. So many thoughts and none of them Good were running around in my mind. Would I get the chance to ask him? Would he listen to me before killing me? How was he planning to kill me and if he wanted to kill then why did he stopped me that day.

It would have been better if I had died that day. At least the new developments would have not taken place. When I wanted to die, he didn't let me. And now, when I didn't want, he was ready to Kill me.

Life's so unpredictable. One moment you want something and the next you try to escape it. One moment you want it to be fulfilled and the next moment you wish you had never asked for it. One moment you'll do anything to achieve it, the next moment you are ready to do anything to avoid it.

That's life, uncertain, unpredictable and full of surprises, sometime good and sometimes bad. But for me it had always been the latter one. Some say we write our own destiny. That it wasn't the uncertainty that made them but they wrote it themselves. So should I conclude that MY LIFE turned out to be like this because I wrote it this way? Even without me knowing I was writing it with my own hands. Was this possible?

I never got the chance to create my own destiny. It was always others..others and others...making decision for MY life. Right from the day I was born to the day I was about to die. It's not like I didn't tried but failure and me go a long back. Whenever I tried either I Failed or I was forced to let it go.

It reached to a level that I stopped. Try, Try, Try till you succeed. I tried and I failed. I tried and I failed. I tried and I failed and tried but again Failed. Doesn't it also give an indication that you are trying of something that was never meant to be yours?

So should we continue trying or give up? I don't have answer to this question. Because I tried and failed. I gave up but the uncertainty called Life, forced me to try again and I failed once again. This never ending cycle brought me back to the DESTINY.

Do we really write our own destiny or it's the unpredictable, Life that makes us who we are and where we are. My thoughts were contradicting each other. And I needed someone to guide me. As funny as it was sounding, I needed someone. And who would have been that guiding star? Blue eyes, who was waiting to kill me or his father who was the Death himself or my loneliness who wanted me to kill myself. Where ever I looked, wherever my mind took me the end result was Death.

Death..the opposite of life. Like life, we say death is unpredictable but in my case, it was predictable. And it wasn't me who made it predictable. Like before, it wasn't me but others who made the decision for me. And the part that I had to play was to Follow.

Like I did before and Like I was about to do..untill my death.

I don't remember for how long this game of Life and Death was going through my mind. But I was brought back from the reverie by a sound.

Sound..a bleak sound.

I heard it. My eyes flew to the door and my senses were back. Someone was outside. And I had a gut feeling it was Blue eyes. He was outside. My death was outside and it was just a matter of time before...

The door opened. And for a second my eyes widened as I saw the dark shadow standing at the door. I tried looking more but the drugs were making it too difficult to even open my eyes.

The only line going through my head was I was about to die.

The drugs were making it impossible for me to open my mouth, let alone speak. How was
I supposed to get answers to my questions? Was he planning to kill me from a distance?

No..please ..come closer..just for once..I want just one chance..

I felt him moving. His presence was coming closer. I tried looking but I couldn't see because of the darkness.

"Um..Hmm.Umm.." the only sound coming through my mouth. No, not today please..I pleaded.

My voice...you can't leave me, not today. Not when I was this close to getting answer to the question. Just for once , it's all I ask for..Just once..But..

"Are you ready to... Die"

He whispered Die and blew on my face. My movement stopped. I knew his face was almost close to me. Knife..It was the knife I felt moving on my neck. I was lying on the bed like a statue with death hovering over me. I never felt his helpless before.

I closed my eyes..waiting..waiting for the death to come and take me. Maybe I wasn't meant to know the answers. Somebody already wrote my future and it consisted of dying painfully with unanswered questions.

The knife moved from the neck to the waist and I felt the familiar feeling, pain. I gasped for air. My voice came back and I screamed as the pain was beyond control. Painful wasn't even the word to describe what I felt that time. Is death really this painful?

I would have answered it if I was given a chance to live. But the end was near. And just few moments..it was all left for me...Just few moments.

And that's when I heard Blue eyes.

"I have got you. I won't let you die. Don't lose hope, I have got you..just don't close your eyes Riddhima...Don't close your eyes. You'll live..you'll live.."

~And live it is~

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