hi guys.this is the last bit of the previous chapter.i don't know if a lot of you are reading this or not but i hope you are liking it.do tell me how you like it.please.
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chapter 4 -the revenge
i was ecstatic.my worries had been put to rest and the day had been great for a change.i had to give swarna some credit for that.if it wasn't for her ,the food would have not tasted half as good as it did.i was glad to have her at my side.badi rani maa and rana ji too had not complained about the food which was definitely a good sign. ranaji still hadn't warmed up to me but that was not a problem as long as he did not cause any trouble for me, i thought.i didn't want him to hate me for i did see and hear he possessed good in him , but i didn't have control over it.it bothered me a bit to be hated for unknown reasons but it was definitely better than being loved by him.if he wouldn't have hated me,how would i have kept him away from me.maybe its all for a good reason.but Gautam?i knew we couldn't ever be together but would meeting him be so wrong.it won't be called cheating.would it?just this one time can't hurt anybody.i would be discreet.i thought
but what if somebody sees us?there will be too many people and i can't avoid them all.after all,raj-mata would have her own plans for me.she wont let me leave her side.i cant do it.if somebody comes to know of it,my mother will have to face the repercussions on my behalf.it saddened me to think about saying no to gautam but i couldn't risk the lives of other for my own sake.i wanted to meet gautam desperately but i knew i had to wait for the right time.with a sad heart i moved towards my room,with the strength of writing a letter to gautam,when i felt a tight grip on my arm,pulling me towards the side,into a room.
it was too quick a motion for me to see who it was and the only thing i felt was the firm grip on my hand,that left me as soon as were in the room,causing a unbalance that landed me straight to the ground.
i looked at the figure towering me,and saw ranaji standing atop me and looking at me with a strange burning of his eyes.my instincts said something was wrong but i was too shocked by this sudden movement of his,to think about anything.
"why did you pull me here?what is wrong?"i asked cleary confused as he had never done anything like this before.
"really rani gayatri?you think me a fool?you really don't know why i P-U-L-L-E-D you into this room"he said as his anger took a back seat and he sounded more amused now.
"no i seriously ,don't know why you got me here.why would i know that anyway?i said more confused than before .
i began to get up from the ground when ranaji put his hand in front of me indicating me to stay where i was.i had no clue what he was up to and i was beginning to get scared.
"na na rani gayatri,don't get up just yet.you still have to perform a task from there.don't waste your energy in getting up.and please drop this act of innocence of yours.i know who you truly are.you don't need to fake it in front of me." he said sarcastically.
i didn't know where this was headed and i was beginning to fear what ranaji had transformed into. i had never heard him sound like that.
"ranaji, i seriously don't know what you are talking about?and what act have i been faking?what have i done wrong?"i said worried for ranaji didn't seem to be in his right senses.
"ohh good just what i expected gayatri! you mean to say the chili that my food was filled with just happened to walk into it itself,right?that you didn't put it in there right?that you are completely innocent,right?
chili?what chili was he talking about?why was he accusing me?he was certainly mistaken about something and i had to clear it before he held me guilty.
"ranaji i think you are mistaken.i didn't put any chili in the food.not even a little.we all ate the food with you.nobody complained of it.then how could your food have it?i put the same food in every plate myself."i tried to reason with him.
"enough gayatri"he yelled at he as he yanked me up from the ground and held me from both my arms,grinding his fingers into them,almost painfully and making me squirm under his grip.
"how low can you stoop?i would have still forgiven you if only you would admit to your crime.but no you don't deserve this.you need to be taught a lesson and i will make sure i teach it to you."
he left my arm just then and left the room,leaving me standing in the middle of the room,only to come back with a plateful of food in his hand.what was he about to do ? i wondered
he shut the door behind him and put the food on the table as he looked at me,then returned to his original spot in front of me.
"eat it" he said.it sounded like a command and his eyes held a grave look in them.
i was scared but i had have enough of him.he had insulted me,man handled me and yelled at me for no fault of mine and i couldn't take it anymore.i was his wife and he better respect me of not like me.
i looked into his eyes ,straight and said
"NO.I won't eat it.i have done nothing wrong and as far as your spicy food is concerned, i didn't do it but i can tell you what i think.you are lying so you can put the blame on me.you hate me and i know that.you don't have to STOOP TO such a low level to show that."
i don't know where i got the sudden strength from but it felt nice and i din't move my gaze from him.
"how dare you blame me for your sins.i should have known earlier what you are capable of.i should have expected this from you.but don't worry its never too late.you know what,you will eat all the food kept on the plate,for if you don't i promise you gayatri,i will tell your mother all about this and you know who she would believe.and i am sure reputation means a lot to you?what would people say to your parents if they knew you tried to harm your husband.how will they ever face the society then?"his demeanor was again calm and victorious.
"nooo,you won't do it.you won't say a word.i will do anything you say"the power i felt was replaced by fear for my parent's reputation.they had already heard a lot when my fiance had died and i couldn't subject them to any other such thing.
"go and eat the food"he commanded and i walked towards the table where it was kept.
i sat on the ground,next to the table and tore a little piece of the roti and dunk it in the gravy before putting in my mouth.as i put it in my mouth,the heat spread throughout and started burning my mouth.
i shot a glance at ranaji who smiled and asked me to go on and i put another morsel into my mouth.
each one felt worse than before and after a few more i looked at ranaji again.
"water please! i can't eat anymore"i said fumbling as i tried to let out the heat from my mouth.
"na.na..na rani gayatri,you have just started.there is still so much left for you to eat.if you want water ,you will have to finish it first.see now,it would have been so much easier if you would have kept your dirty trick to yourself."he said as he sat across from me on the chair.
"but i didn't do it ranaji."i cried trying to make him believe me as the heat became uncontrollable.
"your lies don't work on me,gayatri.if you want water then eat your food because you wont get it until you finish"he said unfeelingly.
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it was worse than i imagined it to be.each bite in was a torture and i wasn't sure if i would last any longer.it hurt me unbearably to see him,i didn't even want to say his name,accuse me of something so grave and horrible,and yet not giving me a chance to prove my innocence.he had shut his ears to my plea and i was left helpless,for i couldn't risk my family being insulted because of a man as shallow as him.as more mouthfuls went in.i started to feel myself perspire around my forehead.my mouth felt parched and droplets on unending water felt from my eyes.i sucked some air in, trying to dilute the overwhelming flavor of chili on my lips but after a few morsels,it was only a wasted effort.i looked into his eyes,again begging him to relieve me from this pain-i wasn't weak or afraid but i had spent the entire day in the kitchen after a full night of expedition that had lent me a cold and a mind full of problems,that ,now,i was too physically and emotionally spent to strive through this undeserved punishment i had been given.his eyes were still the same ,ruthless and relentless and i couldn't even see a flicker of humanity in them.
it stabbed me deep to think of being married to a heartless person whose sole purpose in life was to hate me an unmeasured extent,torture me out of capacity to endure and yet not come up with a reason to do so.more droplets fell down my eyes and i didn't know if it was the heat or the hurt talking.
i don't know what happened next as i felt my eyes shutting and my weight falling back,,on my head,as i landed on a hard surface.