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Chapter 10

Today I am taking Shilpa to a place that is very special to me. It's a place I discovered when I first arrived in forks. I have never taken anyone there not even my family. It's where I go when I want to be alone or enjoy the few sunny days we have here in Folks. However, today I will not be alone; I will be with the only woman I will ever love. I hope that she will love it as much as I do. I helped Shilpa leap up on to my back, with a quick glance over my shoulder I asked "Ready Shilpa?"

"Yes." she snickered

The run didn't take long. I stopped just short of the tree line and lowered Shilpa to the ground. The look on her face when she entered the meadow was of sheer awe. She walked into the meadow brushing the purple, white and yellow wild flower with her hand. I could see from where I was standing still in the trees, the sunlight glistening in her eyes. When she glanced back at me, she looked puzzled.

"Why are you hiding?"

"I'm afraid; I don't want you to hate me when you see what I really look like." A monster

"I'm not scared of you." That could change; I thought as I closed my eyes and took three steps in to the sun.

I waited a few seconds but nothing then I heard Shilpa drop to her knees and I could smell salt in the air. I knew it, I break her heart, and she could not want a monster like me. So I hung my head down in shame and opened my eyes. I was shocked to see so much pain in her face and her tears were flowing freely. It made me cringe and step back in to the shade. God...I wanted to hold her but was I afraid she would scream and try to run off, and I knew the Connection wouldn't let that happen.

"Shilpa, what's going on in that pretty little head of yours?" Did I really want to know this?

"You're so beautiful, like my own private diamond. I don't deserve someone like you." Was all she mumbled sadly.

"What do mean?" That's strange she didn't sound horrified.

"I mean look at you; your beautiful beyond compare, intelligent, there is nothing you can't do, your musical beyond accomplished, graceful, I cant even go on the list is just to long. Your good at everything and plain Jane me, well my claim to fame is being a klutz. I'm just waiting for you to see it and run away again because I not worthy of you." WHAT?

"Shilpa! I do not ever want you to think like that again! You're the one, I don't deserve!" I was at her side reaching for her when she just fell in to my arms still sobbing.

"Armaan please doesn't be mad at me." How could I really ever be mad at her?

"I'm not mad at you. I just do not understand how you can think so little of yourself. Especially when I see you so differently." How can I get her to understand how I see her?

"All you have to do is open your eyes and all the evidence is there for all to see." I had to disagree with here.

"Shilpa, I am looking at you and I see you totally different then how you see yourself, this connection of ours doesn't change how I see you, it just bonds us together. When I first saw you before the connection was made, I thought you were the most beautiful woman I had ever seen. Your scent was the best thing I had ever smelled and the connection cannot change how you look or smell. Even your silent mind that is so refreshing and scary to me, everything about you was already attracting me to you before the connection was made."

"So you don't love me because were connected?"

"No...We're connected because I love you."

And to reassure her of this I gently lifted her face to mine and kissed her with every once of love, devotion and desire I had in my being. We stayed in the meadow until twilight just holding each other and starring into each other's eyes silently. As I think back, it was my favorite visit to the meadow. I think I am really going to enjoy our future visits there.

Shashank and Padma were waiting for us when we entered the front door. Their expressions told me I wasn't going to like our impending conversation.

"Hello how was your day?" Inquired Shashank, as he was blocking his thoughts and so was Padma. She didn't do that very often.

"Great and yours?" I asked leading him to explain.

"We received a call from The Denali's this morning, Armaan don't overreact but Tanya's mated with Yuvi."

"What! Tell me you're joking!" I was livid, just what we needed a vengeful vampire who was hurt by my rejection hooking up with the werewolf who wanted my singer. Oh great!

"I'm sorry, I wish I could. I'm guessing when he veered away from us in Denali he was probably chasing her scent."

"So...what else did they say? Are they staying in Denali with others?" I doubt it.

"Apparently the couple was asked to leave before anymore information was revealed."

"So they have no idea where they went!" I seethed

"No, I'm sorry Armaan, but I do have good news...Sebastian called as well. He and Sapna are bringing another couple with them to Forks. Please don't pan…"

I cut him off "Are you serious, four human drinking vampires are coming for a visit and your going to tell me not to panic!" Too late for that one!

"Please Armaan, let Shashank finish." Shilpa whispered to me.

"Sorry Shashank, please finish."

"Like I was saying, the only reason they are coming is for a conference about the Singer Connection both couples are as intrigued as we are and figured it would be a good idea to share their stories and compare the individual parts of the Connection. They promised not to hunt around Folks." They had better stick to that one.

"When are they arriving?" Shilpa inquired

"Monday."

"Okay Shilpa can you handle staying at Charlie's while they're here?"

"Oh, no...You don't! You are not leaving me at Charlie's to whither in pain while you're here figuring out about our Connection, its half about me too!" Her voice cracked twice while I shook my head saying no.

"Shilpa, I wouldn't do that to you, I will be wherever you are. I just thought we could commute per say."

"That would not prove useful. I need to watch the interaction of all the couples especially when you're all in the same room for comparison." Shashank is always the scientist.

"Well then, I don't think we have a choice in the matter. If you will excuse us, I want to get Shilpa to bed she must be tired. It has been a long day." Not to mention it's my snack time.

Shilpa's 'code red' ended the day after the conversation with Shashank. I was glad in away, since we would be entertaining four non-vegetarian vampires, the less bleeding Shilpa did, the better. After talking to Sam, the patrols around the house resumed just incase. We did inform him of the guests that would be arriving shortly. He did tell me some rather interesting information. When I told him about Tanya, he was curious if Yuvi had imprinted on her. He didn't know if a wolf could imprint on a vampire, but it was not out of the question either, since it was as involuntary as the connection between Shilpa and me. It was interesting reading his thoughts, I could see the event and feel the way he felt about his Emily. It was close to the Singer Connection of course with none of the pain.

Shilpa and I had been practicing with her shield but had no results. We would continue to try, but I cannot help wonder if it's because she still human. It's possible that she won't be able until she became a vampire. She has never discussed whether she wants to be changed or not, and I for one, am not pushing her to. It has only been a month since our rollercoaster relationship began and she still has so much to learn before she decides to damn herself to hell with the rest of my kind. God, I hated to separate from her but I needed to hunt, so I whispered about my return and placed my marking kisses across her forehead before leaping out the door.

Yeah, I get to baby-sit Shilpa while my brother dearest goes hunting. What does he seriously think will happen at four in the morning? Really, I know Shilpa is an early raiser and all but come on. Okay...so what's a girl suppose to do, rearrange Shilpa's closet for starters. Because lord knows, she is a fashionista nightmare. I was only in the closet for a minute when she started mumbling about the pain. Not that that is something new, she always does when Armaan goes hunting. I feel bad for the two of them really, I have seen them in pain it isn't pretty. I heard Shilpa as she headed down the hallway for her shower; Just then a vision hit me

Vision:

Shilpa's rubbing the wall looking for the light switch she trips and she screams as her ankle twists on the top step. Sending her rolling down the stairs, she hit every other stair, rolling over and over again, hitting her shoulder, her face, the back of her head, her ribs and stomach before she lands on the floor bleeding and broken.

End vision:

"No Shilpa!" I screamed as I dashed from the closet.

I knew I was going to be too late, and watched with my own eyes as my vision came to fruition. In the blink of an eye, I was kneeled next to her sobbing. How could I be so stupid? I knew Shilpa was a klutz from hell. Everyone home rushed to Shilpa's side dry weeping and frantically trying to figure out what to do. It was Padma who called Shashank at the hospital his instructions were simple 'don't move her'; I will be there in five minutes with an ambulance. It was the worst five minutes of my life so far. She was barely breathing, her heartbeat was slow, she wasn't moving or moaning, nothing. I wouldn't move even when the ambulance pulled up with Shashank. Rose called Armaan and you could her him howling over the phone.

I knew the minute I walked into my house it was serious. From my quick examination I could tell she broke one ankle for certain, definitely two maybe three ribs, and internal bleeding most likely, she definitely needs x-rays of her head and spine. Keerti was holding Shilpa's hand refusing to let go. Before the paramedics could touch Shilpa, Keerti screamed

"NO!" She was right thankfully; she stopped anyone from touching Shilpa.

"Where is Armaan?" I demanded

"He went hunting." Keerti sobbed

"SHILPA!" Armaan screamed as he came through the door, barely walking at a human pace.

My heart was breaking as I watched my son drop to his knees and sobbing over her body, but I could see his fury growing. I placed my hand on his shoulder and forced him to focus.

"Armaan, we need to get her on the stretcher"

"I'll do it!" The Connection would have it no other way and we both knew it. He moved her perfectly, causing her no more damage.

"Who's on staff tonight?" No females

"She's going to need surgery can you do it if I tell you what to do?" I whispered to low for EMT's to hear.

After Armaan nodded, I looked at Keerti as her face went blank for a second and she nodded so slightly that no one else would have seen it. She was confirming it would work. Armaan rode with Shilpa and me in the ambulance, while the rest of the family took the Mercedes. The staff was well informed by me that no males were to be in contact with Shilpa. I explained that it was a religious restriction, so from now on it's a permanent part of her medical record. Therefore, if she ever came in alone it would not have to be explained again. They had to abide by it. Shilpa was on the table and ready for surgery in less then an hour. Armaan and Keerti snuck in after stealing the necessary clothes from the linen closet. Then they casually replaced the surgery staff. I was amazed it worked.

Armaan looked at me one once before proceeding with my instructions. I have to say, I was so happy that he stood in for me in medical school, so I would not have to stop working. His hands were so steady I wish he could have become a doctor, but he could not pull off the age. He followed my instructions perfectly. Three hours after we started, Armaan was closing up Shilpa's abdomen. We checked one time with Keerti and she confirmed Shilpa would recover. I could not have been more proud of my son then at that moment.

God, the pain she must be in must be excruciating. I couldn't think about anything but her and how I failed her again. The Connection tells us to stay connected and time and time again, I sneak out to hunt. I put both of us in pain every time I do it. I truly am a selfish monster. I wish she would wake up and forgive me because the guilt is eating me alive. Maybe she won't forgive me this time. "I will never leave you again not even to hunt" I vowed as Keerti's thoughts announced her arrival to Shilpa's room. When I ignored her mentally, she decided to voice her apology.

"Armaan, please I am so sorry! I swear I never left the room! She was just going to take a shower; I didn't have the vision until it was too late."

"SHOW ME!" I gritted through my teeth

I gasped as I watched my precious Sapna falling down the dark stairs. The sounds of her breaking bones broke my still heart to pieces. I couldn't stay in my chair any longer. I curled up in her bed, holding her gently and sang her, her lullaby over and over. She started to come around about three in the afternoon. Her voice was so soft when she spoke my name.

"Armaan?"

"Yes my love, I'm here." Always here!

"I'm so sorry." She cried softly.

"No Shilpa! I am so sorry! I will never leave you again not even to hunt; I promise you, I will never break the connection again not for any reason. Not even for human moments, nothing will ever pull me away again. If you can forgive me? Please say you can forgive me please!" I sobbed in her ear.

"I love you." Was all she could say before she gasped in pain.

Keerti called Shashank to bring in her pain medication. When he arrived, he was wary to be too aggressive. I could see it in his face, he was afraid to get to close. He handed me the needle for me to give it her, and I am glad he did because; I could feel the connection screaming at me to protect her. She drifted in and out for the next few hours. During that time Rose came in and asked Keerti if she could have some time with Shilpa. Even though she knew I wouldn't leave she didn't care.

"Shilpa, I promise to help Armaan catch you the next time you fall. I will not let this happen to you again. That's what big sisters are for." Was all she said and for Rose that was huge. She stayed for a while longer before stating that she needed to let Padma come in. Padma just said simply "I Love you" and she held us both. After Padma, Atul came in. Honestly, I did feel a little, okay a lot over protective. However, he made no move to come closer then the door. His statement was simply "I'm here little sister" the look on his face, told me he also felt guilty for not being there because he was with me. Vicky's visit was different from everyone else's; he did not say a word. He just took a protective position facing the door. He was protecting us from everyone else. This from Vicky really meant a lot to me. He was basically telling us he would always protect us from the outside world, and for the first time the Connection did not see him as a threat.

Shilpa did not wake again until eight that night. This time we did not have to call Shashank, he was sitting with me when her pain medication wore off.

"Shilpa, how are you feeling?"

"Like I was hit by a truck." What was I thinking? I could not trust someone to watch her.

"Yes, well that's to be expected. You will be here for a few days until everything I will need is delivered to the house, so we can care for you there. "

"When?" I asked thinking the sooner the better please.

"Monday morning is the soonest I can get everything."

"Shilpa, is that okay with you?" I needed her to be comfortable with this.

"Armaan, I would love to be home with you." She answered as she winced in pain again.

I reached my hand towards Shashank for him to give me the needle again.

As promised, we brought Shilpa home on Monday. She was very happy to just cuddle on my lap while she slept and I would have it no other way.

Cuddling on Armaan's lap made me feel secure and safe. He hasn't removed his hand from me since my accident, not once. He has finally given in entirely to the Connection. This was something I had done the day I met him, but he kept pushing and when he did, the Connection would push back. When Armaan stiffened, I knew our guests had arrived.

Sebastian had black haired that he wore loose around his shoulders; his mate Sapna had long blond hair to her waist. Jean Paul had very short and curly light brown hair and his mate Paulette had auburn hair that stopped at her shoulders but she wore in a ponytail.

Since everyone else was at school, Shashank introduced them to Padma and us of course.

We put off the Singer Conference as it was being called until everyone else got home.

Well...they say life goes on, and they were right. A week ago, if you had said I would be hopelessly devoted to a vampire, I probably would have hit you. I never understood it until now; there is nothing I would not do for her. Now, I have the one being in this world with me, who possesses my very soul. Tanya is my red headed beauty and master of my soul. She knows everything I've done and she's fine with, just like I know everything, she's done and it's cool, it's in the past. We tried to visit her family once since we imprinted, they wanted nothing to do with us.

"Hey, wolf boy what's on your brain?" Tanya said snapping me out of my thoughts.

"You! My gorgeous blood sucker."

"So what's the deal?" She looked curious.

"I'm thinking it might be time to head to Folks. I doubt our reception will be a nice one and I might have to go jail for a few years, but it is a small price to give you a better life then running around the woods of Alaska forever. What do you think?"

"I don't think I'd like you going to jail, I heard what men do there. And you are my man I won't share! But I would love to get you in a bed for a change." She purred seductively in my ear.

"Yeah, I bet you could show me a few new tricks." I laughed before pulling her in for a kiss.

"Come on lover boy, next stop Forks."