MY HEROINE

MY HEROINE... PUBLISHER ka bohot bharosa tha mujhpar k mai choti kahani bhi likh paunga jaisak mai badi kahani likhta hu par pata tha mujhe ye bohot tough hai kyu isme bohot kam shabdo me ek ek bat ka dhyan rakhte hue likhna parta hai .

life ka har chapter ka pahalu hum kitna bhi samajhneka koshish kare har sawal ka jabab se hum rubaru nahi ho pate.Har aam insaan ki tarah ye koshish maine bhi kiathya par kuch hath na laga.Haste haste apna bohot chahat ka antim kriya karam karna parta hai jaise kabhi maine kia tha.life me udasi or tanhai ka chapter wohi se suru hua.Dukhta dil ka zakham alfazo me utark aya jo pahle kabhi mera manuscript bana phir kuch bohot acche or chahite dostok pressure se kahan

i k kitab me tabdil hua.

Kitab likha ,,dhire dhire parnewale mere kitabok sath,,mere soch k sath sath mujhe bhi chahne lage or mere likhe shabd me khone lage. waise sirf likhnek ilaba mai kuch or bhi karta hu par sayad bina baja usko yaha likhneka zaroorat nahi hai.Filhal to mai apna Delhi k ghar se nikla tha Darjeeling k taraf apne kaam k silsile mai.Par in sab k bichh bhi mujhe mere readers se kia hua waada yaad tha k mai ek choti si koi nayi flavour ki kahani unhe zaroor gift karunga par soch koi nayi chis k liye jaha daurna suru kar raha tha wohi lag raha tha k kya likhu?? kya asa likhu k jo ajtak koi asa na likha ho ,,aree ek bar dimag galti kar gaya ,,ek unique story pata nahi kahase dimag me khil gaya par asa harbar magic mai thori na creat kar paunga!!to yahi sochte sochte maine tai kia,,k kyu na isbar ye kahani mere sahar se is naye sahar k taraf barti hui raho parhi likhi jaye!!kya pata aglee konse naye morr pe koi kahani mera intazar kar raha ho .

kuyk ab tak kahanik bareme socha nahi hai isliye uska character bhi ab tak mere zahan me nahi hai .raja kaisa hoga ?? kaisy hogi uski rani?? kya kya khichri pakegi or banegi ek prem kahani.meri heroine ka age kya hoga??wo atthara baras ki kuwari kali hogi,,jahrno se bhi chanchal,,morni jaise barish me bhigti ,,chamchamati,,yaaa phir koi asi jo zindegi ka mussibat ko jhelte huee or apna zimmedari nibhate huee bas agee ki taraf barte ja rahi hai .AB horoine jaha hogi woha hero to hogahi par abtak wo mere dimag se ubhark mere dil tak akee ,,mere dil ka raftar ko baraya nahi ,,isliye wo bhi abhi ek kona pakark rest kar raha hai,,jab call time ayga usko mere taraf se bulava ajayga.

Mera har story thora women character k upar zada hota hai,,,yu to sabka kahna yahi hai k bhagwan bhi ajtak is aurat ko sahi dhang se nahi pahchan paye to mai pata nahi kaise une samajhta hu ,,unke dhadkan ko pahchanta hu!!story chahe jo bhi ho usme mera heroine ka naam hamesha mai Manvi rakhta hu.wo kya hai na is naam k sath mera kuch purana nata hai,,kuch rista hai,,kuch khas connection hai par jo ab nahi hai wo disconnect ho chuka hai.

Manvi mere life me ek chota sa role play ki thi ,,meri mohabbat thi,,meri junnon thi. 15 days ki ek package tour ki sathi thi.par ab mai tanha hu or is tanha safar mujhe or boriyat k taraf na dhakel de isliye jab tak kuch nahi sujh raha hai to mai thoratime kyuna manvi ke sath bite dino ka recap dekh lu??waise ye manvi thori natghat bhi thi,,thori chanchal bhi,,uska harkat thora ye jatata tha k wo jitni ki dikhti thi utniki thi nahi balk apna umar se to or kamhiki wo lagti thi,,uska nazar to mujhko ghayal karhi dia tha us pandhra dino me par mera bhi jadu uspe chal chuka tha ye bat or hai k wo jitna jaldi chala utnahi jaldi uur bhi gaya tha.Manvi aj bhi mere zindegi me dakhalandazi kar jati hai,,jab jab mai likhne baithta hu wo mujhe direction deti hai k mere naamka character ko thora or strong banao..ase likho waise likho..aj paanch saal bad usko kahi bhi dekhneka koi umeed to mai nahi karta hu par ye nazar ka hi galti hai sayad ,,k wo har jaga Manvi ko khojne lagta ha.

Mere har heroine ka naam jaise mai Manvi rakhta hu thik us tarah har bar hero ka naam mai Virat rakhta hu.kismat ka faisla kuch or tha jinone MANVI K naam k sath kisi orka naam jor dia,,mere ghar ayatha wo shadi ka card ,,par mujhme itna himmat nahi tha k mai uha jau or undonok sath photo khichaun or na janese woha zaroor koi farak nahi para hoga ,, ,,MANVI shadi kark zaroor apne ghar chali gayi hogi or apni zindegi ko nayi morr di hogi.thik isik bad se mai bhi tai kia tha k mai mera har hero ,,heroine ka naam VIRAT OR MANVI rakhunga,kyuk manvi ko khoya hua wo ladka VIRAT mai hi hu or apne kitab me isliye writer k jaga mai sirf apna nahi balk humdonoka naam likhta hu or wo hai VIRMAN.Uska mere pas na honeka ahsas bhi uska honeka ahsas karata hai or kahi na kahi agar likhnewala hath mera hota hai to ussse likhanewala hath manvi ka rahta hai or yahi reason hai k hazar kamo k bicch me bhi mera hath apne aap ye diary or pen k taraf chala jata hai.

siliguri ko piche chorte huee jab mera toy tain Darjeeling k taraf bar raha tha mujhe disturb karne or mera diary ko kholne mujhe phir se majboor ki meri Manvi.

Tab mai 21 yrs ka tha or pahlibar ghar se akele gaya tha sandakfu phalut TRAKING CAMP me. Mera mulakat MANVI SE WOHI HUA THA.pandhra din ka wo tuor me suru ka do din to sabka naam yaad rakhne me gaya..phir or do din alag alag tarike se janne me gaya,,kisika acchai,,kisika burai dhire dhire samne ane laga,or sabko dekhte huee mera man us ladki ke sath dosti karna chaha par dostika ka hath mujhse pahle usnehi barayi.man me sawal aya tha ye mulakat sirf ek mulakat tak rakhna thik hoga ya phir uski mere taraf badte huee hath ko dekhte huee usk sath dosti kar lena sahi hoga.uska chulbulapan ,,uska wo har ada mujhko mujhse dur kar raha tha or wo pahario ka valley area,,snow se bhari huii raste jine chirte huee hum nikal rahethee,,usme bikhre gire huee lal rang ka Rododendron bhi sab jaise fika par raha tha usk agee.

jitna shauk useee traking ka tha sayad usse zada shauk tha apni idhar udhar ki bato se sabka dimag chatneka or do kadam chalte na chalte ruk ruk k photo leneka.koi nazara jaise wo miss nahi karna chati thi par uska ye ruk ruk k chalna un pahari sarko pe bhari par gaaya.sandakfu pahachne me thora or woqt baki tha.hum dono tab KALIPOKHRI tak apayethee.achanak mausam apna rang badlna suru kar diaa.dophar ka ek baj raha tha par lag nela ga rat ho chuka ho suraj ko usdin asman k picche jaise bohot jaldi jana tha par uske janese kya hota ?? wo to kali badlo k piche chup gaya or andhera se gher diaa par chanda ka mood thori hua k wo uska jaga akee lele!!jitne dur dur distance maintain kark hum chal rahe thee ,,wo andhera ka wo daar humdonoko pass pass chalnepe mazboor kia.hum jitna koshish kar rahe thee wo pahari cross kark hum jaldi agee anewale valley k taraf bade jaha rasta thora plain ho ,,kisi hal me wo hum nahi kar pa rahe thee.tufani hawa to raste ka padshani tha hi usk bad asman ko bhi bohot roneka man kiaa or wo ji bhark rone laga.

us barfili barish me hum itna bura fas gaye thee k chahk bhi hum kuch nahi kar pa rahe thee.isk pahle tak sirf wo mere pass hi chal rahi thi par jis tara wo mausam baimani karne laga us tarah sayad hamara man bhi humse baimani karne laga.koi ghar to woha tha nahi jaha humko sahara milta isliye bas ek chota sa hut dikha jo bas sirf uha rest lene k liye bana hua tha hum wohi kisi tarah apna sar chupane chale gaye.

ye bas or baki last teen din ka bat tha ,,or janpahchan k bad ihatak ate ate hum dono nehi apna dil ka bat bina ek dusrese kahe jaise samajh chuke thee par wo time kuch asa tha jab hamara dil ka jasbad humdonoke dil ka deewar tork nikal aya.badalte mausam k sath hum bhi ek dusreme khone lage .uha sirf hum thee or koi nahi tha..ek pal do pal ka mulakat konsa rasta pakarne jaraha hai usk bareme humdonoko tab kuch bhi nahi pata tha par sabkuch bhulake hum bas ek dusreme khote gaye.mere kandhe me wo apna sar rakhk apna sayad future dekhne lagi or mai uska hath tahmk sayad puri dunya mere aj mutthi me hai asa sochne laga tha.dhire dhire hamare bichh ki durya kam ho gayi or wo mujhme samane lagi.uske kapte hotome mera naam arahatha jisse lagne laga wo apne apko mere hath me puri tarah surrender kark bohot satisfied hai. uski kali ghari ankhe mujhe usk orr kareeb janeka ishara de raha tha or mai usme samata ja rAHA THA.

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LAST PART

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Pahla pyar ka pahla sawan ankhe bandh kark maine manvi k naam kar dia thaa par us pahla sawan se mujhe jo mila wo unbelivable tha.Sandakfu ki uchai ko chumte huee jab hum niche ane lage Manebhanj k taraf ,,mujhe laga kash ye rasta kabhi na khatam ho or humdono har mushkil rah haste huee taii kark bas jate rahe ,,chalte rahe.par asa mai soch raha tha .manvi,,,wo kya soch rahi thi?? uska soch janneke bad to mere sar pe jaise asman tut para.jaise hamara pao plain land me para mujhse by bolne me usko ek second bhi nahi laga.maine usse dubara milneka pucha jo mai isk pahle bhi ate huee pucha tha or wo koi jabab nahi di thi tab wo uska jabab di or boli 'rat gayi bat gayi'.tum ab jao apne raste or mai chali apne raste.speechless rah gaya mai ye mera kan kya sun raha hai??par jo suna wohi sach tha.sirf ek time pass tha wo manvi k liye.is ubar khabar raste mai akhir koi to sathi asa hona zaroori tha jo uska man bahla k rakhhe !! or wo koi galat kaam nahi ki hai ,agar ek ladka koi asa ek ladki k sath kar sakta hai to wo kyu nahi?? to usk nazar me jo wo apna boryat dur karne kliye mujhe use ki wo koi paap nahi tha.pyar wyar me wo belive nahi karti or ye sab kuch sirf filmo me hota hai .kisi ek anjan k piche apna zindegi ko gawana usk liye bewkufi hai.

Merehi sath hona tha ye sab!! KITNA BADA BEWKUFIII!! wo mujhe nachati gayi or mai nachta gaya!! uska wo muskan jisk liye mai pahar ka view miss kia or apna sara attention uspe laga rakhha wo sab ek dhoka tha!! uska backbone ka dard bhi matlab utnahi jhuta tha jisk liye sara rasta mai uska bag apne kandhe me liya!! horriiiblee.

jo hua usk liye usee koi farak to nahi parta par usk bad mera pyar se bharosa uth gaya or mujhe laga bhagwan kare jitna nafrat usse mujhe hua hai wo hamesha asehi rahe.

manvi se mila dhoka se mera zindegi me itna udasi chaya k un gamoko,,dukho bhulane k liye mai nasha ka shikar ho gaya par wo nasha mere hath me sarab ka glass ka nahi balk ye pen or diary ka tha.mujhme itna self respect to baki tha k mai ek asi ladki k liye itna kamzoor bhi nahi parunga k ek aag bhujane k liye or ek aag k gale lag jaun!!

to ye thi meri pahlimulakat me mili manvi ki kahani.MANVI jisse mai aj bhi mohabbat karta hu,,kyuk mai aj bhi usse bohot nafrat karta hu.wo mera junoon hai kyu wo mera nind or sukun dono chini hai.mai aj bhi usk liye tarapta hu par usk yaad me nahi usk diye huee us zakhmo se.Mai to usdin sayad sirf usk sarir ko thora chua tha par usne to mera atma ko chu chuki thi or palak jhapakte usme apne liye usme ek characterlesshoneka chaap chor di.

Umeed to kabhi nahi thi par dubara usko takdir mere samne laya DARJEELING me .jis ghar me mai painguest bank gaya us ghar ki wo so called choti bahu thi.mera nazar usko uha bilkul expect nahi kia tha or sabse jan pahchan karneke bad jab usk tak pahachneki bari ayi tab maihi bahana kark uhase nikal liya apne room ki taraf ghar k ek servant k sath.

kya dekha mai?? ye manvi thi ya koi or?? upar se niche tak ek sundar si sari me lipti ,,sar me ghar ka sanskar ka taj,,hatho me bhari huii churia jiska khanakneka awaz mere kan tak aya jab wo sabk samne is mehman k liye hath jorne ja rahi thi par us khanak ko mai apne kan tak janese bhalehi rok na paya par dil tak jane nahi diya.

apne kam se matlab rakhte huee mai hamesha bohot subha nikalta tha side me or thora raat honepe wapas ata.mujhe koi khirki se jhakta hua nazar aya tha par yakeen nahi tha k wo MANVI hai par badme pata chala k wo MANVI thior wo tab pata chala jab ek sham wo mere liye sabse nazar bachake mujhse milne ayi mere cottage me .rich ,,khandani family se belong karti thi isliye sarafat ka ghoonghat ko apne sath hi leke ayithi.mujhse apni kihui galti k liye hath pao jork mafi mangi,or kaha sayad uska kia hua wo galti paap hi tha jo usko itna accha family to mila par aj bhi uska pati sirf official hai isse zada kuch nahi kyuk uska pati kisi or k sath rahta hai bahar or kabhi kabhi yaha ata hai.ghar me is bat ka kisiko khabar nahi kyuk sabk nazar me uska pati bahar kaam k liye rahta hai or wo ye bat kisiko batana nahi chati kyuk isse badnami ka darr hai.

apna kahani sunake wo chali gayi or mujhe bohot sare sawalo k sath chor di.kya sach me Manvi aj itni badal gayi hai?? kyu phir se usk bato pe biswas karneka man kar raha hai?? akhir usk ankho me asi kya bat hai jo mujhe mere itne salo ki nafrat ko pighlane k liye mazboor kar raha hai,,kyu man kar raha hai k ek bar usko maaf kar du or aj samaj ka har uss daar ko bhulk jo manvi aj mere pass ayi thi usko ye jake bol du k jo hua usko bhul jayenge or sari karwi yado ko mitake kuch din accha se iha bitake zindegi bhar k liye ek acchi MANVI ki yaad leke jayenge.

ha or na k raste me chalte chalte akhir me kuch do char asehi ghar me hui choti choti si mulakat mai humdono me phir se bat chit hona suru hua.gharwale usk sab usdin sahar se bahar koi shadi me gayethe,,uska bhi janeka bat tha par wo nahi gayi thi kyuk uska tabiyat thik nahi thi.badalta mausam hi zimmedar tha sayad kyuk mai bhi tab bukhar me fasa tha.mere liye unexpected tha par sayad usdin wo man man tai kark ayithik aj wo dubara phir usi tarah apne apko mere hatho surrender karegi chahe kuch bhi ho jaye or chahe jaise bhi.

surwat to purani bato sehi hui or jisk liye wo mujhse dubara mafi bhi mangi mere ekdam pass akee.mujhe thora uncomfortable dekhk hasne lagi k mai abhi bhi uspe belive nahi kar pa raha hu.usko jhut tab bola tha mai kyuk mai sach me tab tak uspe puri tarah yakeen nahi kar paraha tha par zada der nahi laga mujhe uspe yakiin karneme.wo mere liye mere samne rahk mera khana banayi jabk wo bimar thi,,mera mana nahi suni,,mana karne gaya to kya haq hai mera wo puchi.mujhe uthne nahi de rahi thi or zabardasti mujhe sponge kar di .mujhe bohot oddd feel ho raha tha par usk ankho se asa lag raha tha jaise wo dilo jaan se apna farz nibha rahi hai bina kloi riste ke bhi or sayad kahi na kahi apna galti ka pastawa hai usee.

mai dekhta ja raha tha usee .apna man ko jitna bhi strong karneka koshish kar raha tha wo jaise koi bat nahi man raha tha or uske nashili ankho me phir se apne apko dubta mehsus kar raha tha.wo perfume ka smeel ,,uske balo se ati hui ek thandi si ahsas or tazzi mehak mere man ko apna control khone pe mazboor kar raha tha.mujhe samhalte huee mere bed me mujhe letane jate huee usk sar se wo sanskar ka taj khul k gir jata hai ,,jise dekh mera man karta hai aj mai usee rok lu par mai usse rokta ya wo khud apne apko rokti?mere samne uski lahrata anchal mujhe usko apne pass bulanepe mazboor karta hai or sayad usko isi woqt ka intazzar tha ,,mera ek ishara usee ye bhulaneme bilkul der nahi lagaya k wo kisiki ghar ki bahu hai ya kisiki biwi.

wo apne apko mere upar fek di jaise wo kah rahi ho k mai usko saza du .jitna mai usko yaad kark takleef paya tab mujhe lag raha tha k aj sara hisab mai chukta karu,,wo sare dard ka ek ek hisab jor lu,,usse itna saza du k wo siwaye mere or kuch soch na paye ,,usko le jaun is bandhan se azad kark or ek nayi zindegi du,,mai barbar usk sarir ko chuta raha,,har uchai har ghahrai ko apne in hatho se mehsus kia,,wo mujhme or zada samane lagi,,mujhe bhulake apne bhi mere me khone lagi.uska har curve ko jab jab mere hoto ki touch mil rahi thi wo apne apko or mere me dhakel rahi thi,mai bhuka tha ya wo ?? ye kaisy diwangi thi??

ek ph ring ka awaz aya jab me washroom me tha .wo bat kar rahi thi tabhi usk pichee mai jake usko phir apne pas lane ja raha tha par kadam ruk gaya.ruk gaya ye sunk k wo kisiko ji tor koshish kark ye samjha rahi hai k wo abhi ghar wapas arahi hai .wo apni husband k sath bat kar rahi thi or mujhe sara bat pata chal chuka hai asa wo samajh gayi jab wo chupkese room me dhukne ja rahi thi par mujhe gate k piche hi payi.uski chereki wo smile jo mujhe ab tak sukun de raha tha wo phir se ek dhoke ka signal diaa.''saal chai mahina me kabhi kadhar mere pati ko itne kaam kaaz se mere liye fursat mailta hai to mai apna bhook mitane kaha jaun?? or acchai ka kitna natak karti??ghar k bahar badnami hai par tum to mere ghar k hi ho kyu??' bas itna bolk andhere me palak jhpakte gayab ho gayi or mujhe dubara usi jaga lake khara kar di jaha pe maiaj se kuch saal pahle tha.meri kahani MANVI K sath is dusri mulakat k sath khatam hui.

MERI KAHANI KHATAM HUII. JAB LIKHNA SURU KIA THA TO BAR BAR YE SOCH RAHA THA K MAI APNA MANVI KA CHARACTER KO KIS TARAH ESTABLISH KARU?? ASA KYA LIKHU K JO AJ TAK USK BAREME KOI NA SOCH PAYA HO ?? THIK TABHI MERI HEROINE MANVI JO MUJHE HAMESHA APNE CHARACTER KA LEKE BOHOT SOCHNEKO KAHTI HAI ,,WO BOLI K HAR BAR TO MAI APNI MANVI KO ITNA ACCHA SE CREAT KARTA HU K PARNEWALE USKO ORR ZADA CHANE LAGTE HAI TO ISBAR KYU NA ASA KIA JAYE K PARNEWALE USSE BOHOT NAFRAT KARE,,KYUNA USKE CHARACTER KO THORA LESS KIA JAYE OR EK ASI MANVI K BAREME LIKHA JAYE JO CHARACTERLESS KA CHARACTER PLAY KARE MERE STORY ME.USKA BAT MANTE HUEE YE KIA OR AB APKI BARI AP BATAYE APKO MERI HEROINE SORRRY MERI CHARACTETLESS HEROINE OR USK TALEE PISTA HUAA HERO VIRAT KAISA LAGA.kya aap meri heroine ko el pal k liye sirf ye bhul k k uska naam MANVI hai usko nafrat kar paye?? agar ha to meri heroine jit gayi,,wo proof ki wo acchi character k sath sath ek badgirl ka bhi character play kar sakti hai or agar na to wo apna luck phir se nahi asmaygi or hamesha acchi wali MANVI KA ROLE PLAY KAREGI.