heyyy guyzz...sorry...was a short part...and kinda wierd also...i jes wrote whtever came into my mind..seriously!! that's what i've been doing for this entire fan-fic...i NEVER hv any part planned out...i jes keep riting whtever crap comes into my mind😆...so lemme know how u likd it...n ya...will make the next part longer!!
PART 33
Armaan rushed into the parking lot, looking around for Riddhima. He finally found her...sitting on the ground, leaning against his car and sobbing bitterly...his heart thudded in his chest as he approached her...he had not seen her looking this weak and vulnerable in a long time...he had been proud about the fact that she had changed so much since their marriage...become so much more confident and ready to face any situation...and yet, here she was, sobbing her heart out with her head in her hands.
'Ridz?' he whispered, kneeling down in front of her, 'kya hua?'
Riddhima looked up at him with red, puffy eyes..
'I want to go home, Armaan...please...' she whispered, desperately trying to contain her tears..
Armaan nodded his head....some things would never change...Riddhima might appear strong and confident on the outside..but inside she was still the same timid, sensitive girl who always needed Armaan near her to soothe her fears and take care of her...Armaan was like her knight in shining armour...as long as he was there, Riddhima knew everything would be OK...
'Sure...' he said, gently wiping away her tear-streaked cheeks, 'let's go home...'
During the car journey, Armaan kept glancing towards Riddhima...she was exceptionally quiet...what happened?? he really couldn't understand...she had been fine till he had left her at the reception area...then what could have happened?? did she perhaps follow him and hear the conversation between him and her dad?? that would explain her reaction..
For the third time that day, Armaan felt his blood boil at the thought of Shashank...he was responsible for all of this!! he knew at this moment he was upset because of Anjali's conditon but how could he just blame it all over Riddhima?? this was the limit..!!
'Kya main itni buri hoon Armaan?' Riddhima suddenly asked in a whisper.
'Huh?' Armaan almost hit the car in front...she had snapped his out of his reverie with this total unexpected question.
'Am I that bad?' she asked, looking at him with a question in her eyes...she was seriously asking him for an answer...
Armaan parked the car on the side and turned towards her, 'what's wrong with you Ridz?? what sort of a stupid question is that??!!'
Armaan was really getting upset now...he thought his wife was built of stronger stuff than that!! what happened to his Riddhima?? the one who absolutely LOVED fighting for no rhyme or reason and did not take anyone's shit!! this was not his Riddhima...his Riddhima was stronger than that...she wasn't such a weakling!!
Riddhima looked at him, wide eyed...why was he getting so angry??
'Armaan...main to bus...I mean, I was just asking...' she stuttered, looking away...even as she said it, she realized how stupid she sounded...
'Asking??!! well, in future, keep these tupid questions to yourself OK?? no need to ask me!! am I that bad, it seems!!' Armaan was besides himself with anger...she needed to grow up!! get out of her insecurities!! nobody could just say anything that they like to her!! she needed to stand up for herself!! he had tried being gentle and nice to her...but that was only making her more and more dependant on him...he didn't really mind that...but he wanted her to be independant..stand up for herself!! he wasn't going to be around all the time!! she needed to fight her own battles!!....
Riddhima looked away, her sadness replaced by the same old anger and irritation that Armaan usually instilled in her...
'Fine!' she snapped, 'Sorry to bother you with my problems!'
'Problems??!!' Armaan said incredulously, 'you just want all the sympathy and pity you can get!!'
'WHAT??' Riddhima felt like strangling him....she was grovelling for sympathy??!! if the seat belt hadn't been containing her in her seat, she would've beaten Armaan's head into a pulp by now!!
'aur nahin to kya?? you just love staying depressed don't you?? agar koi problem nahi bhi hai tabhi tum koi problem khadi kar deti ho!! you just want to stay depressed forever!! well, guess what?? I can't give you company in that OK?? I'm tired of sitting and comforting you!! If you are pissed off with somebody else, then give THAT person a piece of your mind!! don't take it out on me!! and ya..I'm fed up of all your rona dhona!! you're turning into a drama queen!!' Armaan said...he was on a roll!! he could see a glimpse of his old Riddhima while fighting with her!! the Riddhima he loved...
'I'M A DRAMA QUEEN??!!' Riddhima said, furiously, 'main problems khadi karti hoon?? I so do NOT!! and I'm not depressed all the time!! and I NEVER take out anyone else's anger on you!'
'Oh really? Armaan asked sarcastically, trying to instigate her further, 'what about yesterday?? you were totally taking out your dad's anger on me!!'
'I was..was..not!' Riddhima said, stammering...which was such a lie!! she knew she had been doing just that...
'You were!' Armaan accused, 'agar unse itna hi gussa ho, then why don't you shout at HIM?? jaise mere saath ladthi ho....why don't you go fight with him??'
Riddhima looked away, 'because it's..it's not right.' she said, trying not show how weak she was at the moment. However, for once, Armaan didn't seem to guess how much his words had suddenly started hurting her..he was so engrossed in angering and fighting with Riddhima that he didn't realize how much it was weakening her..
'Not right?? whatever, Ridz!! you're just scared...darti ho unse, hai na?'
Armaan taunted, totally unaware of the silent tears running down Riddhima's face again...
Riddhima turned towards him and Armaan was immediately jolted out of his playful mood as he saw the hurt and pain in her eyes...the fear in her eyes...the tear streaming down her cheeks..
'Haan...' she whispered, 'main unse darti hoon....OK?? I'm scared of him!! now are you happy?? now can we please go home??'
'Ridz...I...' Armaan began, looking extremely guilty...maybe he had gone a bit overboard...he just loved irritating her!! but there was a limit to everything and it seemed this time he had crossed it!
'Please Armaan....I just want to go home,' Riddhima interrupted him in a choked voice...
Armaan nodded...he would talk to her properly at home...now was definitely not the right time..and maybe by the time they reached home, she would have cooled down a bit...he hoped so!!
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'Ridz...please meri baat to suno!' Armaan said....Riddhima had been ignoring him since the time they came home...she wouldn't answer his questions, wouldn't fight with him despite further instigation from his side...for that matter, she wouldn't even look at him!
'Riddhima, I'm sorry yaar...please...don't do this!' Armaan whined, trailing behind her like a puppy as she tidied up their room a bit.
Riddhima turned and shot him a glare as if to say-STAY AWAY FROM ME!! and she continued doing her work.
'Ridzz....pleeeeeease!!' he said, making his best puppy-face.
Riddhima glanced at him and her heart melted on seeing his cute expression...he was such a sweetheart!! how could she stay mad at her Armaan for too long?? he just always had to win her heart at the end of the day!! but ofcourse, she wasn't going to give in that easily...she knew lately she had been cribbing a lot!! but he didn't have to be so mean about it!!
'Armaan..leave me alone!' she hissed, turning her back towards him..
'I love you Ridz...' he whispered, placing his hands around her waist.
Riddhima sighed, leaning back on his chest...she was so totally losing the battle here..
'To phir mujhe itna rulate kyun ho?' she asked, softly. She closed her eyes as she felt his warm lips on her neck, kissing and licking her.
'Armaaan..' she groaned but he just simply lifted her up in his arms and carried her to the bed. Pinning her under him, he gently undressed her as she groaned and tried to push him off her, still feigning anger...however, his gentle touch, his sweet kisses and caresses soon melted her and soon she was under his spell...she let him make love to her as she gasped and writhed with pleasure under him.
'Ridz?' he whispered as he gently caressed her under the comforter.
'Hmm?' she asked, burying her head deeper into his chest, his face flushed with his love-making.
'Im sorry...I behaved like an insensitive jerk in the car...'
'It's OK,' she whispered in his chest, 'you always behave like an insensitive jerk. I'm used to it now,'
On hearing this, Armaan smiled slightly...THIS was his Riddhima...
'Acha...now tell me, why were you crying in the parking lot?' Armaan asked, gently lifting her face in order to look at her.
Riddhima's eyes flickered...she didn't know what to tell him...or rather how much to tell him..
'I was just worried about Anji di...she's OK na Armaan?' she said, which was partly the truth.
'Yeah, she's fine...getting better...soon she'll be out of the hospital and with us again!!' Armaan reassured her.
'I'm waiting for that day!!' Riddhima said wistfully.
'Sach sach bataao...tum apne dad ke wajah se ro rahi thi, right?' Armaan asked, looking deeply into her eyes...trying to guess her emotions.
Riddhima looked away...she still wasn't comfortable talking about it to Armaan...she didn't know how much to tell him...wether he would understand or not...only she knew what she had gone through...she doubted anyone else would ever understand.
'Riddhima...kya baat hai?? I know there's something you're not telling me...please...tell me sweety...please...I need to know..' Armaan asked, gently stroking her hair.
Riddhima looked into his eyes....he was looking at her with pure love in his eyes...maybe it was time to share her burden...maybe she should tell him??
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Geet - Hui Sabse Parayee
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