Part 85
'NAHI...yeh nahi ho sakta ...main Sid se ...Sid kya soochega ...nahi Aisa nahi hai ...
Saach ko Jhootla se saach badal nahi jayega ...agar Aisa nahi hai toh tumhe itna farak kyu padta hai ...kyu Tumhe Itna gussa aa raha hai kyu itna dard ho raha hai
Kyu ki ...kyu ki ...woh ...
Kyu woh khaas koi aur hai ...
Nahi woh Juhi hai
Aur woh bahoot achi ladki hai ...har tarah se Sid ke layak bhi hai ...aur usse bhi badkar Sid usse pasand karta hai ...USSE '''.. Tumhe nahi
Nahi!!!
Dard ho raha hai ... Riddhima saw her reflection laugh at the her misery
Hmmm '''.. It was hurting Riddhima a lot more than what she ever thought it would hurt her
Kyu ???
Kyuki...
Par yeh sahi nahi hai !!! ''.Riddhima felt disgusted with herself
Kya sahi nahi hai?
Main kaise Sid se ... Nahi ''.. yeh nahi ho sakta '''.. woh sab ehsaas maar gaye bahoot saal pehle''.. aur jo kuch bhi bache woh maine maar diye ''''..
Phir jhoot bol rahi ho ...Tumhe woh sab ehsaas sirf daba diye the
Par ab kaise ... nahi yeh nahi ho sakta ''..
Accept it Riddhima accept karlo ki tum aaj bhi usse hi ...
Nahi ''''
Accept karlo Riddhima
Nahi
Accept it Riddhima
Haan ''.. main Sid se pyaar karti hoon ... karti hoon Sid se pyaar aaj bhi '''. Sid ko dekhti hi woh saare ehsaas phir se jag uthe '''' aur main nahi handle kar sakti ki koi woh kisi aur ke kareeb ho ... uspe kisi aur ka haq ho ... par yeh galat hai ...
Kyu
Kyuki ''' Kyuki Sid ko yeh acha nahi lagega ... woh kabhi nahi chahega ki main usse ''.. Nahi ''' main uspe yeh kabhi zaheer hone nahi de sakti '''''..yaa main aise kar sakti hoon ...Bolo ...Bolo ...
She looked up and she found herself staring back at herself The person who was talking to her was not to be found realization dawned The Riddhima Gupta was once again lost in the deep recesses of her heart
Riddhima splashed some water on her face and moved out with the same straight face she always adorned.
Juhi could make out the agony that her eyes were screaming out at her
Juhi: tum theek ho ...
Riddhima: hmmm chalo sow jaate hai ...
Riddhima settled in bed turned on her side pulled a blanket over herself and switched off the nightlamp
Juhi waited for a moment and settled down herself but needed to understand whether her efforts had borne fruits 'i hope tumhare aankhon mein padi dhool hat gayi hai ab Riddhima?
Riddhima plainly affirmed and pulled the blanket over a little higher and pretended to sleep.
Sid mind was still not at rest. He decided to drive down to Panchgani instead of hiring a cab. He was driving for many hours now and was already regretting the decision Fatigue from lack of sleep from previous night was catching up He tried hard to concentrate on the road as it had grown dark now but his tired mind kept recollecting the fore long look in Riddhima's eyes
He was ridings high on guilt. From the moment he realized that Riddhima was oblivious of her relationship with Shilpa he was just cursing himself for not telling her about Shilpa being her sister. What was bothering her more was she could not even be there for Shilpa's last rites
At that moment in Riddhima's house he felt it was best if he did not tell Riddhima about Shilpa But there was Rohan also. She had a right to know about him He wondered if Rohan could be the ray of hope in Riddhima's life
But he should not be taking this decision alone He recognized that he was running high on emotions and his decision would be affected by them He needed to consult someone The only other person coming to his mind was Massi She would definitively be able to guide him He urgently needed to clear his mind without which he would not get peace Impatience built up and he increased the speed He wanted to talk to her now.
Shashank paced up and down in his bedroom. Sid's presence in Sanjeevani was constantly tormenting his mind Sid would not be here after 10 long years with any ulterior motive. If he was one to keep any ulterior motives then he would not have left 10 years back. Riddhima and he never got to discussing what really went wrong despite his various attempts but he could never get Riddhima to talk. He knew his daughter well and Riddhima avoiding discussion over the years yet not being able to hear any negative comment against Sid had strengthen his belief that indeed Sid was not at fault This was increasing his agony even more. Was Sid the reason for Riddhima to separate from armaan after so many years? What was Riddhima planning to do? Whatever she planned but Sid did not deserve any further agony due to his daughters wired expectations from people who cared for her. Sid had given his whole being to his marriage and he had always been at the losing end and after 10 years may be he would still support Riddhima but Riddhima definitely did not deserve it. More than Riddhima Sid did not deserve being pulled back.
Padma thought that some work related worry was bothering Shashank so she had let him be. Shashank would not discuss work and hence thought there was no point aggravating his worry. She let him be but the concern for his health had started taking better of her. Shashank's pressure was running high since the previous evening due to his worry for Riddhima. She had carefully diverted Shashank's mind towards general conversation and had gotten him to try go to sleep. Shashank found temporary relief but soon was back to his thought which hovered over Riddhima and Sid. Sleep eluded him and his pressure was again on the rise
Juhi tend to sleep light in new places. Every time she stirred Riddhima would get alert but Juhi still managed to understand Riddhima's state of mind. Those light sobs did not escape Juhi's attention At one point she thought of talking to Riddhima but then refrained
Riddhima was mentally and physically drained yet she was finding it difficult to sleep. Emotions she was experiencing were too strong and too many Jealously anger guilt remorse confusion anxiety hatred All her reasoning for her feelings to being inappropriate and accepting Sid's feelings towards Juhi for his better future did not lessen the pain She kept debating with herself and her tear kept flowing forming a wet patch on the pillow.
Sid's anxiety to meet Massi was at its peak It was late now He had driven very slowly earlier in the day A normal six hour journey had stretched much beyond He was driving a crazy speed He was concentrating hard on the road ahead Suddenly he saw something ahead Sid slammed his brakes and turned the steering and his car swirled off the road.
This was the nth time Juhi heard a mild sob Her patience gave way She sat up and turned Riddhima to face her The sight broke her heart 'Riddhima!!!' Juhi whispered soothingly as the wiped away the tears from Riddhima's face. One look at Juhi's face which was edged with concern broke Riddhima and sobbed her heart away. Juhi gathered her in her arms and patted her head to calm her down. When Riddhima sobered down a little Juhi eased her away. She covered Riddhima with a blanket and waited for Riddhima to fall asleep. She continued patting her head just like a mother would when her child was disturbed due to a nightmare.
She sat there when she noticed Riddhima's phone flashing on the side table. Alarmed she nudged Riddhima 'Riddhima tumhara phone'
Immediately she knew something was drastically wrong. Her intuition always managed to pick up signs of danger quickly and accurately. The name flashing on the screen alarmed her even more. She quickly grabbed the phone and answered it. Her voice shaky. 'Hello''''' She listened with baited breath. Panic struck Riddhima and worry written all over her face. 'Aap fikar mat kijiye ''''' main abhi yaha se nikhal ti hoon ''. Sab kuch theek hi hoga .''''' sab kuch theek hona hi hoga '''' aap please dariye mat'''..' She was reassuring the person on the other side not to get scared but she was terrified herself. Why did this have to happen? He did not deserve this?
She disconnected the call and turned to Juhi. Looking at Riddhima's alarmed expressions Juhi understood there was something major. 'Kya hua '''.. bolo Riddhima''' kya hua'
Riddhima wanted to speak but landed up choking on her words. Juhi desperately tried to make sense of what Riddhima was trying to tell her All she could make out was one name and alarm sounded for Juhi also.
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Edited by DJ.. - 14 years ago
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