~ENIGMA~
PART 61
this should not be that emotional as geet just asking question...
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Geet
"where would you like me to start? What exactly would you like to here? What do you know about me? You demand you have strong attraction towards me, do you have any clue who am I? Why that lady is lying to me? Why my own mother have to hide her own daughters identity! What do you know about me?" she was shouting, but under the thunder nothing could be hard. The heavy rain covered both like a new skin. Geet cried in pain, she felt so helpless... Both stood by a empty street. People round them ran to escape from the dreadful rain while other enjoying the charity event. Road was empty. It felt haunted. Maans black shirt was see-through, he stood there like a statue trying to digest geets word, her question, how can you love someone when you have, not even the slightest idea who exactly is she!
Was she wrong? Of course no.
He brushed his hair back, in order to remove the excess water. In vain it did not help, the heavy rain crawled down his skin, & dribbling off in great speed from his chin. There question was so deep that both have forgotten about the surrounding... Question could be easily asked but answering required knowledge... & geet knew that well. "
have you ever tried to find the reason behind my lying?""I am a 18 years old girl maan, a 18 years old who have experienced more then enough... Where the understanding have reached its limit. Tell me what does a 18 years old girl do? Think? Study? Life? Her carrier? Parties? Clubbing? Enjoying the night life after the tiring day in university? Enjoying, smiling with friends? Having dinner when you have been so busy with your work & study that the word lunch completely went out of your mind? Or looking for some time to spend with your boyfriend? Or enjoying a family dinner?... Tell me what does a 18 years old girl do?" she slowly walks towards him... The rain was like her deep suppressed tears. Showing the world how strong her unbearable pain is. it was more of a reminding her self what exactly she suppose to do then looking for an answer from maans mouth.
"I... I at the age of 10 took the responsibility of my sister! My mum used to be senseless, night after night, day after day... Do you know how that felt like?..." she couldn't even scream in pain...
"I could not utter a word... Not even single word... Have you ever wondered why?"
Geet
"you know nothing about me!" get voice dropped. Her cry invisible, hidden with rainy water. Tension, worry, does he know how that feel like.. Constantly 24 hours ringing in your head. Each part of her cloths were sticking to her like a 2nd skin. Yet she did not care. She did not care that she may fall ill, which could be vital for her.
Geet
"do you know what it feels like to be in pain? How do you suppose to know? Have you ever felt- felt the pain?" she could barely talk, shouting in anger. The torment, it's not easy, keeping them in, surpassing them deep within... How could that be easy... But she still fought, fought to smile, fought to laugh.
Maan could bare not understand what exactly was bothering her. Why she was filled with so much poison. Why she was filled with pain...
"do you know what it feels like when you see your mother getting abused! ... C-crying. I used to hold my year hiding under the bed,...shouting them to stop!..." she screamed. Backing way.. While maan could not even digest the word. The word abuse hit him like a million stone, he could not understand nor scream... Nor stop her. His life is very different, extremely different...
"every morning when I used to wake up I started to become used to seeing my mother lying dead on the floor!... Can you explain what went threw me? & when I ran across the room trying to help, in return my prize was slap after slap! N-no food! Have you e-ever survived on water? A-a 7 years old girl, dare not eat because s-she could not see her mother hungry... Do you know h-how that effects you? Do you know how a 7 years old mind can react? How can the world be so cruel?Nun of her word was making any sense to maan, nothing... "
I had sleepless night, night after night I seen my mother crying... Protecting me from everything, so think how dangerous my world is... - how dangerous that world is that I come from... Moving..., moving from one place to another, in enigma... Hiding in fear... Non stop fear ringing in my head 24 hours... Every second, every moment... Do you know what that feel like?"... "of course no! How can you? How can you feel the pain? Because in that age you suppose to play, enjoy the world," she makes a mocking laugh...
"& that's what you have done! Who would think there are girls like me... Who is a victim! Mother like my who getting nonstop abused!.. Children!- they make mockery of the word child... Blackmailing my mother!... Blackmailing like where will you go? You have my daughter!"... She cries, "do you know what it feels like to be a burden? The pain, the torment goes through the child's mind... Do you know how that can effect you?... & when after all this years when you try so hard... So hard to escape, that same- bloddy- past-" she angrily shakes her hand with each word
"suddenly comes in front of you!... they stand there like a hungry lion! Waiting for you!..."
Geet did not utter any more word, she did not explain anything. The question have left maan no where. He was in dilemma. What type of question she just have asked? How exactly he was to answer? Did he even had the answer she wanted to here? He wanted to know, know every fact about her, but here she have left him with several question! Some he did not understand! Some he could not digest & some he just did not know! Then how could he answer he?
She slowly walks off... Leaving maan standing there alone to think. She knew how this news could be shocking, how dangerously could shake humans mind, specially the person who never experience, how disgusting each word might sound like, how horrifying it can be... How low you can feel... She ran, this was the first time she pour her question out almost like telling them to take this way! She does not deserve this... This was some question that she had the strength to put them in word... Why & how Could anyone digest her question? When she her self have no strength to bare... She have lived through this, somewhere she was proud, proud of living through them...
On the other hand, maan just walked off! So bitter... What was he to feel? Feel more proud or ashamed of geet, or low of him self... In which way was rano abused... What was she talking about?... He brushed his hair back with both hand... Couldn't even sowlo his own saliva, restless! A weird type of restless have covered him... What she meant by abuse? Who is she? What is she? Why? Why she.. He smacked the nearby wall so tight... He could not think outside of the box! Why couldn't he?
Geet reached her hotel room... Ripping her wet cloths off. Throwing them on the floor... Her wet feet left several Mark on the floor... Her wet hair was dripping with water... Her nude body was shivering, shaking in the excess water... Her life seems so pointless, the pain was just over flowing... Her heart was week, to week to support... To empty... She was just a empty shell...
Maan opened his room door. He looked at geets door once, twice. It was so silent... He wondered why there was no noise... His body still dripping with water... He knocks, no answer, he knocks twice ... No answer... & then he slowly push... The door is open... He wondered why? She never does this mistake... He walks in. His heart skipped several beat... A panic started to build up instantly... Geets nude body lying on the floor, shivering... The carpet was soaked with her body water...
next ?
hay ... i hope this will be better then the old one & more clear
& understandable..
i am sorry that someof you have to read twice..
just to let you know.. this are just the starting of the
truth...
please bare with me...
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