DIL SE:30th part(pg.145)LAST PART(pg.150) - Page 73

Originally posted by: princess1_43

bingoooooo .... we r enuff for each other..😳. lol i cannot stop laughing either. .. my sis thinks i have lost it ... 😆

Originally posted by: Pooja922

me tooo!!....she thinks i lost it here!!! lol😉..and course we are enough for each other....😳 aww i love u SAmia!!😳😳😳

ok if you two are done being crazy can i post the next part?😆😛

Originally posted by: simplyconfused

ok if you two are done being crazy can i post the next part?😆😛

Originally posted by: princess1_43

aww luv ya to.... 😳 lol u r so sweet... ok promise wont cry..😳

Originally posted by: princess1_43

sorry natuu

Originally posted by: princess1_43

sorry natuu

lol its ok i was enjoying reading your comments with pooja!!

Angad walked two steps and then stopped. He was shocked to see his whole room covered in candles and Kripa lying on the bed. When Kripa heard the door open she looked up shocked to see him.

"Angad, I don't want to talk to you right now!" Kripa said.

Angad didn't answer right away the glow that was on Kripa's face mesmerized him, and he just stood there for a while staring at her. After a while he brain registered what Kripa said. Angad ran his hand through his hair and then looked at Kripa again, "So you don't want to talk to me, but you want to sleep in the same bed as me?" Angad asked slowly still not comprehending why Kripa was in his room.

Kripa who had her eyes closed this whole time sat straight up, "WHAT?"

"Well, you ARE in my room…." Angad said.

"I am?" Kripa asked confused

"Erm. Yeah." Angad said feeling this all very uncomfortable.

"Sorry." Kripa whispered. She then blew out all the candles one by one and then she finally walked over to the one where Angad was standing by. She was about to blow it out when Angad stopped her. "Tell me what is wrong? I have a feeling it has nothing to do with what happened in the mall." Angad said boring his eyes into hers.

Kripa looked up into his love filled eyes and melted. "Angad…" Kripa started and then looked at Angad.

Angad nodded for her to continue. He then led her to the couch in his room before she did though.

"I am sick of it!" Kripa said.

Angad didn't say anything but just raised his eyebrows and continued looking at her….

When Kripa didn't continue Angad did, "Sick of what Kripa?"

"I am sick of having amnesia. I feel suffocated. I feel like I am trapped in a room that has no doors or windows. It is just empty except me. Just me and the black room. I can't take it anymore, it is driving me crazy." Kripa said, "I want my memory back Angad. I want my memory back…." Kripa then stopped talking and started crying on Angad's shoulder. Angad just rubbed his hand back and forth on her back and whispered comforting words to her.

*-*-*

After a while Kripa fell asleep and Angad put her in his bed. That is when Angad knew what love really was. It was giving up something just so you could see the person you love happy.One dance, one look, one kiss, that's all we get. Just... one shot, to make the difference between happily ever after, and oh? he's just some guy. And this is Angad's chance. His chance to make her world better so she is happy, and then maybe one day she will love him for doing what he did.

Angad spent all night getting everything ready. If this didn't kick her memory back into gear nothing would. Angad out everything in the box and wrapped it up like a present. And for a final touch he attached a card. His car. More specifically his apology card. At the last minute Angad got second thoughts. But he immediately pushed those aside. Saying this is for the best.

*-*-*

All night Angad couldn't asleep. He was reminiscing in memories of Kripa. Tears stung his eyes when the situation dawned on him. Tomorrow Kripa would leave him. Forever? He hoped not.

*-*-*

Kripa woke up and saw that she was in Angad's bed. She didn't think much of it since they are married. But she knew nothing happened because the events of last night flooded back to her.

That is why she noticed the present. She smiled knowing it was from Angad, but little did she know that this was no ordinary present.

Kripa noticed the card so she opened it and read that first:

Dear Kripa,

Can you forgive me?

In a world that I seldom understand, there are winds of destiny, that blow when we least expect them. Sometimes they gust with the furry of a hurricane; sometimes they barely fan one's cheek. But the winds cannot be denied, bringing as they often do a future that is impossible to ignore. You, my darling, are the wind that I did not anticipate, the wind that has gusted more strongly than I ever imagined possible. You are my destiny.

I was wrong, so wrong, to ignore what was obvious, and I beg your forgiveness. Like a cautious traveler, I tried to protect myself from the wind and lost my soul instead. I was a fool to ignore my destiny, but even fools have feelings, and I've come to realize that you are the most important thing I have in this world.

I know I am not perfect. I've made more mistakes in the past few months than some make in a lifetime. I was wrong to have acted as I did when I found out that you had amnesia, just as you were wrong to have hated me in the past. When you told me last night you wanted your memory back I knew what I had to do despite the fact it would be my loss. But most of all I was wrong to deny what was in my heart all these years: that I can't go on without you.

Right now when your eyes are reading this you are most likely confused. I don't blame you. When you look in the box hopefully everything will start to make sense and hopefully all the pieces will fit together like a puzzle. The puzzle of your life. Unfortunately, I won't fit in your puzzle. I am just an extra piece that life gave you to trick you. Despite that I hope one day I will fit and be a part of your life. I want to be a part of your life.

Now, though I have my eyes on the future only. I will stop living in the past, and I hope you do the same. On my path I only hear you see you. I pray and beg that you give me one more chance. One more chance to prove myself worthy of your love. What I felt for you these past months were genuine. Everything you saw in the depths of my eyes or the words written on my face was the truth. I love you.

I love you with all my heart and soul and I always will no matter what. I don't want to be alone. Then again I never was, your presence was always there. I see children playing, laughing, and crying, and that just makes me want to be with you more. I want to hold your hand and see you cry when Sonia is going off to her husband's house. I want to kiss you when her dreams come true. I will do whatever you tell me to do because I cannot go on this way. I need you. As I sit here writing this I pray that you will be mine, this time forever.

Angad

Kripa was crying like crazy. She didn't understand this note, but she knew that whatever is in that box she will still love Angad with all her heart. She just thought that a little too early

*-*-*

Kripa slowly opened the box with shaky hands. For some reason she was scared as to what was in the box. When she finally opened it she was surprised at that she saw. There were papers and photos and….a scrapbook?

Kripa took the scrapbook out and in there were tons of pictures with Angad and her together. She flipped through it and she got a vision when some of the pictures would catch her eye. Then she saw Angad's and Sonia's wedding picture and she got a vision. Kripa then remembered she had given this scrapbook to Angad as a present on his wedding day with….Sonia.

Kripa dropped the scrapbook on the floor and started looking at other things in the box.

*-*-*

Angad was in the room right below his. He finally fell asleep when a loud thud came from above. Like a heavy book falling. He figured Kripa was awake and she had dropped the scrapbook. Angad sat up and waited for when Kripa would come running down yelling at him.

*-*-*

Kripa had tears pouring out of her eyes. Memory by memory of her life flashed by here eyes. Her childhood on to her teen years, and then her college years. The time when she was yelling at Angad that their friendship was over flashed before her eyes, and then when she came to give Angad the letter and….an explosion type thing happened. She couldn't believe it Angad used her. He used her for his own gain.

Kripa felt sick and dirty. She couldn't believe he would stoop so low. Kripa just wanted to go home now. She forgot all about Angad's letter that was in the pocket of her pants, and she forgot all about her moments shared with Angad these past months. The memories of her and Angad's romance weren't wiped out from her brain. There buried somewhere in her brain and at the right time they would be uncovered and evoke feelings from Kripa. But alas at the moment they were buried deep.

*-*-*

Kripa stormed out of the room and ran downstairs. Angad heard the thumping of the stairs and figured it was time. He got up from his seat and walked to the stairs. Kripa stopped at the last step when she saw Angad. He was in a horrible state. His eyes were red and swollen and he had tear stains on his now pale cheeks. His shirt wasn't tucked in and it was all wrinkled. His hear was going in all sorts of directions. But there was something else in his eyes. Love, regret, hope, desire, need, and anger. Kripa couldn't figure out why the anger was there.

She continued to stare at Angad for a moment or two and at this Angad's heart started beating faster. He had a ray of hope, but Kripa's trance was soon broken and she started yelling at Angad. Angad just stood there with looking at his shoes. He couldn't look at her in the eyes. Kripa continued to yell at him for a long time. Neither of them noticed Sonia standing near the rail watching this commotion.

After a while everything got quiet but then Kripa spoke again. This time in a voice barely audible, "Why did you use me Angad? What did I do to you?"

At this Angad's head shot up. Everything was gone from his eyes except the anger. The anger was pumping through his veins and clearly visible through his eyes. When Angad spoke his voice was hoarse but it also gave an eerie feeling, "I used you? Did you even read the damn letter? I didn't have to help you regain your memory but I did. Because that's what people do. They leap, and hope to God they can fly, because otherwise. You just drop like a rock, wondering the whole way down, why in the *hell* did I jump? But here I am, Kripa, falling, and the only one that makes me feel like I can fly... is you."

"Don't do this to me. I HATE YOU!" screamed Kripa and she left the house.

Sonia jr. who was watching all this started crying. Angad heard her and looked up shocked. He quickly ran to her and sat with her on the stairs rocking her back and forth.

"Daddy?" Angad looked down at his daughter and tried to smile but he couldn't.

"Yes my little princess?"

"Is mommy coming back?" Angad sat there thinking about her question.

"I don't know honey I just don't know."

And together father and daughter fell asleep on the stairs.

*-*-*

Manan walked into the Khanna Mansion and felt and eerie silence. He walked up the stairs and noticed Angad in a disheveled state with Sonia sleeping on the stairs. He shook Angad slightly and he woke up. Angad put Sonia in her room and then he and Manan went into the living room.

"What happened?" Manan asked concerned deeply for his friend who has never shown this much emotion.

"She's gone Manan. I lost her." Angad said looking at the cup of coffee Manan handed him.

"Oh!"

"You know, honestly, I never knew I could feel like this. You know? I swear I'm, I'm going out of my mind." Angad continued.

"Look, it will get better."

"That's just it. I don't want to. I mean, I've waited my whole life to feel this miserable. I mean and if this is the only way I can stay connected with her, then... well this is who I have to be." Angad said.

Manan stared at his friend in silence. Angad reached over the coffee table and dumped a whole bowl of sugar in his coffee.

"What are you doing?" Manan asked rising his eyebrows

"I figured if my heart stopped beating it wouldn't be so bad…" Angad replied calmly.

*-*-*

Meanwhile Kripa went to Prithvi and Alliyah's apartment and knocked on the door. A sleepy Prithvi opened the door and was shocked to see a teary Kripa standing there.

So you guys liked it? To tell you the truth i wasn't planning on having a heartbreak, but then i decided that it has been happy for long enough! Erm. So yeah any questions just ask! Oh and the note Angad wrote the first two paragraphs are not written by me but they are written by Nicholas Sparks i had been reading one of his books and i thought that fit so well so i put it in there. So give him credit for the first two paragraphs of teh note.

-Natasha

Originally posted by: jjknrokz

hmm we are waiting 😊

i posted it!😆