Hello all, I know its a bit late... But better late than never what say... This one is for ReebaS; hey... Thank you for all your comments, and lovely pms. It really means a lot...
Ok... Now to the chapter, it will be the continuation of previous one! But here we will get Suman's POV too! This chapter will be the decisive one! Both Shravan and Suman will decide about their future!
Now let's get started...
Chapter 8
... and the way she was kissing me back, making everything blur around me, it was just me and my Sumo!
I could feel her warm breath against my skin; I could feel her erratic heart beat; I could feel her shiver, at my every touch! I could hear, her moans, her groans; everything was just too much! I know I needed to stop! Back of the mind I knew she was drunk, she might regret, after regaining her senses! I could feel her hands sliding from my chest, to stomach , to my.. ..
A wild loud horn, might be of some truck or bus; pulled me out of the trance!
She opened her eyes, those eyes...full of love, full of desire; only for me! She lifted a hand to my face and let it trace..my eyes, nose, lips... I had to stop her... "You know, you are sort of beautiful... " sumo mumbled! "But annoyingly fattu...and you know.. I guess I am in love with you... "..what was she doing to me... Why! She rested her head on my shoulder and laughed... " ...and I know you love me tooo... " she dozed off!
"Sharma ji... Chaliye... " I shouted, rolling down my window glass !
"Ji sir.. " he was about to sit into the car, but he looked at me... "sir, aapka hath... "
As of now, only thing I was watching was Suman, but the thing I didn't notice was, my left hand was clutching sumo's hand! I didn't notice, I had twitched my whole body towards her; that too without anyone's help!
I couldn't believe my eyes! Again I tried to move my hand, but this time I felt a pang ... Sumo secured my hand with hers, "hmmm"...she hummed!
*****
I reached at my home, I called pushkar. I couldn't drop Suman at her home, I didn't know, how they would react seeing Suman drunk.
"Bhaiya... Sumo yahan? "
"woh chote, she was drunk, mujhe nahin pata, whether to take her at her home or not; so main yahan le aya... "
"Sumo drunk! Ho gaya kabara! I mean, gadbad kya na kuch? She just cannot handle drinks! "
"Hmm.. .to ab kya karenge? "
"kya karenge ka kya matlab... Main use uthake leke jata hoon... Sharma ji.. Aap zara bhaiya ki help kar dijiye... " pushkar took sumo in his arms, and sumo mumbled, "shravan... Hmmm"...pushkar instantly looked at me and lifted her, and went inside!
Sharma ji smiled at me..." she loves you... "
"I can't be sure sharma ji... "
"You will be soon... " he helped me to get into that wheelchair... "Kabhi kabhi hume apne aap ko kismat ke havale bhi chod dena chahiye.. .
*****
I went inside, straight to the guest room, where Sumo was sleeping peacefully! My angel, no my guardian angel!
"She is a nice girl, bhaiya... "
"I know... "
"And you love her... "
I looked at pushkar! "I don't know chote, I don't know! Look at her, and look at me... How could I.. She deserves more than this... What could I give her! Nothing... What if I couldn't be normal anymore...what if... Love can't be platonic all the time, chote... What if she regrets later... "
"please, bhaiya, we have already seen improvements in you... It might take time, but you will be normal that's for sure... And as far as I know Sumo, she is not that kind of a girl, who regrets, on her own decisions! If she says, she loves you... She means it... "
I so wanted to believe him! I so wanted to believe, I would be normal, I so wanted to believe that she would be mine someday!
*****
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I got up with a very bad headache! I sat on the bed, but this wasn't my room... It was ...oh god... "yeh main kahan aa gayi... "
"humare guest room mein... " pushkar entered the room with his famous smile, and a glass in his hand, seemed like a juice! "kya... Hangover hai... Nimbu paani.. Pee le... "
"Ufff mera sar! " I didn't know hangover could be this painful! Wait... Hangover.. .that clearly meant, I had...oh my god!
"Hmmm... .pee le.. Aur haan fresh ho ja...kapde to nahin hai.. So you can't change now... " pushkar smirked!
"Where is Shravan?" I asked closing my eyes, it was really hurting!
"Shravan!! Ab tak to sir ya mr Malhotra kehti thi... Ab suddenly shravan! Something has changed.. Nahin? Waise woh apne room mein hai... " I didn't look at his face, he sighed and left the room!
I got out of the bed, and went to the washroom; splashed some water on my face, it felt nice... I looked at the mirror.. But... My lips seemed a little odd... Mmm little swollen! As if...as if.. .ohhh! Everything flashed in front of my eyes! What had I done! I ruined Alisha's marriage, I insulted her in front of almost thousand people! And I kissed Shravan Malhotra! Yes.. .I so bloody kissed Shravan Malhotra!
But it felt so good! .. ."lekin use bura laga hoto? Kya main usse puchu? ...pagal ho gayi hai sumo! Usse kya puchegi, mujhe kiss karke kaisa laga! Stupid, idiot! " I still could feel the sensation when his hand roamed around my back... "but woh subah mujhse milne kyun nahin aya! Khadoos kahinka! Ekbar jaake dekhti hoon... Kya bolti hai haan...why am I talking to myself! I have literally lost it! Bloody hell! "
I went straight to his room; knocked twice but no answer! So I opened the door and peeped..there he was sitting in front of the huge glass window! But why didn't he answer! All my confidence, had hit its base!
"May I come in?" he turned, his face was empty! This wasn't right! "Hey...good morning!"
"morning" he sounded so tired, as if he had returned from war! My heart sank! I could hear my own heartbeat! What if he didn't reciprocate my feelings! He might had kissed me in that heat of the moment!
"Woh main..." I didn't know what to say.. .
"Tum ghar nahin gayi abhi tak.. " his sounded so detached!
"Haan... Woh.. .I came here to meet you.. ."
"It was not needed! You can go.. ."
No no what was he saying.. "You want me to leave.. " I mumbled.
"You must be tired Suman! You should go.. " again with that flat voice! Suman.. .why.. was not he calling me ..sumo.. Now it was clear! He was regretting! But why. .I thought he liked me...
"Why are you doing this to me.. " my voice choked..
"What did I do.. "
"You.. .you have the nerve of asking me that! "
"I don't understand, Suman.. " he really seemed confuse!
"You don't understand, haan.. ." I had enough.; " You...you bloody kissed me.. And now you are you behaving like.. Nothing has happened, and without talking about this.. You are telling me that I should leave!" I grabbed a cushion from his bed, and threw it. .It landed on his lap..
His eyes were wide.. "you remembered? "
"Now what kind of idiotic question is that! Of course I remember! what do you think, I normally kiss around every people I meet? It was my first kiss damn it! How could I not remember! "
He was truly taken aback! "I thought after having that much drink, you won't be able to remember anything! Normally that's what happens to normal people! "
"What does that mean, I am not normal? My mind doesn't work right! I am a freak! " this time I grabbed a vase from the side table... "easy suman.. Easy.. There is a difference between a cushion and a vase!"
"fine I am going.. That's what you want na... " I put the vase.. And turned.
"I don't want you to go..." he whispered!
I turned, saw he was looking at me with so much agony... "I want you to stay... I should not.. I don't want to be this selfish! But I think I have no choice! " he sighed!
I walked towards him.. ."then why are you pushing me away... Shravan.. ." his eyes brightened!
"I don't want you to stuck with me Suman.. .I don't want to ruin your life.. I don't have anything to give you.. ."
"But I don't want anything.. ."
He shook his head and laughed without humor.. " you don't know future Suman. .I. .I cannot be the man.. I want to.. ." he struggled!
I sat on his lap and rested my head on his shoulder, "This is enough for me.. ."
"What if you regret in future.. ." holding me by my waist! "I don't know Suman, I don't. ..Suman ...I can't be the man I want to be with you..."
"I don't care... I don't need anything more..."
His eyes searched mine and there was huge amount of sadness in them.. ."if you had any idea what I want to do to you right now...you wouldn't have said this!"
"Please Shravan, you know that you are not caged into this for life time... One day you will be on your feet... I will wait for you... We can overcome this together...please... Give me a chance, give us a chance...please... " I pleaded!
Something flickered in his eyes, he grabbed my face and he growled.. ."I hope you don't regret this Suman... " and he placed his lips onto mine.
Ok that's it for today... Let me know.. Whether you liked it or not..
Ps: I am really sorry I couldn't reply to all your comments... But trust me those means a lot..and love you all.. ..
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Edited by Itssanjh - 8 years ago
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