Unleashing what Remained Unsaid#2-END*NOTEpg42* - Page 34

*woot woot*

*rubs eyes*

lol sookie, u were serious then, :D lets see why your 'psychoanalysis' of the fic shall amount to... i'll get back to answers, then? simply cause, i'd rather u give me ur entire built up picture before i intervene, anymore than being the writer here way... not that ur the easy to infulence kind, but i dont want to put u thinking on anything that i couln't promote with the fiction itself, u agree :)

we'll conference, after ur done... and yes, i recall, someone reads very fast!

cheers
nj :)

Some good my constant advertising skills have brought ya, huh NJ? :D Her comments are lengthy, and they should be, the time she took to get to this...Sookie, um glad your hooked AND here :P

Kiran

much delayed, but i wanted to sit at doing this once and for all, and honestly, no better excuse... just cut me some kind slack - being nice, civil people call it 😆

Prologue: Lovely was cliche? aha! seriously, i'd have thought a nikki/anj/muski would fetch me that... lovely seemed most unlikely! either way, no the intention was only to arrive at the character i wanted her to be, couldn't think of anyone to fit... in retrospection i suspect i should have had an entirely new name... oh well!

Part 1: Psyche and art seemed interesting to me as much... more than anything, they were fields i could A) combine, B) explain, C) fit the bill with... u know what i mean, now that the story has been read... as for a missing organ - do u think lack of possession or underachievement can overshadow that? and the exact opposite make up for more than it? ques, ques, ques!

Part 2: i like your analysis into stuff. G and R being charming felt like a personal compliment (*smiles*) as for the unknown, lack of expressing, lack of seeking... i figure, nope i believe, its the greatest barrier in most relations ... and obv this is fiction i'm giving them the second chances, literally... can't say the same about life always, eh? communication, is a tremendous link - the do or die kind... writing unleashing got me closer to believing, that confrontations are the hardest resolves and easiest resolutions... it seems escaping is convenient, but forget the consequences, the entire dead weight of it alone... is something that should fall small before confronting... easier said! ... again, confrontations can't always go right, this is 'just' fiction!

Part 3: You're bang on! his decision finds no more consent with me than with you, sympathy in the least. we create our situations, more than anyone and anything else, and then... well, mostly we try to escape... thats two big blunders, right there! ... but you see, my protagonists, as i intended for them, are not always right... so often you don't need bad people around, only bad decisions... and when bad people are around, its all the more reason that decisions would not follow suit... btw to answer u about ridhima left hanging... the most unfair of his deal in regards to her is the fact that he never expressed what she is to him, but he also did by no means conceal it well enough, eh?!

Part 4: ahah! now you're talking cliche! done it without the guy, and become the hard heart harder headed strong (detached) career girl eh? too hurt or bruised to figure it all out? no... the point was not her wait for him to resume normalcy, but the person she is... with all her independence, she isn't denying logic, and shes definitely not running away from facts.... well she is, but she can't eternally... its exactly her dilemma, she would rather be past and done, but shes not the kind to move on without answers, and in seeking them she doubts herself, loses perspective and direction several times, thats elementary, ain't it? and team ridhima! :D not that i'd expect any else from you!

Part 5: yeh, there's no point bringing flowers for the heck of flowers, they're too whimsical, i might as well use the florist! :D and yes again, the entire idea was to start narrating somewhere in the middle of what has happened and what will... it keeps the pace on! ... about ridhima's regular wish... too bad we keep forgetting the basics make us most happy... the dreams we seek become not too impossible, but too vast for us to enjoy weaving and processing them... the whole idea is lost... i think...

Part 6: and you're talking of armaan over thinking! :D i hate falling out of char when going for the char... hes, lets say, wired like that... and somehow, so is ridhima... they thoughts are triggered by the same and different things... chirag and ritu were for me the cliche definition of ideal friends, i only tried to undo the regularity in them by truly sticking to it! :D as for armaan accepting things just like that... really, like ridhima he can't.. much as he'd like to! or i wont let him... i couldn't not just to progress the story, but to stick to what i thought i wanted him to be! and yeh, shes a complex girl... the kind made complex by standing contradictions!

Part 7: I was considering making her understand or guess the lovely connection too, when i first wrote it... but then i tried to re think... it is what you say, the teen girl trying to mature... somewhere she has grown out of her adolescence in every respect except the obvious, cause the lessons and experience which should have aided her learning have remained highly incomplete and she has not given them alternate chances... she has hence, the trite way, neither been there nor done that... u know? and armaan isn't always helping her understand, sometimes voluntarily, sometimes not... and premonition was rather pointed out, you shouldn't have missed, of course... btw gogol? :S yeh, whatever!

Part 8: heard this one?

Oh, what a tangled web we weave

When first we practise to deceive!

the worst among such webs is the one we weave for ourselves, we allow ourselves, 'time to think-solace-solitude' but the thin line between that and escapism is so easily crossed, it is what eventually makes his stay in calcutta something semi permanent... and he may have really wanted to be told it was alright, maybe he had wanted that exactly not, hence his previous silence over the issue... but he definitely did not need that... ain't it good in her own turmoil ridhima still managed to assure he didn't get what would do him no good? he was in error, not as he blamed himself, but as u did, and somewhere in keeping lovely with himself he was keeping his shield alive not hers... somewhere, then, all along he knew his decision had just been incorrect... he was after all only early 20's, with too much too tackle! and no, that still doesn't justify... personally as i writer, i never sough to justify this armaan, right upto the end... u can't undo ur wrongs, u can only hope to achieve redemption as far as possible...

Part 9: Gappu in creation as a character was least planned and something like 'serendipity' it was only after i saw the ridhima-gappu bond chape that i knew what it was i had to do there... and it was accidental that the former even happened... secondly, he wasn't, a shadow to armaan really, but he was on the same plane in a different dimension! :) armaan's anonymity is more his lack of trust on self than chirag, and his giving in to call chirag, not ridhima is a sign of who he thinks he needs to escape more, or paraphrased, who he thinks he has caused to suffer most... ironically he is not undoing it, only furthering the process!

Part 10: so, when i read vikram seth, a suitable boy, i fell in love with a few things... calcutta was one, and i had never been to the city before that... when i saw the city, it was what it had been for gappu, for different reasons... for gappu the shock was more from lack of knowing what to expect... for me it stood in contradiction... i was (And im widely travelled as far as the country goes) just simply shocked with the state of affairs, especially with the most basic dealings... but it surprised me, how the dream of an image i had formed of the city the image in my head from reaind still seemed to dominate... guess i can't explain... there is a charm about the city, seth's words instilled, more than anything else, it was like i could see everything in a different light... and well... i reckon in that sense i hold Gappu's letter dear! if i met that man, i'd tell him this one's for him and his work! .. and his city! i could have done something from armaan's view, but gappu was the easiest, i had been him! ... also, lol this may amuse u, i actually got facts in place during a chat with my brother before getting to this stuff, just you know! if there is one link in unleashing i have been heavily in debate about in my head post its completion, its vivek... some day on some impulse, when i think of a whole better alternate track, i shall undo it i suppose... or maybe i will continue being lazy... still, for now, it fits!

Atul, Anjali in their own rights to me were elders, not aged, who can be, and are real... i thought i could identify with some in my own life... and gappu treating ridhima as his dump, oh yes indeed! a bonding with the elder sibling (Which she wasn't technically) is such a thing... it amazes me sometimes, flatters me too, and at very rare occasions leaves me guilty as how my parents can be a second for my brother, second to me... ! as for the closure... i was also hoping, yet again, that AR would not be the 'we kiss and make up couple' ... although literally that may sound it... but you know, all that scope... like a long way to go no matter how long you've come... i kind of like the ending... the only one i like 'like' in most stuff i've written...

thanks for the effort in commenting sookie, thanks because i mean it. i don't know if i can say the same about my persistence... ! but here i am, and it was very gladdening to have all this feedback!

lovely ff.. I wonder why i never notice it before but read all parts all together and that was much fun as no waiting and no suspense... continous flow and in the end peace of mind..

i loved the way u portrayed the difference of societies and culture in india and america also loved the part of friendship b/s armaan and chirag in it.. that was great..

Please inform when u write another ff

Hey I just read your fanfic all in one go and I have to say your writing is just amazing...I really really loved this one...I am a little confused about your name???...it would be great if you could pm me the links of all your other fics I would really love to read them...thanks...love neha 😊

NJ im Tahmina and i av been recommended to read ur ffs by lots of ppl....i really really love your style of writing!

Hey,

was Part 23 J an end to this FF....m still wondering..? Will be ther be no happy ever after end...i mean no epilogue...! I really wish it had one......end was good but i wanted more...!

thanks everyone - the new readers and old ones - who keep bringing the old memories back! =)

@NiksAngel - i actually scraped whatever i had in mind for an epilogue, cause as a writer i found it hard to conclude any other way and keep it real enough - somewhere this fic didn't come out as my fairy tale writing and i kinda wanted to retain the touch! ... still, im glad u enjoyed the rest!


cheers,
nj

Hi Nj...

I came across your fic in the Latest ff index.Actually had seen a lot of nominations for it in the ff awards, so thought of checking it out...And I must say, I have never read anything like that before. Its one of the very best stories on the forum and now I have read the whole fic in like...2 days.

I have never been an AR fan but all the good fics are AR only! So I have started reading them now. Armaan's character was the best here, different from the usually portrayed playboy. When I came across the part where you wrote about Lovely suffering from schizophrenia, I was actually shuddering at the thought. You described that part really well. I know somebody suffering from this disease and it was like...unbearable. I think it got a bit too muchon Armaan's part to marry her and even after that he blamed himself for her death. The best part is the way he took care of her, and viewed her as a responsibilty rather than a liability. The part where she died was really touching and somehow maybe it was right for Armaan to leave. His family was totally unexpected. When I read earlier that he was his Ma and Kaka's son, I was confused, wondering...but this was too much! Im glad that he finally took one small step towards accepting him in the end...:)

Ridhima is really a sweetheart, waiting for him like that. Their meeting after all these years was very well written. the reactions were very natural- neither exaggerated nor hurriedly written. Even after so many misunderstandings, her faith in him never swayed- and that paid off in the end! When she accepted him back as her friend, I felt like hugging her. And that brings us to Gaurav!

Well, I think you mentioned somewhere that he is just like your brother...you did a good job of describing him! The way he kept running after Minnie was sooo cute. Its strange that all it took was a 19 year old to knock sense into a psychologist though...sometimes you have learn from youngsters.