Let it go...OS Shraman

Sumos accident flashed like lightning in Shavans mind and he woke up with a jolt. ..all the happenings of that day and after fresh in his mind despite the fact that 7 months had passed...he looked at his watch wiped the sweat on his face... it was 5 in the morning...he dint realise when he fell asleep after the previous dreadful night..keeping his feeling of hurt anger disgust aside..he ran to the bathroom..to get ready..

In these 7 months not a day had passed when Shravan had not reached Tiwari Killa at 6 am or before and ensure morning medicines and bfast were given by him to Sumo..used to leave only past midnight giving last dose of her medicine..he never missed it but when he had work during and was unable to stay he ensured to send Pushkar or Vandy bhabhi to visit her during the day and be there by himself by evening.. .the days he was busy he wud keep going in out of tiwari killa even it meant ten times a day..and ensured he called to check on her evry half ... and today was one of those days when he might not b able to stay though for altogether different reasons... but he had to go give her the morning medicine...nothing was more important than her health not even his this devastating emotional turmoil.

There was a nurse morning 8 to evening 8 to take care of Sumos medical needs but Shravan had been there by her side as a pillar providing emotional and mental strength which was the key to her recovery and she had shown tremendous improvement..her hand eye coordination had improved ...her balance issues whad mostly come through and she was able to walk one or two steps but not much ..her progress was very encouraging..but still she was not 100% ok.. Today he was the one who needed support but dint know where to go to nurse his wounds...but keeping his hurt aside he headed for Tiwari Killa and saw Nanu sitting outside ...Shravan looked visibly disturbed today Nanu thought..he looked at him with gratitude and recalled the conversation he had had with Shravan a month after the accident... in which Shravan had clearly told without shying away Nanu that he loved Suman and wud take care of her for life..and wanted permission to get her better ..Nanu had seen the bond they shared and allowed him to take care of her despite rensentment from the family on account of societal pressure...but Nanu had not bothered for that but for his Suman . Shravan did not want to let her know about his love for her as she might feel it's out of sympathy which was not the case...he genuinely loved her ...from way back ..from childhood..he had requested nanu to not let suman know..

Suman had resisted he taking care of her on many occasions but his persistence and determination to not leave her alone and her physical and mental turmoil due to her illness had made her give up the resistance. Though her outburst on him were a routine which Shravan handled with care and patiently...his patience some where disturbed Sumo..this calmness and patience was unlike him...what her accident done to him?..

During one of the days where Sumo had lost her cool as she was unable to forgive him for whatever had happened with them in the past and yelled at him to leave her alone..she had told him ..I don't want to see ur face again..and closed the room door when no one was around at home...in his helplessness worry and thought of she getting hurt as she wasn't stable and physically weak.. he had blurted out the events that lead to demolishan of PCT..he sat outside her door for hours telling and how guilty he was for his behavior..Though he said he did feel hurt about the Nirmala incident but cud now see why Sumo did it..for his sake..but now only upset with her for misunderstanding his father..though he told her I understand that my mother manipulated u in beliving her so he doesn't blame her for it anymore... how much ever sumo tried to justify herself she knew she had hurt him then..whatever her intentions were...she wanted to counter that argument but thought it was not the right time ..so she had left it at that.. her mind told her not to believe him but heart said otherwise and the guilt fear concern in his voice while he told her all of this from other side of the close door made her reconsider her thoughts she and finally opened the room "door"..not only to her room but a tiny window to her heart..she had seen him rushing in and hugging her tight as though he would crush her and embibe her into himself if he could...his concern tears seemed so genuine...After that day they least they were not 'behaving like strangers ' anymore

Suman today was feeling much better when Shravan came but he greeted her in rather cold voice.. she could see he was disturbed.. but dint know what was it..he gave her morning medicines..ensured she had bfast..and started to leave..saying Pushkar wud come over for the day as he has to go to the court.. without making an eye contact he left..leaving Sumo puzzled..

When Pushkar came he looked a Lil puzzled too..but dint say much..Sumo asked..what's the matter both bro's look flabbergasted... girlfriend's bhaag gaye kya dono ki..Pushkar dint reply..which was unlike him..he was always ready with a witty answer...he also left in sometime..

It was more than an hour since Shravan had left and Shravan hadn't called she had got soo used to getting his call every half an hour when he was not around that it was making her restless...something within her was not with her...she was genuinely restless wanted to pace up and down around her room but her feet dint allow her...

That day Pushkar also left after not talking much and Shravan dint come to check on her..after about 3 hours he had called asking her about how was she and she like a wife had scolded him ...Shravan why dint u call I was so worried...I was waiting for ur call arent u supposed to call every half an hour ...He had listened to all that she said very calmly and.he just said I am sorry and put down the phone..that sorry dint seem a normal one to Sumo...she had gotten more worried..

In the evening Shravan was sitting in front of the lake his favourite place where he wud usually go to find solace and shut himself from the world

When he heard something ..it was a quiet dark..he saw someone coming towards him...he saw Sumo...then he shrugged..she can't walk so much..what am I thinking and how will she b here ...he turned around facing the lake..the figure seemed approaching him he heard her almost gasping in pain he turned and bloody hell it was Sumo!!!he ran toward her and held her as she was about to fall due to the pain ...but he dint let her..

He straight looked into her eyes annoyed at her carelessness tears of pain sheening in her eyes..but before he cud say anything she reprimanded him with equal anger and asked aaye kyon nahi aaj..he said eqally angry woh sab chodo tum yaha kaise..and made her sit on the near by bench.andbsat next to her..he was scolding her... doctor dheeme dhheme steps badhane ko kaha hai na tumhe..tum sunti kyon nahi ho.why did u come out of the house aur woh bhi akele tum pagal ho kya kuch ho jaata tho...apna khayal ek din ko bhi nahi rakh sakti ..main ek din nahin aaya tho aise carelessness dikhaogi..tum kabhi nahin...she put her hand on his mouth... and showed him in direcetion of a car leaving he understood she came there with pushakr who was leaving now...and she completed his sentence

main kabhi bhi nahin jaungi tumse door...he looked at her was taken aback he was about to say ki tum kabhi nahin sudhrogi..nit what she said...

he looked at her with question mark in his eyes and she continued...Shravan mujhe yeh steps tumhari taraf bahut pehle le lene chahiye the...Shravan was unable to comprehend what was happening and what was she saying??she said hum friends bane..strangers bane..wapis dost bane..phir dushman bane..phir wapis stranger ke zone se ladte ladte dost bannne ki koshish Kar rahe hai...kyon.???..jabki hum do no jaante hai ki hum ek doosre ke liye kya hai...confusion was written all over his face..Sumo continued..aaj Nirmala aunty ayye thi she told me about the how everything got revealed in front of u and how shattered u were knowing Ram uncles truth..he looked at her helplessly..unable to hide his emotions of hurt and betrayal he felt..he said Sumo..please mujhe Akela and she said..ab nahin kabhi nahin chidogi akela.. he said par maine tumhare saath jo kiya..uske liye tum mujhe Kaise tears forming in his eyes..she cut him and said kabka maaf kar diya..aur woh ek galatfaimi thi..jo khatam ho gai...she whined in pain a bit and he said with corcern laced in his voice..tum kyon ayee..mujhe bula leti..she said yeh saate kadam main hum dono ke liye chalna chahti thi..to close the distance between our hearts and for clearing all misunderstandings.

And then what she said made his head reel and his heart skip a beat...I love u Shravan...I love u beyond any boundaries

Shravan was too shocked to react..she then said in a lower voice

Nirmala aunty incident ke bass mujhe laga nahin tha ki tumse kabhi keh paaoungi..par aaj unse baat karke mujhe realise hua ..tumhare parents ne kabhi misunderstanding baat karke clear karne ki koshish nahin ki..main humare beech mein yeh hone nahin doongi..jo gile shihkwe hai...bol do...kya yeh ek dost ka haq nahin hai ki apne dost ka mushkilo me in saath de aur hum tho..she stopped for catching a breath...she cupped his face into her hands and said...Shravan yeh maine realise kiya hai self respect ka matlab yeh hai ki I stand by and for the people and things I really care for..i care for PCT and care for u even more than PCT...tho mai iss mushkil mein tumhe kaise akele chod deti..main tumhari emotional state samajh salting join and if I let the love of life go away from me and leave him alone in toughest of his time...then it's not self respect but ego and..I want to stand by u for me and u..yeh bahut kuch maine tumse hi inn 7 months mein seekha hai...u were a different person in these 7 months..bilkul alag..tum sirf woh Shravan the jo Sumo se pyar karta hai..kuch aur nahin..he was a lil shocked that she knew it already but he went closer to giving her a loving look kissed her foehead ...smiling forming on his feeble lips...kitna bolti hoon kumsekam mere pyaar ka confessiion mujhe karne deti..he said...She smiled and said...kya itne salo mein tumne har baar apne pyar ka confession apne actions se nahi kiya inn 7 months me in tho tumne jo mere liye kiya...he put his hands around her lips and said..tumhare liye nahi apne liye kiya.. ...She went closer to him and could see tears ready fall out of his eyes even at the thought of her accident he was weak..she kissed his eyes and said...tumne mera saath diya jab even some of my family memebers failed me...only nanu and preeti...she shrugged her should ers and said khair..and continued..jab tum meri choti badi har mushkil mein mera saath de sakte ho tho jab tum apni life ki sabse badi emotional turmoil se guzar rahe ho main kaise tumhe akela chod deti...he broke down crying and she held on to him like a baby he pulled her closer and wept in her embrace like a damn of tears had bursted...she said let it out Shravan...aaj beh jano do yeh kadwahat ye dard yeh hurt...he just hugged her tight and said "I love u Sumo...they sat there for don't know for how long just hugging each other silently basking in the glow of their love...nothing mattered more ...they had found each other again...this time forever..letting go of their fears inhibitions hurt ego everything that kept them away from each other..