Core of My Existence(AR Story)Nextthreadlink150 - Page 32

hey anku..

sweet n cute part..

loved armi doing masti wid kids..

n ridz...enjoying n coming out of her shell...

hope armi speak to her...

n let the things out..

thnx for the pm...

Hey guys !!

So here is the next part.Like I promised its towards happy times !! I wanted to mention here that my ff is not my effort alone, a lot of my ideas and concept is not mine alone but very special friends of mine help me with it.Kashu and Siddhi always give me ideas and true feedbacks for my story ,and their suggestions lead me to write whatever I do ! And I cant thank them enough for it. Saru also gives me lots of input from her side and its just for my better. So thanks a ton guys ILY all !

And Kashu thank yoouu for all that input and creative ideas you keep giving me !

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" I am sorry Armaan " Riddhima spoke softly in Armaans ear, while he layed his head on her chest and she was caressing his hair. "Tum kyun sorry bol rahi ho Basket, " "I shouldn't have spoken to you like that ,I know something I said hurt you isn't it ? " Armaan looked up at her and smiled " Nahi Basket mai tumhari kissi baat se naraaz nahi hun, who bas kuch yaad aagaya toh .." Riddhima looked at him curiously she wanted him to tell her all that he always hid from her, with the intention of not troubling her but she didn't want to force him either. Armaan thought it was unfair that he got her to tell him everything and himself never confided in her, she had all the rights to know everything about his life.

He sighed " Its nothing big basket, tumhe toh pata hai that my childhood hasn't been the best ,one could get, isliye jab hum aaj humare bachon ki baatein kar rahe the , in all the fun and teasing a mention of a few things reminded me of those times which I am consciously trying to forget , but its not your fault ok? Its my fault, because I have never told you anything."

He paused and looked at her looking at him questioningly and continued "You already know Basket , its not like you don't .You have seen how we are as a family.The relation I share with my parents was not something any of us cherish . All my childhood I've seen them fight, over the tiniest of issues, because of their ego's , because they both wanted space,so much so that they not only distanced away from each other but also ended up distancing me from them. Its not like they didn't love me, am sure that like every other parent they loved me too, but they had their own little world, not with them together, a world only for themselves ,which had no place for me. I was supposed to be a good boy , study well , make them proud , but not expect anything out of them .Mujhe bhi unse expectations nahi thi basket, but seeing them give priority to everything but me, hurt me, I was their only child afterall. It just seemed that for them everything other than their materialistic world didn't exist at all . "

"All the time I was at home all I could here were their loud voices accusing each other , screaming hatred , and all I could do is enclose myself in one room , to live by myself waiting for someone to tell me I held importance in their life ." Armaan stopped , his voice was devoid of any emotion, Riddhima had a few tears in her eyes, she was surprised seeing how Armaans face had no expression while talking about the most lonely moments of his life.

"All my schooling life I saw all my peers basking in the love of their parents, not only by the gifts and things they bought for them, but also for all those moments they spent with them, they confidence they instilled in them. I had everything in life but it was yet nothing, it was as good as being an orphan Basket and that's what pains me even more. There was no one to keep a watch over me, hear me out , pat me if am right and reprimand if I was wrong. Thats precisely why I lost way in my life. I wanted attention ,and my looks gave me that chance ( he laughed half heartedly ) ,ladkiyan mujhe bhav deti thi and I would flirt more and more with them only to get more attention and become more popular. I just wanted to know how it feels to have people wanting to be with you, even though I knew it wasn't me who they wanted, it was a matter of pride to be Armaan Malliks girlfriend."He said trying to make the conversation less painful than it was."

" While I was giving my tenth , my parents were planning for a divorce, but due to family pressure they couldn't really go through it .I had grown up enough to give my opinion over it, I confronted them one day , for not caring about me or my life and being selfish.They felt guilty and to get rid of that guilt send me away to Kasauli for my studies. That was the last straw basket, uske baad maine ghar ki taraf dekha bhi nahi ,I just realized that their own life meant so much to them, I don't doubt the love they had for me, who mujhse pyar toh karte the, I assume every parent does, but they thought only giving birth was enough and they needn't do anything more."

" Kasauli made life much better for me, waha jaake Nikki jaise dost mili ,and ofcourse I found family with Bi ."

" Armaan tum Bi se kaise mile the ? "

" BI waha college ke paas canteen chalati thi ,she needed a paying guest with her, and I needed a place to stay .Staying with her I realized what a mothers love is, she showered so much love on me that she filled in the void in my life. She never asked me about my life back home, because I was very hesitant when she had questioned me earlier and she probably saw through .Lekin mai unse kuch chupa hi nahi paya, I had never had anyone to share my feelings with, and her acceptance just made me vent it all out to her. She taught me what life was all about Basket and how I shall be living it, she was my only family. After Kasauli I didn't get back to my parents, all those years they did call me , but when they did.. more than asking about me and my well being they would bicker about the other or try to pursue me to stay with them and not the other, because by then they both had started living separately . Seeing all this during my childhood my trust and belief in relations lessened over the years, isliye kuch had tak mai apni life aur unse jude rishton ko lightly lena laga, that's why the first impression you had of me was that I didn't care about anyone." "

But it wasn't that ,I had just seen the wrong side of every relation, I didn't know how to manage one, didn't know how I would win someones trust. " He paused looking at her, who was just looking at him lost in thoughts.

Then caressing her cheek and smiling " But everything changed after you came into my life Basket, I understood what love was, how important you being in my life was ,life meant more to me than it ever did before. Mere paas jeene ka ek maksad tha, mujhe pata tha ki meri zingadi ka ek sahi ya galat faisla ab kissi aur ki zindagi ke saath juda hai. Since when you came into my life, nothing else mattered ,I just wanted you to be a part of my life and for me to love you forever and my belief in love got stronger jab tumhe bhi mujhse pyar ho gaya ,and you expressed the same. Since the day I fell for you from that day till now I've just being dreaming of a life with you ,I've weaved an entire dream of our life together ,from our marriage to our kids and so on" ( he giggled with teary eyes).

I never dared to see such a dream before Basket because I didn't know if I would be able to take it breaking in front of my eyes like everything else." He ended with tears now streaming down his eyes. Riddhima at once engulfed him into her arms and rubbed his back with one hand and caressed his hair at the nape of his neck with the other. She just let him cry, he had never ever shared his life with her,he probably had been keeping it within him for ages she wanted him to let it all out. "Basket " "Hmm " "Basket tum mujhe please kabhi chod ke mat jaana , whatever happens just be with me ," ..hearing this tore her heart, Armaan was the one who would always support her through everything and keep reassuring her that nothing would change between the two, seeing him express his insecurities made her realize how she or anyone else for that matter had never considered that he was human like them, they had probably intentionally or unintentionally just always taken him for granted ."She slightly slapped him on his cheek and said "Mai tumhe chodke kaha jaungi , bol toh aise rahe ho jaise I can live without you ," saying so she just kissed him on his forehead and just pulled him closer caressing his head.

A while later ,Armaan had gone off to sleep with his head on her bosom and she kept caressing his hair kissing it at times.A while ago she had been so exhausted that she wanted to drop dead on the bed , but now sleep was far away from her. She was remembering all those times when she had seen Armaan agitated, all those times when he had been possessive over her and she had reprimanded him for it, been rude to the extent of being inhuman with him. Now she realized why he behaved like that. She was the one who had made him believe in love again and made his life beautiful and he wanted to be with her for life.

She remembered all those times she had broken their relation because of how she thought they weren't meant to be, how could she take such a decision for both of them all alone, not thinking of how he would feel about it. She had pushed him away from her even when he always stuck by her , he had been a pillar of strength to her all throughout, been with her even when she had only insulted him. All he had ever wanted was love and attention from her, he was the one who was so confident about them and their relation from the very start, so much so that he wanted to tell everyone about them, it was always a matter of pride for him . But she hadn't wanted to tell anyone for so long , she had shown lack of trust in their relation, just made him feel how she didn't trust him enough to be proud of the fact that they shared a relation.

Now she realized that his lack of trust towards relations or marriages and his love for her were the reason he wanted a commitment , a promise that she'll be with him. He had always gone out of his way to assure her of his love, but what had she done ? She had done nothing to assure him of the same, just left him at the sight of a difference between the two. He had already had a rough childhood, because of the carelessness and negligence of his parents , he had spent a lonely and distraught childhood and she too gave him such a tough time.She felt guilty and ashamed for putting him through all that she had. All the times she had accused him, blamed him and not responded back to any gesture of love he so large heartedly showered on her ,came back to her.

She then remembered what he had said about the both of them, about how this relation and her love were more important than anything for him, they meant the world for him. His life had one aim, he had just one dream, to be with her to spent a lifetime with her full of happiness. Thats all he needed and she would make sure she could do atleast this much for him. It wasn't just his dream , it was now hers aswell. He had seen it, longed for it but they would both make it come true together. They were one even now but it was time they went against every odd and came together in the real sense , be a family, get married, fulfill his dream, their dream towards a life together.. till eternity.

Armaan woke up suddenly, he was dazed and surprised that he was sleeping in the balcony. He felt Riddhima's hair all over his face .He realized she had dozed off with her head on his, he then remembered all he had told her today and he wouldn't deny that he felt better telling her everything. It was probably for the better .

He felt bad to see her sleep so uncomfortably, he got out of her hold slowly and picked her up to take her to the room. He tucked her in bed and she just snuggled closer to him, tugging at his hand so he just sat besides her till she had slept off soundly.

Next day was a Sunday so she just slept on peacefully tired and exhausted . Armaan carried out his usual routine, made breakfast for her got her stuff ready and since it would be night back in India they would always make sure to talk on Sunday mornings.

He had the laptop on already, and was just waiting for her to wake up. He just hoped and prayed like he everytime did that Shashank wouldnt tell him anything , he was used to it by now, but he didn't want Riddhima to hear all of it, she always got upset after every such call !

When he went inside the room to wake her up he saw her up already sitting in bed stretching herself rubbing her eyes. Armaan smiled at her and went and sat next to her. Suprisingly for him she pulled him closer and put her arms around his kneck and left a soft kiss there. He too kissed her back on the forehead " Good Morning Basket ( very lovingly ) , aaj kya baat hai , you woke up without throwing a tantrum ," he nudged her expecting to react but she smiled back and said " Yeah aaj Sunday hai na we have to talk back home ."

Armaan looked at her taken aback by the happiness on her face regarding talking back home.

Normally he would have to coax her for it and she would keep procrastinating. He just left the thought at that and sat down connecting to skype. He saw Anjali on already.

"Hey guys whats up ? Aaj kitni der lagadi call karne mai, we were just about to go sleep." Anjie said looking all sleepy . Armaan and Riddhima just smiled " Haan bhai Rani sahiba uthengi tab toh call karunga, she just woke up from her beauty sleep ," Armaan teased Riddhima,but was surprised once again to see a lack of reaction from her, she just smiled , "Tumhara bas chale toh sab tumhari tarah ullu ban jaye awake all the time. " Anjie interrupted, she knew how well their fight could go on .

"Bas bas guys, think beyond just the two of you , mai bhi hun yaha " Anjie said making them both blush.

" So guys how is life there, what have you both been upto ? "while she was speaking they saw both Shashank and Padma coming and sitting there too , they all exchanged pleasantries with Padma all teary eyed " Riddhima tujhe humari yaad nahi aati , you don't even call us , tujhse better toh mera beta hai he makes it a point to call me everyday without fail telling me how the both of you are doing ." Riddhima looked at Armaan proudly, touched by the concern he showed not only towards her but even her family.

"So beta how is the care centre going I was glad to hear that you both decided to do something like that," Padma spoke proudly looking at the two .They both beamed at that and Riddhima replied " Its going amazing mom, it's the best decision we took , pata hi nahi chalta din kaha jata hai ,I am so glad Armaan did this for me ," both of them looked at each other and smiled.

Padma looked happy and satisfied, "Toh ab kya socha hai tum dono ne, wapas kab aa rahe ho ," hearing her mom Riddhima's expression faltered , she looked at Armaan who was looking at her to answer .

" Mumma abhi kuch nahi socha hai, the treatment here is on, we just started with some work aswell, aur mumma we're anyways really happy here ," Shashank was wide eyed listening to her and interrupted ," You are happy, but we aren't, I didn't want to send you away , its time you come back Beta ," " Papa yahan baat meri ho rahi hai, mai yaha apni marzi se aayi thi aur wapas bhi apni marzi se aaungi , waise bhi jis maksad se hum yaha aaye toh who jab tak pura nahi ho jaata, humare wapas aane ki baat hum soch bhi nahi sakte." She had thought today , she wouldn't bow down to any pressure put on her, her any decision would affect not only her but even Armaan and here afterwards she wasn't going to compromise on him for anything .

"Riddhima ilaaj yaha bhi ho sakta hai, yaha bade se bada doctor hai, I wonder why he had to take you there and why you ever agreed in the first place, why did you have to leave your own family for someone who had always put you into trouble and given you pain."

"Shashank aap ye kya, har baar ek hi baat karne ki kya zaroorat hai " " Mai theek keh raha hun Padma isn't it true, he is careless and Riddhima has always ended up into trouble because of him. Earlier I may have forgotten my first impression of him and given him a chance but after all that happened a few months back, I don't trust him with her anymore," then looking away oddly he said " Aur waise bhi Armaan ke saath reh reh ke even Riddhima's lost all manners , she talks to me as if am her no one, no respect anymore. Armaan ke parents se milke ,I had realized what upbringing he must have had and now seeing Riddhima talk to me like that just shows how he has rubbed off on her."

Riddhima's heart tore into pieces hearing her dad , not for what he had told her, but for what he just uttered for Armaan , she had no courage left to look at him, she felt ashamed that her own father , who was known to be such a large hearted kind man would say something like that. She looked over at Armaan , to see his head bent, trying to hide his emotions. But she could see the corners of his eyes brimming with tears.

"Papa ! How can you say something like that, mai koi bachi nahi hun ki Armaan ne mera haath pakda aur mujhe yaha le aaya aur mai chal di, it was my own wish .And are you talking about me coming home , where no one encourages me, no one tells me I can be ok , everyone only tells me how my life is ruined. Aise mahol me rehke I don't want to fall more ill or see people sympathize me. Mai yaha theek hun Papa, apne Armaan ke saath , jaha woh roz mujhe naye sapne dikhata hai aur unhe poora bhi karta hai , aur sirf mere liye hi nahi mere SAATH poore karta hai . I cant believe how selfish you can be Papa , agar meri jagah waha Armaan hota and he would have taken the bullet, would you have blamed him? Jab koi kissi se pyar karta hai toh nothing else but the loved one matters, I am Sorry agar meri wajah se aap hurt hue ho , I don't intend that, I love you and respect you too , lekin Armaan meri zindagi hai , and I cant take anyone speak a word against him , not when its completely unjustified. Mai India nahi aa rahi , not until we achieve what we are here for."

Armaan looked at Riddhima, feeling so proud about how she had stood up for him and more because of how confident she seemed about herself now. She looked in his eyes seeing him swell with happiness and felt happy to see him smile.

" Riddhima zid mat karo, tumhe ehsaas bhi hai ki log kya baatain karte hai ,you're staying with a man who isn't related to you, ek anjaan insaan ke saath itni do.. " Papa ! " Riddhima interrupted him " Armaan anjaan nahi hai, he isn't a stranger, he is my life I don't think I need to explain to you what he means to me. Love comes above everything, and we love each other, and what people think about us doesn't matter to me, logon ko toh bolne ki aadat hoti hai, if I listen to them I wont be able to live my own life. Aur Armaan ne bhi toh mere liye kitna kuch kiya hai, he has done all of it out of love, even though our relation isn't named yet. " Shashank was angry and he spoke loudly, "Riddhima that's very easy to tell us, not the others and ofcourse I am of the same opinion,.You both are in no relation , love is no explanation to all of this, and I oppose it anyways. "

Riddhima wasn't going to take any more of it, she had always listened to her dad and come under his pressure and given him priority over Armaan, someone who had always given her more priority than anyone else in his life , heck she was his life. If for her family only them both being together officialy proved they were in a relation, so be it. For her being with him was a dream they both had seen and she would fulfill it for the both of them.

"Theek hai Papa, if you feel that to prove our relation we need to be together officially then be it. Jo kuch der baad hone wala tha who ab hi sahi . Me and Armaan are getting married Papa ! Very soon , not to prove anything to you or to anyone else, not for the world 'but for the both of us.

Armaan looked up at her shocked out of his wits for the umpteenth time today, even though both of them had never spoken about this , but then their relation was way beyond that, and today Riddhima had proved it. It was the first time ever that she had stood up for him like that , and taken such a big decision with so much trust on him , her eyes her words and her silence boasted proudly about their love and the strength in their relation. He felt he had achieved his world today, it seemed like the day he lived for had arrived finally, his life was waiting for him with open arms and he couldn't wait to embrace it.

Riddhima was also in tears, unmindful about who was looking at them and how they would react, she pulled him closer and signaled him to take her closer , he didn't need to be told and he at once pulled her tightly in an embrace never to let go .

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