Teamwork- Is that not what every relationship is about? Especially marriage where two individuals would be united in a sacred ceremony, thus bonding two families together.
I mean, these were my ideas about marriage- very basic, wouldn't you say? Yet here I am at this moment, very vacantly eyeing the ruins of my shattered dreams. Shocked...Stunned...Stupefied...None of these words can describe me right now. Yet I am here, trying to compose myself.
I needed a stroll in the park probably. Instead, I chose to run to the sanctuary of my workplace- the only place where I belonged...where I was myself. Not that any amount of thinking could make any of this better, but I had to collect myself.
Marriage! Just yesterday I had promised to give it all my best; and today the ghost of my marriage stood along with my husband, mocking at me.
My best! What was the best I could do now? What was expected of me now? I guess this is the part where a girl needs her mother's tactful advice. For I stand on the threshold of a relationship that would have to be nurtured so carefully that both the families who strived for it wouldn't regret it, even if the conjunction itself had become so irrelevant. But no one needed to know that, save ourselves. Why drag the world into the misery of this disharmony? That was for us alone.
Teamwork! We both seem to want to excel in covering up our incongruity. That seems to be a need that binds us now.
I return after a prolonged reflection and am surreptitiously delighted to find some semblance of concern in his eyes. I must have been dreaming, for it took no time for it to turn into another accusation. Of course, I had been careless not to take my phone. But it had only been to PCT. They had other means to contact me and the phone had been dead anyway. And frankly, I had wanted some quiet time. And here he had the audacity to tell me I had made him wait. I simply had to remind him I had waited for him too. Could I not ask for this much understanding from my ex- best friend, as he loves to call himself, without creating a scene in front of the family?
I guess this is teamwork too. Being on your toes, as you go about flinging insults at each other, making sure you don't get caught. That really requires some kind of expertise.
Also...What do you do when your heart is torn when your aunt shoves the small box of sindoor at you, when you know very well what significance such symbols of marriage hold in the eyes of the man you just married...or the man who just married you!
How do you hide the fact that you are disappointed...devastated... that things took this turn! How do you do that without putting him down in the eyes of your family?
By simply agreeing with everything he has done just to spite you. By making it look like this was a combined decision the two of you took...that you stand by him every step of the way...
Now, that is what I call Teamwork!