1 YEAR WITHOUT "MJHT"
SIGH...
dis was my first reaction after getting up in d morning...
after a tiring schedule of shooting for my nw show i took a break today...
i look outside from my balcony n it was raining...i love rain...
wen evr i feel sad it alwaysss rains bt it nvr let me become more sad coz d rain drops alwaysss bring a smile on my face...dats why i loved it more...wid dis smile it make me rmmbr sm memories whc i cherised d most...n wid d memories it make me rmmbr h......sigh
as if i was able to forget abt it evr...no no nt again...i know m missing...like alwaysss
bt nt again i mean nt today atleast as m already sooo sad...
ya today is 19th NOVEMBER...2011
its been 1yr...or i shud say 1 longgg year without MJHT...n without...sigh
i was lazily sitting in my balcony as its my fav place n it also has sm memories...
goddd...wen m i supposed to spent d entire day wen everything around me was making me nostalgic...
now m actually thinking dat staying at home dat too today was a really bad idea...
bt now wht can i do...
i am missing my MJHT team...a looottt..so i decided to watch sm clips of our team...d last shoot...RE-UNION.. d last itvs...sigh
again it was a bad idea so i jst switched off my lappy n again back to my fav place my balcony...bt as it was dizzling out side n i was lost in my thought i didn't realize hw d time passed n it was already after noon...bt still it was dizzling bt as my poor stomach was shouting as i hvn't eaten anything from last ni8...
so first i took a quick shower den i made maggie for me as m nt in a mood to cook now...
jst wen i finished... i heard my door bell rang...wen i opened it was NAVINA..
i said HI to her wid a forced smile as i dont want her to see dat m sad...
bt she jst came into d living room...n was standing wid hands placed on her waist n dat reminds me dat JAS has invited me for a RE-UNION party for our MJHT gang...
Navina:so Miss RATI Pandey u forgot na we were supposed to go for JAS's party.
Rati: ya sort off...actually m nt feeling dat well.so i was thinking...
Navina: no no no... m nt gonna listen to any of ur silly excuses today ok!!! as u know after such a long time we all r gonna meet again so plzzz now get ready we r supposed to leave in 45 mins ok!!!!!
Rati: ok!!!!! (as if i hv any other option dan dis bt wait MJHT re-union dat means...no no no i cant go der plz) so all will b coming in d party???
Navina: ofcourse...its JAS's party n u know no1 can say no to him...*winked*
Rati: so dat means...
Navina: dat means every1 ok!!!!!!! now jst go n get ready...
as i was dragged by her... here i was standing all dressed in a knee length BLACK dress wid my hair open jst a lil make-up n a lil touch of lip-gloss waiting in d parking lot for Navina's car to arrive...as she was determined to take me wid her in her car...
wid in more 15 mins we were in JAS's party..
as i entered i can see all our MJHT ppl except...ok!! forget it Rati whts wrong wid u!!??!! U shud b happy as u dont want dis ri8!!!!!! or do U????" my heart was saying rather dan asking...
after meeting all i sat at a corner as i wasn't in a mood to dance wen suddenly i noticed him...HE was wearing a body fitting RED t-shirt wid BLUE denims...n as usual he was looking HAWTTT...jst like d ACTUAL... ARJUN BIJLANI look like...bt suddenly i saw him looking at me n flashed his cute dimple smile...his dimple smile alwaysss make me feel dat it was reserved for me ONLY!!!...sigh...wait!!!!!! he smiled at me!!! n dat make me realise dat i was literally STARING at him... n he noticed it...goddd!!!!! why i always ended up doing d very thing wht i wanna avoid...i looked at d other side bt from d corner of my eyes i can see him smiling while shaking his head...
d party was in full swing...all were enjoying as we all met after such a long time i kept a safe distance wid...bt after a while i thought i shud get going now bt as i dont wanna spoil Navina's party mood so i jst told her actually forced her to party more as i can manage by my self...so here i was standing on d road waiitng for a cab...suddenly a car stopped infront of me n i know who is d owner of dis car...
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Unlike everyday today i wake up wid a smile in d morning as today m gonna meet wid my "MJHT" gang...as JAS invited me for a "RE-UNION party at his place...n as he has arranged d party dat means all r gonna come...by ALL i mean...""ALL""dis brought another BIG smile on my face...after waiting for d time to arrive i was here standing at d main door of JAS's appartment...as i entered my eyes were all in... to search d REASON whc brought me here today dat too wid such a BIG Smile on my face...its nt like dat we didnt meet after d wrap up party...yes we met a couple of times bt nvr like d way we used to meet...wen i was nt getting any glimpse of my "REASON" to come here i felt someone's gaze on me... n wen i looked at dat "someone" its was none other dan my SOUL REASON to come here...looking at me wid lips curved a lil... dressed in my fav colour BLACK knee-length dress...n looking BEAUTIFUL N GORGEOUS as usual jst like d ACTUAL RATI PANDEY...bt wen i gv her my Dimpled Smile whc is only reserved for her... it seemed suddenly she came back from her dreamland n turned her face towards another side...bt as i know her too well so shaking my head i jst smiled n moved towards JAS n our gang...as she was keeping a safe distance from all of us sitting in a corner or chatting wid Navina n Ashwini...i grabbed d oppurtunity to stare at her angelic face for quite sm times...bt after sm while i saw her talking wid Jas n Navina she was moving towards d exit...dat make me realized dat she was leaving...i hurriedly said good-bye to all excusing my self saying dat i hv to go for an urgent work praying for nt to miss her again...here she was standing on d road waiting for a cab...dat remind me dat i hv noticed Navina's car bt nt hers... dat means she came here wid Navina in her car...so i sat into my car n stopped infront of her...as it was quite late at ni8 so i guess she didnt see me in d car bt i know she recongnized my car...as she used love dis car of mine n evn we hv went to many places during MJHT in dis very car...i open d window of my passanger seat n looked at her n i said...
ARJUN: hey RATI...wht r u doing here???(pretending as if i dont know)
RATI: hi ARJUN...ermmm...nothing jst waiting for a cab...
ARJUN: waiting for cab!!!!!u didnt brought ur car???
RATI: actually i came wid Navina here bt as i was nt feeling much well so m leaving early...( goddd...why did i always listen to Navina i shud hv brought my car wht if he...)
ARJUN: ok...so if u dont hv any problem i can drop u home...(god...i hope she accept my req. or else m gonna b dead)
RATI: errmmm...ARJUN actually...
ARJUN: plzzz RATI...(as i cudn't control so i said it as d same way dat she can nvr say a NO )
RATI: ok...(goddd...he sooo well knew dat i cant say him NO wen he speak like dat...uff!!! bt why he was behaving so formal its so unlike him)
i settled in d car...n here we ya... WE were on d way towards my home...der was silence for quite sm time as i was busy trying to nt STARE at him again turning my face looking out side from d window...i heard him saying CONGRATS...wen i turned to face him...my heart skipped a bit..as i saw him looking at me wid my fav smile playing on her lips...
ARJUN: Congrats...for ur nw show...
RATI: oh..thank u...
ARJUN: i saw d promos n u look good (as always) n "SADU"
RATI: ya thanks...(wht!!!!!did he call me sadu)...wht did u said...
ARJUN: i said SADU...u were looking sadu as Hitler Didi...i guess it suited u...
RATI: wht i looked sadu!!!!!! ya i know d role is sadu n i suited as Hitler Didi...bt wht do u mean by i suited d role n dont call me SADU ok!!!!!
ARJUN: (at last...so miss RATI PANDEY was back...i jst loved it) i mean u held d character really well n it suited u...dats it...
RATI: oh really...den ok!!! (hehe...i know wht he actually mean wid dos words bt i loved hw he coverd it as nt in purpose to make me angry)
ARJUN: so...RATI hw is life going???
RATI: hmm...good n urs??? (*good*sigh!!!!!!)
ARJUN: gr8888 ( huh!!!!! life!!!!gr88!!!dat too without any REASON)
RATI: hw is aunty n ur brother???
ARJUN: dey r all good...n hw abt ur family??
RATI: dey r all fine...by god's grace..
again der was silence... as i dont know wht to say more to her n hw to say it... so i jst switched on d radio n a song played.....
Teri meri meri teri prem kahani hain mushkil...
Do lafjo mein yeh bayan na ho paye...
Ek ladka aur ek ladki ki yeh kahani hain nayi...
Do lafjo mein yeh baya na ho paye...
sigh!! sm times i actually feel dat dis song was only made for us...i looked at him wid d corner of my eyes...he was busy in driving...i wonder if he also felt sm thing hearing dis song...or not...
Tumse dil jo lagaya do jahan maine paya...
Kabhi socha na tha yeh milon dur hoga saya...
hw true...sigh...sm times i feel sm 1 wrote dis song seeing my situation...i looked at her who was looking outside from d window...may b was thinking sm thing...
Teri meri baton ka har lamha sabse anjana...
Do lafjo mein yeh baya na ho paye...
Har ehsaas mein tu hain har ek yaad mein tera afsanaa...
Do lafjo mein yeh baya na ho paye...
ri8!!! d moment we spend together was d best part of my life...wen i enjoyed every bit of my life...evn now wen we r nt talking still m enjoying dis feeling...dis silence...silence speaks volume...dis goes so perfectly wid us...
Sara din bit jaye sari raat jagaye...
Baas khayal tumhara lamha lamha tarpaye...
Yeh tarap keh rahi hain mit jaye fasley yeh...
Tere mere darmiyaan jo hain sare...
sm times i wish...if we were still doing MJHT we wud hv been still...TOGETHER...only i know hw much i want to remove dis distance...
Ek duje se huye juda jab ek duje ke liye baney...
Tere meri baton ka har lamha sabse anjana...
Do lafjo mein yeh baya na ho paye...
did we really need words to dercribe wht we feel...wht we wanna say...why its so difficult to gv it words...why we need to gv it words...cant we both jst understand...wht we feel...
"Teri meri meri teri prem kahani hain mushkil do lafjo mein ye baya na ho paye...
Ek ladka aur ek ladki ki yeh kahani hain nayi do lafjo mein yeh baya na ho paye"...
d song ended...n der was again silence between us...as much as i love dis silence...i love to hear her voice too...so i decided to break dis silence...
ARJUN: btw congrats all become Mrs from Miss n u hv turned Miss from Mrs han!!!
RATI: wht???
ARJUN: ya...b4 u was Mrs. Nupur Mayank Sharma now u hv become Miss. Indira Sharma...*winked*...(Mrs Sharma...hehe...i used too loved it wenevr i hv to call her dis)
RATI: ohh...dis...ya ri8!!! (Mrs Nupur Mayank Sharma...sigh...it used to sound so gr8...m feeling now listening it after ages)
wen i was thinking all dese...suddenly i realize he had stopped d car...wen i looked at him i found him...smiling at me...my heart skipped a bit...bt soon i heard his voice...
ARJUN: hlw!! Miss. Pandey we hv reached at ur place...u dont wanna go inside or jst want to stay here han...( i smirked...i sooo love to make her irritate...bt i actually mean it evn i want her to stay here wid me)
RATI: ohh...no thank u Mr.Bijlani i dont wanna stay here ok!!! (wow!!! it feels gr8 to behave like we used to behave wid each other after so long...sigh)
he stepped out of d car n open d door of my side n i stepped outside...i didn't said thanks as i know he dont like me to say thanks...i started to move towards d gate bt i know he was standing der looking at me...so i turned back...bt b4 i cud realise i found myself saying him...
RATI: wont u cm inside??? me n my unconrollable heart alwaysss do dis...bt m glad dat it did dis...as now we both were standing infront of my appartment...i opened d door n moved inside...n gv him side to come in...
i stepped inside...as evn if she wudn't offer me to cm in...i myself wud hv called her to join her...it feels so nice to cm here after sooo long...i cudn't stopped myself n went towards her balcony whr we used to sit as its our's fav place...n dis was d reason why i love to sit in balcony of my own flat too...i jst went der n stand der as if i want to absorb dis moment...
i closed d door n found him standing at both our fav place...i also felt urged to join him...n in sm moment i found myself...standing beside him...n der was silence..d most soothing silence...we kept standing der for god knows hw long... d wind was chilled...though i want to stay here for eternity...bt i felt like he need coffee... as he always used to hv wenevr he was here...i turned back...n was abt to move from der wen...i felt his grip on my left wrist...i didnt turn back...as if i feared to loose dis moment...
she was standing beside me...wen she was lost in dis atmosphere i was busy in admiring her...its been so long...we cudn't meet...n i was unable to evn get a glimpse of her...bt wen i saw him turing i cudn't hold myself anymore...as now i cant afford to see her going away from me again...i hold her wrist...she didnt turned...i know she wudn't...i went to face her still holding her wrist...i looked at her...she was standing der wid closed eyes...dis brings a huge smile on my face...n now i know...wht we both actually feel...as we nvr need any words to explain our feelings...so i jst hugged her...as much tightly as i can...wen i used to say in our itvs dat our best scene was wen we both hug each other i actually meant it...it was indeed d best feeling...d feeling of having her in my arms...d feeling of holding her close to my heart...whc is now only belongs to her...d feeling of being together wid each other always like dis...
he came near me...n suddenly hugged me...dis was enough for me to hold myself back or to hold my all feelings back...n i hugged him back...wid all dat i hv...wid all dat i was holding back in me untill now...
she hugged me back n i actually felt dat finally i got sm thing whc i had lost...for whc i was craving...now i jst want dis moment to stop here...i want to hold her...in my arms...like dis...forevr...n evr...
we stay der like dat for long...as i wanted to absorb every single bit of dis moment...
ARJUN: i missed dis...n i MISSED U...lot more dan a lot...more dan anything of dis world...finally i said wht i wanna say...
my lips curved into a smile...bt my tears found der own way...i want to say d same thing to him...to let him know hw much i missed him too...bt as if my voice is nt in a mood to break dis moment...n i cudn't speak a word...so i was left shedding tears...tears of happiness...tears for getting wht i actually wanted n always wanted...
ARJUN: I LOVE U...I LOVE U RATI...I LOVE U A LOOOTTT...
RATI: I LOVE U TOO ARJUN...I LOVE U TOO...n i alwaysss did...from god knows wen...finally my voice supported me n let him know wht i wanted him to know from a very long time...
ARJUN: n i always loved U n only U RATI...wid all my heart n soul...
RATI: i know ARJUN...i know dat we both only love each other n nothing can came between us...NOTHING...yes i trust him bcoz i know him...n i need no words or any clarification for anything...
no one knew me btr dan her...dats why i love her more...she nvr need any clarification for anything from me...i know she trust me...n in any relationship TRUST is d only thing dat matters d most along wid LOVE...n i know in our relationship we r nvr gonna feel lack for dat...
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Kis tarha chinega...
Mujhse yeh jahan tumhe...
Tum bhi hoon...
Kya fikar ab humey...
Tum ho mere liye...
Mere liye ho tum yun...
Khudko main har gaya tumko...
Tumko main jeeta hoon...
OK!!!! finally!!!!!! main aj kal sabko bht tang karne lagi hoon na...bt kya karu...ajke din i cudn't controll myself...agli bar pakka itni jaldi tang karne nhi aungi ok!!!
ok!!! as u can see its an "ARTI" OS...so i dont know hw it turned...i know its very long bt i was unable to make it short...n dis is DEDICATED to all d "ARTIANS"...i know we all hv many things in our heart n our mind...bt at d end of any ""DISCUSSION""...we all love our "ARTI" wid all our heart n soul...n we actually n desparately want dis to happen...so plzzz guys if u like dis OS..a lil or evn a bit...then plzzz plzzz plzzz PRAY FOR DIS...as i actually blv ke hum sab mein se koi toh asa jaroor hoga jiski DUA...ALLAH jaroor KUBUL...karenge...inshALLAH...ameen..
dis is all i wanna say...thank u for bearing...n han!!! M ACTUALLY PROUD TO B an "ARTIAN" i guess we r d most Craziest fans evr... 😉
LOVE U ALL...🤗 Edited by 18anila1 - 13 years ago
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